I don't know how I got over that time, I just feel that whether I open or close my eyes, those shadows and images linger and become my nightmare.

The only good news is that my uncle and Lao Tan have almost recovered, and because of the recent events, Ms. Chu has never appeared with Lao Tan again, and I know that she is resentful of Lao Tan.

Resentment that he had abandoned himself again and again, and had brought her only daughter into the fold, and had almost died at the hands of those men.

I've heard that there's still a lot of buzz on the internet, and there's speculation about my experience and what we're protecting.

It's ridiculous to say, so far, I don't know the specific content of that fan's plan, only what kind of drugs seem to be related to it, and it must be very involved in making them undercover for so many years. So when Mentor Ludwig wanted to confess to me, I chose to refuse.

Some people might think I'm stupid, I almost lost my life trying to protect that thing, and in the end I didn't even know what it was.

All I know is that before Mentor Ludwig left, he left a sentence that the core of the mystery plan is research and destruction, we have won, and the loot is tens of thousands of lives.

After so many years, they can finally stop being incognito and be themselves again. I heard that he was about to go to the house in Jiangnan prepared for him by Lao Tan, and he and his wife were going to "reunite".

……

Ms. Chu still came to accompany me every day, I didn't let me in and sat silently outside the room, she chattered and talked to me a lot, saying that Chu Jingzhou was still not found, saying that she didn't expect it, Chu Jingzhou took the initiative to return to Chu's house, and didn't expect that he would use the resources of the Chu family to go to country M alone, providing a lot of key evidence.

Unexpectedly, he took the initiative to replace Tan Siwen, who had not fully recovered, to walk on the front line and face various threats head-on.

When I was carried out of the plane on a stretcher in a coma, they got the news that Chu Jingzhou had been attacked and missing.

said that she wanted to give up her career outside and concentrate on being a good mother.

At that time, the first thing I said when I came back was, "I don't need it." ”

She was stunned for a moment, and then burst into tears, since I can remember, she is a strong woman image, crying in front of me, it seems to be the first time.

Maybe it didn't matter to her what I said, the important thing was that I finally spoke.

Since that day, she seems to be inspired, and every day she tells me about the recent events, although I basically don't respond.

That night, I had a dream in which I was back to the most relaxed and happy time of my life.

I met new people, I seemed to be liked by a lot of people, and it seemed like I could live differently.

I also dreamed of a man holding a bouquet of flowers and clamoring for me to come over.

It's just that just when I wanted to pick it up, the person suddenly disappeared in front of me, leaving only the flowers that I hadn't had time to pick up fell to the ground, and I suddenly woke up, opened my eyes, and returned to reality.

……

Two people who hadn't seen each other for a long time came into the room, Shen Yue and Feng Ying.

Their tears were a little low, and when they came in cautiously, they couldn't help but hide their faces and weep the moment they saw me.

They said I had lost weight, that I had been missing for so long, and that they were worried and scared. Looking at them, I felt like I was back to that happy time.

I also think, if I stayed in the entertainment industry like that and didn't go back to finish my studies, would my life be different?

There are no ifs, because even if I choose again, I won't change my choice.

Seeing them in the room trying to communicate with me, holding the tablet to show me the video clips of netizens and the barrage full of screens, they cried and laughed, and their makeup was crying.

……

I had no sense of time, I just felt that it was dark and bright, and that day two people I did not know came, and they did not enter the room, but stood at the door of the room with the door open and looked at me, thanked me, and invited me again, asking if I would like to sing the song I sang for the first time again at a party next month.

Next month?

It turned out that it was almost October, and seeing that I didn't react, they said something and then put down some things and left.

The first song you sang? Oh, it's it.

Later, when I got better, they started taking me out to breathe, and I was in a wheelchair, first in the living room, then in the yard, and then in the car.

Sitting in the car, I didn't know what I was thinking, but at that moment, I seemed to have some sense, and as soon as I turned my head, I looked at the bright red of Tiananmen Square fluttering in the wind.

Why is the flag red? Because the color red symbolizes revolution and represents the active fighting behavior and the spirit of bloodshed and sacrifice of countless revolutionary ancestors.

I have only experienced some troughs, compared with my ancestors, is it also a disease-free moan?

After I went back that day, for the first time, I took the initiative to say, "I want to see the flag raised." ”

Naturally, they would not reject me.

(End of chapter)