It's just a matter of moments, and my heart turns a thousand times. There is no way to speak out of those layers of emotions, and there is only one word that can be said.

Who knows that unlike my calmness, Peng Zhen is the complete opposite.

His eyes swept over me indifferently, the kind of emotionless look that didn't seem to know me at all. He only stood there for a short time, and the moment I said hi, he turned away.

Peng Zhen's steps are big and urgent, the small 24-hour convenience store, the display was originally very crowded, Peng Zhen is as fast as the wind walking by, as if the shelves in the store are shaking.

He disappeared from my vision until I heard the 'welcome' from the little doll hanging in the doorway, and I knew he was gone.

The roaring engine sound is the kind of sound that can only be produced by heavy motorcycles, and I have seen many people riding it when I was in the United States, and it looks mighty and domineering. In China, I still rarely see such a car.

I stood where I was.

I haven't moved for a long time.

I think I'm kind of ridiculous, maybe I'm really ridiculous.

In fact, I literally laughed out loud.

That's what we're all looking forward to, isn't it? Peng Zhen did it, and I have to do my best to do it.

I bought sanitary napkins in silence and came home, when I went out, Xu Heng slept fragrantly, but I didn't expect that when I came back, the house was brightly lit, Xu Heng had already put it on, and he saw that he was about to go out.

I was a little surprised, "Where are you going?" ”

When Xu Heng saw me, he couldn't get angry! He said, "Where did you go?" I opened my eyes and saw no one, you know how worried I am! I'm going to be scared to death by you! ”

It turned out that Xu Heng woke up in his sleep and found that I was no longer around, and when he called my mobile phone and found that the mobile phone was at home, he was in a hurry and planned to go out to find me.

I took off my coat, still holding the things I had just bought in my arms, and explained to Xu Heng a little helplessly, "I was thinking that my period was coming, and it was always right to prepare these things first, and then I went out to buy them, you fell asleep well, I couldn't shake you up." ”

Xu Heng still didn't follow, "It's just that you have a lot of crooked reasoning." ”

I thought she was going to go back to sleep, but she said, "I woke up hungry and wanted to eat." ”

It's normal for a pregnant woman to be hungry in the middle of the night, so I immediately asked, "I'll go out and buy you what you want to eat." ”

"I want haggis soup."

This is really, if you want to talk about haggis soup, this point is really there, and they all come out at night to set up stalls.

It's just that I'm worried about Xu Heng, "Your current body, can you eat a roadside stall?" "In the end, we have to take care of hygiene, roadside stalls are not insured.

Xu Hengcai doesn't care so much, "I just want to eat, I can't eat or sleep." ”

There was nothing to say, so I put on my coat again and accompanied Xu Heng out to eat haggis soup.

Xu Heng pulled me into a small alley nearby, as if I had crossed it, from the bustling capital to the complicated small world at once.

Many of the stalls also have people who work late into the night to get a bite of something hot.

Xu Heng said to me with some pride: "Why do you have to live here, whatever you want to eat, you can get it by walking 300 meters." It's much better than living in that big villa. ”

I agree with Xu Heng on this point.

Belly bursting, donkey meat fire, spicy hot, charcoal barbecue, a small street, there is everything.

Xu Heng and I found a stall selling haggis soup and asked for two bowls.

Xu Heng was in a panic, and said to the boss several times to cut some mutton liver for her and put it in.

The cook is a perennial uncle, and it is his wife who collects the money, a typical mom-and-pop shop. When we gave the money, the proprietress looked at Xu Heng's stomach left and right, "You're about to give birth, right?" ”

Xu Heng smiled, "It's been eight months." ”

Not to mention how proud the expression is, it is like the child is eight months old, and what a great achievement she has.

The proprietress laughed, people always have a lot of expectations for new life, and told Xu Heng, "Then you can be careful, if the plastic stool is not strong, I will find you a wooden one." It's good to drink more mutton soup when pregnant, it's hot and strong. ”

"No, I love your family."

It's always pleasant to be praised, and the boss who cuts the haggis over there laughs and says, "Well, I definitely cut more lamb liver for you than others." ”

The proprietress really found a wooden stool for Xu Heng and settled her down.

White mutton soup with haggis in it, sprinkled with garlic sprouts and chopped green onions. Xu Heng and I both love spicy food, the red chili oil is in the middle of the bowl, and there is a little red in the green, which makes people have an appetite when they look at it.

Xu Heng was really hungry, so he picked up the chopsticks and ate.

While eating, he beckoned me, "Hurry up and eat, there is free soup here, and you can't earn it back if you don't drink a few more bowls." ”

I looked at the haggis soup in front of me, the cheapest food, the white mist rising, but with the warmest part of the world's Taoist heart.

I remember when I was in elementary school, there was no heating in the courtyard where we lived, and we could only make coal stoves in winter.

At that time, I felt that all my internal organs were cold and shrunk together.

The warmest thing in winter is to get together with Xu Heng and run to the contract to drink this bowl of haggis soup.

can give unlimited soup, Xu Heng and I are reluctant to eat the meat inside, you drink it one bite at a time, and then go to refill the soup. At that time, it was an old man who set up a stall, and he was very tolerant of the two of us drinking a bowl and constantly renewing the soup, and every time he would touch our heads and say that he would drink more long high.

Time is so inadvertently like going back in time.

Xu Heng poked me, "What do you want, eat quickly." ”

I nodded, and put my head down to eat.

The most difficult thing for people to change is actually the stomach, I have been to the United States for a few years, and I have never had a meal that makes me feel happy. Even if Ye Gaochi drove for a long time at that time, and we went to Chinatown to eat together, it couldn't bring me this small stall, surrounded by plastic sheds, and the simple ones couldn't bring me happiness in a simple place.

The hot soup, the chewy lamb tripe, and the soft lamb liver with garlic sprouts and spicy seeds, eat a bowl of sweaty and hearty.

When people are full of food and drink, they are also in a very good mood.

After eating the haggis soup, Xu Heng and I were a little slow, and we didn't want to move when we were full, like two sloths.

Xu Heng also bought rock sugar gourds and planned to take them home to eat.

The two of us went home stupidly with a long, big rock sugar gourd.

I whispered to Xu Heng, "Maybe I'm wrong. ”

Xu Heng bit the red fruit on the rock sugar gourd, the expression on his face was a little distorted, but it was so cute.

I laughed.

What a mistake, a mistake for many years!

When I first married Zhang Xu, I desperately wanted a home and someone to rely on. For many years afterward, I remained the same in this pursuit.

It has become an obsession.

I wanted a beautiful home, a harbor that I could rely on, but I was used by my family, Peng Zhen's betrayal (in my opinion, he chose his family to choose to protect his cousin, and ignoring me was a betrayal).

I have been depressed for so many years, and I have long forgotten that my original dream was just to live in a warm house in winter, to know who my father was, and to have a job to support myself.

Isn't it too greedy, that's why it's so painful?

A lot of things are always in that moment and give you a new understanding.

Letting go, in fact, is easier than remembering.

Xu Heng swallowed a red fruit, poured his teeth sourly, sucked his saliva and said: "You, you just worry too much, you don't want to hurt this, you don't want to hurt that, and in the end it is yourself who is aggrieved." How good it is to be like me, love is love, hate is hate, I hated Chen Dongye to death back then, so I didn't hesitate to send him to prison. But I love him, so I willingly have a baby with him. As long as you see yourself clearly, there's nothing to worry about! ”

"Yes, yes, you are a woman who loves and hates, who can compare with you."

I really admire Xu Heng, if you really want to talk about it, she has more reasons than me to hate the people around her, but the fact is not, she lives according to her own wishes wantonly, does not give up, and never admits defeat.

Xu Heng can give me much more energy than a girl like Qin Zhen who has had a good family background and good studies since she was a child.

The saying that all men are created equal is actually a lie.

I clearly know that if I want to work hard from the bottom, I have to pay the price of saying more, and compared to Xu Heng, I am really lucky.

Seeing that I was in a good mood, Xu Heng reminded him of the old matter, "Your third aunt took more care of you back then, but now that she is sick and wants to marry a daughter-in-law, you can help a little bit." I don't know what you think in your heart, but I look at you like this, I'm afraid it's a little evasive, and I don't want to see people. ”

I was silent, Xu Heng really knew me well.

"Lin Fart, you told me when I was too scared to see people when I was pregnant, we didn't do anything wrong, if the malice of those people made us afraid to appear in front of people from the west, it would be their victory. The more you feel wronged, the more you have to live an upright life. We don't owe anyone anything, so why should we deny ourselves in our hearts. ”

After Xu Heng was gang raped and pregnant, he also had a long period of autism and depression, feeling dirty and unable to raise his head to meet people.

Later, it was because of hearing such words that I regained my strength, lost the child, and left here to go to a distant place.

There are always times when people need some support from their friends.

Xu Heng received such support back then, and now she also wants to give me this support again.

It is not limited to what you want to do, but to live freely and open your heart is the first step. Eternal escape is not only a confrontation with the outside world, but also a denial of oneself.

Xu Heng means this, I understand.

After thinking about it again, I said to Ye Gaochi, who came to see me: "I'm going to the wedding, have I been preparing recently, can I help in any way?" ”

Ye Gaochi looked at me in surprise.

"Are you sure?"

I nodded, I figured it out, since Peng Zhen had already forgotten the past, then what could I not let go. "The third aunt took good care of me back then, and when she was sick, I should have helped more."

Ye Gaochi was very supportive of my change, "Then you come with me in the afternoon, what are you going to do, you go and ask the third aunt them." ”

"Okay."

In the afternoon, Ye Gaochi went out first, and I told Xu Heng that I would come back in the evening.

Xu Heng looked at me, "Don't be afraid of flail, you will definitely be able to do your best." ”

When I arrived at the hospital and saw the third aunt, she heard that I was going to help, she was overjoyed, "You are only a girl at home, Gao Fei is busy all day long, and no one helps me, so I have to worry about everything because of my sick number." ”

As soon as the third aunt said this, I also felt that Qin Zhen was really right when she said me, I was quite willful.

When the Ye family arrives in my generation, I am the only girl left, and most men don't care about hosting weddings.

I bowed my head, a little ashamed.

Ye Gaochi came out to play a round for me, "She just returned to China and was not feeling well, she recuperated for two days, and when she saw that she was well, she came to help, third aunt, don't blame her." ”

The third aunt put her arms around me, "Look at this protector, you can't stand it after I just said a few words." I see that you have to find a daughter-in-law quickly, you can be like this if you protect your sister, and it will be even more terrible to protect your daughter-in-law in the future. ”

Ye Gaochi was said to surrender, "I still have something to do, you can watch it." ”

"Jiajia, I'll leave you the driver's assistant, and you can let them do it directly if you have something."

"Okay."

Since I promised to help, I don't mean to be lazy.

But when I really saw the guest list that the third aunt took out, I was really dumbfounded.

"These are all good relationships, now this post pays attention to a heart, it is best to write it by hand, before you came, I was worried about how I wrote so many sick numbers, now it's okay, Jiajia, you're here. Your words are the best in the whole family, much better than Feifei's dog planing, and this task will be handed over to you. ”

On the way here, Ye Gaochi briefly told me that Ye Feichi's fiancée is the daughter of the third aunt's best friend. Now the woman's father is the secretary of the municipal party committee in Haicheng, so this wedding banquet in the capital was hosted by the Ye family and held at the Diaoyutai State Guesthouse. The Guining banquet on the woman's side was held in Haicheng.

Therefore, on the side of the capital, it is basically up to the Ye family to Zhang Luo.

Ye Feichi was not active in this matter, so he could only suffer the third aunt to handle everything.

I looked at the cotton hat on the third aunt's head, thinking that she was still undergoing chemotherapy, so I didn't have the heart to refuse at all, walked to the side with the list of banquet guests, and took the neat invitation and began to write.

It's not an easy job.

After writing for a long time, my whole shoulder was sore.

I wanted to stop and rest, but I found that the name I was going to write next was Peng Zhen.