I had a job, a family, independence, and more importantly, freedom.

As it is now, how easy is it to go back to the way it used to be?

Moreover, I knew very well in my heart that if I went back to the past, how could I obey Peng Zhen's orders like a soulless toy. As long as you are a human being, you will always have your own will, and you will never be able to live completely according to the will of another person.

Peng Zhen said this at this time, but he was stimulated by Xu Heng just now. What's more, it may also be the psychology of pets, cats and dogs, not all want their pets to have personality, will run, jump and be coquettish, but such a like, by no means equal. I can guarantee that if I just say one thing now, I want to go back to my own life, not be a vassal, like a canary in captivity, Peng Zhen will be furious, and I can't guarantee that I will not be sent to a mental hospital again.

Some of the words are just a matter of listening.

There's really no need to take it seriously!

I didn't say anything, and Peng Zhen didn't continue, what can I say? At present, all the pain and problems in my body are caused by him, and if he wants to avenge me, the first person he should kill is himself.

I need to recuperate for a long time after 100 days.

My legs and feet are not good, the first thing I have to face is the problem of going to the toilet, before it was okay, I put a urine bag on my body, but I don't have to worry. But when I ate with Xu Heng, the urine bag was removed, and something in the stomach always started to run and digest.

My body moved uneasily, and I didn't know how long Peng Zhen would hold it.

He looked down at me, "What's wrong?" ”

To be honest, I'm very annoyed that Peng Zhen is so cold and asking for warmth now, how to say it, there is always a feeling of a weasel greeting the chicken for the New Year. But I can't say anything, I can't do anything, he's my lord right now, and I don't have the right to resist.

I was red-faced, but this kind of thing can't be solved by enduring, so I buried my head and said with a twist: "Can you call Auntie in?" ”

It's impossible for me to go to the toilet by myself, and the only one who can help me is my aunt.

Peng Zhen didn't know if he really didn't understand or fake, "Auntie has gone back." ”

"Then call the nurse." I'm actually a little annoyed that there is no reason for nurses to take care of patients. It's just that there is nothing to be done at the moment, so I can only rush to the doctor.

Peng Zhen leaned over and hugged me horizontally, put his chin against my forehead and said, "It seems that I want to retract what I just said, you are still the same as before." ”

Carrying me into the bathroom, he lowered me to the ground. The bathroom in the hospital is very well designed, and there are handrails on both sides of the toilet, so I can barely hold my body. Then seeing that Peng Zhen had no intention of going out, I looked up at him, "You go out." ”

I look at him up to his mouth now, he's already tall, I want to meet his eyes, I have to look up, but I don't want to look at him, I just stare at his chin.

"You still have your hands off/pants?"

I gritted my teeth, "Why not?" I can stand, you get out! ”

"Well, okay, I'll get out." He was obedient.

After he went out, I began to work on how to get on, and let go of one hand and pulled down my pants. But I couldn't hold it for just a few seconds, first of all, one hand was supporting my body, and the injured leg would have fallen to the ground anyway, and I had one leg broken, and the other was not much better, and it was cut by a branch in several places, and one hand couldn't hold all the weight at all.

Moreover, the leg with a broken plaster cast can't hit the ground at all, and as long as you use a little bit of strength, you can die in pain.

Do you really want to ask Peng Zhen for help? I refuse in my heart, if you don't have a really intimate person, you will never be able to face it calmly.

After thinking about it again, he still didn't make a sound, but sat on the toilet with his ass, and then pulled his pants down with both hands.

Oops.

Finally, the three urgent problems were solved.

But what happened next really made me want to cry without tears, and I couldn't get my pants back. If my legs are good, I can lift my pants even when I sit, but the premise is that my feet must be stressed to support my body slightly, otherwise how can I get over my buttocks.

But in my current situation, where can I support my body on my legs.

That's not all, the scariest thing is that I can't stand up.

It was fine to hold the armrests with both hands, but that way, I couldn't lift my pants at all, and I couldn't get out even if I was standing. I can't go!

Only at this moment did I realize that Peng Zhen's eloquent departure just now was not because he was kind, but because he was waiting to see my jokes.

Sitting on the toilet with his head in his hands, his legs hurt and he was aggrieved, and he really didn't know what to do. Looking up at the mirror in front of her, the woman in the mirror was cloaked, her face was pale, although her eyes were big, but there was no light in her pupils, which looked really in line with Peng Zhen's preferences. It's like an emotionless, at the mercy of others, a beautiful rag doll.

My whole body was broken, and I couldn't even stand up.

A waste!

In the absence of such a depressed moment, I understand that I am just a waste person who can't even take care of himself.

Peng Zhen came in.

He didn't knock on the door at all, as if he knew I was in such a predicament, and he just came in to watch.

Peng Zhen picked me up and put me on the side of the sink, took off my pants completely, took the shower head and rinsed it carefully for me, trying not to let the water touch my legs, and then changed me into clean underwear, and then carried me out.

I didn't look up from beginning to end, and when he rinsed me, I simply closed my eyes.

Putting me on the bed, he turned around and went to get a towel to wipe my hands, wiped them little by little, stared at my hands and said, "I know you feel uncomfortable, but your hurt ...... It's going to take a while. Let someone else take care of you, I don't feel at ease. So, don't be upset, I'm just taking care of you, nothing else. ”

I closed my eyes and didn't say a word.

Peng Zhen wiped my hands and sighed lowly, "If you really can't get over it in your heart, you can scold me and beat me, I have nothing to say." ”

What's the use?

Hit him and scold him, can my legs be good? Can I get rid of the pain in my heart?

It's not like this, this world is not that you took anything from me and hurt me, as long as you treat me well again, let me beat you a few times and scold you a few words to calm down. What is lost is gone, and what is injured is pain, which cannot be smoothed out, let alone made up.

Peng Zhen looked helpless in the face of my silence, "Lin Flails ......."

Suddenly, as if he had thought of something, he proposed, "Shall I bring your mother here?" Wouldn't you be happier if she came to take care of you? ”

"No way!" I couldn't be silent anymore.

No matter what Peng Zhen treats me, I can bear it, but I can never compromise with my mother.

"You're not allowed to touch my mother!" I hedgehog-like erected the thorns of my predecessor in an instant!

I think my eyes can't hide my emotions at this time, my mother has long hated the word Peng Zhen, I lied to her that I had escaped from the capital, if I let my mother know, not only did I not run away, but was left by Peng Zhenqiang, and I also broke my leg, I can't imagine how painful my mother will be.

So no! I can't let my mom know about all of this!

Peng Zhen stretched out his hand to cover my eyes, and there was forbearance in his tone, "Lin Fang, I didn't want to hurt your mother, don't look at me like that." ”

Maybe he didn't want to hurt my mother, but his word 'Peng Zhen' was already hurtful to my mother. Whose mother knows that her daughter is not sad to live a life like mine, I don't want my mother to be sad.

I pushed Peng Zhen's hand away, stared at his hand and said, "I know, but I don't have to." If you really want to, it's good for me to be able to talk to her on the phone, and the rest, I really don't need to. ”

Peng Zhen's fingers were beautiful, long and well-proportioned, his fingers moved, and then he said, "Lin Fart, can you see how I am?" ”

That's really .......

I looked up, still at his mouth, and smiled.

"Why don't you dare look at me? Are you still angry with me? "He had already noticed that I didn't dare to look at his eyes, but at first he thought I was angry with him and lost my temper, but after a day, I still didn't dare to look at him, and this is not just as simple as losing my temper.

What shall I say? Say I'm scared of his eyes, and when I see it, I think of the experience of a mental hospital, and I think of the eyes of that female madman?

I shook my head and denied, "I didn't, I just ....... It's just that...... Afraid. ”

Yes, just fear, that fear carved into the bone marrow.

Peng Zhen was impatient, and lifted my chin and forced me to look at his pupils, which were very deep and amber, like a hole.

"What are you afraid of?!"

It was only a matter of seconds, and I suddenly lost control, clutched my head, and screamed. I was afraid of his eyes, and even more afraid of his tough movements, which induced too many terrible memories in my mind, and I couldn't bear it.

Peng Zhen didn't expect me to be like this, he first buckled my moving legs, and then pressed the red button on the wall for the first time.

After a while, a large team of medical staff rushed in from outside.

I was sedated and sedated.

"What the hell is going on with her like this?!" Peng Zhen was shocked and frightened, his heart was trembling when he was palpitating.

The doctor redressed the wound on my leg, which I had just moved indiscriminately and involved in it. The doctor was similarly puzzled by my condition, and finally concluded, "I recommend seeing a psychiatrist." ”

Peng Zhen was incredulous, "You said you had a mental problem?" ”

The doctor thought about it and felt that it was not necessary, and said lightly: "Psychologists are necessary, patients have deep psychological disorders, and the sooner this situation is treated, the better." ”

Peng Zhen held his forehead weakly, "Okay, I know." ”

After a night's sleep, I saw the new stranger in the ward in the morning.

Peng Zhen said he was a psychiatrist.

I don't have any opinion on this, Peng Zhen thinks I need it, so let's come.

At the beginning of the morning, it was naturally a little hectic, Peng Zhen carried me to the toilet, then washed his face and brushed his teeth, and finally stared at me for breakfast, so that he could be considered stable.

The psychiatrist had been sitting in the hospital room with his eyes fixed on me.

I don't like to be stared at, I was a little embarrassed, Peng Zhen saw it, and persuaded me: "He's here to help you, can you bear with it?" ”

"Okay." Although I don't know what kind of illness I have, since Peng Zhen said it, then I will endure it.

When everything was cleaned up, the psychiatrist came over and sat next to me and introduced himself softly, "My surname is Bai, and you can call me Dr. Bai in the future." ”

I nodded, and the courtesy was still exchanged, "My name is Lin Flai." ”

"Miss Lin, hello."

"Hello."

This Doctor Bai looks soft, different from Ji Hetong's elegance, he has a feminine beauty on him. How to put it, it's just an overly beautiful man.

"Can I talk to you for a while?" He asked politely.

"Of course." Stretch out your hand and don't hit the smiling person, let alone a smiling person who looks so good.

"Miss Lin, what kind of fruit do you like to eat?"

"Grapes."

"Miss Lin, what is your favorite sport?"

I hesitated, I don't really like sports, probably most women are like this, let me run and climb mountains or something, occasionally it's okay, often it's completely impossible.

But if I don't answer him, I don't think it's right.

After thinking about it, I cautiously asked him, "I don't like sports, and I usually read more books in leisure, is this okay?" ”

Doctor Bai smiled, a very good-looking smile, and the color of his lips was very bright, "Of course, Miss Lin has read a lot and looks like she has a good temperament." ”

I breathed a sigh of relief that I didn't answer incorrectly.

Subconsciously, I didn't forget to look at Peng Zhen standing in the corner, how to say it, he was standing not far away, and there would always be an inexplicable pressure on me.

His aura is too much, even if he doesn't speak, there is no way to ignore it.

Dr. Bai asked two more questions that were not painful, but suddenly said to Peng Zhen, who was standing aside, "Is it okay to ask Mr. Peng to go out first?" ”

He actually drove Peng Zhen out, and I immediately lifted my heart.

Peng Zhen probably didn't expect to wait for such a sentence and stood still.

"According to my observation, Mr. Peng is in the ward, and Miss Lin can't relax at all, so in order to cooperate with the treatment, please ask Mr. Peng to go out first." ”

Peng Zhen didn't make a sound, he was stunned for a while, but he really went out, but his footsteps were particularly loud.

Every step of his footsteps seemed to be stepping on my heart, and my heart was beating terrified, for fear that he would suddenly become angry.

When Peng Zhen went out, not only did I not relax, but I became more nervous.

Dr. Bai raised his hand and waved it in front of me, and said to me very kindly: "Okay, he is not here now, you can tell me if you have anything unpleasant in your heart." Don't think of me as a doctor, just think of me as your best friend. Oh yes, it's a male girlfriend. ”

I look at his appearance, and the word 'male girlfriend' really fits his temperament.

Pursing my lips and smiling, as for what he said, I couldn't do it.

He asked me to say what was not good in my heart, where to start? Can I say that there isn't a single thing in my life that is refreshing? My husband cheated, my best friend betrayed, I was strongly imprisoned by Peng Zhen, and I was bruised all over my body and became the wasted person I am today, which one is not depressing.

Doctor Bai saw that I didn't speak, and then he was kind and persuasive, "Of course you can talk about that Mr. Peng, it seems that you are very afraid of him?" Did he do anything to you? ”

I shook my head and refused to say a word.

All about Peng Zhen is the deepest pain in my heart, and I can't say it.

Dr. Bai seemed frustrated by my behavior, but he was not the one to force it, and instead began to tell me the stories of the patients around him. It's weird, everyone has it.

"You say there are still people who like to sleep under the bedboard?" I was a little surprised.

After all, I never thought that there were so many strange people in the world.

Dr. Bai said: "Yes, this kind of person is generally traumatized, and choosing a very strange place to sleep will make him feel safe. ”

When he said this, I suddenly thought of the woman in the mental hospital.

"I've seen a woman in a psychiatric hospital, she likes to sleep in mid-air, like a bat, this kind of behavior is actually a kind of self-protection, right?"

Dr. Bai was surprised, "Have you been in a psychiatric hospital?" ”

When he asked, I wouldn't say anything.

After Dr. Bai left, Peng Zhen came in, and he sat down in the place where Dr. Bai had sat before, and reached out to grab my hand. In the past two days, the back of my hand was bruised, he rubbed it slowly, and then asked me cautiously, "Can you tell me what happened to you in that ward?" ”

I wanted to pull my hand back all at once.

Peng Zhen grabbed it, pulled away my fingers that were suddenly clenched into fists one by one, and stretched, "Don't be afraid, I just asked, I don't mean anything else." ”

But I was still tense and refused to say a word.

Peng Zhen stared at my hand, his heart gloomy, he didn't know anything about my situation in that ward in the mental hospital. Let Xu Zhi go and adjust the camera records, so that the place is generally monitored.

I don't know why, I wasn't in it all the time.

If I don't say it, he doesn't know anything.

Peng Zhen was silent for a long time before he regained his energy to come to see me, "I have prepared a wheelchair for you, will you go out to see the sun in the afternoon?" Lying down like this every day is not conducive to physical recovery. ”

I just nodded, no opinion at all.

In the afternoon, he actually got a wheelchair and carried me to the wheelchair.

Afraid that my legs would go out and get cold, he even half-knelt in front of me and wrapped my legs in a blanket.

There was a sudden noise at the door.

Before Peng Zhen could stand up, someone came in.

The first is a middle-aged woman I haven't seen, the young woman next to her, I know, is Ji Hetong's sister, Ji Jie.

Peng Zhen still maintained a half-kneeling posture, turned his head to look over, and shouted, "Mom." ”

It turned out that the well-maintained lady who walked at the forefront was Peng Zhen's mother.