Chapter 32: Mother's Tolerance
Han Shuai finally figured out the fact that he loved Wang Jing very much, and he also knew that Teacher Wang and Wang Hui were both excellent women. The reason why he is in an awkward position in this family is that he feels an inferiority complex and pressure brought about by his inability to communicate in this family. In the face of this pressure, he lost the sense of security, happiness and belonging of love, and only wanted to escape, and he became a coward who wanted to be a deserter.
He often felt that he couldn't face the lonely old teacher Wang, and he couldn't face the indifferent Wang Hui, and he wanted to escape from this discordant atmosphere of family life, not his beloved wife. It's just that he can't tell others what he really feels in his heart, and he can't take the initiative to find a reasonable way to get out of this embarrassing life situation.
All these problems that are difficult to get rid of are actually seen and taken to heart by Mr. Wang. Now, he suddenly felt that the pressure that had been in his heart had dissipated invisibly, and his heart suddenly brightened.
At the same time, a deep sense of guilt came to his heart, Han Shuai felt that he had sued for divorce twice, which hurt Wang Jing too deeply, he was really as Wang Hui said, he was a rough man and a brute man, and he was really not a good man and a good husband who dared to take responsibility. And all this did not make Mr. Wang give up, she still treats him as a son-in-law sincerely.
Quietly in the emergency room, Han Shuai sat on the edge of Wang Jing's bed, silently watching the liquid medicine in the hanging bottle flow through the infusion tube, slowly drop by drop through the flow regulator, and slowly injected into Wang Jing's vein.
Wang Jing's body was still a little weak, and she turned sideways to look at Han Shuai with her eyes slightly open. Han Shuai lowered his head and fiddled with the letter in his hand, Wang Jing said softly: "Look first, I'll rest for a while, and I don't know what the old lady said." After Mr. Wang retired, Wang Jing changed her voice to call her mother and old lady, and Mr. Wang looked at her with a smile: "You girl is a rebel anyway, you can shout as much as you like." "Acquiescence.
Han Shuai opened the letter in his hand: "I have already read it, there are still a few pages written specifically for you, although they are not sealed separately, I have not read them, respect your rights." Wang Jing heard Han Shuai say this, so she took out a few pages from the envelope, and unfolded it to see, the old lady's mellow handwriting with a hard air appeared in front of her line by line, she hadn't read the old lady's writing for a long time.
Wang Jing still remembers that when she was in college, she, like Wang Hui, would often receive letters from her mother. Looking at her mother's words, just like she usually faces her mother, there is a little kind expression on her mother's serious face. However, every time her mother spoke to herself, she felt that her mother's soft words were like a wind coming through the door in winter, and there was always a little chill.
She didn't know why she felt this way, although her mother loved her and Wang Hui so much, she was always so strict with them many times. She knows her mother's hard work, and this strictness must be so that they can face all kinds of setbacks in society and life, so she never complains about her mother, it was her mother who raised them alone, and her mother has suffered a lot, and these hardships must have been precipitated in her mother's heart.
Wang Jing looked at it carefully.
Wang Jingwuer:
You must have read the letter I wrote to you and Xiao Han, and there are still some things I want to say to you alone, I hope you can understand your mother's painstaking efforts.
The family is a space full of joys, sorrows, and sorrows, and only when there is a home can there be a sense of belonging. Birds are tired and still have their nests, let alone people. Whether it is everyone or a small family, we must know how to operate seriously, and only when we manage it well will we have a sense of security, happiness and belonging. Husband and wife are united, and their profits are broken. To run a good family, we must pay together, take responsibility together, and be considerate of each other, and even tolerate each other. Such a family will not have a hurdle that cannot be overcome, and will have a happy future.
In family life, the most important thing is to learn to take responsibility and be able to bear it, which is the foundation of family happiness and harmony. In any case, the responsibilities of the family must not be forgotten, and both men and women must take their own responsibilities.
To be a husband, to be a good man, to be a wife, to be a good woman. When you have children, you must be a role model and be a good father and mother. Of course, in social life, you must also assume social responsibility, in this regard, you have done a very good job, I am assured, this is also the foundation of your foothold in society.
We also need to learn to be kind to ourselves, to our loved ones around us, and of course, to others. In this secular society, most people are ordinary people, living an ordinary life, with joy and suffering, and knowing their own happiness.
How to be kind to yourself? First of all, we must be self-aware and not difficult for ourselves. Try to do what you can, and try hard to try what you might be able to do. If you really can't do it, don't do it reluctantly, treat yourself with a normal heart, and it is not difficult to be responsible for yourself.
No one is perfect, because we are all mortals, we should have a mortal kindness and a mortal heart. In the same way, it is the same for others that it is not difficult to do the same, everyone has their own bottom line and bitterness. To be kind to others is to try not to argue with others as much as possible, not to force others to do what they are not willing to do, and to say what they are not willing to say, which is the greatest kindness and respect for people.
I would like to remind you that Xiao Han's work is very irregular, and he rarely takes care of his family, which is something you should understand when you are in love. So, you usually have to work a little harder. There are some things that don't wait for Xiao Han to do, he may want to help you, but the nature of his work is destined to not be able to share too many family responsibilities for you.
You and Wang Hui have been very independent since childhood, and there is no problem with life experience. I would like to remind you that after getting married, you must learn to restrain your personality more, and you must know how to be considerate of others, especially those around you.
Husband and wife should also often think from the other side, and when they encounter problems that they can't figure out, they should think about it from the other party's standpoint, and they can't just feel that they have been wronged, and they can't take into account the feelings of the other person. Do not do to others what you would not do to yourself, in order to better understand people's intentions. When there is a conflict, you should ask yourself more questions instead of blindly blaming others. Compare your heart to your heart, and there is no problem that cannot be solved.
Whether it is social life or family life, we must know how to be grateful. Don't forget all the help we've received. Remember the good of others, whether it is classmates, colleagues, friends, parents, siblings, or husband and wife, we must have this sense of gratitude. Those who are familiar and unfamiliar must remember the good of others, so that there will be no resentment, there will be no unsolvable contradictions, and it will be easier to get along with each other.
Regarding Wang Hui, I hope that one day she can change herself, especially her concept of family and marriage, so that I can alleviate the guilt caused by my choice when I was young, so that you two sisters have lacked fatherly love since childhood, and the imperfect family of your sisters.
When you have time, you must come back to see Wang Hui more in the future, communicate with her more, you have been sisters since childhood, you should know that you, as her own sister, have a certain weight in her heart, don't forget this particularly important thing, I hope you can help her out of the loneliness of life, you must insist on doing this. Wang Hui has been studying abroad for nearly a year this time, and I hope she can find more happiness outside of work and study.
I love to read, it's my lifelong passion. Holding a favorite book, in the spring sunshine, in the summer shade, by the autumn leaves, by the winter fire, as the years slowly pass, read unhurriedly, let those books and the characters in the books accompany me to grow old slowly, this kind of life may be the best choice for me.
Mother loves you, you are everything to Mother, your happiness is Mother's happiness, and your pain will become my pain.
May you be well
Love you old lady
When Wang Jing was lying on the hospital bed reading the letter, Han Shuai thought silently: If something happened to Wang Jing, how would he explain it to Teacher Wang? How to face Wang Hui? How will they deal with what should not have happened?
Han Shuai didn't dare to think further, looking at the pages of letters in his hand full of a mother's loving heart, a deep sense of guilt that he had never felt before was blocked in his heart, making him feel breathless. He stood up, walked a few steps, and then walked back again.
Wang Jing looked at him with some puzzlement, Han Shuai walked to the head of the bed and sat down, held Wang Jing's hand and said, "Jing, I'm really sorry." It's my fault, it's completely wrong, it's all my fault, we will never be separated again, never again in this life. Wang Jing smiled and said, "I didn't say that I wanted to separate, you proposed it." I only said that I will look for you in the next life. ”
"The old lady is so worried that she writes such a long letter." Wang Jing looked at the five or six pages of letters in Han Shuai's hand, and her heart was full of warmth. In her impression, her mother is usually a person who doesn't like to nag, but after she and Wang Hui went to college, she seemed to become a different person, and she would write letters to both of them every week.
Although Wang Jing and Wang Hui did not attend the same university or the same city, one was in the south and the other went to the north, the letters they received from their mothers were almost identical. Although she and Wang Hui have been very independent since childhood, after leaving their mother, their mother is always at ease.
In addition to studying and living, the mother took care of everything in her letters, and the most she said was to tell them not to lose themselves in the outside world of flowers, and to have an independent personality, to be an independent woman who is thoughtful, assertive, does not follow the trend, and is not superficial.
When Wang Jing and Wang Hui graduated and returned to their mother, they found that the heaviest thing in their bags was their mother's letters from the past four years. Although Wang Jing sometimes felt that her mother was a little nagging in the letters, she always cherished those letters, and she knew that they were her mother's loving heart.
She and Wang Hui have lacked father's love since they were children, and they have never experienced father's love, but they have never lacked mother's love, and their mother gave them all her love. Wang Jing never felt that it was a pity not to have father's love, and she never asked her mother about her father, she never cared about the father who did not leave the slightest impression on her, she thought that that person had nothing to do with her life.
Wang Jing loves her mother, because it was her mother who gave her life and gave her selfless love. Mother is a brave and resolute woman, never bows to difficulties, never complains about life, and never blames Wang Jing and Wang Hui, even if they occasionally do the wrong thing and say the wrong thing, the mother never blames them, but patiently tells them what they should do is right, just like in the face of confusing multiple-choice questions, the mother will take the trouble to work with them, one by one to exclude and give up, one by one to retain and affirm, until all the wrong options are found, all the correct options are found.
Wang Jing was very worried that her mother would feel lonely, and when she came home from work, the old lady and the old lady always circled her mother for a short time, making her mother happy. Her mother also realized Wang Jing's intentions and accepted her life after retirement with relief.
Not long ago, her mother suddenly proposed to travel with a group of elderly friends, and Wang Jing was very happy to hear it. My mother has never liked group activities, and now she has to go out to travel, which is naturally a positive attitude. Since Han Shuai proposed to divorce her, although her mother didn't say anything, Wang Jing knew what her mother was thinking, and she knew that her mother was worried about herself and anxious about herself.
Wang Jing felt very guilty when she thought of this, and complained about Han Shuai because of this, feeling that he was a man who couldn't take responsibility. But she knew in her heart that Han Shuai was not a negative man, he must love herself. She didn't understand why Han Shuai chose to run away from her and escape from this home again and again, he must have his own difficulties, but he just refused to say it and didn't want to say it.
After her mother left, Wang Jing had to call Han Shuai several times a day, but no one answered. She didn't know that Han Shuai couldn't answer any other phone calls except for the phone call of the criminal police team during his business trip, and thought that Han Shuai would never want to return to this home again.
She was plagued by a deep despair, and after a few days of insomnia, Wang Jing, who was on the verge of collapse, unconsciously swallowed a large amount of sleeping pills, and after sending more than a dozen messages to Han Shuai in a row, she fell asleep.
After waking up, she realized that it was Han Shuai who sent her to the hospital in time, and at that moment, she forgot all her grievances and grievances, and she was glad that she was still alive. Wang Jing's first thought was her mother, if she left like this, what would happen to her mother?
She didn't dare to think about it anymore, her life was given by her mother, from childhood to adulthood, even if she got married, she was also her mother's baby, her mother couldn't live without her, she couldn't live without her own mother. Thinking of all this in the past, Wang Jing couldn't help but silently shed a line of tears.
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