Chen Siping first felt that something was wrong with his mother in late July, about the 23rd and 24th, at noon that day, his mother said to herself that she was hungry, Chen Siping cooked an extra bowl of mixed sauce noodles, she ate very sweet, and even the remaining sauce was clean. Within half an hour, her mother took out the pastry and smashed it and ate it, Chen Siping asked her if she hadn't eaten enough, and her mother said that she hadn't eaten lunch yet, and she didn't remember eating a bowl of noodles at all.

Chen Siping felt that his mother was confused. He paid close attention to his observations, and his mother often forgot things, spoke upside down, didn't know what to say, and looked for things everywhere, but they were clearly under their noses, but they couldn't see. It made him a little worried.

He remembered that Mr. Li's lover in the biology group was a doctor in the imaging department. Chen Siping found out the school's contact book, plucked up the courage to call Mr. Li, stammered to explain the situation, Mr. Li's lover took the phone, asked a few questions, and suggested that he take his mother to the neurology department for a check-up.

Chen Siping has never experienced such a thing, his mother took him to the hospital to see a doctor before, he was afraid of bumping like a headless fly, his mother was impatient, and the public lost his temper, so he rushed to the hospital under the sun, found the information desk 1510 and asked clearly. I don't know, I am startled when I ask, register, wait, see, check, diagnose, prescribe medicine, bargain, pay, receive medicine, see a small problem, and I have to queue up for four or five trips, which takes most of the day.

I don't know how difficult it is, Chen Siping is glad that he didn't take it for granted.

That night, Chen Siping asked his mother for her ID card, medical insurance card and medical records, and coaxed her to go to the hospital to see a doctor. The mother was unwilling, and rushed to her son to grab a pass, but in the end there was no way, Chen Siping had to say that he had a stomachache and wanted to take some medicine, temporary workers had no medical insurance, prescription drug pharmacies did not buy them, and they were expensive, and a box was dozens of yuan, so she had to rub her medical insurance card.

The mother agreed. She rummaged through the cabinets to find the medical records, but she couldn't remember where she hid them, Chen Siping helped them find them, and finally found them in the wardrobe drawer. The health insurance card is sandwiched in the medical record. As for the ID card, I couldn't find it at first, but later I found that it had fallen into a canned biscuit, and the horns were oily and smelly.

Early the next morning, Chen Siping led his mother to the hospital to see a doctor, queued up for registration, waited in line for treatment, and finally it was their turn, and it was already an hour and a half. The doctor asked about the condition and prescribed a lot of tests, from the body to the nervous system, from hematuria to cerebrospinal fluid, from electroencephalogram to CT. Chen Siping left a few more questions, and the doctor said that it was most likely Alzheimer's disease, and a series of tests were needed to confirm the diagnosis, and advised him to treat it as soon as possible to avoid continuous deterioration.

Chen Siping thanked the doctor, walked out of the neurology department in a daze, ran upstairs and downstairs several times, and couldn't find his mother anywhere, and asked the nurse to find out that his mother was muttering in her mouth, not knowing what to say, and went out of the outpatient department alone.

The sun was shining, the traffic was busy, Chen Siping asked all the way to find it, Surabaya City was so big, and his mother didn't know where he had gone. He was exhausted and rumbling with hunger, so he had to ride home, only to see his mother at the gate of the community, sitting motionless in the sun, her face flushed, and her back was dozing. Chen Siping cautiously woke her up and asked her why she didn't go home, but his mother looked at him in a daze for a long time, seemed to recognize her son, and said that she couldn't remember the door.

Chen Siping felt sad. He picked up his mother and went home, turned on the electric fan to ventilate, and wiped her with cold water.

By the time everything had settled down, my mother lay down in bed and fell asleep, and the sun was already in the west. Chen Siping is in good health, and he can still hold on after a tiring day. He was too lazy to cook, so he went out to find a small shop, ate a big bowl of beef rice noodles, scooped two spoonfuls of spicy seeds, and sweated profusely. When he went home to see his mother, he was snorting heavily, sleeping peacefully, he put his mind at ease, took a shower, went back to his room for a while, and turned on his phone to check Alzheimer's disease.

"Alzheimer's disease is a progressive neurodegenerative disease with insidious onset. Clinically, it is characterized by generalized dementia such as memory impairment, aphasia, apraxia, agnosia, impairment of visuospatial skills, executive dysfunction, and personality and behavior changes, and the etiology is still unknown. Those who develop the disease before the age of 65 are called Alzheimer's disease; People who develop the disease after the age of 65 are called senile dementia. ”

The mother was not yet 65 years old.

Chen Siping called Mr. Li's home and told him about the doctor's preliminary diagnosis, and Mr. Li's lover kindly reminded him that there is no specific drug for Alzheimer's disease for the time being, and the current treatment can only alleviate the symptoms, but not cure it.

Putting down the phone, Chen Siping felt a little upset. He picked up a book casually, looked at ten lines, and didn't know what he was reading. After turning a few pages, my father's handwriting reappeared in the middle of the book.

"After the age of 25, the human body begins to go downhill, reaching a certain inflection point, breaking through a certain threshold, and the curve of aging falls rapidly on a near-vertical slope until death, drawing a thrilling cliff. For most people, aging is a slow, continuous, and torturous process, and no one knows at what point this fateful curve will take a turn and run all the way to death.

"Sooner or later, this day will come.

"So I didn't dare to look at the hair, eyes, teeth, skin of young people, they made me aware of aging. The hair is shaky, the old man hangs down, and there are only eight words, as sharp as a knife. Today is older than yesterday, tomorrow is older than today, day after day, indifference replaces enthusiasm, once important people and things, people and things that once cared about, with the passage of time, become a handful of ash without heat. Life is temporary, death is a long sleep, and the thought that one day you will lose consciousness and never wake up again is a great fear that is unbearable.

"When people reach middle age, everything is off, and now, I can understand 'rushing to the doctor when they are sick', and I can also understand that people become faint, 'eccentric', and 'unkind' when they get old. The concept of society imposing on the individual is like an old wall, peeled away layer by layer by the hands of aging, and the self is naked and exposed to the sun, which does not look so pleasing to the eye, and there is no way to do it, and it is not subject to human will.

"In the natural state, 'aging' is not the norm, the vast majority of lives are already 'dead' before they can wait for 'old age', the history of human aging is only a short moment, we have no time to adapt, whether physical or psychological, we are not ready – never and never will."