Now that I think about it, it was the happiest time so far, I know what love is, I love that person with all my heart, and I have never loved someone like I did at that time. I am willing to give all my life, even my own, and she is my life.

I'm willing to do anything for her, willingly.

I want to see her every day, and I think of her all the time, and she smiles and smiles. When you don't see her, you will be deeply immersed in sweet torment.

This could not escape Edwin's eyes, he was a clever man, and as the head of the largest workers' organization in the country, he had countless eyeliners. Finally, one day, he found me again.

But he didn't directly ask me about the status of the Duke's daughter, but tactfully asked me about my recent work and daily expenses. Of course I know what he means.

Of course I knew how much I was spending during that time, and ...... I embezzled some of the money.

Hum...... Of course I know that's not right, but I'm willing to take a risk. I know Edwin too...... It won't do anything to me.

But when he knew about it, I also felt very shameless, so I secretly decided that I would pay back the money, I would never use his money again, and I would never want him to take care of me again.

So I began to make private contact with some nobles and do private work through my own background and connections. It stands to reason that this is a betrayal of Edwin, that it will be talked about, and that it will not be allowed.

But I can't do that much.

Money can go from you, and it can go from me, and I'm doing better than Edwin. But on the one hand, I have to appease the workers, on the other hand, I have to squeeze out more money to bribe those people to make them give me more work, I have to get money, and on the other hand, I have to bribe the nobles who are higher than those nobles to meet my expenses on love, so I have to start in terms of raw materials, quality, and construction period.

Fortunately, there was really no problem for a while, and many things were just covered up.

It was crazy and bolder then. It didn't happen, and it made my appetite grow. I know where I come from, I don't know if it's inferiority, and I don't think about whether she will look down on me, I just want to give her all my best. As long as she can be happy, I'm satisfied.

Money is important, and how it gets is also important, but I just want to spend it on her, and I don't care about the rest. I've always been obsessed with confidence that I'm going to settle those things, settle those people, and even if I really can't hold it anymore, I don't think Edwin will leave me alone.

When Edwin came to me for the third time, he didn't tact.

I was angry that day, and that anger was fake, and I thought it necessary for me to pretend to be like this. I...... It's not easy to mess with.

But he didn't mention much about the project, let alone the money. He told me directly to stay away from Deria.

I told him it was my business and told him to leave me alone. I didn't listen to anything else, only one thing he told me that it was absolutely impossible for Deria to be with me, and that she could try love, but family, politics, wealth, and status were what Deria should do in the end.

My fate must be abandoned in the end, and I must be the biggest loser.

Edwin said that although he was the boss of the Masonry Brotherhood, he was just a pawn in the hands of the great nobles, a pawn that was not so important that it could be replaced, and that if they wanted to, Edwin said that he could completely disappear from the world tomorrow.

And I'm not even a fart.

It hurt me, but I didn't accept it!

I don't accept my fate!

And I've always believed that Deria loves me! She loves me without mixing any other ingredients! Not like Edwin said!

I went into the Duke's house again that day, and I had her that night.

When I saw that blood, I recognized her more thoroughly, and I was willing to give everything I had for this woman.

I've got to get her, ever! No one can stop me!

Anyone!

Since then I've been waiting for my chance, and I've been thinking about what I'm going to do. I've gotten to know a lot of nobles, big and small, and even more, but these guys are like maggots in a dung pit.

I'm the middleman, they thread the needle for me, and I do it. I make money, they make money. They make a big head, I make a small head. But this kind of money is limited money, and it is not enough for me to get ahead in the court.

I need to get ahead, I need an identity, a title, a title! I need it very, very much! Even if I spend money to buy a baron with no hereditary rights and fiefs!

I have to get rid of the status of a clay leg, I want to be a nobleman!

The people I know are really useless, I have to get to know the people at the higher levels, to be their henchmen, to be their lackeys, to be their right-hand men, to be their thighs!

And I think that in order to become such a person, I have to come up with enough money, do enough face-saving things, and accept enough loud votes.

I'm willing to be a dog for them!

Until that year...... The year I died.