After passing through an alley and turning a corner, there was a small courtyard in front of it, and Dongfang Siyi smelled a unique smell of Chinese herbal medicine outside the courtyard. He looked at the plaque embedded in the brick wall above the courtyard gate, and the five black characters of "Tang's Chinese Medicine Hall" written on the original color wooden board were round and full. Walking into the courtyard, I saw dozens of bamboo-woven dustpans placed on the ground, showing all kinds of Chinese herbal medicines.

On one side of the courtyard are several bungalows, with a dining hall, a medicine hall, and a consultation hall. Dongfang Siyi found a secluded place to sit for a while, and only walked into the consultation hall after several patients in the consultation hall left one after another.

"Hello, Dr. Tang." Dongfang Siyi looked at the ruddy complexion and energetic old Chinese medicine doctor and said hello.

"Hello, how did you find it?" The old Chinese medicine doctor asked with a smile. "Yesterday I went to the TCM hospital to take a look at the old problem, but I didn't expect you to be retired. I asked your colleagues, and they told me that you had opened this Chinese medicine hall at home, and they came to trouble you again. He very much agrees with the concept of Chinese medicine to treat diseases, as well as the philosophical ideas embodied in the theory of Chinese medicine, and feels that the treatment of Chinese medicine is very suitable for him.

The old Chinese medicine doctor smiled and said: "Actually, I retired ten years ago, but I still haven't left my post, which is the so-called retirement without resting." Now that I'm home, I always feel that I can still make some contribution to the society, so I opened this Chinese medicine hall again. Speaking of this Chinese medicine hall, it is actually the ancestral name of our Tang family, and now it is an old store and a new one. ”

Dongfang Siyi asked in surprise: "You said that you retired ten years ago, so you are now seventy years old?" I can't tell you that you don't look like you're in your fifties. Is there any way to take care of this? ”

The old Chinese medicine doctor smiled and said: "Of course, there is a way to maintain health, but it is not the varied, mysterious and mysterious fallacies that are popular in society now. When it comes to health preservation, I think it can be summed up in four simple words: adapt to the situation. The theory of traditional Chinese medicine is based on the theory of "the unity of heaven and man" and "the induction of heaven and man", which regards man and heaven as an organically connected whole, and the treatment of traditional Chinese medicine emphasizes holistic view, comprehensive diagnosis, and syndrome differentiation and treatment. ”

The old Chinese medicine doctor then talked eloquently: "In the "Yellow Emperor's Neijing", it is said: People are born with the qi of heaven and earth, and the law of the four times is completed. Traditional Chinese medicine takes the unified relationship between heaven, earth, man and time as the object of study, and the theory of traditional Chinese medicine is a creation made by the ancients in order to maintain life and treat diseases. As long as a person's life state is in line with the situation, there is a basic environment that provides protection for physical health, and with some scientific lifestyle methods, it is what we often call the way of health preservation. I'll give you a pulse. ”

Dongfang Siyi stretched out his right hand and laid it flat on the table in front of the old Chinese medicine doctor: "The philosophical ideas embodied in the theory of Chinese medicine are indeed broad and profound, and I have been taught. ”

The old Chinese medicine doctor finished checking Dongfang Siyi's pulse, and after carefully looking at Dongfang Siyi's eyes and tongue, he asked: "Have you had insomnia and loss of appetite recently, such as often having difficulty falling asleep, shallow sleep, easy to wake up when you fall asleep, decreased appetite, no taste for anything, always feeling low energy, fatigue all over the body, sometimes flustered, upset, increased blood pressure, and emotions are also easily disturbed by the external environment, such as easy tantrums." In addition, do you often feel dizzy, hesitate to deal with some things, and have difficulty concentrating? ”

Dongfang Siyi kept nodding: "What you said is not bad at all, these symptoms are complete, and I am about to collapse after being tossed." In the past, it could be slowly relieved, but this time I really didn't have any choice, so I had to come again for advice. ”

The old Chinese medicine doctor changed his sitting posture for a moment, smiled generously and looked at Dongfang Siyi: "With all due respect, you are a typical anxiety symptom. I don't know what you've been experiencing lately, what kind of work pressure and life pressure. If you look at the analysis of these conditions reflected in your physical condition, your anxiety has begun to have a negative impact on your physical health. If no intervention treatment is carried out, it will lead to loss of viscera, phlegm, heat and blood stasis, affecting the function of the heart, spleen, lungs, kidneys, gallbladder and other viscera. Do you understand what I mean? ”

Dongfang Siyi nodded: "I do have a sense of anxiety, it may be the accumulation of long-term anxiety factors, which has caused some biological reactions in the body, and there is nothing particularly anxious about me recently, but the emotional depression is still becoming more and more obvious." ”

The old Chinese medicine doctor seems to be chatting with an old friend, rather than facing a patient who asks for a consultation: "Anxiety disorders are mainly deficiency disorders, so Chinese medicine generally focuses on supplementing deficiency in the treatment of anxiety disorders, supplemented by dispelling evil spirits." Deficiency is mainly to invigorate qi, nourish blood, nourish yin, and can take the products that calm the heart and calm the nerves, and the actual disease is less, and the treatment is mainly to clear heat and dissolve phlegm, and calm the heart and calm the convulsions. Your situation is mainly a manifestation of hypocrisy. In terms of medication for the treatment of anxiety disorders, traditional Chinese medicine pays attention to the effects of strengthening the stomach, tonifying the kidney, soothing the liver, benefiting the lungs, calming the nerves, balancing yin and yang, regulating qi and blood, improving immunity, and regulating endocrine. I can prescribe some medicines for you first, these drugs are just for proper regulation, mainly to alleviate the negative impact of emotional factors on the body, to solve your anxiety problems, you also need to carry out psychological self-regulation, which is fundamental. ”

The old Chinese medicine doctor stared at Dongfang Siyi: "From the perspective of your profession, you are a person with strong self-discipline, so you should pay special attention to proper self-relaxation during and outside of work, and keep your body and mind relaxed and happy." When your whole body is relaxed, your physiological alertness level can be reduced across the board, and anxiety can be relieved. You can use a hot bath to relax, so that the blood vessels are dilated, the blood flow rate is increased, the tense brain nerves are soothed, and the mood is relaxed. ”

The old Chinese medicine doctor seems to have a special understanding of the characteristics of the profession of Dongfang Siyi: "It may be difficult for you to properly confide in the necessary ones. Professionally speaking, you are a person who wants to listen to others, not to confide in others about your psychological needs. In fact, we are all mortals, none of us are so powerful, and everyone needs psychological confiding and psychological comfort. If you encounter something that particularly makes you anxious, talk to a trusted family member or friend to find a solution to ease your anxiety. ”

After seeing that Dongfang Siyi's mood had eased significantly, the old Chinese medicine doctor said: "In addition, diverting attention, making positive psychological cues, and adjusting living habits can all relieve the anxiety caused by excessive mental pressure. What I said, you might as well give it a try, if you still trust the old man, you can also come and chat with me when you have time, you don't have to think of yourself as a patient, I don't treat you as a patient, you can treat me as a friend you can trust. Perhaps, you can invisibly let your symptoms resolve until they disappear. ”

Coming out of the "Tang's Chinese Medicine Hall", Dongfang Siyi felt that his whole body was relaxed, and he felt that he was not coming to see a doctor, but experienced a spiritual relaxation journey.

In the autumn, Dongfang Siyi always inexplicably falls into an invisible anxiety that is accompanied by a lingering melancholy, which he self-diagnoses as seasonal syndrome.

He didn't know why he was anxious, and he didn't know why there was always a kind of melancholy that followed him like a shadow. He wondered if he was suffering from depression, and he felt that no one around him could really understand him, not even himself, and no one could feel his melancholy, which was another melancholy for him, a melancholy that made melancholy even more melancholy.

Sometimes, Dongfang Siyi would fall into a kind of contemplation, and he remembered that his melancholy mood must have begun after the age of forty.

In the past, he had a habit of keeping a diary no matter how busy he was every day. On the last day of each year, he also writes a long self-summary, recording the gains and losses of the next year, the lessons of work and life, and writing down his self-expectations for the new year.

I don't know exactly what year it started, but at the end of the year, he would fall into a deeper anxiety. At first, the most typical feature of this anxiety is caused by one's own frustration, this anxiety is relatively mild at first, and in general, a few days pass. Later, as his frustration grew, a deeper sense of failure began to haunt him again, and he found that the anxiety became so severe that it took him nearly a month to adjust himself.

Dongfang Siyi likes the famous sentence of Confucius's disciple Zeng Zi recorded in the book "Analects": "My day is three provinces and my body; Seeking for others and not being faithful? Making friends and not believing them? Are you used to it? "He is also a very self-disciplined person, and the profession of a judge also requires him to be a person who can always be self-reflective and cautious. This habit of self-reflection and prudence, formed by this high degree of self-discipline, kept him away from worldly pleasures and made him feel as if he had become an ascetic little person.

For an ordinary judge of a basic court, every day there are all kinds of cases waiting for him, and every day he has to face the work of screening the authenticity of all kinds of evidence, finding out all kinds of hidden facts, and then making a decision carefully.

You never know what kind of strange things will happen in the next case, and you never know what kind of strange people you will meet next time. Unless one day you leave this position, you will be faced with cases that will never be completed, and they will give you more or less invisible pressure every day, sometimes it will make him feel breathless, and sometimes you will feel like you are on the edge of the abyss, like you are on thin ice.

Dongfang Siyi has been engaged in civil trial work for more than 20 years and is recognized by the whole court as a senior judge with rich trial experience. None of the cases he handled were judged to be wrongful because of his professional level, and he never tried to find an excuse to hand over the cases he had taken over to others because they were difficult to handle.

Sometimes, Dongfang Siyi also wonders, why do you have a sense of frustration and failure? He is also an idealist, so when Xu Ming claimed to be an idealist, he looked at his apprentice and smiled, smiling a little sadly.

Idealists often have a strong critical attitude towards reality, and he sometimes asks himself whether he is demanding too much of himself and others, too detached from reality, is this an inevitable tragedy of an idealist? He also wanted to confide, but there was no one to confide in, in the eyes of others, he was a very confident person, and they certainly couldn't imagine and understand that he would have such severe anxiety and depression.

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