It was just a moment of panic, and then I calmed down. Back at the Ye family, whether it was my original intention or everything that happened later, I had a clear conscience. I've never done anything to hurt anyone, including Peng Zhen in front of me.

I feel at ease, no matter what time it is, as long as I have a clear conscience, there will be no panic. I just want to make my life better, I work hard, treat my family and friends with my heart, and value every day of my life. Yes, there may be times when I make mistakes, for example, when I enthusiastically accepted Yami to live at home, I sincerely thought about Yami's plan, although I lost my husband later, but I still think about it, I will not be able to raise my head at all, because I don't think I was wrong to give to my friends.

For Peng Zhen, at this moment, I can also say that I have a clear conscience.

I bear both his good and my bad, and even try very hard to do something for him, trying my best to accommodate his temper.

I don't feel like I'm sorry for Peng Zhen in anything.

From a very young age, I knew that if I wanted to be loved and cared for by others, all I had to do was to give first. Up to now, I have been able to get back nine out of ten of my efforts, and I have already received a high return on investment. I lost my marriage because of friendship, but after all, not every friend is like Yami, I still have Xu Heng, and there are many colleagues and friends who think about me. Although I got a lot of malice when I returned to the Ye family, even my biological father had a different mind for me, but I got three uncles and three aunts. I don't regret it, and even when Peng Zhen said such an unpleasant thing, I felt sorry for them.

In Peng Zhen's tone, I think it is not without reason that the Ye family hates the Peng family.

It should be!

It's so hateful!

This kind of hatred evaporated the last bit of softness in my heart, and I looked at the man in front of me, "Since you know the Ye family's plan, you should stay away from me, don't let the Ye family really succeed." I know you're tired, but Peng Zhen don't blame me for this tiredness, without me, you are still the only heir of the Peng family of the An family, this tiredness is brought in the blood and bones, there is no way to avoid it, don't put unnecessary things on my head. This is a disguised psychological kidnapping. And I, whether the Ye family is good or bad, it is all in my blood and bones, and it is impossible for me to scrape off my flesh and blood. That's all that has been said, so let's make it clear, I was with you at the time, and I didn't know that there were so many hidden secrets in it. Later, I learned that I was soft-hearted because I didn't part with you at the first time, but obviously, you don't need this soft-heartedness. Let's stop here, don't get involved with each other and hurt each other. Without me, you would be a high-spirited, freshly dressed and angry son, and I just want to live a peaceful life. One part, two wide, each rejoicing. ”

Peng Zhen stared at me, staring at his prey with the eyes of a beast.

The tip of his tongue pressed against the roof of his mouth, "one apart and two wide, each rejoicing." He paused word for word, as if he was about to take every word apart and chew it up.

I met his eyes, those beautiful and addictive eyes, and I often wondered why such a good-looking person had such an unacceptable temper.

"yes, let's separate."

He doesn't want to get married, of course, with his family background, getting married is really dispensable. His previous engagement and ruined marriage were more awkward with his grandfather. Even if he's engaged, I'm still with him, aren't I? The future is the same, even if he gets married, I'm afraid there will still be women who will follow him willingly.

And I, although the last marriage hurt me deeply, but I am a traditional person, and I still have a lot of desire for love in my heart.

Whether it is from the family background or personal ideas, Peng Zhen and I are undoubtedly far from each other, and we should not be together.

The wrong beginning leads to a series of mistakes.

It's time to end it to today.

Peng Zhen's face seemed to be wearing a mask, stiff and stiff, any expression he made didn't look so natural, he sighed softly, "I knew that you were going back to the Ye family and definitely planning this day, Lin Fart, I knew it was so, I rushed back and broke your leg at that time." ”

He still spoke harsh words with cruel threats.

But I am not so scared anymore, and I must admit that returning to the Ye family and having a family that supports me is undoubtedly a great motivation for me. At least now I won't be afraid that Peng Zhen will throw me into a madhouse, after all, I'm not that time, I'm not a helpless orphan girl, let him rub it round.

But is the conflict between me and Peng Zhen really just because of the Ye family?

Of course not.

I chuckled, "Of course you can do that, don't you want a little pet who can only stay at home every day and wait for you to come back." ”

That's right, the best period of my relationship with Peng Zhen was when I was recuperating from a broken leg, he took care of me carefully and thoughtfully, and hugged me to sleep every day, satisfied and happy.

He has just joined An's, and although he is also busy, he still has to go home every day.

At that time, our days were indeed like loving couples.

It's just that I never told Peng Zhen, and that time was my most depressed time, the pain of my injuries, the indifference and contempt of the people around me, and loneliness....... The loneliness that seems to have been abandoned by the whole world.

Thou art honey, thy arsenic.

The most unbearable thing for me to look back on was that time.

"Small pets?" Peng Zhen sneered, "Even like you, you deserve to be called a 'little pet', Lin Fang, you think too highly of yourself." ”

I took two steps back, with a little wry smile on my face, indeed, I am not young, I have been divorced, my personality and temper are not very good, and my background is a little complicated. It really doesn't meet the standards of small pets.

In the club that Peng Zhen opened in the past, there are many people who are more suitable for the word pet than me.

Speaking of which, I knew I couldn't go any further.

When people get out of control of their emotions, the easiest thing to say is hurtful words, how much pain in their hearts, how much pain they have in the other party. If you continue, you can only hurt each other more.

I didn't want that to happen.

In fact, in my heart, I still have to thank Peng Zhen, if it weren't for his strong intervention, maybe I would still be immersed in the quagmire of failed marriage and can't extricate myself, and now, in less than a year, I have completely forgotten the pain and humiliation that Zhang Xu brought me.

I walked back to the door, took my clothes, and opened the door, during which Peng Zhen didn't say a word, and even turned his back to look at me.

This is something I never thought of.

I had imagined the separation between me and Peng Zhen, and all the pictures were all falling apart, and I never thought it would be such a peaceful scene. But that's fine, even if Peng Zhen and I don't have a good start, but there is an end, so it's okay.

When the door was opened, the cold wind from outside poured in, as if it could penetrate the flesh and skin and blow into people's hearts, and the cold carried moisture.

stepped out of the door, but after all, he couldn't help it, and said, "In the future, you take care of yourself." ”

After speaking, he felt that he had a lot to say, Peng Zhen was picky about eating, and it was difficult for ordinary people with light tastes to swallow at all. He has insomnia, he always sleeps very lightly, at the slightest movement, he will wake up, and then he will not sleep all night. He has a bad temper, and when others disobey him for half a sentence, they will be angry and hurt others. He still holds a grudge and provoked him, and he will return it no matter what........

Obviously, during the time I was with him, I deliberately avoided getting close to him and entered his world, but before leaving, my mind was full of details about him.

The words were said unsuspectingly.

In response to me, Peng Zhen roared angrily, "Get out! ”

The whole floor was ringing in my ears. For some reason, hearing his tantrum tone, my original worries in my heart were evacuated a lot.

Peng Zhen is still the same Peng Zhen after all!

It's good, it's really good, we're going back to the bridge.

Closed the door and got off the elevator alone.

This time I didn't go to the underground garage, but went to the lobby on the first floor. I vaguely want to go to the underground garage to say goodbye to Huzi and them, in the past few months, in fact, Huzi and they have been with me longer than Peng Zhen, and there is always a feeling.

But I held back.

Some things can be thought of in the heart, but they are deliberate when they are done.

Walking out of the Xiagong Mansion, standing in the most prosperous area of the capital, watching the cars coming and going on the road, I was a little confused for a while. It's been a long time since cars have been in and out of the car these months, and the feeling of such a person walking on the street is really long.

I just walked out recklessly and didn't take anything.

Although he knew in his heart that everything in that room belonged to Peng Zhen, he was still a little empty in his heart.

Fortunately, it was the Chinese New Year period, and the smog was not serious, so I walked alone on the street, except for the cold, there was no discomfort.

I have nowhere to go, I don't want to go to the hospital, and I really don't want to face my mother now. In the end, I decided to go back to the house where my mother lived before, although it was dilapidated, it was still a home.

I changed buses and subways several times along the way, and now I am alone, so I naturally want to go back to my old life.

I was dizzy in the car, looking at the misty steam on the bus glass, and lamenting in my heart, this is really easy to go from simple to luxurious, and difficult to go from luxury to simple.

When they finally get home, they are tired and want to collapse.

It's also my fault, I haven't taken the bus for a long time, and I will sit at the wrong stop, and I feel a little ashamed to think about it.

It's really a straight down IQ.

The home is still the same, where my mother lived, whether she is now or not, there is always her smell, her traces. Just a little bit of dust.

I don't want to move at this time, so I'm going to pay attention to it.

I wanted to go to the bedroom and hate to sleep, but when I passed by the bookcase, I stopped.

Maybe it's because at the dinner party before, Jin Ge's grandfather praised my handwriting, and at this moment I actually wanted to write. Just do it, prepare the ink, brush, spread the felt, press the rice paper in Huizhou with a paperweight, and hold the pen.

I finally understood that / there is a thought in the world / that cannot be described in words / rough and sad / the knot of echoes / and what awaits / is persistence.

Like a plateau in the moonlight / Just like a faint foolish smile.......

I didn't think about Cangyang Gyatso's poems, but wrote them with my mood.

It was already afternoon, and the winter eyes shone through the old windows, and shadows cast on the slightly mottled walls.

Time seemed to change at this moment.

After putting away the pen, I sat in the sunny room, quietly reading the poem in my heart, and everything seemed to go back to the past. At that time, although his family was poor, he lived a safe and happy life.

My mother is working hard for life, and I want to earn money as soon as possible and study hard and take exams.

Who said simplicity is not a joy.

All selfish distractions are filtered from the mind, doubts, disappointments, anxiety........ After that, I always wanted to make myself happy, and the days went on.

It's not so easy to be defeated, Xu Heng said that people like us who struggle out of the small alleys are Xiaoqiang who can't be beaten.

Even if there is no hope for the future at all, then create hope for yourself.

My biggest dream back then was to get into a good university, get a good job, and earn my own money to support my family. The most extravagant thing is that it is best to find a father, and when I was young, I always wanted a complete home.

Now that my dreams have come true, what do I have to complain about?

As for Peng Zhen........

Thinking of his name, I actually have a lot of emotion, just think it is an accident that life gave me, love and hate, all in the past.

When I think about it, I seem to have recovered a lot.

Then I started scrubbing and cleaning up the house, in fact, it should have been cleaned up a long time ago, I should have cleaned it up a year ago, but my mother was in the hospital, and there was no one at home, so I was completely neglected.

While scrubbing the room, I planned to see the house after the year, the house before Zhang Xu, I had already sold it, and I had the money in my hand, so I had to do something.

This house is not a long-term time after all.

If you have a plan for the future, your life will be more energetic.

After the year, the eighth junior high school will open, and there is no way, who will let it be the graduating class of the third year of junior high school.

Xiao Qi didn't come to report, he said before that he was going to go abroad after the year, although I had some objections to the child going abroad in the third year of junior high school, I felt that he was too young, his personality had not yet been formed, and he would inevitably suffer some bad influences when he went out.

But I'm not Xiao Qi's parents, think about Xiao Qi's mother's attitude towards me, let's not say this.

Without Xiao Qi, there seems to be a lack of vitality in the class, and it may be because of the New Year's class, the students are a little listless.

I can only devote more experience to accompanying students every day, and I have become the head teacher of the twenty-four filial piety.

People in the same office laughed at me and said, "Teacher Lin, you are too hardworking, and your family is not distressed." ”

Ji Jie rarely participated in our chat, and sneered: "Yes, Mr. Lin, you have a family now." ”