136. Tutoring

"Talk about your sister."

"What are you talking about?"

"Name, age, personality, what grade she was in, her relationship with you, her relationship with your parents."

"My sister's name is Yang Guoli, twelve years old, also in the first year of junior high school, in the same class as me, she has a cheerful and lively personality, loves to laugh, has good academic performance, and her parents like her."

"Do you like your sister?"

"She's lovely, and no one doesn't like her."

"Do Mom and Dad like you?"

He lowered his head: "I don't like it."

Zhang Yu's heart hurt.

Through communication, Zhang Yu felt that this child's intelligence was quite normal, but he was a little struggling in learning, his parents were strong people, and his sister was also very good, so he must be under a lot of pressure.

"What do you think...... Mom and Dad like sister, don't like you? ”

"Because my sister is very good in every way, I ...... No......"

"I think you're good!"

Yang Guodong glanced up at Zhang Yu in surprise.

"You say that your sister is very good, it means that you know how to appreciate the good of others, you say that you like your sister, it means that you are a good brother, you are very kind, and you will not be jealous and hate your sister because of your sister's brilliance, which is more precious than good academic performance."

His dull eyes lit up a little.

"Actually, Mom and Dad also like you, it's just that they may not express it, so you can't feel their love for you."

He looked puzzled.

After thinking about it, he shook his head.

"Maybe they love me, but I don't fight and I disgrace them, I don't feel worthy of being their son."

"Except for your bad academic performance, everything else is good! It's not that if you don't have good academic performance, you won't be productive. ”

"But if your academic performance is not good, you won't be able to find a good job in the future, and you won't be able to let your family live a good life."

"There are thousands of ways to make a living in the world, and it's not just the way to go to school."

"But that's not what Mom and Dad said."

"They said that studying was the only way out, because they had come out of the countryside before."

"What do your mom and dad do?"

"My mother is a university teacher, and my father is a senior cadre."

Zhang Yu was silent, it was not the child's problem, but the family's problem, the parents, because they were too good, couldn't accept an ordinary child, the greater the expectations for the child, the greater the disappointment, and the greater the pressure on the child, so a vicious circle was formed.

Since there is no problem with the child's intelligence, she tries to help him and see if she can help him improve his academic performance.

Zhang Yu wanted Yang Guodong to go with her to see her mother, but at this time, he spoke amazingly.

"Sister, I think it's boring to live."

"You're only sixteen, why do you have such an idea?"

"I didn't do well in my studies, I often repeated grades, I embarrassed my parents, and my parents were very sad, and I often wondered, why did I give birth? If I didn't exist, wouldn't my parents be able to live decently and happily? ”

"Don't say that, if you leave, how will your parents live for the rest of their lives? They will surely live in endless suffering. ”

"They have a sister! Mom said that her sister was their pride. ”

"Do you want to leave this world, just to think about it, or have you ever put it into action?"

"I once cut my own hand with a knife, and I heard that the blood vessels were cut, and the blood flowed dry, and the person died. It hurts so much that I can't stand it, and if I cut a blood vessel, I don't know how it hurts! I was afraid of pain, so I gave up, you see, I don't even have the courage to die, isn't it a wreck? ”

Yang Guodong rolled up his sleeves, revealing a shallow scar on his left wrist.

Zhang Yu has determined that this child is already depressed.

This is an unfamiliar field, and Zhang Yu doesn't know what to do anymore.

She had to tell his mother about the child's situation and find the right person to intervene in time to avoid irreversible results.

"Guodong, everyone is afraid of pain, pain is normal, it is a sense of self-protection, so getting sick or being hurt is the most painful thing for a person, this is not a matter of courage, you don't want to say that you are a wreck, on the contrary, I think you are very cute, it shows that you are a person who cherishes yourself, you know that it hurts, and you have to do it, isn't that stupid?"

"Sister, you're good, I like to talk to you."

"Really? After that, if you have any questions, or have something in your heart, and you don't want to tell others, you can tell me, okay? ”

"Yes, I just want to tell you."

"Then you promise me that you will never do anything to hurt yourself in the future, there are still many beautiful things in this world, but you haven't found it, in the future, I will take you to find these beautiful things, okay?"

"Okay." The muscles in his face were no longer stiff and stretched a lot.

"You go over now, let your mother come and see me alone."

Yang Guodong passed, and after a while, Aunt Qiao came over.

"Aunt Qiao, I think your son's current problem is not a problem of academic performance, but a psychological problem, which is a more serious situation than academic performance."

"Big girl, what do you mean? Psychological problems? What psychological problems does he have? ”

"Just now, Gordon told me that he felt that there was no point in living in this world, because he had no value, and he had disgraced his parents, and he said that if he left this world, his parents would not be disgraced again......"

Aunt Qiao's tears burst out of the frame.

He ...... How could he think that? This stupid boy. Her voice trembled.

"It was what you did that made him have such an illusion, I said that my parents love him, he said that you only love your sister, because your sister is very good, he said that he is gone, and there is a sister with you......"

Aunt Qiao was already crying silently at this time.

"Didn't you notice that there was a psychological problem with your child?"

Aunt Qiao wiped her tears with a handkerchief.

"This kid has been silent since he was a child, and in the past two years, he has become less and less talkative, he can express in one word and will never say two words, and he can try not to speak if he doesn't speak, who knows what he thinks in his heart?"

"Because it's useless for him to say anything, no one understands him, you only care about his academic performance, you never think about what he thinks about himself, he is a child, he also wants to be excellent and be the pride of his parents, however, he feels that he has become a shame for you."

Aunt Qiao's face was full of remorse: "Yes, I was wrong, I didn't really care about him, all I care about every day is his academic performance."

(End of chapter)