Looking at the lines of words immersed in loneliness where the dream goes, Dongfang Siyi instantly felt an inexplicable melancholy, and he subconsciously looked at her screen name, and thought to himself: Why did she choose this "Where does the dream go" as her pronoun? Was it unintentional in a thought, or was it deliberately done with a finger in mind?

Where does Dream Go seems to want to know something from the side: "Are you a very rational person? I am sometimes very impulsive, very irrational, and sometimes I am very weak in self-control. ”

Dongfang Siyi was sure that she must have encountered an experience that was difficult to talk about directly, so he could only have a kind of communication with her that did not touch on specific issues: "Reason and impulse are two things that eliminate each other, and as we get older, rationality will slowly increase, and impulsiveness will slowly decrease." Of course, people with different personalities, people with different thoughts, and people with different experiences will definitely perform differently in these aspects. In fact, rationality and sensibility are just different attitudes towards people and things, and you can't think that a little more rationality is necessarily correct, nor can you think that a little more emotion is necessarily bad. Rationality and sensibility are just a difference in the way a person's thinking is manifested, rational people are not necessarily gentle in their hearts, emotional people are not necessarily impetuous, we cannot use reason or sensibility to draw any conclusions to a person. ”

After Dongfang Siyi finished speaking, he suddenly felt a little puzzled: "At this time, are you surfing the Internet at home?" Will it affect your child? ”

Menggui said confidently: "No, she is in junior high school, she is busy with her studies, and she is a very conscious child." I'm busy with my leisure and don't interfere with each other. She was very self-conscious, basically in a state of high autonomy, she didn't need me, which made me feel very lonely as a mother, and even doubted my own presence in her eyes. ”

Dongfang Siyi put his mind at ease: "It's the first time I've heard that I'm busy with leisure, and leisure is also a very busy thing?" Well, kind of interesting. Why do you want to add me? Is it because you're busy with leisure? However, it can be seen that this is also because you are very good at educating children, and children do not need you to take care of so much, but it proves that you are a successful mother, a good mother, and a confident mother. You may have to be busy relaxing, or you may not be able to find a sense of existence. ”

Where to Dream sighed at the encounter on the Internet: "I occasionally wanted to go online that day, but I was like a person who had never been on the street, I didn't know where to go, so I especially wanted to find someone to chat, but I didn't expect to find you." I usually don't do anything except housework, and I don't have any hobbies to pass the time. Sometimes when I think about it, I feel that it is a terrible thing to have no hobbies. What hobbies do you have, you must not be as empty as me, you must be very fulfilling, right? ”

Dongfang Siyi joked: "Because I feel terrible without a hobby, I found a hobby - surfing the Internet?" So that you can be busy, and you can be busy with leisure? However, you say that surfing the Internet is like shopping on the street, which is very vivid and interesting. My hobbies? There is nothing special, hobbies are just hobbies, everyone's hobbies are different, there is no emptiness and fulfillment, as long as you feel interesting. For example, liking housework can actually be said to be a hobby. People who like to do housework are actually very concerned about the environment they are in, because they want to create an environment, an environment where they can find a comfortable and pleasant environment, they will love the labor of housework, and they are very careful to create an atmosphere, an atmosphere that can make them peaceful. Therefore, people who like to do housework are especially popular, because they are beneficiaries of others and themselves. ”

Where to dream can't help but sigh: "You always seem to be able to see the philosophy of life from some small things, and the first chat with you that day found that you are a very interesting person, but unfortunately I can't see you all the time!" Maybe you don't care, but I can't forget that a ghost once invaded my dreams! I've learned to wait since I met you, and I'm here to wait for you! I don't know why I did that, and I probably can't give a reasonable explanation. I also asked myself, which of your words moved me? I know it's probably just a once-in-a-lifetime feeling, and I don't want you to just pass me by. Don't get me wrong, actually, I'm just trying to find someone interesting to talk to, and I won't pester you, but I hope I didn't scare you. ”

Dongfang Siyi's black sense of humor came up again: "You can't scare me, because I'm a very brave person, but the doctor insists that it's cholecystitis." If you want to say what are the characteristics of my person, I am not afraid of being entangled. Every day I may meet a few people who are pestering. What's more, your screen name tells me that you are a dream, and if you are entangled by a dream, I don't think anything will happen. ”

Dongfang Siyi habitually began psychological analysis: "No matter what profession you are engaged in, you will encounter all kinds of people and things that you are unwilling to accept, and in the life experience of each of us, we will encounter all kinds of injustices and troubles. The only difference is that each person's attitude is different, or they are angry because they have been innocently hurt, or they are relieved to ignore it because of their insight into human nature. The reason why you repeatedly have this lonely and helpless dream may be that you have encountered too many unhappy things, in this case, you must learn to release your bad emotions in time, and you can't let the bad emotions linger in your heart for a long time, otherwise you will fall into a more and more serious melancholy. ”

Dongfang Siyi habitually began psychological analysis: "No matter what profession you are engaged in, you will encounter all kinds of people and things that you are unwilling to accept, and in the life experience of each of us, we will encounter all kinds of injustices and troubles. The only difference is that each person's attitude is different, or they are angry because they have been innocently hurt, or they are relieved to ignore it because of their insight into human nature. The reason why you repeatedly have this lonely and helpless dream may be that you have encountered too many unhappy things, in this case, you must learn to release your bad emotions in time, and you can't let the bad emotions linger in your heart for a long time, otherwise you will fall into a more and more serious melancholy. ”

Dream Gui felt that she was being pulled in front of a huge mirror by a person, and she saw herself completely: "I understand what you said, I have also tried to release bad emotions, but there is no way to release them. I am a teacher, I love my students as if they were my own children, I care for them, and even though I am sometimes unwell and in a bad mood, I still keep a smile on their face and never scold them for no reason. I am a mother, and I must also maintain an optimistic mood in front of my daughter, so as not to affect her growth. It is only when night falls, when the child has finished his homework and falls asleep and lies down quietly, that I think about my unhappy things. I can only think about it at this time, whether I think about it or not, there is no way to release it. I can only accumulate them day after day, accumulating until I feel like I am about to run out of breath, and they are blocked in my heart like this, like stones, blocking all the way out. I used to try to put them in a corner of my mind, not wanting to touch them again, but they often crawled out of their own way, like disgusting insects, and the more you ignored them, the more they came out of your heart, and I could only watch them crawl around there. ”

Dongfang Siyi looked at the melancholy words that rolled over like dark clouds, and was silent, he wanted to light a cigarette for himself, but in the end he held back, and the outstretched hand was withdrawn.

After a few minutes, she asked with some hesitation, "Are you still there?" Are you listening? Would you like to hear it? Are you going to get tired of what I'm saying? ”

Dongfang Siyi seemed to hear the sound of the other party typing back and forth on the keyboard: "I've always been there, I'm listening to you." Today is the weekend, and it's a special time that I've set for myself. In this time, I will take the initiative to let myself go of all the burdens, not to force myself to think about anything, not to force myself to do anything, it is completely my own time, completely free time, no restraints, no desires. I'll give you this time now, just listen to your story. As for the boredom you mentioned, it is an emotion that often exists in our lives, tired of being bored because of the blandness of life, tired of being too familiar with each other, and tired of reality because of the disappearance of passion. In the final analysis, boredom is a kind of aesthetic fatigue, and the only way to overcome this aesthetic fatigue is to constantly adjust the goals you are pursuing, just like a person who is on a journey, only by constantly discovering new scenery will he have the motivation to move forward, otherwise he will stop and end his journey. ”

She remembered what he said about his understanding of the profession with some emotion: "You talked to me about your views on the profession that day, which made me re-examine myself with another eye, and I feel that sometimes, I am just a shell wrapped in my professional image." Professional attire, professional image, professional words and deeds, and professional way of thinking, I seem to be a puppet wrapped in professionalism, without my own soul, without my own personality, and without my own pursuit, so there is a kind of anxiety and boredom, which is the kind of boredom you said. What you said seemed to open a window for me and gave me the desire to break free from this shell. In the depths of my heart stirred up an impulse, an urge to return to myself, an urge to break through all kinds of constraints. ”

Dongfang Siyi saw the melancholy in the heart of a professional woman: "In fact, our hearts are a combination of contradictions, sometimes our hearts are very small, because it can't hold too many people and things, too many ideals and desires; Sometimes our hearts are big because we always fantasize about having more, better, and more precious things in this world. ”

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