When you see a beautiful flower, do you have the urge to fold it down and play with it? When you see a pure and lovely girl, do you want to blaspheme? Seeing beautiful things, do you doubt the real thoughts? Seeing weakness, do you make excuses for indifference?

I don't think anyone can save me.

Countless sleepless nights, nights of depression, irritability, despair, and frustration, constantly praying for guidance and comfort. Pray for help or induction.

I didn't feel a trace of warmth other than the darkness embracing my body and soul.

I also had a great desire for light and beauty.

I know why I am the way I am, but I am comfortable accepting everything that has changed.

Maybe it's because of time that I've forgotten what I am.

And from the moment I walked into this church, I was not shocked by the sight of this solemn church, I saw only pity, helplessness and death. I saw that little bit of goodness in my eyes, but I couldn't stir up a wave in my heart. From hearing this man's name, I didn't make me feel light because he was a messenger of light. His words made a deformed feeling spread quickly in my heart.

When a trace of morbid self-esteem is awakened, when a trace of jealousy turns into dissatisfaction, when a trace of dissatisfaction turns into hatred, when a trace of hatred turns into evil thoughts, when a trace of evil thoughts turn into behavior. In a sacred place like a church, the evil of the heart is awakened for no reason.

What exactly am I here for? I don't want to know if he has a geometric battle, and I don't want to know if the light in his heart is blue or yellow! I just want to beat him up, I want to take off his confident smile.

He can't be so pure! I don't believe it......

The next day, I was standing at the back of the church again. Uther's face was swollen like a pig, but he was still distributing food to the refugees, even half-kneeling on the ground to pray for them. Actually, I wasn't unscathed, and although he didn't use his fists to fight me, I felt like I was going to fall apart when I was thrown by Uther.

This guy has always stood by his beliefs, insisting that he felt the revelation and call of the Light when he met me.

I couldn't help but laugh as Felicia looked at the look in her eyes as she helped Uther.

After nightfall, I pushed open Uther's door again.

"I know you'll be coming." He stood up and smiled ugly.

I walked straight up to him and took a closer look at his injured face.

"Tea?" He asked.

I didn't speak, I just stared at him.

"I'm sorry, I don't have any alcohol." His hands seemed to rub together a little restrainedly. "Ah, did I hurt you yesterday?" His tone was full of apologies.

I laughed. He laughed when he saw me and laughed along.

"What are you laughing at!" I suddenly straightened my face.

"You look good when you smile!" He said.

"I look so good when I smile? I'm not a woman! I said.

"You're handsome, and you're very good."

"You're very good at sycophants!"

"Hahahaha! Praise from the heart. He laughed.

"Why didn't you ask me why I came to you?"

"I said you would come back."

"Where does your confidence come from?"

He patted him on the chest and said, "The Light never cheats!" ”

"Hah!" I snorted mockingly. Then he took two pill bottles out of his pocket and put them on his desk.

"Thank you, Bill." There was a look of gratitude in his swollen eyes.

"You're not afraid I'll poison you?"

"Don't be afraid." He picked up the two bottles.

"You're a very special fellow, Uther. It makes me want to kill you. I gritted my teeth.

"The mystery of the Light contains sacrifice." He said.

"Aren't you tired?" I squinted.

"You say...... What? ”

"Aren't you tired of pretending to be a pure person, a saint, a person who wants to save the world every day?"

"The call of the Holy Light, from the heart, as natural as breathing, as natural as the sun shining on the earth every day, when you feel the air, the sun, the fragrance of the flowers, don't you feel the Holy Light?"

"You're just, you're still and pee! Did you feel the light at that time? ”

"The Light is the guide, the Lord of the laws of the world. It allows us to do so, and it is not dirty. It is only the human heart that is dirty. ”

I suddenly felt a little overwhelmed by him. "This kind of mystical stuff is just your fallacy and heresy. The world is still full of falsehood and deception. ”

"Because of the loss of faith, because of the loss of direction. When you are still and feel the Light, you will feel it. It was a joy......"

"Gotta get it! Come on! I hate your preaching! You're babbling like an old woman! You, Uther! You shouldn't be a pastor! You should be a knight or something. How many people do you think you can save by doing this? Only violence can give birth to civilization, and only death can create new life! ”

He was about to open his mouth to say something when I reached out and interrupted him. "You'll understand later."

"Well, I'm sure you've already understood what I'm saying, otherwise you wouldn't have come to me." He looked at me with a smile.

"Fart! I'm just coming to see if you're dead! ”

"Haha, thank you for your concern. Actually, I saw you during the day......"

"You'd better not be nosy!" I glared at him.

"Felicia wants to thank you in person."

"No need. I don't want to have too much to do with it. ”

"She kept telling me that you gave her help and hope to live. Before that, when I met you, I had already felt your light, like a morning star in the night, although it was cold and the light was not as bright as the moon, but I felt that you would bring hope. As Felicia said later! My feelings are not wrong! ”

"Ha, what you say is really better than what you sing, and I'm feeling comfortable when I blow a rainbow fart."

"Do you like Felicia?" I asked.

"She's a good girl, a good sister to ours!"

"What the fuck are you......" I was about to open my mouth, "I mean, don't you have anything else in mind about her?" ”

"She's been given a new lease of life! She is willing to serve the Light! She is our sister! He said it so naturally.

"You're either a saint or a complete liar. Of course, I prefer to believe that you are a saint. I said with a frown.

"I'm not a saint. I'm still far from it! ”

"Hah! Don't put gold on your face! ”

"I can refer you to my teacher! He was the most famous sage of Lordaeron. ”

"Tell me about it." I suddenly remembered that there was a group of extremely fanatical guys years later.

"Master Alonthos Fao."

"Haven't heard of it......" I pouted.

"He is the true saint."

"Can he control the Light?"

"The divine light guides us and gives us strength. We respect it, we love it, we worship it. It's not ......."

"Hah! Say no more, buddy! I know! You're so long-winded! I interrupted him.

"Tomorrow, he will come to this church to pray for Lordaeron."

I got up from my chair. "I really didn't expect Uther to have such a temper." I shook my head. "The one in the brown bottle was wiped on the face, and the one in the black bottle drank it." With that, I walked out the door.

"Thank you, brother!" Uther's crisp voice came from inside the door.

Walking back to my residence, I kept recalling this guy's words. His smile came to my mind. As I walked, I reminisced, and suddenly I laughed.

The next day's sunlight finally broke through the haze of the dark clouds, and a blue smile appeared in the gaps in the dark clouds. The cold wind is still biting, but the blue sky that I haven't seen for a long time suddenly makes me feel comfortable.

There were still not many pedestrians on the streets, and the car that pulled the corpse was still parked on the side of the road, and the corpses that had been left for an unknown time were wrapped in white cloth and piled on top of the car, waiting for the corpse carriers to take them through the last part of the experience.

Altars were built in the square, and monks from nowhere were busy beside them.

I was again outside Lordaeron Cathedral, where many cars were parked today, and the sheds where food and medicine were distributed were back up. The number of refugees is still not decreasing, but they are receiving food in an orderly manner.

There were a lot of guards standing at the entrance of the church, and maybe there were really some big people inside. Last night Uther said his mentor was coming, and the guy named Fao was probably already here.

I couldn't get in through the front door, so I slipped in through the backyard. The interior of the church is decorated not quite the same as it was yesterday. Flowers and ritual utensils were placed on the altar, and candles and torches were lit around it.

A short, chubby old man with a long snow-white beard and purple clothes was standing in front of the altar and speaking to the kneeling congregation below. It seems to me that their sermons are no different from the speeches of leaders.

Curled up on the high beams of the church, I finally found the familiar figure, Uther kneeling in the middle of the second row. I can't see his face, I don't know if it's better, and if the old man is really his mentor, I think the conversation between them will be interesting.

The old man is really not tall, with a chubby body, and his slightly bulging belly can still be seen under the purple uniform. But his white beard is very long, and his gray beard is really eye-catching. His eyebrows are also white, with long eyebrows covering his eyes. A round nose and a round face. His voice was not very loud, but it was calm and firm, and it seemed to have a strong penetrating power, which made me feel powerful and serene.

I couldn't help but listen to his speech. Even though I was listening, my heart was still contradicting the so-called ways of light and salvation that he had brought me. I still have a lot of prejudice against these religious guys.

When the old man had finished speaking, he sprinkled a branch with holy water on every one who passed in front of him to ask for blessings.

Uther walked past him, and I could clearly see the smile on the old man's face.

After the ceremony, the group walked out of the church. Uther stood respectfully beside the old man. The swelling on his face had gone away a bit, but the punch I hit him in the eye that day seemed too heavy......

Uther let the old man backstage, and suddenly he turned back and glanced around the church. His gaze should not have noticed where I was. But he still shouted, "Bill! I feel like you, you're here! Come out, my brother. ”

I laughed softly, but after two seconds of laughter, I suddenly felt a little scary.

Does this guy really know I'm here?