My stomach hurt so much that I was going to die, and my temples were pounding.

The only thing that can be compared to it is probably the stiff pain in the heart from the front chest to the back when acute gastritis attacks.

When she was in the car, she felt like she was about to lose consciousness for a while, and she felt like a year.

Her eyes, which she thought were dry, began to cry inexplicably.

It's not the pain, it's the kind of panic that vaguely guesses the ending.

In order to divert her attention, she recalled that at the time of the New Year, Cheng Yuesheng sent her to the hospital when she had a gastritis attack in the cold wind coming down the mountain at No. 1 Yinquan Road.

The lights in the emergency room of the hospital were bright, and she was dazzled.

Cheng Yuesheng hugged her, very steady, but the slight jolting made her abdomen twitch.

She was transferred to the bed, her ears filled with the sounds of wheels, voices, and footsteps, her lips open to relieve the pain, her throat dry.

Gu Yingqing opened her eyes again, as if she had a dream, she stared at the shimmering curtains under the skylight, and couldn't tell where it was for a while.

Is it Canaan Dream Garden in Nanjiang? Or a hospital? Or home? Or did grandpa die in the car where she slept?

Slowly, she came to her senses, looked at the surrounding furnishings, and was at home in Yongxi City, and some moments squeezed into her mind.

The child is gone.

The one in the stomach.

She touched her phone to look at the date, and three days had passed.

I remember that day the doctor said that the HCG value of the previous test was not ideal, and this time it has fallen very low.

But she replied, "I took my medicine on time."

It's useless, the stream has already been determined.

Her physical condition was not very good before, and her emotional fatigue and ups and downs during this period of time could not give the embryo a good environment for development.

The doctor told her to go back and go for an examination in a few days, it is best to have a natural biochemical flow, just like a period, if the examination is not thorough enough, you need to curettage.

This is followed by intermittent bleeding and a gradual decrease in blood volume.

She has been bedridden for the past three days.

Gu Yingqing can't remember and can't calculate how long she has been awake every day, except for her basic physiological needs, that is, eating and going to the bathroom, she is almost sleeping.

She could sleep until she was woken up to eat, and then she went back to sleeping, ignoring anything outside of her bedroom.

When I fell asleep, I kept dreaming about this and that.

The dream that appeared the most was that she was trapped by Zhao Jin during the period of pregnancy, and the dream that she used various methods to perform abortion surgery always ended with a bloody mess being held in front of her eyes, accompanied by the child's pitiful pleading.

Every time I wake up, I can still feel a residual wetness at the end of my eyes.

Gu Yingqing stared at the opaque light on the curtain in a daze, and after a while, she was tired when she thought about things and recalled, and she was sleepy again, so she closed her eyes and continued to sleep.

I don't know when, she thought she had just slept well, and Cheng Yuesheng appeared in the bedroom to wake her up and said to go to the hospital.

Gu Yingqing was still confused, and in a trance thought that in the house she rented in Nanjiang, when did Cheng Yuesheng come?

She asked, "What are you doing in the hospital?"

Cheng Yuesheng touched her warm cheek, "Recheck."

The tone is extraordinarily gentle, the eyes are like paint, and the eyes are filled with distress that has never been seen before, or...... Commiseration?

Gu Yingqing looked at him stupidly, and went through the process of recalling everything before every time he woke up.

Cheng Yuesheng saw that she didn't speak or move, and wanted to change her clothes.

Gu Yingqing's eyes finally moved, and he said in a sandy and thin voice, "I'll come by myself."

When the results of the examination came out, the doctor said that he was very glad that the flow was clean, and there was no need to curettage the uterus and suffer such crimes.

Oh, that's good news, she thought.

After all, it's only been six weeks, right? The last time she couldn't ask for the result, this time it didn't take much effort to get it.

When he got to the car, Cheng Yuesheng hugged her to his lap and didn't say anything.

She felt as if her bones had been drained, her head resting on his neck socket, feeling his pulse beating, and thinking of the faint sound of her heartbeat, she even suspected that it was her own hallucination.

So she turned on her phone to find the truth, and really let her find a heartbeat recorded in the B-ultrasound room, which was taken with the help of the doctor, and also captured the sound waves on the screen that rose and fell with the heartbeat.

"Goo-dong, goo-dong, goo-dong......"

Gu Yingqing didn't know why she was crying again.

Cheng Yuesheng looked down at her, the sun shining on her pale face through the front windshield, and his heart was like a stone.

She didn't make a sound, let her tears run wild, seemed to hold her breath, and stared at her phone for a moment, as if confirming something.

Cheng Yuesheng listened to the beating heartbeat, and felt an unprecedented sense of powerlessness, and a voice in his heart said, it's over.

He snatched her phone and tightened the person, but he always felt like he couldn't do it and couldn't hold the person.

Gu Yingqing was hugged too tightly, which made her a little breathless, and she didn't know if it was because her ability to bear it was lower, or if he was too strong, he made her a little painful.

She was sleepy again, and in a drowsy state, she heard Cheng Yuesheng saying, "I'm sorry."

A low and cold voice, but a suppressed and forbearant tone.

Gu Yingqing was so surprised, he always surprised her recently.

He seemed to have made a mistake in bed, and after making her cry, he was both satisfied and apologetic, and told her very informally: Wrong.

I didn't say "I'm sorry".

She had always thought that Cheng Yuesheng's dictionary did not have those three words.

Indeed, it's hard to hear him say I'm sorry.

But what is he apologizing? Why apologize?

After Gu Yingqing went back, she slept again, and when she woke up, she didn't have to repeat the steps of recall, she suddenly became awake.

It was less than seven o'clock, and it was early in the morning.

For the first time, she took the initiative to leave the room.

Grandma has just gotten up, opened the refrigerator and was thinking about what to eat this morning, she pulled the fresh-keeping layer to see the ingredients, last night Cheng Yuesheng asked someone to buy pigeons and bird's nest, and was thinking about cooking bird's nest porridge in the morning, and then giving Qingqing stewed pigeon soup at noon.

Gu Yingqing told Cheng Yuesheng repeatedly that day, don't let grandma know.

As a result, her grandmother was too worried about her, so she directly asked Jin Yuyin to come to the hospital with her heels, and naturally she knew about her miscarriage, and her grandmother was taking care of her these days.

Cheng Yuesheng also appears every day, maybe because his grandmother is at home, he doesn't have a room with her, and he doesn't know where he lives at night.

When Grandma turned to see her, she was surprised for a moment, "Ah, you got up so early today? Is it okay to eat bird's nest porridge in the morning?"

"Anything."

"Stop moving around and lie down again."

"I've been lying down for a week."

Grandma smiled and went to the kitchen, never mentioning the miscarriage, only saying that grandpa's funeral affairs had been taken care of during the meal, and also mentioned that Yan Yan was so frightened that she suddenly cried and rushed out to chase the ice coffin that day.

Gu Yingqing's hand holding the spoon stiffened.

Just after breakfast, Cheng Yue was born.

Grandma said that she was going out for morning exercises, and she would come back with some groceries by the way.

When there were only two people left in the family, Gu Yingqing glanced at Cheng Yuesheng and said in her usual soft voice, "I have something to tell you."