I can't control my emotions at all, I don't understand why Ji Hetong wants to pester me so unrelentingly, if I did have a good feeling with him at the beginning, but that feeling completely disappeared after I was with Peng Zhen.

My heart is slowly filled with Peng Zhen, especially tonight, when I decided to break up with Peng Zhen, the emotions of saying goodbye to the past made me full of sadness, and when I saw Ji Hetong again at this time, I felt his closeness and intimacy, and that kind of disgust was almost like it was about to explode.

I'm so annoyed by this person, I listened to what Peng Zhen said just now.

I had several major conflicts with Peng Zhen, all because of Ji Hetong, if it was the first time I ate at Marriott, it could still be said to be a coincidence, because Peng Zhen was too possessive. Then the second time, Ji Hetong ran to say that he wanted to elope with me, and then when he knew that I was thrown into a mental hospital by Peng Zhen, he still chose to go abroad to avoid it, why did such a person appear in front of me with an innocent appearance now.

I hissed and roared, "You're not done!" I don't know why you're approaching me, but I'm telling you very clearly, I can't do it with you! Can you please not appear in front of me in the future, and don't arrange anything for me privately! ”

Probably the sadness in my heart has found an outlet, and I even think that Ji Hetong has a lot of responsibility for my bad relationship with Peng Zhen.

As Peng Zhen said, if it weren't for Ji He's stimulation again and again, maybe Peng Zhen's behavior would not be so radical.

That's right, I'm so eccentric.

I know that Peng Zhen is bad, if those things weren't for the ideas he had in his heart, it would have been impossible to achieve them, but no! Just like I will protect my own people no matter what, Peng Zhen is my own person in my heart, and Ji Hetong, he is not!

Ji Hetong was shocked by my sudden roar, and looked at me with a shocked face, "Lin Flail......."

"Don't call me by name!" I was really disgusted, "I know that you are very good, gentle and considerate of your family background, what kind of person you can't find." I'm just a small citizen, not worthy of you officials, my request is very simple, is to let me live a few days of stable life? Is such an idea extravagant, can you let me take a break! I'm dying of exhaustion! ”

By the end, I almost burst into tears.

Why is it so hard!

Why is it so hard to live!

Who am I recruiting to provoke whom, since Zhang Xu's derailment, life is like entering the fast lane, running forward non-stop, I am like a spinning top every day, I don't know how difficult the days are.

These months are longer than all the time in the first half of my life combined!

I'm really tired of coping, I never thought about messing with these big guys, I just want to live my own little life, stable and steady, but now all that hope seems to have become a luxury.

Pain, struggle.

"I hate you guys! Hate all of you! ”

Can't you just give me a little bit of space? Can't you make me a little bit happy?

Lovelorn people are easy to lose control of their emotions, I originally suppressed those words to Peng Zhen all the way, I have already reached the limit of my emotions, and now I have to face Ji Hetong, and all the grief and anger explode in an instant.

I can't control it at all.

Ji Hetong was yelled at by me and had nothing to say.

My mother couldn't stand it and came to shoot me, "What the hell is going on with you kid, He Tong kindly went to pick you up, worried that you came to the house again to wait, why did you become annoying when you came here!" I see that you are spoiled by me, and you can't tell the difference between good and bad people, so don't you apologize to He Tong quickly! ”

Be at the end of one's forbearance.

"Mom! He's more important than me in your heart, isn't he? Because he's a good person who has the ability to get you what you want, and I'm a divorced daughter who can't even hold your head up when you go out, right? You wish I could marry him soon, so that it can be sold for a good price, right? Have you ever thought that I am your daughter, and you help an outsider to train me every time, have you ever thought about my feelings! ”

My mother's face turned blue when I robbed her.

I turned around and picked up a feather duster beside me, during this time the construction dust here was very heavy, so my mother took things to dust every day, and then she greeted me without saying a word, "I see that you don't go to the house for three days!" Who taught you to talk to your own mother like this, I have worked hard to raise you for so many years, am I easy! When is it your turn to talk to your mother like this! ”

My mother has always believed in the educational principle of 'filial piety under the mallet', and I can say that I was beaten up by her all the way.

At that time, many people persuaded me, even Xu Heng also said that it was not easy for my mother to take me alone, and there must be a lot of resentment in my heart that had nowhere to vent, so I was impatient with me, and it was understandable to do it from time to time.

Others only saw my mother's suffering, but they never thought about the damage I suffered from being beaten all the way.

I stood up straight, a habit I had developed since I was a child, and when I was beaten, I didn't cry and stood up, and I wouldn't even say a word to beg for mercy.

My mother was even more angry when she saw my stubbornness, "Are you still reasonable?" I'm raising you so big, even if I sell you, it's all reasonable! Now I look at He Tonghao, it's not for you to think about the future, when you are old and have nothing to rely on in the future, I see who you are counting on to go! ”

The feather duster made a muffled sound in the air and landed heavily on me, arms, neck, and even cheeks.

My mother never showed mercy when she beat people, even if I was her own daughter, she would be beaten to the death. When I was in high school, my homeroom teacher once complained to my mother that I was talking to my table mates in class, and my mother came home and beat me without saying a word, and I was shocked by the scars all over my body.

I was also in a bad temper at that time, so I went directly to the teacher's office the next day, and then opened my sleeves to show the head teacher, stared at him hatefully and asked, "How long have I been talking to my table mates to make you sue so indiscriminately!" ”

At that time, not to mention the head teacher, but the whole office was shocked, and there were not a few who fell to me, and the head teacher at that time should not have sued indiscriminately.

Some memories can't be picked up, and once you think about them, they hurt!

Ji Hetong saw that I was beaten and came up to pull the fight, but the so-called pull of the man just stood aside and whispered: "Auntie, you dissipate your anger, Lin Fang is a temporary temper, I just endure it." ”

It's okay if he doesn't say it, but when he says it, my mom is even more angry.

"Look! How good people are to you, but you don't know how to lift! ”

Ji Hetong said to me again: "Lin Yu, you quickly apologize to your aunt, saying that you won't be like this in the future, make sure to talk to me well, and your aunt will be angry." ”

Lose your marbles!

If it's my mom who beats me, I'll bear it, because that's my mom! But what kind of thing is Ji Hetong, I grabbed the feather duster that my mother pumped on me, and regardless of the pain on my body, I stared at Ji Hetong and said, "Fuck you hypocrite!" Do I need your advice? I'm telling you, in this family, there are you and me! ”

After saying that, I shook it off, turned around and opened the door and ran.

After Ji Hetong reacted, he hurriedly chased after him, but when he was at my house, he had already changed his slippers, and he was chasing after changing his shoes, so it was impossible to be fast.

My mother cried completely at this time, "He Tong, you hurry up and chase her back, what time is it, she is a girl, how dangerous it is outside!" ”

Every time I beat me, my mom would cry, and it was very sad.

I rushed downstairs, not caring so much.

Running all the way, I don't want to be chased by Ji Hetong, there is only one thought in my heart, I want to stay away from him, a little farther away!

I can't run downstairs with me, but I can't care so much, so I tripped when I ran, "Ah! ～”

I hurriedly got up, and when I wanted to continue running, I noticed a figure in front of me.

It's Peng Zhen.

He hadn't been sleeping since he had brought me back, but had been standing there and smoking.

At this time, I saw someone stumbling out, and heard the sound of me falling, so I strode over.

Peng Zhen picked me up without saying a word, "What's the matter?" ”

At this moment, Ji Hetong roared in the unit not far behind him: "Lin Fart, you stop, it's dangerous outside!" ”

I hugged Peng Zhen's neck, almost begging him, "Hurry up, hurry up!" Please! ”

I don't want to face Ji Hetong, some people feel disgusted even if they look at it more.

Peng Zhen paused, then said okay, then strode away with me in his arms, and then got into the car.

When he started the car, Ji Hetong had actually run to the side of the car, he kept banging on the co-pilot's window, he didn't know what to shout, Peng Zhen's car was so well sealed that he couldn't hear what he was shouting outside.

Peng Zhen put one hand on the stall, his head slightly sideways, squinting his eyes to look out the window.

I know Peng Zhen's temper, I'm afraid it's very similar to rushing down at this time, but I'm really tired, this day, it seems to have drained all my energy.

"Let's go, I'm really tired."

Peng Zhen didn't speak, reversed silently, and then turned around with a flick of his tail and drove away.

I leaned in the passenger seat, literally collapsed.

Looking at the floating light outside the car window, I was really tired, but I couldn't sleep.

I really didn't expect my mother to beat me for Ji Hetong, this is the saddest thing for me, other people, whether it is Peng Zhen or Ji Hetong, are all outsiders, and they are people who are not related to me by blood.

But my mother is different, after so many years of dependence, I regard my mother more seriously than myself.

But the result is so sad.

In my heart, even if I broke up with Peng Zhen, my mother, who had to go back to accompany her, did not value me as much as I valued her.

As a teacher, I often say that no amount of harm in the outside world is actually comparable to what parents bring to their children. Parents get what they give their children.

Parents are gentle and caring for their children, and children are naturally open-minded and sunny. On the contrary, if parents scold and intimidate their children, then the children will naturally have low self-esteem and distortions. For many years, I had low self-esteem.

Even today, I still have an inferiority complex.

I feel that I am not worthy of Peng Zhen, and I feel that there is no one who really loves me without other selfish distractions.

It's really sad to think about it.

On the same day, I lost Peng Zhen, and my relationship with my mother also fell to a freezing point.

Life doesn't seem to have a more failed moment than it is now.

Tears were like broken threads, and I tilted my head and buried my face in the leather seat beneath me. On this day, the ultimate joy and the ultimate sadness all came, is it because I get too much happiness, that God will give me so much pain?

Peng Zhen drove me around the city.

Since I said that I had broken up, Peng Zhen seemed to have been choked by the throat suddenly, and his words became very few, and even his breathing became much lighter.

I don't have the heart to speculate about his feelings.

Take care of yourself.

Unconsciously, I slowly fell asleep.

......

The tingling pain in my arm woke me up, and I opened my eyes to find myself back in the bedroom of the Xia Mansion. I was amazed that I slept so dead, and I didn't wake up when I was carried back here.

Looking sideways, Peng Zhen pursed his lips tightly, and his good-looking lips were completely pursed into a straight line by him.

He glared and carefully re-medicated the wounds on my arms, as if he were facing the most terrible enemy, not my thin arm.

Looking at Peng Zhen like this, I can't tell whether my heart is more bitter or more sour.

Although he tried his best to move gently, I still felt pain, and the rest of the places were cold and cold after being drugged, and I felt very good, except for the scar on the bottom of the neck, because the skin was too delicate, and the skin was broken when a feather duster hit it.

The potion seeped into the skin and it hurt terribly.

I hissed, and Peng Zhen was frightened, "Hurt you?" Then he whistled on me.

It's a bit naïve for a big man to make such an action.

The breath he breathed wasn't cold, it was hot and hit my neck, so that his pulse was stained with his breath.

I tilted my head, trying to move away from him.

Then he cautiously retreated, and lowered his head to medicate my other wounds.

His expression was so aggrieved that I was holding back the fire in my heart, "Who are you showing to me?!" ”

Who is he Peng Zhen, don't I know?

To be able to make him retreat and endure like this, that is really something that has never happened before.

Peng Zhen didn't say anything, and he didn't take the medicine anymore, so he stared at me.

I was upset by what he watched, it was really annoying. Originally, I just said that I broke up solemnly not long ago, and I was not without selfishness, and deliberately said that Peng Zhen was very bad, as if I had been wronged, and then left in style.

In this way, even if Peng Zhen thinks of me in the future, he will feel indebted to me.

I don't know where I got that mentality, but I just wanted to make him feel indebted to me so he could remember me for a longer time. As a result, he pretended to be chic and didn't pretend to be, and it became the scene like now.

After neatly saying that he broke up, he turned around and followed him back.

A small self-esteem can be said to be trampled on.

Completely arrogant, I yelled at Peng Zhen, "You get out for me!" I don't want to see you! ”