Her eyes were earnest, and her words were conclusive, but I didn't have half a soft heart, "I'll ask your attending physician first to see your physical condition." ”

And then I ran away.

The doctor's words were much more objective than what my mother said, long-term depression and hyperthyroidism, so at present, it is better to have surgery to remove her thyroid tumor as soon as possible.

I nodded.

When my mother first went into the operating room for heart stent surgery, I was panicked and didn't know what to do, but now, when I heard the news that she was going to have surgery again, I was much calmer. I sensibly asked what I needed to prepare for her, and what was the worst and best outcome after surgery.

The doctor patiently answered my question, and then he sighed a little and said, "No matter what kind of surgery, it is dangerous, and the most important thing is the cooperation of the patient." The current situation is that your mother insists on conservative treatment and resists surgery, which is the most troublesome thing. ”

I can understand what the doctor said before, and no one dares to say it, there are foolproof things in this world, especially the doctor has to say everything bad in front.

And the latter words, I probably have a cognition in my heart.

Coming out of the doctor's office, I sat in the corridor of the hospital in a daze, and my mother's thoughts, I can probably understand a little. She was afraid that she wouldn't be able to get off the operating table, so she wanted to settle me down before the surgery.

But the settlement in her heart is very different from my own identity.

Zhang Xu........ How could it be!

"Jiajia?" I looked up, it was Dad.

He was supposed to have come to see my mother in the hospital, "Why are you sitting here?" Feeling unwell? ”

I sometimes can't understand my father, if my mother's life was ruined by her own character, then my father may only be ruined by all the people around him.

If my grandparents hadn't taken my mother to raise me at home, and later insisted that my mother marry my father, maybe all the tragedies would not have happened. Maybe my dad will be like the third uncle, find a beloved, someone who can get along with, and live a life with beauty.

Fate, who can tell.

My father sat down beside me and rubbed my hair helplessly, "What's wrong?" If you are so sad, say it and let Dad hear it. ”

When he first met me, my dad really wanted me to avenge my brother. But the pressure of the third uncle is there, and I have completely lost contact with Peng Zhen in the past six months, and my father's desire for revenge seems to have faded.

Although I haven't seen each other for many years and my feelings are not deep, I am old and have a daughter by my side, which is better than no one around me before.

He can follow my mother to give me a blind date, in fact, he is also looking forward to me being well.

I was depressed in my heart, and I couldn't make sense with my mother, but I didn't want to hide it in the face of my father.

"On a blind date today, the person my mother arranged for me to meet was my ex-husband." I say.

"I know this, your mother also told me, she said that at that time, the family was disgusted with your orphans and widows, and it was not good for you, and now that you have a father, they will definitely not wronged you. I thought that of course the husband and wife were still the original match, so I didn't stop it. ”

"That's what she told you?" I couldn't believe that my mom could bring things over in such a light way.

My expression at this time, what a sensitive person my father was, "Isn't that so?" ”

When he recognized me, I was already divorced, and I was not clear about the specific problems between me and Zhang Xu, of course, I would not take the initiative to talk about it.

But at this time, I didn't want to hide it, and with my father by my side, I could resist my mother more.

I gently told my dad everything that had happened.

My father was very silent, but he listened very carefully, and when I finished speaking, he looked at him with some trepidation. I saw a murderous look on my father's face, which he used to show when he told about his brother's death.

I was a little panicked, and hurriedly said: "That person is in good condition now, but these are all made by the old man of the An family, he wants Zhang Xu to be with me again, so as to clear the stumbling block for Peng Zhen, such a man, I can't go back no matter what." ”

What Zhang Xu has done, I will never forget, although the time has passed, it can be said that I have forgotten, and I can say that I have let it go. But if I act as if nothing happened, that's a no-no.

And Zhang Xu is obviously Old Man An's person now, even if I don't have any prospects with Peng Zhen, then I can't jump into Old Man An's trap like this, right!

My heart was full of sorrow, but I did not know to whom I spoke.

My father touched my head, "I've wronged you all these years." ”

I felt a little sour all of a sudden, and only then did I understand that my father and mother were still different. I used to think that I could still live a good life without my father, but such a gentle palm, giving me a feeling of warmth and love, is really different from my mother's endless dislike.

The father was strong and said, "I really can't imagine that my Yehe's daughter will have such a day when people will be bullied like this." I can't protect my son, that's because I don't have the ability, and now if I can't even protect my daughter, then what else can I do in my life. ”

His words, with self-blame and love, made me feel relieved at once.

For the first time, in the confrontation with my mother, I had more strength.

"That mom she ......."

My dad laughed, "Your mom ...... her" He shook his head when he said about his mom, obviously not knowing how to talk about it, and after thinking for a while, he said: "You left home when you were four years old, and the four-year-old child can already remember people, you have never thought about it, why is there nothing in your memory?" ”

This question.......

I really never thought about it.

Thinking about it now, it shouldn't be, even if it's just a vague shadow, I should remember my father, my brother, these closest people. And I really don't remember anything, not even that I have an older brother.

The father said in a low voice, "Your mother suffered when she was a child, and she always felt that we looked down on her. Of course, she can't be blamed for this, after all, your aunt was really not easy to get along with back then. But in my case, it is the same. If it weren't for this affection, I wouldn't have compromised my family and married her. ”

If he really doesn't have any feelings at all, even if he fights to the death, he won't agree to get married.

And after marriage, it is indeed a period of honey and oil blending, newlyweds, there are always many sweet times.

"It wasn't until I gave birth to your brother that I found out that there was a big problem with her personality. She doesn't allow anyone to come near your brother, your grandparents, your aunt, or your third uncle! She said that the child was her alone, and no one else wanted to get close to her. Even for a long time, she thought that she gave birth to the eldest grandson of the Ye family, if she hadn't been aggressive at that time and had revenge, Xiao Qing in your aunt's womb would not have been born prematurely, and she was born sick and weak. ”

I really don't know these things, and no one tells me about them.

But come to think of it, these things are really something my mother can do.

She can take me outside for more than ten years and not let the Ye family see me, and it is very possible to not let others see my brother at that time.

I opened my mouth, not knowing what to say.

The father seemed to be stuck in a long memory, "Originally, your grandparents loved her very much, and they were raised in their own family, otherwise they wouldn't let me marry her, but she didn't let people see your brother, and directly promoted your aunt's premature birth, and the family can still tolerate her." Your grandmother spoke at that time, saying that if she was so lawless, the Ye family would not be able to tolerate her. At that time, she panicked, came to apologize to me, and relented, and then she had you. ”

Speaking of this, the father suddenly became in pain, "It's just that who would have thought that after you were born, she would do the same trick again." ”

Once again, let no one see the child.

"When I gave birth to you, your brother was two years old, and when your brother was four years old, not only did he not know his family, but he was very strange and hateful. One time your grandmother went to see her secretly, and he hit her with a stone and broke her head. Now your grandfather spoke, and took your brother directly to the upper room. Your mother is constantly making trouble, even threatening your life. ”

My heart trembled, "Dad........ Then your days ......."

Maybe I haven't been together for many years, and my relationship with my father is not as deep as others, but it is precisely because of this lack of depth that I have a more objective perspective.

Think about it, the father back then, the son of the family, was also high-spirited, but because of this marriage, he hardly had a few days of good life. In the face of such a wife, the accusations of the elders in the family, the resentment of his sister, the strangeness of the children, everything made him tired.

It's scary.

It's terrible to think about that kind of day.

My father looked at my distressed look and laughed, "I really didn't expect that my daughter would be the first person to feel sorry for me today." ”

At that time, his parents would only say that he was incapable and couldn't control his daughter-in-law. And his sister's hatred for him is even more flesh-and-blood.

Depressed like a suffocating day.

Weakened by my father's words, I hugged his not young body for the first time, "Dad, that's all over." ”

It's all gone, those days are gone.

My father patted me on the head like he was teasing a little pet.

"I was also at fault, I shouldn't have run away back then, if I really couldn't get by, the divorce would be over. But I don't dare, and your grandparents won't agree. At that time, there was a problem with the style of life, and the career was completely ruined. Your mother took you away later, in fact, the family was relieved, she could stop, and no one could ask for it. ”

"It's just that the price is that we lose you."

But at that time, a little girl was still a girl who had never been in contact with anyone, and it didn't seem to be a bad thing that a girl doll with no emotions could exchange for the peace of the whole family.

"I'm sorry for you."

If I didn't look for it in the early years, I didn't dare to look for it. The woman who disturbed the whole family was gone, and I really couldn't ask for it. Later, no one looked for him, and Ye He was bored after his son's death and was not interested in anything. And other people, who cares where the troubled woman went back then.

I can't say anything about my mother, she was the one who gave birth to me.

All I can do is be grateful.

But for his father, the last bit of resentment evaporated in his low and deep words.

I smiled at my father, and some words didn't seem so difficult to say, "Dad, it's all over, and I will be filial to you in the future." Don't worry. ”

In the face of their daughters, especially those who look like themselves, men can't help but soften.

Yeh is no exception.

After losing her son, the lonely mood for many years grew in her daughter's bright smile. He is old, he has let go of his former love and hatred, and he just wants to spend the rest of his life in peace, and he has a daughter by his side.

It was a family pleasure that he thought he would never get again.

"We don't care about the past. Your mom was very controlling when she was young, probably because she was insecure. For marriage, she has always insisted that a good marriage is to be able to hold each other. It's just a daughter, you have grown up, you should understand that excessive strength in marriage will only make the other party depressed. ”

I understood, nodded.

Reiterate, "Dad, I really don't want to remarry, that man, I really don't love anymore." ”

"Even if you are willing, I still don't agree, my Yehe's daughter, even if I am at home as a father for a lifetime, it will not be those people's turn to spoil it. Hey, it's all Dad's fault, it would be nice to wake up and find you earlier. ”

I heard him say this again, hugged his waist and shook it gently, "What you just said, don't talk about the past." ”

A daughter who has never been in contact with her, a daughter who has been taken away by his wife for more than ten years. Inertia, will be ignored from the heart, if so many years in the heart, I am afraid that I have already looked for it.

The most natural thinking of human beings is that they are unwilling to think about things that make them sad.

My mother had made my father suffer for so many years, and my brother had made my father suffer the loss of his son, and in such a situation, it made sense for him to deliberately ignore my existence.

And, it's really all in the past.

Don't go back to reminiscing.

Probably there has never been such a situation of being spoiled by a little woman, and the satisfied smile in my father's eyes almost flowed out.

"What are you doing?!" A sharp voice.

I turned my head at the same time as my father, and I saw my mother, who had been waiting for me for a long time and hadn't returned.

I subconsciously let go of the hand holding my father, and I don't know why, but that's what I did.

Mom was furious, "Okay, I can't wait to run after saying a few words to me, but I'm sitting here and whispering!" She didn't say anything about me, but only glared at her father, "I said why are you so good, Baba came to accompany me, it turned out to be for my daughter!" Let me tell you, she belongs to me alone, you Ye family, don't want to rob me of another child. ”

It's a really ugly thing to say.

Especially when I heard my father say so much just now, when I looked up and saw the white hair shining between his sideburns, my heart was even more sour.

Think about the third uncle and three aunts, he can actually live such a good life.

I stood up and stood in front of my father, "Mom, how can you talk like that, he's my father, he can't grab anything." ”

If all fathers in the world talk to their daughters and rob their daughters, it will really be a mess in the world. And it's been a long time since I met my father, and this is the first time we've had a heart-to-heart conversation, and I don't want to spoil it when we have a real father and daughter.

My mom listened to me and was even angrier.

"I knew that the female university was not going to stay! You're going to abandon me, you don't want me one by one, don't you? Back then, your grandparents said that I was my own daughter, but what happened? Compared to your aunt, I've always been an outsider! And your father, he has someone in his heart, who always says that I am not gentle, that I am sharp, if it weren't for him, would I be in such a situation in the Ye family! How did your brother leave me? Yes! Now you're a little white-eyed wolf and you're going to run, you're ....... If you are surnamed Ye, you will only bully people like this! ”

She roared loudly, how quiet the hospital was, and when she yelled like this, some people came out to see her.

I was ashamed of myself.

If my mother really makes trouble, the gods and Buddhas are afraid.

My dad couldn't bear it anymore, because my mother's scolding was too big, "You speak with your conscience, if it weren't for the Ye family, you wouldn't know where to suffer now, if it wasn't for my dad who kindly picked you up, your stepfather wouldn't have beaten you to death!" You said that my sister bullied you, she is the only daughter in our family, and my parents held it in the palm of her hand, but it was not a premature birth that you scolded. ”

Men are not good at verbal confrontation, after saying these few words, my dad can't go on.

It's embarrassing to say all kinds of things in the past.

My father was face-conscious and didn't want to talk about the family.

My mother is not afraid, "Ye He! Who do you say has no conscience, I have worked hard for so many years to give birth to the eldest grandson of your Ye family, this is all my credit, how did I get to you, I am nothing! Crossing the river and demolishing the bridge, what your Ye family usually does! ”

I saw that my father had covered his chest, obviously angry and unbearable.

In this case, I was really torn between a few sides.

Intellectually, I sympathize with my father, maybe he has a lot of mistakes, but when I meet my mother, I can really be angry with gods and Buddhas. Emotionally, I love my mother, she raised me, I know what she has suffered, and I understand why she is the way she is today.

Between the tears, I felt like it was time for it to be the end of it all.

I helped my father to sit down, "You rest first." ”

Then I walked up to my mother and saw that she was frowning at me, and I was not afraid, but said very seriously, "You should go back to the ward for me now, or I will follow my father, and I will never come to see you in my life!" ”

This is really a bit intimidating.

My mother cried in fright and scolded me for being a white-eyed wolf, but I still obediently went to the ward.

I secretly gave my father a yes gesture, and when he smiled, I relaxed.