Chapter 73: I Don't Want to Lose You
Bei Ye said seriously, "Ordinary people can only see the surface, but they think that Dr. Wu is afraid of robbing other people's jobs and attracting the resentment of other doctors." ”
"But he didn't know, he just hoped that there would be more doctors in the world and more people to be treated."
"What others don't see, you can see at a glance, which shows that you are indeed a person who is more transparent than most people, and has a delicate and kind heart."
"Only kind people will understand Dr. Wu's kindness."
Gu Rao, "......"
Do you want to praise her like that?
She is the person who can't stand praise the most, especially when she is praised by the people she cares about.
Beiye continued, "You and I are ordinary mortals, so naturally we can't avoid vulgarity, and when we encounter our own affairs, it is inevitable to drill the horns. ”
"So, now can you tell me, what did you drill?"
Gu Rao had a feeling that this was really the case, and she knew that he would definitely ask after finding an opportunity, so she asked rhetorically, "Don't you know what kind of horn tip I drill?" ”
The two happened to be back home.
Beiye closed the door of the courtyard and said, "You are unhappy, I only care about Xiao Qiao's affairs, but I forgot that you are not in good health and can't starve, but I don't care if you have eaten?" ”
"It's really my fault."
"I'm sorry."
"Rao'er, don't be angry with me, okay?"
Gu Rao is a person who eats soft rather than hard.
What's more, she knew that she was thinking too much about herself, and it wasn't Besino's fault, it was because she had too high requirements for Beye's partner, and once he didn't meet that high standard, she would drill the horns of the bull herself, and she would be angry with Beno and even more angry with herself.
At this time, Beiye softened, but she didn't feel happy, but felt that she couldn't stand Beiye, and she shouldn't be so demanding of him.
It's just a trifle.
Why did she have to be so clear? With such a calculation, she will be tired in the future, he will also be tired, and the relationship will be exhausted sooner or later.
"Don't apologize to me, it's me who is too demanding of you."
"I shouldn't have thought about it."
"It's a big little thing, but I want to take it to heart."
She knew that her current psychology was the same as that of a disease, and her heart was extremely clear, knowing what the illness was, but she didn't know how to heal herself.
He was her husband, the one she liked, first and foremost an independent and free man, with his own rules of conduct and freedom of thought.
Why should she be so demanding of others?
Did she do a good job herself?
She puts Beye first now because she is the only one in this world, and she only cares about Beye, because there are too few people she knows and cares about Beye, so she has such a distorted desire for exclusivity.
This kind of thinking is unacceptable.
To change!
How can you put Besano first and ask Besino, too? Man can only demand of himself, not of others.
Love is giving, not taking.
And she always wants to ask for emotional value from Besano, and she likes Beno for herself, but asks Beno to fall in love with herself, which is too selfish.
Maybe she thinks that way, because she still stays in the stage of liking and not loving Besano.
Gu Rao has always understood that she is a selfish person, and she used to think that there was nothing wrong with this, only selfish people are not easy to be hurt by others.
But now she feels guilty.
Beno frowned.
"It's me who is wrong, if you neglect me because of others, I will feel very uncomfortable, why do you blame yourself for thinking too much about yourself?"
"If you're angry with me, why do you think you're at fault?"
He couldn't see through what his wife was thinking, but he could feel that she was very conflicted now, angry with him and angry with herself, why was this happening?
Gu Rao said to herself, "I just think that I shouldn't make a fuss and keep all the little things in mind, so that we will all be very tired." ”
"I can't do it all myself, let alone ask you to keep me in mind at all times."
Beiye explained, "I didn't take you to heart just now, it's just that Xiao Qiao's matter was so serious that I lost my sense of proportion for a while." ”
"The reason why you're angry about this is because you care about me, and I'm glad."
"Don't sulk next time."
"You're right, it's hard for people to do everything, if I do anything to make you sad next time, you must tell me in time."
Gu Rao didn't expect Beiye to think like this, and couldn't help asking, "Don't you think I'm too hypocritical, and I have to worry about even a little thing?" ”
Beiye raised his hand and touched Gu Rao's hair.
"Even if you are hypocritical, even if you have to worry about small things, I will always like you and tolerate you, because I am reluctant to make you angry."
A word of reluctance, for Gu Rao, makes her heart move more than 'I love you'.
"Hmm."
Beiye said again, "You just said that you were too demanding of me, I don't think that is too demanding just now, you can still be more demanding of me." ”
"I want to spend my life with you, if I can't meet your requirements, sooner or later you will leave me, I don't want to lose you."
"So, no matter how high your requirements are, I'm going to meet them."
Gu Rao suddenly thought of Beiye's growing cooking skills.
Since she said that her requirements for her future husband are to be able to go to the hall and the kitchen, his cooking skills have gradually improved, and now the fried dishes can reach the standard of deliciousness.
He really took what she said to heart.
Originally, she planned to accept it when she saw it, and she would restrain her emotions in the future, and no longer make emotions because of some trivial things, but since Beiye proposed it herself, she was willing to let her have high requirements for him, so she climbed up the pole.
Besano's words also woke her up.
After she realized her intentions for other ambitions for a while, she seemed to have lost herself a little, and even forgot about the three-year covenant she had made, as if she had already decided that she would choose to stay after three years.
Because Besano was the first person to make her heart move, she didn't think that anyone other than Besano would be able to approach her heart in the future.
But the longevity of two people can be maintained not only by liking.
What if they have been together for a long time only to find out that their personality is not suitable, or something else has happened that has broken down the relationship between them, or they are tired of it?
The three-year covenant was her umbrella.
At least in the past three years, she has the right to choose whether to spend her life with Besano, and since Beno is still being chosen, why can't she be more demanding of him?
The most important thing in life is to be happy.
If Besano can't meet her requirements in many places, they will definitely not be happy together, even if it is for their future, she can make demands on Besino.
In her heart, she hopes to go on with Besano, so she decides in her heart that even if Beno is not up to standard in many places, she can slowly transform him in the past three years, and sooner or later she can transform him into the most suitable man for herself.
"You can make demands on me, too."
She doesn't have a double standard.
Don't raise your eyebrows.
"I have a small request right now, can Rao'er satisfy me?"