Today's operation, the father was originally coming, even if the relationship with the mother has reached the freezing point again, but after all, he is the mother of the child, and he still has to enter the final morality. I was just persuaded by me, my mother's situation, my father is afraid that coming will only make it worse, making her more emotional, it is better not to come.

I swore when I persuaded my father not to come, but when it came to this point, I regretted it a little, and it felt really better to have someone by my side in such a lonely moment.

Looking up slightly, I saw a person walking from the end of the corridor, against the light, as if coming by the light.

As I got closer, I could see who he was, "Why are you here?" ”

Jin Ge lowered his head and looked at me sitting on the ground, frowned and said, "I haven't seen the sun here for many years, and the ground is full of panic, you dare to sit." ”

The unpleasant expression on his face scared me a little, after all, the last time we were relative to each other was not a good experience, he was angry, and I ran fast.

I can always face such an embarrassing moment in getting along with Jin Ge, and I am actually quite annoyed myself.

I sat still, Jin Ge didn't say much, leaned down and wanted to hug me, where did I dare to let him hug, hurriedly said, I can do it myself, and then got up violently.

After doing it on the ground for a while, it was still very cold on the floor, and the legs and feet were naturally numb.

The body slanted to the side, but Jin Ge pulled it in time.

But he is different from Peng Zhen, if Peng Zhen sees me so reckless, Zhun Bao will scold a few words, but Jin Ge will not do this, he just looked at me silently and said nothing.

I think there was something emotional in his eyes, but I didn't dare to look at it.

At this time, I was still thinking nonsense, with a sensitive and suspicious temperament like me, in fact, it is the best to meet someone like Peng Zhen, what he said, if he really gets along with Jin Ge for a long time, I am afraid that I will be the one who will be made up and down by him.

Jin Ge waited with me outside the operating room.

We both sat on the bench outside the operating room without saying a word, silent and stable.

I don't know exactly how long my mom was in, but I saw that the lights went out during the operation, and my heart seemed to stop.

The mother was pushed out, still unconscious, with no sign of waking up at all.

I want to cry when I see my mother like that, she was originally such a tough, even very aggressive person, usually I think she is very annoying, and even hope that she can stop a little, but when she is silent, there will still be a lot of discomfort in my heart, a lot of desolation.

My voice was weak, a little scared, "Mom? ”

Of course she wouldn't answer me.

I stayed in the ward, waiting for my mother to wake up, and the doctor also said that if you want the anesthetic to clear out of your body faster, you must keep whispering to her to make her conscious, so that she can recover better.

Of course, I'm going to keep her shouting.

Jin Ge helped me to communicate with the doctor a lot, and the operation was successful, and her thyroid tumor had been removed.

But when Jin Ge went to talk to the doctor, he came back with my father. My father will come, this is inevitable, but I persuaded him to let him come after the operation, and my mother is still in a coma, so I can't see who is coming, so I won't make trouble.

The results are undoubtedly very discouraging.

My mother's thyroid tumor was malignant, that is, cancerous, and it had spread.

When I heard the news, I covered my mouth and was about to cry, I am not a doctor, and the most superficial knowledge of cancer is that I think it can't be cured. My mom had cancer, and as soon as that phrase swirled in my head, I wanted to cry.

My dad comforted me, "Don't cry, the doctor said that it was fortunate that it was detected early, and the next further chemotherapy may not be curable." ”

What can be said? I could only nod my head, and I even wondered if my mother hadn't tossed the previous things and had surgery directly when she found out, would there be no such thing as spreading.

People are always inevitable and want to seek better possibilities.

It's just that it probably won't be there.

I was silent for a while before I said, "Is this news going to be hidden from my mother?" ”

My mother's personality is really a headache, she is a person who is more vulnerable and has to behave very strong and outgoing, in short, she feels uncomfortable, and she is not ready to let others feel good.

I was a little scared to tell her how she would react now that she was suffering from cancer.

It's scary, indeed.

The father was very calm, he said: "I will tell her about this, I can't hide it, and she will have to undergo chemotherapy next, which is a very difficult process, not only for her family, but also for herself." Hair will fall out, the body will have a lot of adverse reactions, nausea and vomiting, and pain, these are all things she has to face by herself, and we just can't hide it if we want to. ”

Of course I know that, but ....... I just still feel so cruel.

My father accompanied my mother and guarded the bedside, and I came out of the ward alone, sneaked into the safe passage, squatted on the ground and lit a cigarette for myself.

Taking a deep breath, it seems that there is less irritability in my heart.

Jin Ge came out to look for me, and when he saw me like this, he raised his hand and snatched the cigarette from my hand, "Lin Fart." ”

I smiled, and I didn't get up, I just smiled at Jin Ge.

Jin Ge was laughed at by me, squatting down with me, he looked at me, "I know you are upset, but smoking is not good, it hurts your body." ”

I don't have much to say.

What can I say, the body of the parents is the responsibility of the children, and I bear it.

Just thinking about facing long-term chemotherapy, I can't stop being irritable, worrying about my mother's body is one aspect, and more importantly, I am still worried that she will keep making trouble.

It's really scary.

All kinds of irritability in my heart, I really can't say anything.

Jin Ge looked at me for a while before he said, "Peng Zhen is out of town with his grandfather now, and he can't come back, if possible, he will definitely come back to see you." ”

He probably thought that I didn't say it to him, but wanted to say it to Peng Zhen.

But in fact, even if Peng Zhen is in front of me now, I can't say anything. He's already so busy, I'm not going to give him any trouble.

I shook my head, "No, I really don't have anything to do with him. ”

I told Jin Ge before that he was angry, but it was also true that he was angry. Besides, my mother is in such a state now, and I really don't have the heart to fall in love.

Jin Ge raised his eyebrows and didn't say much.

I know he probably doesn't believe it, but I sometimes doubt it myself. Peng Zhen used to be a well-known bastard in the capital, and his family background was thrown away, so he lived in a small clubhouse. When I was with Peng Zhen, he was such a decadent person.

Now that he is in high spirits, the future road is simply shining with golden light, and it is really incredible that I broke up with Peng Zhen at this time.

I chuckled, "Believe it or not, it's all true." ”

Jin Ge still didn't speak.

He's a silent man most of the time, but he makes me feel grounded.

.......

What was particularly unusual was that my mother didn't cry when she heard that her tumor was malignant, but was a little ....... Depression.

It's a bit surprising that this word is used on my mom.

But that's just the way it is.

She doesn't like to talk or move, and spends her days in the hospital room, as if everything in this world has nothing to do with her.

Her situation not only did not reassure me, but made me even more worried.

Looking at a lot of psychology books, this situation is likely to be a serious illness and depression, that is, a negative state of mind that loses confidence in life.

I had no choice but to coax her and persuade her.

My mother is still persistent, "If you want me to be happy, then let Zhang Xu come, and I will be satisfied when I see you with him." ”

It's this again!

I was bored, but I still found someone to contact Zhang Xu.

I have already talked to Zhang Xu, I am not afraid of Zhang Xu, he is just to help my mother recover psychologically, as it is now, where is a person who can start receiving chemotherapy.

Zhang Xu is still here.

When he saw me, he was a little trembling, and said to me very restrainedly: "Flails, this time I didn't come by myself, don't be angry." ”

On the day Zhang Xu came, not only my father was there, but also Jin Ge.

After seeing the people around me now, no matter how stupid Zhang Xu is, he is also practical, and before he met my mother, he sincerely apologized to me.

I waved him in.

I stood in front of the ward in a daze, and I didn't know if it was right or wrong for me to call Zhang Xu.

Jin Ge asked, "What do you want?" ”

Since my mother's surgery, Jin Ge has been coming often, he had a good relationship with my father, my father really took Jin Ge as half a son, after my mother heard that Jin Ge is my brother's best friend, she also trusted Jin Ge tightly.

I don't have anything to say, I absolutely believe in Jin Ge's character, he said that he wanted to do his filial piety for my brother, can I still not let him come.

It's unreasonable.

In the face of Jin Ge, I finally said a psychological sentence, "I feel like I used to be a stupid X." ”

Really, that's what I thought in my heart, I didn't see Zhang Xu once, I thought so in my heart once. I think my previous self was really a complete stupid X.

Jin Ge laughed.

Then he rubbed my head helplessly, "It's okay, the most important part of the growth of life is that I feel that I used to be a complete stupid X." ”

I dodged his messy hand over my head, "Humph! ”

What I was thinking in my heart was, is it that one day I will also feel that I know Peng Zhen, I am stupid X, I don't think that day will come.

It's strange to say, when my mother faced us, she was cold-eyed, but she could talk and laugh at Zhang Xu. My father shook his head and sighed, Jin Ge was ashamed to say that this is probably the monkey of Nanshan and the people of Henan will play it.

What a word!

Who are the monkeys! I glared.

Jin Ge also knew that he had missed something, so he hurriedly explained, "Make an analogy, make an analogy." ”

In fact, I know some of my mother's thoughts in my heart, in front of my father and even Jin Ge, my mother always has a lingering inferiority complex in her heart, this mentality has accompanied her all her life, especially now that she is very sick, and she is about to start chemotherapy, and people will become more unbearable, this inferiority complex is even worse.

Only in the face of Zhang Xu is the one who has a sense of superiority.

will not be afraid of Zhang Xu's dislike and white eyes.

My attitude towards my mother has also changed a little, I used to want to quarrel with her, but now it is just three words: 'you are happy'. She's sick to this point, I'm arguing with her, it's really not good.

So Zhang Xu began to haunt the hospital frequently, as long as he didn't talk to me, whatever he wanted.

My mom started chemotherapy, which was much more serious than my dad said at the time, hair loss, vomiting, even physical rejection, high fever and so on. There is such a seriously ill patient in the family, and it is really like a spinning top every day.

The days passed like this, and it was another winter.

After entering the winter, my mother's physical condition deteriorated rapidly, and the doctors said that patients are more likely to have problems in winter, after all, the weather is cold, the amount of exercise is less, and the mood will be depressed a lot, so in the winter, there are many patients who can't survive.

I was scared to death when I heard that.

During the period of my mother's chemotherapy, I have seen in my life, the weakest and most miserable moment for her, not to mention the temper tantrum, even a few more words seem to consume all the strength of the body.

Seeing her mother weaken day by day, the feeling of her heart being cut like a knife is by no means understandable to ordinary people.

Her temper is much more docile, perhaps she really has no strength. Dependent on me like a child, crying and sad when he can't see me.

Being relied on like this, although it is tiring, but in the bottom of my heart, I feel that this is a greater responsibility.

On this day, I came out of the hospital and went home alone, full of thoughts that the doctor said that my mother's chemotherapy was not working well and that it might have to be carried out at a stage.

Suddenly received a phone call, the first thing that came from the other end was the child's crying in his throat, the voice was unbearable to listen to, and then Peng Zhen's cold voice, "Gu Xia's child is about to die, can you come?" ”

This is a no-brainer.

I stood still.

Originally, I hadn't been in touch with Peng Zhen for a long time, and I should only treat him as if he hadn't made such a phone call.

But my heart is still scratching my ears and cheeks.

Gu Xia, of course I remember. Child, I can't give up, and I say that I am sick and dying.

I gritted my teeth, "Peng Zhen! Don't talk nonsense! "How can anyone open their mouth and say that other people's children are dying! Don't understand it!

Who knew that Peng Zhen then said: "If you don't come right away, I will die too!" ”