"I've been confined."

"When I was in the fifth or sixth grade of primary school, one of my classmates gave me the nickname 'The Ground is Uneven.' Do you know what that means? The ground was uneven, and he limped when he walked. Screaming and shouting, it became 'Wang Laodi and 'Wang Buping' again."

"The person who gave him this nickname, I broke his leg and went to the hospital. I deliberately wanted to beat him into a cripple. The old man thought I was too heavy and asked me to apologize to him. I didn't want to apologize, so I was locked up."

"There is a utility room in the basement of the old house, which is only four or five square meters in total, and the old man cleaned it up, put it in a bed and a toilet, threw me in, and then arranged for Wang Yuan'e to deliver food every day. In the name of it, I want to 'think about it on the wall.'"

"There's not even a light in there. I ate and drank Lazar in it, and I was locked up until the fourth day, and I couldn't stand it, so I could only choose to bow to the evil forces and promise to apologize.'

"Later, the school people stopped calling me 'The ground is uneven.' They called me the king lame, or the king was disabled, and the teacher didn't allow them to call me that, so they called me 'Timur?' Wang, or 'Wang Zhijian.'"

"'Wang Zhijian's nickname followed me until I graduated from high school, and even some teachers and classmates didn't remember my name, and thought I was called 'Wang Zhijian.' Once, when the junior high school physics teacher asked a question in class, I raised my hand to answer the question, and the teacher directly called me by name and said, 'Wang Zhijian, you can answer.'

"I really don't want to go into the 'little dark room' in the basement again. So, I can only pretend that I can't hear these nicknames."

"The old man and the old lady were busy receiving patients at the clinic all day long, and rarely asked me about school. If it weren't for the parents who came to the hospital, they wouldn't have known that I was still fighting at school."

"I rarely talk to them at home. When I was in the first and second grades of primary school, I wanted to talk to them well."

"Once, I asked them if I could change schools, and many people in this school laughed at me and looked down on me, and I didn't want to go to this school. But the old man said that my problem could not be solved by changing schools, and that I could not blame the school, and that I looked down on myself, and that if I didn't go to school, I would be lame on my other leg."

"I said, my problem is that I'm a cripple, who is to blame? I was standing at the top of the stairs on the second floor, and the old man slapped me with his backhand, fanning me from the second floor to the first floor, and rolling me all the way down the stairs. I had a scar on the back of my head, and it's still there, and that's what it left over from this time. At that time, I had nine stitches."

"What more can I say to them?"

"So, there's less and less to say. After that, I just didn't say anything."

"At home, the old man can do whatever he wants, and I act very quietly, looking like, 'other people's good boys, no way,' not obedient, such an old man, do I dare to 'not behave?'

"At school, although I was ridiculed, except for a fight with someone, I never saw the same thing as those bear children again, and my academic performance was good. Then I'm not going to be someone else's good baby."

"I don't really want to be 'good baby, I'm too tired.'"

Wang Qianshan does not seem to regard this as an interrogation room, nor does he seem to realize that he is being interrogated. Ma Hongwen also gave him full freedom of "self-play" and did not stop talking.

"The old man, that's a little abnormal. I'm a cripple, there must be some things that I can't do like a normal person, but he asks me to be like a normal person, isn't that very abnormal."

"Wang Yuan'e is five or six years younger than me, and when I was twelve or thirteen years old, he started to be my 'heel'."

"Once, at my grandparents

At home, Wang Yuange went out for a walk after my ass. When he came back, he saw that the cucumbers in the field were ripe, and Wang Yuan was greedy, so he ran to the field and picked two of them, but the master saw them."

"The master didn't say anything, the problem was that the old man was walking with the master at the time. The master has no opinion, it doesn't mean that the old man has no opinion."

"The old man asked me and Wang Yuan'e to jump all the way back to my grandparents' house. It was Wang Yuan'e who stole the cucumber, not me, why should I even be cleaned up? Besides, the frog jumps back? I'm a cripple, how can I frog jump?"

"The old man doesn't care, saying that I didn't teach my younger brother well as an elder brother, and that my two brothers are one. Why can't I frog jump when I'm a cripple? It's just that I'm limping when I jump."

"He also said that if you are on the battlefield, let alone lame a leg, even if you lose a leg, you can still jump and jump and charge."

"Anyway, what the old man says is what he says. Jump and jump. As a result, the old man visually measured the distance, and actually said that he would time me and Wang Yuan's goose card watches, and set a time limit for how long we had to jump back."

"In the end, I jumped and vomited, it was really vomiting, and the jaundice water was vomited, and I couldn't jump back within the stipulated time. The old man didn't care so much, and said that no one thought of me as lame, it was me who treated myself as lame. Then, you want me to walk back and jump back again."

"Many times, the old man also said that what he can do, Wang Yuange and I can also do, and even do better than him. What else do you say Lao Tzu is a hero, although he Wang Wenhui is not a hero, but his two sons must not be waste. So, he's going to have to make us develop a 'hard skill.'"

"In the winter, the old man forced me and Wang Yuange to go winter swimming. I'm a cripple, I can't swim yet, and Wang Yuan'e can't swim, let alone any bullshit winter swimming."

"But the old man thought it didn't matter, and said that as long as he drank a few more sips of water in the river, he would be able to do anything. Then, he took me and Wang Yuan'e to the river, and after ***, he forced us to jump into the river."

"That's it, after jumping into the river for three days, Wang Yuange learned to swim, but I didn't learn it, and I never learned it. After the last jump, I was also admitted to the hospital and spent a few days in the ICU. Until now, I don't even dare to wash my feet by the river."

"When I got older, I realized that the old man used all his methods in the army on me and Wang Yuange. He is the standard of a soldier, and even the standard of the battlefield, to demand Wang Yuan'e and me. What the hell did he think?"

"What did he think of me and Wang Yuange? Soldier, enemy, or baby son? He asked me to be a cripple by the standard of a soldier who can go to war, what do you mean? The devil knows what he means. He's just not normal anyway."

"Before, he kept saying that I was crippled myself. But I was going to university, and he said that I was a cripple and that it would be inconvenient to go to school without anyone to take care of me, so I was not allowed to go."

"I lied to me and said that if I studied Chinese medicine with him, I would learn no less than in college. I just don't dare to refute, I don't dare to talk back, it doesn't mean I'm a fool. If he's really that powerful, what else does he need to do in college?"

"It's inconvenient to say that I think I'm crippled, and then to say I'm lame. Isn't he abnormal?"

"I keep saying that I look down on myself. Because I'm a cripple, I wasn't allowed to go to college, because he looked down on me. Why do you even have to carry this pot? I've never seen anyone like this in my life but him."

As he spoke, Wang Qianshan suddenly took out his lame leg with great difficulty, straightened it, placed it horizontally between the chair and the ground, and then patted it vigorously:

"My biggest wish in my life is to heal this leg. So, I wanted to go to university, and I chose to major in Chinese medicine, because all the western medicine hospitals said that my leg could not be cured."

"I also told the old man about it, but he asked me to stop dreaming, to accept my fate, to accept reality."

"What is reality? What is life?"

"Because he is a cripple, he will be ridiculed and ridiculed

People shouted, 'Wang Zhijian, so I need Wang Yuange, who is several years younger than me, to take care of me in turn, so I can't go to university, is this a reality?' Is this fate? Am I going to accept it all?"

"Why should you accept it? I just don't accept it. The old man made me a cripple, and in the end he asked me to accept my fate and accept this reality, why?"

"In order to heal this leg for myself, I tried to be a 'good boy' at home, pretending not to care about the nickname Wang Zhijian, and studied hard for more than ten years, just to go to university to study Chinese medicine. I also thought that as long as I went to college, the old man would look up to me."

"! One sentence of him snuffed out my efforts for more than ten years, as well as my lifelong desire. He never looked down on me at all, because in his eyes, whether I went to college or not, I was a cripple, and I was a waste. So, what's the difference between me and not going to college?"

"Why did he do that, why did he think so? Just because he's my father? I'm not convinced."

"Wang Yuange went to school for three days to fish, and two days to dry nets, his academic performance was miserable, he didn't have the face to continue studying, but the old man was willing to spend a lot of money to send him to a private university. Why can Wang Yuange be like this? When the old man does this, he is clearly biased, and he looks down on me."

"Resignation? Fart. I'm going to change my life against the sky."

"If I can't go to university, I will study "Zhou Yi", and I will change my life through "Zhou Yi".

"As a result, I just got into it, and he said that I was not doing my job, and even ran over to flip the table when I was explaining to a lot of people."

"I can't get by, I can't get by. The old man seems destined to be unable to get along with me."

"So, I deliberately calculated the old man's life, as well as my own life. It's not good, but even I was shocked. I am in conflict with him, and I am destined to live and die for you. No wonder I, Wang Qianshan, have not lived like a human being in this life."