I can't agree to be with you anyway, no matter how cruel it is. My mind hardened, and my love for Peng Zhen not only allowed me to move forward bravely, but also made me swing my sword to cut my love.

"In the past six months, I have been reading your news from time to time, from the passive situation when you entered An's last year to the convincing situation of everyone today, your ability is beyond doubt. I look at you like a diamond that has been polished and shines more and more, and you don't know how much satisfaction and emotion I feel in my heart. Peng Zhen, I like to be so high-spirited, you who stand at the top, don't be dragged off the altar for me, okay? ”

saw Peng Zhen change from the reckless young master at the beginning to a stable mature man with a strong sense of danger. The satisfaction may be the same as that of my students, or even more, I have witnessed his growth, watching him come out of his cocoon, he has given so much, and I don't want him to let everything he has done go to waste.

Peng Zhen gritted his teeth angrily, and the familiar expression that the sky was falling apart appeared on his face again, but now Peng Zhen has learned to control it, and he suppressed his emotions, "If it weren't for you, I wouldn't be unconvinced at all, hum!" What do they have to do with me! ”

"Hey. Why don't you listen to it? I sighed, "I keep thinking, if the price of being with me is to lose all this, to become an ordinary person who can't be in an ordinary person, a poor couple and a poor couple, and when you really taste the bitterness of life, will you blame me, or even jealous of my appearance that makes you lose all your original aura." ”

From the time I know Peng Zhen, he is wanton and flamboyant.

And behind this wanton publicity, there is the connivance of many people. If he insists on being with me and offends the Peng family and all the people in the An family, then all the aura on his body will be deprived, not only a matter of money, but also to deprive Peng Zhen of everything in the depths of his soul. I can't imagine what Peng Zhen would be like if he became a person who had to bow his head to others everywhere and be soft.

And he understands so well in his heart that if he doesn't have the aura given by his family, he wants to act recklessly, it's just a dream.

Now that we are full of affection, what about the future? When he finds out that for me as a woman, he has not only lost all his career, but even his own personality has to be suppressed, will he hate me?

Peng Zhen will hate me one day! When this possibility appeared in my mind, I was in pain, not to mention that if it really happened, I couldn't imagine how I would react to such a situation.

"You get a lot without me. And with me, you may not even be able to do it Peng Zhen! ”

A Peng Zhen who has been worn out by life, a sorrowful, fly-camp dog Peng Zhen, I feel sad when I think about it.

The words in my heart were spoken, to such a point, my original tears had dried up, and my heart became more and more firm, I supported myself to stand up, condescendingly looking at him who was still squatting on the ground.

It's sad.

In the past, I hated Peng Zhen for being a man, and I felt that he handled everything with a high-minded attitude and wanted to control my life, which was so hateful and hateful. But on this day, he squatted on the ground and looked up at me, but my heart was not half proud and relaxed. He should be the one who dominates the world, and he should not bend his waist for anyone, just like an eagle in the sky, at the end of his life, he should fly up desperately, look at the higher and farther world, and leave in a noble way.

Instead of falling under the cliff and being bullied by some jackals and poisonous snakes.

I can't watch him fall, and I can't tolerate him falling for me.

So, "That's it, I will be in the corner in the future, watching you, cheering for your every success, come on, and be Peng Zhen standing at the top." ”

With that, I turned around and ran, and this time, I don't think he's going to be chasing me.

Sure enough, Peng Zhen didn't chase it.

After I ran out, he suddenly stood up and yelled, "You don't believe me at all!" You don't believe I can protect you and your children! ”

The roar of a tiger in the sky almost shattered people's hearts and lungs.

"Flails! You don't love me! If you love me, why can't you give me a little bit of trust! You don't love me at all! ”

With desperation, with anger, with all the accusations against me, like a dense mass of bullets, they came at me, constantly, through my body.

I quickened my pace.

Running like crazy.

Ran all the way to the end of the room, jumped headlong into the pool, swam to the end, I climbed up and sat on the cliff.

The waves of the sea slap against the cliffs at once, as if they had reached the end of the world. But he still couldn't escape Peng Zhen's roar from the soul.

Can't escape.

It sounded like the deepest spell on me.

He said I didn't trust him, how could it be. I never doubted Peng Zhen's determination and perseverance to be with me, and I never even doubted that he would give up everything for me.

However, it was this trust that made me want to escape.

Trust him too much, but don't trust himself.

With such a deep and heavy love, how much can I respond to him. With such a deep and heavy love, how dare I let myself continue to sink.

It's going to die!

If I hadn't left early, stayed with him for a long time, watched him work hard, watched him struggle, watched him hate me, watched him hate me, I would have died.

.........

For the next few days, I followed Ah Hua around, and Peng Zhen suddenly disappeared as if he had suddenly appeared.

I often feel like he's probably hiding behind the banana tree again, waiting for me to throw me into my arms.

As a result, it all proves that I am dreaming.

Ah Hua is a very enthusiastic escort and tour guide, almost using all his strength, trying to make me happy.

Seeing him play so hard, I tried my best to cooperate with him, after all, my affairs have nothing to do with him, and there is no reason to make him uncomfortable.

But Ah Hua was completely depressed when I laughed.

"Miss Lin, if you are really so sad, just cry, a smile is not for you."

This is really a strange argument, and there are people who persuade people to cry and not make people laugh. I smiled a little more sincerely, "Why?" I laughed, isn't it pretty? ”

"Your eyes are full of sadness, your smile is too far-fetched, it's my fault, I thought my happiness could infect you, I'm so sorry, I made you uncomfortable."

I hurriedly waved my hand, "Don't say that, it has nothing to do with you." ”

Ah Hua was silent for a long time before he asked me, "Is it because of your lover?" ”

I was stunned.

Xin said, did he also know that Peng Zhen had come?

As a result, Ah Hua said, "Your eyes look like dolphins that have lost their mates." ”

"Dolphins?"

"Yes, they are monogamous and will be lonely for the rest of their lives if one of them loses their partner."

I vaguely felt in my heart that it was impossible, after all, people can't do this, let alone animals. Most of the time, this kind of romantic story is made up by tour guides in order to move tourists. It's just my mood at this moment, and I will believe such a thing, even if it is a fairy tale.

All of a sudden, I had a small expectation in my heart, "Can I go see the dolphins?" ”

In such an island, you can see fish after all.

Ah Hua nodded, "Of course you can, I'll take you here." ”

Very nice yacht, it was a honeymoon tour with me to see the dolphins, both of them were newlyweds.

Everyone has a vision for the future on their faces.

I'm with Ah Hua, but it doesn't seem particularly abrupt.

I thought it was to take a look at the dolphins from a distance, but I didn't expect it to be so close, and some people even changed their clothes and jumped down to play with the dolphins, I didn't have the guts, I just reached out and touched it.

Cool and creamy.

It seemed to be really human, circling around me, and couldn't bear to leave even after I withdrew my hand.

Do you understand the sorrow in my heart? Why do I see tears in your eyes.

.........

After returning to the capital, I uncharacteristically agreed to the blind date arranged by my parents for me, such an attitude made my mother a little stunned, "Why did you suddenly figure it out, how many times have I asked you to do this, and I really haven't seen you go, so I will prevaricate me." ”

"Isn't that my busyness? Now that I'm on vacation, I just have time. ”

My attitude gave my mom confidence and she immediately called my dad to discuss.

These two people have never spent a few days discussing in their lives, but they have found a resonance point in my marriage.

Arrange the time and I will be on time for the appointment.

There's nothing to describe, it's just a normal blind date, the other party introduces himself, and then I introduce myself.

After I talk about my divorce, usually the other party will say that he has a job and is busy and leaves first.

I don't have the slightest resentment about this situation.

Those who can pass through my father's checks are naturally not low, even if they want to use the momentum of the Ye family in the face of my father, they can't accept a divorced woman.

Nowadays, people on the street really want to pull out a question asking if she is a virgin and whether she has had sexual experience.

I'm afraid that all the promises I get are negative.

Who hasn't been in a relationship yet, who hasn't had a sexual experience.

I've only experienced two men, and if you really talk about it, it's probably not experienced. But there is no way, divorce is different, it will be labeled in one way or another.

Changing the entrenched beliefs of the public is easier said than done.

Instead of being depressed, I felt relaxed. The other party gave me all kinds of feedback, so that I could face my mother without guilt, I didn't do anything, the other party didn't look down on me, who was to blame.

Until .......... "How could it be you?" ”

I never dreamed that this time my mother arranged a blind date for me to be Zhang Xu.

Crazy.

Zhang Xu has changed a lot in the year after his divorce from me, people rely on clothes, horses and saddles, and after the makeover, he actually has the posture of a business elite.

It's just that no matter how good the posture is, it's not temperament.

When I glared at him, he was somewhat lacking in confidence.

But soon adjusted, "Mom asked me to come, flail, since Mom can forgive me, why do you have to hold on to the past?" ”

I don't know what to do.

I left the scene angrily, and I didn't want to say a word more.

I went straight to the hospital and entered the ward door, and I saw my mom standing in front of the window, and she obviously saw me coming.

I thought it would be a mother-daughter battle, but I didn't expect that this time, my mother didn't have a strong arrangement, let alone sharp words, but told me very softly.

"Flails, yesterday's routine physical examination, my mother was found to have a thyroid tumor."

My head buzzed.

Subconsciously ask, "Benign or malignant?" ”

If it's benign, it's a tumor, and if it's malignant, it's cancer.

Mom shook her head, "I won't know until after the operation." ”

I adjusted my breath, put down the matter of seeing Zhang Xu, and persuaded my mother, "Don't worry, I'll go to the attending doctor, the technology here is very good, you can definitely recover, no problem." ”

I turned around and was about to leave.

My mother opened her mouth first, "You met Zhang Xu today, right?" ”

She took the initiative to mention it, and the anger in my heart couldn't be suppressed.

"Mom, aren't you messing around?" For everything Zhang Xu once did to me, I don't believe my mother has forgotten.

I even said, "You couldn't even tolerate my father's ambiguity with others, but I watched him ....... with other women, do you want me to tolerate it?" ”

This is illogical.

My father and his so-called first love back then were just getting closer, and my mother still can't get the specific evidence of cheating.

If she had, it wouldn't have been as simple as leaving.

But Zhang Xu's derailment with Yami, there is clear evidence, seeing is believing, and no one can rely on it.

She can't tolerate it at all, how did she come to me, and it became something that she could let go.

My mom came over and grabbed me, I don't know if it was my psychological effect, when I heard the news that she had a tumor, I looked at her face paler than before.

She said, "I'm not asking you to forgive him, but where else is there a better way for you to do it." ”

This time, she was really serious, and said from the bottom of her heart: "I don't know how many times I have talked to your father about your marriage in the past six months, with a good family background, even if you can marry if you are divorced, it will inevitably be a dwarf." Although my mother often says that you are not right or wrong, when I think of others who want to show face to you and dislike you, my heart is like being crushed. ”

When she said this, my heart felt like it was broken.

It always felt like she was explaining what was going on.

"Your father also said a lot of advice, if the family can't do it, then find a poor family, with your father and your third uncle, those people don't dare to do anything to you. I've also read a lot of information sent by your father, and most of those people are from other places, and there are too many relatives in the family to count. In the future, if you marry, even if he can be good to you, his family. Don't you know that the more backward the place, the more it cares about this. If you find a man who can mix in front of your father's eyes, he must be excellent if he has no background, and he must be excellent himself, in these people's homes, where can I see you in my eyes, your mother and I looked at people's faces back then, that kind of day, you are afraid that you will not be able to live a day. ”

"Mom, why do you think so much!"

My mom burst into tears, "Can I not want to?!" I'll go first, but you'll be left with a child! ”

"Good, good, you think, you think."

I couldn't bear to see her crying.

"Instead of looking for someone from other places, the poor relatives at home don't pile up. It's better to find Zhang Xu, my mother has thought carefully about it for you, what happened in the past, he was wrong, and he decided not to stand up in front of you in the future, even if you can go back, she can only be grateful to Dade! In addition, your father and your third uncle, in the second half of their lives, I am afraid that they will have to provide for you, isn't it better to have such a day than to find someone again and block it again. ”

"Mom's time is running out, I'll settle you, how can I close my eyes and go to see your brother!"

But I really think clearly.

I also know that my mother has been thinking about me for so long, and she really thought about it.

It's just Zhang Xu.......

"I've forgotten about him." It's forgot.

Even the hatred of the year is gone, but I don't want to look at him again, as if there is no such person in my life.

My mother nodded, "I know you're embarrassed, I don't want to force you this time, let's try to get along, okay?" After all, if you have been a husband and wife, even if it is a big feud, get together, it is still incomparable to others, do you believe in your mother, just try it once, okay? ”