It was probably the first time that I, a so-called patient, showed my true emotions, so Dr. Bai said generously in the end, even if he was reluctant to do so.

"I'm a woman." After saying that, she felt that it was inappropriate, and added: "I'm just a woman physically. ”

In other words, psychologically, it is not.

I have been in contact with Dr. Bai for a while, and when I first met, I thought he looked a little feminine, but now the world seems to have a significant difference in the aesthetics of men from the past. What's more, Dr. Bai's demeanor and speech are not a little feminine at all, although they can't be said to be masculine, but they also feel that they can't be related to women.

So I'm still quite surprised.

I'm a person, I usually can't hide my emotions, and Dr. Bai can see it, and he is a little uncomfortable, "I knew that if I said it, you would look down on me." ”

Surprise is surprise, but to say that you look down on it, it is absolutely nothing.

"How so? You're so powerful and self-conscious, it's too late for me to envy you. "I probably wouldn't have had such a strong envy before, but not now, I'm really envious.

has a high salary and a job that I like, I can be myself frankly, and even the gender is in my own hands, why should I look down on her?

If you really look into it, she looks down on me about the same.

Doctor Bai looked at me sincerely, hooked his lips and smiled, "Actually, Mr. Peng is still careless, he only cares about me being a woman, but he doesn't think about the fact that although I am a woman, I also love women." ”

This one.......

I'm speechless.

A man like Peng Zhen will probably never be able to understand that there are still women in this world who love women.

Dr. Bai sat down next to me, hooked my chin a little frivolously, and said with a smile, "How is it?" In the future, you can follow me, we can still cheat, so that your inner problems will be solved. ”

I hurriedly shook my head.

Following Peng Zhen, I have a lot of grievances and pains.

But...... No matter how sad I am, I can't change my sexual orientation overnight, and Dr. Bai opened his mouth to say such words as cheating, I really can't imagine two women doing that.

He even shook his head in defiance.

Dr. Bai smiled at me like this, and stopped teasing me, "I'm kidding, I don't have a man or a woman in my heart, I don't love anyone." ”

People like me are probably really brainwashed by those ancient novels and poems, and when Dr. Bai said this, my first feeling was that every woman who said that she would never be in love would hide an impossible person in her heart.

In fact, what kind of person is there in society now, maybe she is still a woman who doesn't love anything.

This is an unsolvable topic.

I didn't say anything, my fingers clasping the cushion in my arms.

I have to say that because of Dr. Bai's confession, I am really close to her, after all, women have a common secret relationship and will be closer, not just for fun.

Dr. Bai sat next to me and said to me, "What is going on in your heart?" I've been coming and going for months, and I really can't tell what's going on in your mind. If you want to say that you don't like Mr. Peng, there is no reason at all, I don't dare to believe people like him, but if you really want to talk about it, people who want to climb into his bed can really circle around the inner city. You don't know, do you? Last month, An's acquired several entertainment companies, and now it has been integrated into the largest entertainment media in China, what is the concept of an entertainment company? That is, who you want to be popular, just think about these graduates of the film school and the drama school, which one of them is not gearing up to drill into this circle, Mr. Peng is now the biggest financier behind it! Don't ask for too many chance encounters. ”

I listened with a smile, during the time when Peng Zhen took over An's, he did make some drastic reforms. Originally, the traditional industrial projects in An's that did not make money but lost money were abandoned by him, and he moved closer to the cultural industry and the new electronics industry. As long as each of these measures of An's is released, it will be reported on the news, and I don't think it's possible.

Every time Dr. Bai comes, it's basically the current situation, she said, I listen.

So I didn't think there was anything wrong, and Dr. Bai continued: "But if you want to say that you like Mr. Peng, why can't I see it?" ”

I tilted my head, "Where can I see the like?" ”

Dr. Bai pointed to his eyes, "Here." ”

"People who really love each other, you can see from the eyes, when you mention him, the eyes don't shine."

This is a new theory, and I asked with interest, "How do you shine in your eyes?" Is it the same as a searchlight? ”

"Flails!" Doctor Bai dragged out his voice, "You won't not understand, who hasn't had a spring heart." ”

Yes, there were.

What girl has never been filled with joy at the mention of a person, and her eyes sparkled.

It's just that I'm past that time.

I still smiled and whispered: "You just said so much, there is one to the effect, Peng Zhen is very powerful and powerful, he can turn his hands into clouds and cover his hands for rain, so many girls want to have something to do with him." But what does all this have to do with me? His strength is not good or harmful to me, so what is the use of his so-called resources to me? I don't want to be a star, I don't know how to act in movies, I don't have any intentions. ”

There are many people around who have such thoughts about Dr. Bai, including nannies, bodyguards, and the secretary assistant group around Peng Zhen.

Everybody thinks so.

Peng Zhen is so radiant, he is the young director of the An family, and now he may not be called a young director, gradually, Peng Zhen has stepped into the position of the helmsman. As for me, a divorced woman, with no job and no achievements, she can only nest at home as a moth. Comparing the two, I feel like I have burned high incense.

Xu Zhu said in the original words, that is, how much virtue I accumulated in my previous life, so that I could meet Peng Zhen.

But is that the case?

When men and women are together, do they look at status, status, and money?

And rhetorically, what did I get from Peng Zhen? Not to mention those injuries, it can be said that I made them myself. What about the rest, a bunch of expensive clothes that I don't like? A beautiful gold wire cage with every inch of land? Or am I in this chaotic day, with no hope for the future?

Even if Peng Zhen becomes the king of the universe, what does it have to do with me.

On the contrary, the higher his status and the greater the power in his hands, the smaller I become, and the weaker the power of resistance.

Dr. Bai was speechless.

I whispered, "It's been a long time since I've seen my mom." ”

I have been dependent on my mother since I was a child, but after following Peng Zhen, I haven't even seen my mother. Those who say that I rely on Peng Zhen to live a good life don't know whether I am sorry or not.

The separation of mother and daughter is in sight, but they can't see it.

They only saw Peng Zhen's resources, Peng Zhen's status, and my coldness and indifference.

I know that no one will stand in my place and think for me, but I still can't help it, I am wronged after all.

After thinking about it, what can she do if she tells Dr. Bai, it is impossible for her to persuade Peng Zhen, who can control that man.

After Dr. Bai left, I sat in front of the floor-to-ceiling window in a daze, watching the lights on the tall buildings outside turn on one after another, and go out one by one, imagining the lives of those people, complaining that my boss only talked about overtime and not raising wages, discussing where to go to the restaurant for dinner, and commenting on the new season of clothes in the clothing store downstairs.

The days are busy and steady.

As soon as my body was lightly picked up, I didn't need to look sideways to know that Peng Zhen was back.

"Have you eaten?" I asked him.

"Not yet." Peng Zhen spoke in a low voice, but it was rare gentleness.

"Let's eat together, then."

I've been in a daze, but I don't have much appetite.

Dinner, of course, was eaten by Peng Zhen's wind, and I sat aside and counted the grains of rice.

I'm not hungry.

Every day at home, no exercise and no brain, there is no energy consumption at all, where will you be hungry.

Peng Zhen didn't know what to do outside, but when he came home to eat, he was always very arrogant, and he ate with a sigh, and there was no gentlemanly demeanor at all.

It's really hard to imagine what the expressions of those elites would be if he snorted like this in front of all the shareholders during his breakfast meeting.

After eating, Peng Zhen wiped his mouth and sighed comfortably, "It's better to eat comfortably at home." ”

But no, the dishes on the table are all carefully made for Peng Zhen, and they are all the flavors he likes.

Peng Zhen is such a violent person, but the taste of eating is very light, not to mention heavy seasonings like pepper and chili, even soy sauce He can't tolerate putting too much.

Therefore, the dishes at home are always water-like, and there is little salt.

Peng Zhen eats a lot of big fish, meat, oil and salt outside, so when I come home, I want to eat such light things to change my appetite, but I eat three meals a day at home, so slowly, eating has become a thing that needs to be endured for me.

In fact, I can call the shots in this matter, I told the nanny aunt that I wanted to eat some delicious meals, but the nanny aunt was embarrassed, my menu was formulated by Peng Zhen personally, and the nanny aunt was not willing to disobey.

And when I made the request, the look in my nanny aunt was also very intriguing.

Because of the last time I was taken to the Peng family's old house, the so-called Peng Zhen who took care of me were all cleaned, and now the people I take care of are the old people of the An family arranged by Ms. An Nian.

The nanny aunt kept saying that she grew up watching Peng Zhen, and the inner meaning is to talk about qualifications, I am not as good as her.

The servants who came out of the wealthy family all had three points of arrogance, and I understood the truth of the three officials in front of the prime minister.

Gradually, I won't talk about it.

In the eyes of the nanny and aunt, Peng Zhen, the young master of the An family, is the most powerful and noble person in heaven and earth, and a woman like me is just his plaything, and it can even be said that it is Peng Zhen's stain.

Being able to cook three meals a day for me is already good for me.

Under the fence, that's probably what it means.

Because of this, I am in a daze more and more now, and I don't even want to take a second look at the people in this family.

"I just said that the young master likes to eat the fish fillet porridge I cooked, sure enough! I'll go to the market tomorrow and buy another fish if it's fresh. "The nanny's name is Aunt Hao, and she talks very close to Peng Zhen.

Peng Zhen was full and in a good mood, so he snorted.

Then the afterglow swept to me, who was still counting the grains of rice, "You don't like to eat?" ”

As soon as Peng Zhen's words fell, Aunt Hao's eyes followed, I didn't want to look at it, so I could only bury my head lower and try my best to pick up the rice.

I didn't say anything, but Aunt Hao began to count, "Miss Lin has a very small amount of food, every time I work hard to cook a table of dishes, she only eats a little." If you want a lot of masters, you can take a look at the menu and remove a few things, where can you waste so much every day. ”

Peng Zhen frowned.

I didn't talk much.

I couldn't grasp the portion size well, and I ate too much at once, and my stomach hurt after eating.

Peng Zhen pulled me out for a walk, "Your leg is still recovering, it's good to move every day." ”

I followed him, step by step.

This place is downstairs in the commercial area, and there is no way to walk, so we still walk on the sky platform in the middle of the building.

After walking in silence for a while, Peng Zhen suddenly said, "Or, let you go back and continue to work, okay?" ”

It's probably not been a long time, and my brain is a little wooden.

"Huh?" The stupid didn't understand the meaning of his words.

Peng Zhen said again: "I see that you have nothing to do at home every day, and if you go on like this, people will be stupid." After speaking, he regretted it again, "If you don't want to, then don't go back, teaching is already tiring, and you have to stand in class, and your legs are not good." ”

"I do!" I snapped.

My tongue swirled in my mouth, and I was so happy that I didn't know how to express it, but I didn't know how to say it when it came to my mouth, and in the end I could only repeat, "I'm willing to go back to class." ”

Peng Zhen looked at me and was a little dissatisfied, "I don't want to stay at home so much?" Did someone bully you? Are those people bad for you? ”

I bowed my head.

Stop talking.

What can I say, the people in the family, from nannies to bodyguards, are all people sent by the An family, and they only have Peng Zhen in their eyes, and I am just a vassal. What's good for me, isn't it good for me to give me three meals? Wouldn't it be nice to keep an eye on me all the time? Isn't it good not to talk to me?

Peng Zhen looked at the top of my head, a small whirlwind, the one he has seen the most recently, is actually this whirlwind.

This feeling is not good, he feels that the person in front of him is like a flower that has left the soil, slowly withering, he doesn't want to do this, he wants to change.

He cleared his throat and said, "I bought you a lot of new clothes today, all of them are light colors, don't you like them very much?" ”

The clothes were brought back in the afternoon.

It's good-looking.

It's just that Aunt Hao's eyes looked at me at that time made me feel ashamed.

In fact, none of these are what I asked Peng Zhen for.

But, helplessly, those people in the family don't think so.

In their eyes, I am probably an insatiable money worshipper, and they are sad to watch their very good young master being played by me, and they hate that they can't immediately expose my true colors and let me get out.

Thinking about it, I felt for a moment that someone was choking my neck, and I couldn't breathe well.

I didn't have time to think about it, so I said, "Can I go back home and see my mother." ”

It's been a long time since I've been back to see her, and I'm really worried and missing.

Peng Zhen nodded, "Let the driver send you back tomorrow." ”

"Can I stay overnight?"

"No way!" Peng Zhen's refusal was categorical.

I was silent, I shouldn't have asked for anything.

The next day was the day I was able to go home to see my mother.

I was filled with joy in my heart, but I didn't dare to show it, and the clothes I had carefully selected looked simple and plain. I lied to my mom that I had left here and was out of town.

Now dressed gorgeously and splendidly, I'm afraid she will be suspicious.

Nervous all the way home.

The car was parked far away from the unit where my mom lived, and I was afraid my mom would see it.

Walking all the way home, almost in small steps, I really want to go back soon.

But I was shocked by what I saw.

Although Xu Heng once mentioned it, he heard that it was completely different from seeing it with his own eyes.

The old brick building originally had the word 'demolition' written on it, and many families upstairs had already moved out, even those who had not moved out were preparing to move out.

The whole building looks dilapidated, and many families have removed their windows when they move out, leaving broken holes.

Originally, there were many old people living upstairs, so downstairs you can always see some old men and old ladies sitting in the sun, as well as scenes of children playing. That kind of picture makes this old building mixed with a thick warmth.

But now, there's nothing.

The garbage left behind by those who moved away in the courtyard of the building is still there, worn-out sofas, discarded cabinets, and even broken toys.

A depressing scene.

I quickened my pace, I was a little scared to look at such a place, not to mention that my mother still lived here every day.

It hurts in my heart.

Knock.

I heard my mom ask, "Who?"

When I said the word 'I', tears were already falling, "Mom, it's me back." ”

"Flails?" With my mother's voice, the door opened.

I haven't seen her for a few months, my mother has aged a lot, it turns out that when I was there, I regularly took her to dye her hair, so I can't see it, but now I'm not there for a few months, and she doesn't dye it herself, and at this time it looks like she is full of gray hair.

I burst into tears.

"Mom, it's all my unfilial piety, it's all my fault!"

I hugged her, obviously feeling that she had lost a lot of weight, and my mother, who had sheltered me from the wind and rain, was so thin and small when I was holding her in my arms at this time.

I feel distressed like being cut by a knife.

My mother's tears kept flowing, but her face was smiling, "Silly boy, what are you crying about, it's good to come back, it's good to come back!" ”

I just shook my head and couldn't say anything.

My mother was excited, "There aren't many vegetables at home, I'm going to buy them!" Make food for my flail at night, look at you, how thin you have become, you have suffered a lot in the past few months, hey, my mother is worried, it's good to be back. ”

She kept repeating that it would be good to come back.

I knew that although she told me to hide out and get as far away from the capital as possible, she still missed me in her heart.

Seeing that she was full of energy to go out to buy vegetables, I took the eco-friendly bag in her hand and followed her, "I'll go with you." ”