"I said that the child wanted to follow me, and he agreed, saying that he would tell his parents about him, so that his parents would know what kind of person he was, and that his mother would come to my house to intercede after we divorced, and he agreed."

"No matter what I asked, he agreed, and said he deserved it. The more he did this, the more I felt a choke in my chest and throat, and I couldn't get up or down, so I was so angry that I didn't close my eyes all night."

"The next day, we went to his parents' house together. At that time, his father was still alive, and his mother and sister were not living with us."

"As I get closer and closer to his house, my heart hurts more and more, as if someone in my body is holding a hammer and constantly hammering your heart, hammering you until you are angry and weak, making you feel that you are on the verge of dying, but the pain is not reduced in the slightest, but becomes clearer and clearer."

"When I saw his parents' old house from a long distance, I asked him to stop, saying that I was not feeling well, I felt very stuffy, and I wanted to get out of the car to rest, and then asked him to drive to his parents by himself, which was regarded as my last saving face for the sake of the children and in-laws. When he was gone, I stayed where I was and waited for him."

"I'll admit that I didn't have the courage to tell his parents all this, and I don't know what I'm afraid of. It's him who cheats, not me."

"I still don't know if he told his parents the truth, he said that his parents are very grateful for my tolerance and understanding, hey, the ghost wants his parents to think that I know the general situation."

"In the end, he said that his father beat him, and opened his trouser leg to show me the marks of a stick on his leg, and that his parents wanted us not to divorce."

"After we went back that day, we talked all night, and we talked about all the thoughts, knots, contradictions, and struggles that we had been married for seven or eight years. Outcome...... It's still for the sake of the child, and I admit that I still have a little affection for him, so I decided to give him another chance, and he promised to live well."

"But after that, my mindset changed completely."

"As I said just now, I've been holding my breath in my heart, I can't get up or down, why can he mess with flowers and grass outside, play one after another, and I can only guard his rotten meat?"

"I never thought about it before...... I'm going to cheat myself."

At this time, two lines of tears quietly slipped from Tan Mimi's eyes, and her words and demeanor were finally no longer bland and tasteless statements.

Obviously, this is a married woman who chooses to "retaliate for cheating", but this "revenge" does not seem to make her feel happy or satisfied.

Tan Mimi choked up and continued:

"I never thought it would be so easy to cheat...... I now understand that the difference between men and women is that men always have an open door to the opposite sex, and they can cheat at any time, whether they are married or not...... And once women are married and content with life, their door is closed, and they often don't think about it."

"But once this door opens...... It's like Pandora's box and wants to cheat...... It's so easy."

"In the two years that followed, I cheated on four people, both mental and physical, single and married. I'm completely out of revenge, but I'm not going to be nice to anyone for this reason, at least not with the people I hate, and I can't force myself to be nice to the people I hate."

"One of these four people is the parent of a classmate of the child, and we met at the parent-teacher conference, because we wanted to exchange 'parenting experience', so we added WeChat to each other, and the exchange ended up in bed."

"I took the initiative to break up with this parent after about half a year, and there was no special reason, I just felt that it was in hand, there was nothing new, and it was not interesting."

"There are also two netizens, both of whom met through dating platforms. When chatting with me, this netizen said that he was going to an advertising design company to discuss business, and he also photographed the door of that company to show me.

"I don't know if he and Shang Biao know each other or not, but I quickly cut off contact with him, so I can't wear a green hat under Shang Biao's nose, right?"

"Another netizen played too high, the scale was too big, I couldn't hold it a little, once after having a relationship with me, he actually asked me if I wanted to play 'swap games and' threesomes, I thought he was a little perverted, so I broke up with him."

"The latest one, I've been on good terms for almost a year, and it's not long since we broke up......

Tan Mimi's mood stabilized, and there were no more tears in her eyes, but when she said this, she suddenly changed her words, and seemed to deliberately avoid this "recent" lover:

"Shang Biao shouldn't know what I'm doing now, in his heart, I may still be the obedient and obedient ***, I guess I didn't expect me to be able to play so high. As I said earlier, I am not afraid of him knowing that once a person is no longer afraid of the consequences, he will 'move forward'.

"I'm ...... right now There is no joy, no joy of victory, and no pleasure after revenge. Although I also cheated, as long as I think of the past, I still feel uneasy, and even feel that the reason why I became like this is because of him, and sometimes he will find fault and make trouble with him, he will try his best to comfort me, and talk to me carefully, saying that he is afraid that I will be angry."

"I don't check on him now, and I don't care much about whether he will cheat on him, but I think it should be difficult to quit......

Then, Tan Mimi lowered her head and said something meaningful, as if she was talking about Shang Biao and herself:

"Cheating is like taking drugs, once you get involved, it's hard to quit."

"Some people say that cheating can be divided into two types, one is extramarital affair cheating, that is, cheating with feelings, and having feelings for the cheating partner; One is playfulness, that is, dating and indulgent cheating, that is, derailment without emotion and pleasing each other."

"This argument argues that dating infidelity is forgivable, but extramarital affair infidelity cannot be forgiven. I thought the same way at first, so I chose to forgive Shang Biao again and again."

"Now, I've stepped into the circle myself and know that this view is wrong. Dating cheating will also seriously change the psychological state of the cheater, whether the cheating person is a man or a woman, a husband or a wife, it will make it difficult for him (her) to face the dull family life, and the excitement and freshness brought by dating are stronger, it is easy to become a habitual date, and it is difficult to quit completely."

"The person who cheats really can't turn back, his (her) heart is already outside."

"I think a lot of times that after Shang Biao was caught cheating, he should have really thought about reforming and then living a good life with me. But he can't control himself, his heart is always thinking about the excitement of cheating and the feeling of being in love, and he can't help but cheat again after all."

"It's like a lot of young people who want to work hard, but they end up lying on the couch and playing with their phones. Many cheating people deleted their lover's contact information and were determined to return, but within a few days, they were lying with their lover again."

"Because cheating has become a hobby, even a part of life. Can you control yourself to change your hobbies? Can you control yourself to get rid of the habit of eating and going to bed on time?"

"Besides, dating cheating and extramarital affair cheating can actually be transformed into each other. It is a matter of course that love arises on the basis of sex."

After a pause, Tan Mimi seemed to have a feeling:

"Some people, you obviously came together with him with the purpose and mentality of having fun, and you also know that his kindness to you is all pretended, and even know that all the sweet words and surprises he brings to you, all the 'attacks' he launches against you are just to sleep with you, but if you can control this thing, it is not called feelings."

"The scary thing is that when you cheat, you may meet such a person, and you will suddenly feel excited."

"The feeling that such a person brings you is happiness and excitement, which makes you full of vitality and passion, and you may even feel that you are much younger."

"But what are the facts? The fact is that we both know that we are a dog man and a woman, and that we are breaking our shoes, and that such joy and pleasure is short-lived, and cannot last long, and once we break through all the taboos and cages and combine them, such joy and joy will surely disappear without a trace."

"It makes people feel very lost, as if they are living between dreams and reality, and they keep asking themselves whether feelings are more important or facts are more important between facts and feelings."

"Such a person, what he attacked before was just your feelings, but according to your humanity, he set up a set of tailor-made cages, even if the hunter walks away and the cage opens, the prey will miss the taste of being in the cage."

It is not difficult to hear from these words that Tan Mimi is very likely to meet the person who "makes her heart pound" among the lovers she has dated.

Combined with her sudden and deliberate circumvention of her last lover, this lover should be the one who "set up a tailor-made cage" for her.

Soon, Tan Mimi raised her head again, and the conversation changed:

"This is the relationship between me and Shang Biao. In the eyes of our parents, we are not like an old husband and wife who have been married for nearly ten years, but more like a young couple in love; In the eyes of our neighbors, we are 'model couples, so sweet and affectionate that people are jealous, and even through the screen we can smell the sour smell of love between us; In the eyes of our children, we are loving fathers and mothers, and our family of three is happy."