It's almost hands-on. The infighting is really losing and losing, and the opponent can't stand it, and even with persuasion, Xiao Qi finally shut up and went back to the locker room. I don't know if the people in the stands have seen it, most of them are clear at a glance. Ah Hua patted me on the shoulder comfortingly, saying that it was really not easy for me. I'm not in the mood to catch up today. They were also very understanding, and said a few casual words and hurriedly said goodbye.

Actually, it's good that they want to talk to me a little longer, I don't know how to mediate the problem between the two juniors after returning to the locker room - to be precise, Xiao Qi's complaint to Luca. I was worried when the coach stopped me.

"Captain, tell me." She pulled me into the bench seat with a serious expression, "What are you going to do about this?" ”

How to deal with it? I'd like to ask you about the old man. Of course, I don't have the guts to say that.

"Teacher, Xiao Qi was a little too ...... just now"

"I'm asking the captain! Are you the captain? Let's go back to the locker room first! ”

The coach poked Miller sternly, and my "military advisor" shrugged his shoulders helplessly, and left helplessly and nervously. It was just me and her on the bench.

"Say, what should I do?"

"Coach, you can remove me." I hung my head and said what was in my heart.

"Why did you remove you?" Even the questioning tone made me tremble a little.

"After two consecutive defeats, the juniors still quarreled, but I didn't do a good job, and I have to be responsible."

"Ke Peiwei, what kind of responsibility are you?" I raised my head in fright, and the coach was staring at me with a look of disappointment and reproach, like a sword stabbing at me, "The captain was chosen by the teachers and classmates, not by me alone. When people choose you, it means that they believe in you. That's how you treat everyone's trust? When you encounter difficulties, you want to escape, you want to leave your burden, is this taking responsibility? This is a coward, a coward! ”

The coach scolded me for every word. I wasn't even afraid, I just felt guilty.

"I'm sorry. Don't dare anymore. ”

"Then you tell the teacher, what should I do today?"

"Follow...... Talk to them? Talk about it alone. "My brain was racing and I came up with this idea.

"What's wrong with them?"

The coach's barrage of questions forced my brain to spin faster. It seems like I'm not that stupid either, sometimes I just don't want to think or talk.

Luca ...... There is nothing wrong with others, the main thing is that they don't perform well on the field and lack confidence. It would be nice to comfort and encourage him, but not ...... You can't force bad to be good, and you can't say 'you're awesome' at every turn. He's smart, and comforting him too deliberately will hurt his self-esteem. Xiao Qi's words, he is very active on the court and has a lot of fighting spirit. However, he did not control his emotions well and expressed himself in a way that was too extreme. Make it clear to him that winning or losing a game is not just a matter of one person. When everyone makes mistakes, since they are teammates, they must be united and fraternal, and they can't talk like that......"

"Isn't that well said? Why should you be withdrawn? You hapless boy. She sighed in disgust and knocked me on the head, sticking out my tongue in a state of trepidation.

"Then I'll hand over Xiao Qi to you, can you handle him?" Her hand stopped on my ear and rubbed it. Of course, I have to say that I can, and of course I don't know the bottom in my heart. I'm most afraid of "thorns", although the little seven are not bad, and they usually talk and laugh with everyone in training, but I don't know what to do when he gets fierce. I can't even hold my studies. The character is still too soft, and I will honestly surrender when I am pushed against the wall. Talking to the junior brother has become a sea of fire.

If only Xianxian could go for me, who wouldn't obey him?

It's also funny, how did the old class think that I could be a teacher before? I don't think even naughty students will dare to care. Now I can only bite the bullet. Can't blame anyone else. The division of labor and cooperation was decided, I immediately went to talk to Xiao Qi, and the coach went to talk to Luca.

The locker room is really in the "cold war". As soon as the coach and I walked in the door, it was like a savior. Miller quietly told me that before the "Cold War", a "hot war" almost broke out, and after coming back, Le Ben, who was in the same class as Luca, came over and asked Xiao Qi why he said that about Luca, and the two had a big fight, Le Ben wanted to punch Xiao Qi with his fist, but was hugged by Luca from behind, and Xiao Qi also said that Luca was pretending. After talking for a long time, the two quieted down, and Luka's nose twitched even more.

"I'll 'clean up' him." I don't know why I said this, I didn't really want to "clean up" Xiao Qi, but I still secretly told Mi Le about it.

"Let's not talk about what just happened, as a teacher, I told each of you to be strict with your teammates, and even more so with yourself. It was clear that we didn't demand enough of ourselves and others in the first half today. Of course, I'm very happy to see your positive performance in the second half. If you had done that in the first half, we would have won the game – at least not lost. ”

Seeing the situation in the locker room, the coach didn't criticize anyone, but first told everyone about the game.

"It's the same old saying, 'attitude is everything'. We didn't deserve to pick up points at home in the first half. We can't make mistakes every time and try to make up for them, we have to get our attitude right from the start. I'm not just talking about the attitude towards the competition, but also about the attitude you have towards life and learning, and the attitude towards others. One is a united team, and I believe that each of you wants the team to be good. We don't have any room for error, and yesterday we were six points behind the top two in the group with an away win over the branch school. If you want to qualify, you can't afford to be negligent in the next games, understand? ”

Everyone nodded, but she asked us to shout out, and there was a flurry of "got it" in the locker room.

"I'll talk about technical tactics next time in club class. Let's go rest. Lukka stayed. ”

Luka's eyes were terrified, and he looked at the coach in a daze, as if the coach was going to settle accounts with him.

"Teacher, don't blame Luca." Le Ben said aggrievedly, avoiding the coach's gaze, "Don't let him go." ”

The latter muttering was small, but it was still heard.

"Who said I'm going to let him go? Don't spread rumors about me! ”

The coach hammered Leben's head and pretended to be very hard. Leben seemed to get Luca a gold medal for death-free, and let out a sigh of relief, his little head tilted, and he collapsed on Luka's shoulder. It's really a child, how can you be fired if you don't play well - we can't even get together the roster for the game, so we have to go to the basketball team to catch two people to help.

Speaking of which, Leben is also a very interesting junior. At first, everyone thought that his surname was pronounced yuè, but he asked us to pronounce lè. The word is one word, but the surname is two surnames. I also told my sister about this, and she said that "le" has several pronunciations, and as a surname, most of the time it is pronounced yuè, but Leben's family is obviously an exception. My sister also asked me to ask where Leben's family was from, but I always forgot it, and I didn't ask until I graduated. As soon as I think of this surname, as long as Mi Le is by my side, I will deliberately call him "Mi Yuè" or "Mi yào", and he will keep pushing me with his knees.

"Xiao Qi, come on, the captain wants to talk to you, just the two of us." Seeing that everyone was cleaning up, I walked up to Xiao Qi's side, and my tone was very gentle, as if I was asking for his opinion. He frowned reluctantly, nodded, and continued to stuff things into his bag.

It seems that the conversation will not go well for a while. I suddenly remembered that in the past three years, my sister would often talk to me, and my attitude didn't seem to be much better than Xiao Qi. A face that was unwilling and had to agree, and felt frustrated when I saw it.

Take out my sister's patience with me.

Waiting for Xiao Qi to put away his things, I gently patted him on the shoulder and walked out of the locker room door with him. Before leaving, I also saw the gazes of Mi Le and Ye Ruiyang on me, I don't know whether it was sympathy or encouragement. The two of us walked outside the gymnasium, where there was a row of gym equipment, so we involuntarily got on a stepper and "walked" staggeringly, talking as we went.

"Seniors have always admired you. You're very good at your skills, you're full of fighting spirit on the pitch, and the team needs a player like you the most. I know you're doing it for the good of the team......"

"Stop talking nonsense, just say something." He interrupted me impatiently.

I bit my lip.

"Like the coach said, we have to be strict with each other. Not only be strict with others, but also be strict with yourself......"

"Do you think I'm not strict with myself?"

He was still casually stepping on the stepper, and my steps stopped. We were silent for at least half a minute.

"The coach sent you, right?" He spoke first. I sensed a faint wariness and hostility.

"Actually, I really want to talk to you......" I tried to keep my tone a little calmer, like a big brother talking to his own brother. Xiaoqi is two years younger than me.

"Nothing else, I just can't get used to it." He snorted dismissively.

"What are you not used to?"

"I can't get used to all of you being used to that little foreigner. Why? Just because he's a noble foreigner? ”

Yes?

"Seniors know that you want the team to win, but you can't blame just one person for losing......"

"I know! Blame me for losing today, blame me for sending a set-piece, blame me for not being able to score! Captain, you can scold me as much as you want! He stopped suddenly, his voice raised several times, and his eyes almost flashed with fire, "But someone's level is not good at all, why can he play?" Why can he wear a number 10 in one? He's a foreigner, so he's superior? ”

was beaten hard by Xiao Qi, and I swallowed a few mouthfuls of saliva without reacting. Seeing that he was also a little calmer, I slowly spoke:

"First of all, it's the coach's arrangement who to send on the pitch. Luca's performance in these two games is really not very good, but we usually participate in training, in all fairness, Luca's skills are not too bad, right? Your passing was great today, but to be honest, seniors don't necessarily score if they play on their own......"

"Captain, you're the goalkeeper. He's a full-back, you look at the left-back of the colonel, then look at ours? ”

"The left wing-back of the school is a good friend of mine. He played much worse than Luca when he was a child, the defense was leaky, the offense couldn't go up, and the coach didn't dare to send him on the field. The rice is eaten one bite at a time, how much progress does he see now? Luka's foundation is not bad, and he will definitely get better and better. As I spoke, I patted Xiao Qi on the back.

"But now we've lost two in a row, we haven't got a point, and we're six points behind! Do you want to give him a chance? If he kicks randomly, let alone qualify from the group, we may all be at the bottom! Why does he use the team as a tool for his own leveling? Was the school team formed to find a state for foreigners? ”

"Why do you always insist that Lukka is a foreigner?"

I was talking to Xiao Qi about this very, very gently, but he was like an iron plate and couldn't listen to a word.

"It was meant to be! If he's wrong, won't he tell me? ”

"No, don't tell me! What are you thinking? ”

"What are you thinking? will protect outsiders! ”

"Luca is our classmate! He's a student at No. 1 High School, just like me and you! ”

"If I had scored three goals in a game, or couldn't have scored an empty goal, would you still be so tolerant of me? What about other juniors? You're not favoring him? ”

"The seniors have been on the school team for a year, and it is common for everyone to make mistakes in the game, just summarize it after the game, and everyone still gets along very well. Besides, I think Luca is still quite easy-going, and he is not very high-minded, looking down on us Chinese. ”

"Just help him speak! You're all like that! You're not him, how do you know what's in his heart about us? Maybe we all think we're all fools! There are so many 'foreign garbage' in China now, all of them are used to people like you! You like foreigners so much, why don't you get out? ”

In the past, when my sister talked to me, I would quarrel with her, and even deliberately anger her, but when I was arguing, I would cry, crying inexplicably. Xiao Qi's face did not change, his heart did not beat, and he was awe-inspiring.

"What, nothing more?"

"Xiao Qi, the senior is not very smart, he is a little older than you, and he may have read a few more books. Let's calm down and 'analyze specific problems on a case-by-case basis'. It is true that there are some foreigners who are of poor quality, but there are many foreigners in China, and they also come from different countries and families. The culture and customs of each country are very different, let alone different people. It cannot be said that the quality of some people is poor, and the quality of all people is poor. Right? Luca is Austrian, and to be honest, I don't know much about Austria, only that they love music. It's fate that we can get together because of football, so far apart......"

"Don't tell me it's useless. Regardless of which country he is, I only know two kinds of people: Chinese and foreigners. I see that you are too inferior, we Chinese have knelt for too long in the past, and we should have stood up a long time ago. Don't act like a minion! ”

I'll admit that I don't know Luca that well, and it's true that because he's a foreigner, I care a little bit about him, like his beautiful eyes. But if he didn't have those eyes, and his hometown wasn't in that unfamiliar country of music, I would have felt that he was very kind and wanted to make friends with him. His meticulous look when doing things, the cheers of guessing the right question, the crooked handwriting, and the sentence "Captain, I will cheer up" after a lot of effort were all things I liked, and he was like a classmate with a bit of an introverted personality next to him. I had a preconceived idea that he was a foreigner, but now, I don't care what country he is, it doesn't matter if he's an alien, he's our own.

"Xiao Qi, I don't think it's me who has low self-esteem, it's you. Of course, just a little bit of inferiority. ”

"What did you say?" Expressions of disbelief.

"You seem to be paying a little too much attention to Luca's identity. Why do you care so much about him? ”

"It's you who care about him, I can't get used to you."

"But why do you always care so much about whether we are good for Luka? It's as if we're taking care of Luca every time we look at him. It's normal for us to train and play, we don't give anyone special treatment, and the coach doesn't treat everyone equally. Seniors understand what you mean, being too good to others may not be respectful, and people may not like them, and sometimes even their self-esteem is lost. However, there is no need to be particularly concerned, this matter may not be very important. I've had a feeling myself that the more you care about something, the more worried or afraid you are about it. For example, I used to hate you Senior Zhao Rui, I was annoyed when I saw it, I wanted to alienate him, and I used malice to get past him. But then I found out that I was too narrow-minded, and I had a lot of misunderstandings about him, sometimes because I was jealous of him and afraid of being replaced by him. This analogy may not be appropriate, but the senior believes that if you want to stand up and no longer have low self-esteem, it is important to have self-confidence. Self-confidence is not about excluding others, but about being able to recognize and accept the strengths of others and the ability to see the problems of others. Not only has the mind and courage, but also has their own thinking. If you are always stuck in some small problems, you can't see the bigger world. ”

Actually, a lot of what I said was told to me by my sister or teacher, and although I didn't want to listen to them when they did, I still remembered them. Now that I patiently said these words to Xiao Qi, I actually had a feeling that I had become smarter, and I was inadvertently a little fluttering, maybe this kind of broad mind was going to move me.

"I don't understand. Captain, are you the class representative of the Ideological and Moral Character Class? ”

This unfortunate kid has a worse attitude than me! I'll at least say, um, um, yes, I get it.

"And, captain, what is the use of all that you have said? There are still so many 'foreign garbage' in China, and some people still hold foreigners as immortals. You lose a bicycle or a foreigner loses a bicycle, who can get it back first? ”

Thanks, I didn't lose the bike. My brother's car is gone, and he won't be coming back.

"So, is Lukka a 'foreign garbage'? Did he do something bad? ”

He tilted his head.

"Not really. But his performance ......"

"Everybody's not doing well today. Why do you pay so much attention to him? Luca missed a goal, but I didn't save a few of them myself. Is it because Luca is a foreigner that you think his problem is bigger? Think for yourself, who is 'taking special care' of him? Just because he's a foreigner, do you have to behave perfectly? We are not playing in the Chinese Super League, Luca is not a foreign aid with an annual salary of tens of millions, or an ordinary classmate, and no one chooses this number if he gets the number 10. Of course, the senior also admitted that he would care a little about him because of his identity. After all, he doesn't look like us, so the first impression is very deep. Of course, the difference may just be in appearance. ”

"Okay, how can you be so rambling, more verbose than my parents." He pursed his mouth, still with an unwilling look, "After saying so much, don't you just want me to apologize to him?" I understand the reason, I didn't control my emotions today, the occasion was not right, and I was embarrassed to the team. I'm going to apologize for the next training session, and I'm going to apologize in front of the whole team, are you satisfied? ”

I seem to have completed the task, but neither Xiao Qi nor I have been able to convince anyone, or rather, we don't have much real communication, and we are all sticking to our own opinions. The twisted melon is not sweet, forcing Xiao Qi to apologize to Luca can't solve the problem, and maybe history will repeat itself next time. Actually, it's not that I completely disagree with Xiao Qi's opinion. But it was a big topic, and I didn't fully understand it at the time, so it wasn't easy to get back to the team.

"But, captain, I'm going to say it ahead......" he stretched out his finger and shook it in front of my eyes, "I apologize not for that little foreigner, but for the team, you know?" ”

This little ghost, does he still descend to Han or Cao?

"Yes. It's okay, don't force it. I smiled.

"Aren't you, aren't you?" He withdrew his finger in surprise.

"Why should I be angry?"

I was already angry. Of course, not necessarily. If Xiao Qi is fierce, I may be afraid.

"Well, Captain......" he scratched his head and smiled, "you're too good-tempered." Actually, I just kind of wanted to do something. I just don't like to be educated. ”

"Understand, understand, we're all pretty much the same." I patted him on the shoulder again, feeling that I could still communicate with Xiao Qi more calmly. It's not about convincing anyone. Like me, he was a kid and didn't like nagging kids.

"I'll pay attention in the future. However, I can only do not hate him. As for you, Captain, I won't deliberately quarrel with you next time. ”

"Okay. It's nothing, your willingness to express your emotions to me shows that you still trust me. I'm pretty happy. No one will just say what is in their hearts to outsiders. ”

"Hmm."

Xiao Qi nodded, and the two of us said goodbye to each other. I think that in that afternoon, during that long conversation, I endured my annoyance and dissatisfaction, but I didn't think about forcing Xiaoqi to apologize to Luca for the sake of the team's apparent unity. I didn't use the authority of the captain, I didn't say you had to do something, you had to accept my ideas. He wasn't threatened in any way – if you don't apologize, people will ostracize you, and you don't want to be comfortable in the team. Not to mention, I'm going to tell the coach all about your words and deeds, and let her clean you up. Perhaps because of this, Xiao Qi and I have increased our mutual trust. Indeed, I was a little touched by myself. However, I clearly and clearly know that I hate the kind of behavior that disregards the feelings and thoughts of others for the sake of "absolutely right" goals, using position and authority to crush others and force others to accept their own ideas. I don't like this kind of person and I don't want to be that kind of person.

But I've become another kind of person I hate, maybe a bit like the kind of person that Xiao Qi hates. It was probably the most patient and gentle day I have ever had in thirteen years, and I was not able to give that patience and gentleness to my loved ones. After seeing Xiao Qi go away, I swiped the screen of my phone and found missed calls and WeChat messages. Mom and Dad were still waiting for me at school, waiting for me very patiently, trying to comfort me. I forgot to contact them. And how much real patience and tenderness have I had with them and my sister in the past three years?