"Ke Peiwei, you come out for me! Don't think I don't know what you're doing......"

Miller opened the door to the toilet cubicle with a "swoop". I didn't lock it. He saw it all.

"I'm sorry...... It's disgusting to you. Before I could finish my sentence, I was busy spitting the shareholder who had come up into the urinal. I feel sick myself.

"I'm sorry, I thought you were just ......" He closed the door to the compartment and leaned his back against it, as if guarding.

After confirming that I couldn't pour anything more, I pressed the flush switch very carefully. Miller pulled the cubicle door open again, and I walked down, and he kept patting me on the back, asking if I was okay, and leading me to the sink to rinse my mouth and face.

"I'm sorry. Got you today. "When I walked out of the bathroom, the sun was shining on my face in a daze, as if the dizziness hadn't subsided, but I was sure to apologize to Miller.

"I'm pretty bad, right? You must be very uncomfortable. I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I've used all my bad intentions on you. Okay, let's not say anything. Through the thick coat, he hugged me by arm and waist.

"It's so uncomfortable."

"If you want to cry, cry. Don't hold back. I cry with you. After crying, let's go back and have fun. I'm not going to be angry with you anymore. ”

I didn't cry much. You have to find a way to distract yourself. Everyone was waiting for me and Miller. Especially my sister, if I go back too late, she will definitely find something wrong. No, she probably already found out.

"Miller, I can probably see why you're upset. But can you tell me a little bit more? I want to change it, not next time. I said.

"How so...... Well, I said it, but ...... Alas. ”

"It doesn't matter, you can say whatever comes to mind."

"You have a good relationship with Brother Xianxian."

"It's good."

"So, have you ever been worried? It's just that I'm worried that you'll be replaced. ”

"Replaced?"

"For example, Brother Xianxian has a very good friend who is inseparable from him, talking and laughing. He is a bit like you, but different, some places are stronger than you, will you be a little jealous? Or are you afraid that he will take your place in your brother's heart? In the future, my brother will play with him, but not with you......" He twisted his furry head and shook it again, "No, this example is not good. After all, the two of you are brothers, and no matter what, you can't die old and die without getting along. I'm sorry, but you're just talking nonsense. Sorry, I didn't understand, and I mentioned Brother Xianxian. ”

It's okay. Actually, you're not wrong at all. I did worry about this before. There was just one Saturday, and Xianxian didn't come home all night. I waited left and right in the room for him to come, and went to ask my mother, she said that he had gone to Zhao Rui's house for the night and would not come back tonight. When I got back to my room, I was so angry that I threw pillows on the wall, crackling - both his and mine were thrown out. Now that I think about it, I'm a little jealous of Zhao Rui, as if he snatched my brother away, even though it was just one night. I realized in a daze, that I was not unique, that someone could replace me and do better than me. Zhao Rui, he and I are in the same position. Some places are quite similar, the fitness is very poor, I was third from the bottom of the team, he was second to last. The penultimate is Pu Yun, the same classmate from the other school who played against you in the last friendly match, and then he improved, and I became the penultimate one. But Zhao Rui is taller than me, and his academic performance is also very good, and I often watch him discuss problems with strings, and I am left aside, as if I will never be able to join the circle of these good students, although no one looks down on me, they are quite considerate of me. Except for goal-line skills, I have nothing better than Zhao Rui. He also has a better temper than me, and is always pleasant, unlike me, who still uses strings as a punching bag from time to time. Sometimes I wonder if Xianxian would prefer Zhao Rui to be his brother or younger brother. He's so much more perfect than me. I saw him lose his temper once, and he was fighting with Pu Yun about who was Xianxian's best friend. That time the strings said, neither of them are, I am. You don't know how happy I am to hear that sentence, it is simply the pinnacle of my life, the highest praise I have ever received in my life. Perhaps there is a phrase that can be compared to it, and that is what you say to me, "You are my best friend". My life is basically useless, but with these two sentences, I thought, I still have to live well. When Ye Ruiyang introduced us to Ah Fang today, he also said something similar. These words are so important to me that they seem to prove that my life is not meaningless. At least, at least it makes sense to others, even if it's just a few people. (Actually, some of what my sister said was the same for me.) ）

Maybe I went crazy that day and asked Xianxian to buy me new gloves, because I was afraid that I would be replaced by Zhao Rui. I heard he played really well that day. I'm so selfish, why should I ask my brother to buy something for me? He should go play with Zhao Rui and then have a good rest. I'm just doing it for my own selfish desires. He must hate me. I don't blame Ah Fang, and I don't blame everyone, I should be punished, but the punishment has never come. I deserve it. There are so many inequalities that have been said, but none of them are enough to compare with the inequalities of life and death. I'm still alive and still having fun playing with everyone in the playground. Where are the strings? Why did he die? Why did I die because of a meaningless wish? What a bastard I am......

The more I talked, the more excited I became. I didn't want to think about the past anymore. But I couldn't help myself. I didn't realize it when I listened to it, but now I feel that the song of sorrow and grief seems to have been sung to me by him in another world. Although I know he can't sing. Many times I had vainly hoped that he would give me a response, but the people of that world still didn't hear from me.

"Don't say any more. That's not the case. Don't you still know how Brother Xianxian goes? Why do you think he died because of you? And how do you know he's going to hate you? ”

Millet shook my arm like a swing.

"Don't think so. No! You're not Cao Cao. You are nice and responsible. You are my best friend. My best friend is a super, super kid, as good as I am.

"You must know that your brother and sister Xianxian are not kings and ministers, not father and son, not husband and wife, you two are brothers. Stop thinking about that song! Otherwise, I would hate Ye Junfang, even if he didn't mean to. Even if it's for me, you'll have to be happy. I'll be even sadder if you're sad. ”

He took out a napkin to wipe my face clean, then took out the piece of candy that my sister had given him, tore open the candy wrapper, and handed it to me. The full-bodied flavor of sugar spreads in his mouth, gently pressing down on tension and fear. I was like a big doll, pulled by Miller, and obediently returned to everyone. are waiting for us, as soon as the front foot arrived, Ye Junfang said that he was going to start singing the classic excerpt "Soap Luo Robe" from the Kunqu opera "Peony Pavilion". It turns out that the purple and red are all over the place, like this, they are all paid with broken wells, and the beautiful scenery of good days is what a day, and the courtyard is happy. Flying in the morning and twilight, clouds and clouds, rain and wind, smoke and waves painting boats, Jinping people look at this Shaoguang cheap. He sang even better than just now, but unfortunately I didn't know much about Kunqu Opera, so I didn't understand it, so I could only appreciate his beautiful singing voice and figure. Ye Ruiyang told us that Ah Fang's "Soap Luo Robe" is sung once less than once, and when he changes his voice, it will be difficult to sing. [1]

Because the Spitfire meteor was so thrilling, everyone said that they didn't want to seek more thrills in the morning. Avoiding jumping machines and roller coasters, we walked around the castle and the Hall of Mirrors, and played a few games of shooting. Ye Ruiyang hit Yue Yin the most, and exchanged a few little dolls for everyone. I kept a wooden face, and at least twice my sister told me to smile more. She didn't say anything when she saw the two of us coming back, and it wasn't until we walked for a while that Millet and I both found that our pockets were full of candy at some point.

[1] "Soap Luo Robe": Soap Luo Robe is the name of the Kunqu Opera brand, and the most famous singing segment of "The Peony Pavilion" is sung with this song.