A memory ends.

Chen Jiayu moved to the next paragraph.

……

……

It was a summer evening and it was raining.

Inside a small restaurant.

The elder Chen Jiayu and several old classmates, including Hou Zifan, were eating at the same table.

While waiting for the food to be served, several people chatted with each other, and somehow, the topic turned to the elderly Chen Jiayu and Shen Nianchu.

Someone said: "When I was in high school, who of you would have thought that the biggest winner in life among us was Chen Jiayu, who not only became a big dark horse in the college entrance examination, but was admitted to Yenching Aviation University, but also chased Shen Nianchu."

Another person chimed in: "At the beginning, our school had a crush on the first person, and it was estimated that there must be ninety-nine if not a hundred. But her conditions are too good, and she looks so cold, except for Chen Jiayu, no one dares to be that iron-headed warrior, at that time I was still thinking, what kind of rich and handsome person must be worthy of Shen Nianchu, and later after knowing that she was with Chen Jiayu, I was simply ......."

"What are you, what are you," Hou Zifan suddenly slapped the table unhappily, "Isn't Lao Chen worthy of Shen Nianchu?" I think you're jealous!"

"Of course I didn't mean that, just a little surprised." The man from before quickly smiled and diverted the topic.

No one paid attention, since the topic began, the smile on the face of the elder Chen Jiayu slowly dissipated.

After a while, Hou Zifan looked at the elderly Chen Jiayu again and asked, "I said Lao Chen, did Shen Nianchu care about you very tightly, every time I want to ask you out to meet for a meal, it is rare to die." Last time we had dinner together...... That was more than half a year ago, right?"

Before the elder Chen Jiayu could answer, someone next to him said, "If I want to have such an excellent girlfriend, I'm happy to take care of me."

"That's it." The crowd laughed.

The phone rang.

The older Chen Jiayu glanced at the number and walked to the side to answer the phone.

On the phone, Shen Nianchu asked, "Chen Jiayu, why didn't you send me a message when you got home today?"

The elder Chen Jiayu was silent for a moment before saying, "I'm still outside."

"Outside? What are you doing?"

"Eat with Hou Zifan and them."

"Why didn't you tell me that you forgot that if you were out for more than half an hour outside in addition to work, you had to report to me in advance?"

The elder Chen Jiayu lowered his eyes: "I'm sorry...... I don't want to quarrel with you."

Shen Nianchu asked rhetorically, "What do you mean you don't want to quarrel with me?"

"What's the point of reporting something that you definitely don't agree with?"

Shen Nianchu's usual calm and clear tone was a little colder at the moment, "Do you have an opinion about me?"

"......" The elder Chen Jiayu's chest was a little tight, and he whispered, "Just this time, isn't it an example, okay?"

"No, don't eat it." Shen Nianchu's tone was unquestionable, "In half an hour, I will wait for you at the door of your house, and I will accompany you to dinner."

"But it's raining outside, and we're already ordering."

"Tell them you're coming back with me."

The elder Chen Jiayu was silent for a while, and sighed a little tiredly: "Nian Chu, I have said many times that my world is not only you, I also need friends." ….

Shen Nianchu smiled and said, "I've said it many times, it's not that you won't be allowed to make friends, but you have to make friends who are useful to you. You're already busy right now, and you don't have enough time to improve yourself, so how can you waste it on interpersonal interactions that don't help you and are worthless? Okay, see you in half an hour."

After waiting for a while, I didn't receive an answer from the other side.

"Chen Jiayu, did you hear that?" She raised her voice slightly.

The elder Chen Jiayu closed his eyes, and his breathing became a little short: "Nian Chu, you just let me finish this meal well."

Shen Nianchu's voice was a little incredulous: "Chen Jiayu, you forgot that you promised me,

Do I have to go home before eight o'clock every day?"

"I remember, but ......"

"There's nothing, but, you just have to tell me if you do what I say or not."

The elder Chen Jiayu was silent.

Shen Nianchu understood what he meant, and suddenly laughed, "Chen Jiayu, since I am very disappointed by your performance this time, I think we should be separated for a while, and you should reflect on yourself."

「……」

At this moment, the elder Chen Jiayu suddenly felt tired and bored to the extreme.

Every time, every time......

You have to listen to her for everything, you can't do this, you can't do that.

She said east, he had to go east, he could hesitate for a second, but not more than two seconds.

From filling in the college entrance examination volunteers, what friends to make, to who to go out to dinner with, and which shampoo to buy in the supermarket, all must follow her requirements.

If she doesn't do what she says, she will take out the two weapons of "breaking up" or "low pressure", and no matter what the reason for arguing, she will not let go of her pride, he will compromise first and bow his head and apologize.

Communication is also dysfunctional.

Because she is always right and always right.

She just wants him to be good, to think about him, to love him.

Perhaps, this is a manifestation of her love for him, wanting him to belong to her 100%.

However, he has already given her 99% of what he can control, and the remaining last one percent, can't he keep it a little?

He could only tell himself repeatedly, don't be too greedy, no one in this world is perfect.

You're not perfect yourself, and she's no exception.

Moreover, since you have chosen her, you must take responsibility for her. If you love her, you should accept her, tolerate and understand her.

But at this moment, hearing Shen Nianchu say this, he actually gave birth to the idea of "if you separate for a period of time first, maybe it's not unacceptable" for the first time.

The elder Chen Jiayu pursed his lips vigorously and replied in a loud voice, "Okay."

The thought on the other end of the line was incredulous: "What did you say?"

"I said yes." The elder Chan repeated, "Let's be apart for a while."

……

An hour later.

The rain was getting heavier, and the whole city seemed to be flooded.

The elder Chen Jiayu held an umbrella and returned to the rented apartment building.

However, before the elevator door behind him could close, the leg that was about to step out stopped.

Shen Nianchu was standing in front of the door of his apartment, her face was pale and pale, and her whole person looked particularly fragile in the slightly dim light of the corridor. ….

The elder Chen Jiayu's heart instantly stagnated: "Nian Chu, it's raining so hard, why are you here?" How long have you been here? Why don't you go in?"

"I'm waiting for you to come back." Shen Nianchu raised his snow-white little face and looked at him. Her eyes looked like she had just cried, they were red, and there were tear stains around her eyes, and she choked up and asked, "Chen Jiayu, don't you love me anymore?"

The elder Chen Jiayu's chest was tight, and he took a deep breath, barely letting his heart beat down, "No, don't think about it."

"Then why did you separate from me?"

「…… You said it yourself."

"That's my momentary anger, I was angry before, didn't you apologize to me right away, why did you agree this time?" Shen Nianchu threw himself into the arms of the elder Chen Jiayu, wrapped his hands around him, and tears flowed out again, "I just care about you too much, you can't leave me, otherwise I will die......

……

……

This memory ended, and Chen Jiayu continued to walk back, all of which were similar, full of small quarrels, contradictions and reconciliations between him and Shen Nianchu.

"Chen Jiayu, have you finished writing your graduation thesis? How can you read such useless idle books again? Have you thought about our future?"

"Why do you keep talking to your mom on the phone for so long?"

"I don't like this dress, you don't want to wear it again."

"Why were you a few minutes late in replying to my message just now, what are you busy with?"

"I have to go back by eight o'clock in the evening."

"Where are you? Are you sure? Open me and see."

"Every time you go out for more than half an hour, you have to report to me. I want to know where you are, what you're doing, and who you're with."

"Remember to message me back after the meeting."

"Do you want me to give you a little freedom? But I'm your girlfriend, and I care about you."

"Chen Jiayu, people have to be pressured to be better, and I want to prove to my mother that I didn't choose the wrong person."

"Do you love me? Love me and do what I say."

"Since you've apologized, forget it this time."

……

Following the chain of memory, Chen Jiayu walked forward step by step, and his memories of the future were also enriched little by little. This is not an easy task, because these memories are mixed with strong emotions, and they are all experienced and experienced by himself in the future, causing his own emotions to fluctuate with them.

However, it was not a good experience for Chen.

After all, most of these memories are depressing, boring, and anxious, and they are like black poisonous snakes that are densely spread in all corners of the world, so much so that the whole world is darkened.

A bite will only bring a trace of dark wounds, but countless dark wounds can be fatal in the end.

As they accumulated, they eventually coalesced together into a terrifying black serpent, which raised its upper halves and writhed there, and opened its mouth to bared its fangs at Chen Jiayu.

Chen Jiayu could only control himself carefully and not be entangled by these poisonous snake-like emotions.

And after recalling this, he didn't have any resentment towards Shen Nianchu.

A person's desire to control is mostly due to fear. ….

The same is true for Shen Nianchu.

She is afraid that the love she has finally experienced will be lost again, so she wants to ensure her sense of security in this love through Chen Jiayu's absolute domination and possession, but she doesn't know how to express her love correctly.

At that time, Chen Jiayu also only had a passion, and tried his best at the beginning, but when he paid and consumed more and more, he also tried to communicate with Shen Nianchu, but the situation still did not improve, he was exhausted and couldn't love anymore, but the sense of responsibility and guilt in his heart condemned him all the time. Instinct made him want to escape, and the sense of responsibility made him insist, and the strong contradictory emotions were frantically entangled and consumed with each other, and in the long run, it finally brought unbearable pressure to the spirit.

……

Then, the next memory lit up.

It was a softly cream-coloured room, simple, warm, generous and bright, with two small open bookshelves against the wall, one with a two-seater sofa next to it, and another single sofa not far away, two facing each other.

The older Chen Jiayu is sitting on a two-seater sofa, while on the single sofa diagonally opposite, a girl is sitting.

She turned her back to him and couldn't see her face, but as soon as she saw that back, Chen Jiayu was immediately stunned.

It's clearly just a back, and most of his body is still covered by the back of the sofa, and his hairstyle is different, but he can still recognize the other party's identity at a glance.

It's Cai Jiayi.

The previous memories were only short clips, not continuous, and some of them looked like edited movie screens, so Chen Jiayu never understood what kind of relationship Cai Jiayi had with her future self.

It is only now that I finally got an answer.

Looking at the "Code of Conduct for Psychological Counselors" posted on the wall, Chen Jiayu couldn't help but curl the corners of his mouth. He should have thought that it was not surprising that she liked psychology so much and was good at reading words and feelings, and would choose this as a job.

He walked to

crossed Cai Jiayi and looked at her.

The heating in the room is on, it should be autumn and winter or something like that, the temperature in the room is very pleasant, she is now wearing a milky white thin sweater, under which are coffee-colored checked leggings, with coffee-colored small leather boots, and a pair of delicate retro gold-rimmed glasses on her face, according to Chen Jiayu's understanding of her, this should only be a flat mirror used for decoration, but it adds a bit of calm and intellectuality to her.

It's just that, despite wearing glasses, behind the lenses, her eyes with slightly raised corners of her eyes are still always with a kind smile that makes people involuntarily feel kind, and between the expectations, occasionally brings out a touch of Chen Jiayu's familiar charming, smart, and cunning girlish atmosphere, it seems that even the most ruthless time has not been able to wash them away.

After looking at her eyes, the sourness of the nose suddenly spread from Chen Jiayu's throat.

After seeing so much, he realized how rare the love she gave him.

And until now, he was not sure that he would be able to recover her if he regained his memory.

"Let's talk, do you have any troubles?"

Cai Jiayi looked at the older Chen Jiayu, she smiled slightly, and said in a very soft voice.

Looking at her eyes, the elder Chen Jiayu felt a kind of magic that made people want to trust and get close, hesitated for a while, and unconsciously began to tell the story of him and Shen Nianchu.

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When he was talking, Cai Jiayi just looked at him with a gentle and peaceful gaze, listened patiently, lowered her head from time to time, and made notes in the notebook on her lap with a pen, and occasionally when Chen Jiayu didn't know how to say it, she would skillfully ask a few questions to guide him to continue.

Halfway through the conversation, the elder Chen Jiayu's eyes were a little moist, he seemed to feel that as a man, this was a bit embarrassing, raised his big hand to cover his face, and said in a low voice, "I'm sorry, I'll calm down my emotions first......

Cai Jiayi looked at him and said softly, "There's nothing to be sorry for, it's better to find a suitable outlet for your emotions than to suppress them in your heart."

The elder Chen Jiayu calmed down and continued to speak.

Those ignorance sprouts from youth, those who have also been sweet and joyful in the past, those contradictions and struggles......

Listen, listen, for a few seconds, Cai Jiayi seemed to be gradually immersed in it, slightly distracted.

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