Jin Yuyin was frightened by her words at first, and thought that she had some terminal illness before breaking up with Cheng Yuesheng.

Later, after listening to Gu Yingqing's meaning, I realized that she was referring to psychological illness.

Gu Yingqing has checked it himself, and he has also read related posts and popular science, even if he has been avoiding denial, but the symptoms corresponding to each other can't deceive people.

She frowned, "Maybe I got sick a long time ago, and I don't want to live often, it's definitely not a good sign."

"Frequently don't want to live" sounds like a very mild word.

Jin Yuyin once thought that Gu Yingqing was tough in his heart, and he used to hide from everyone when he encountered things, and he carried it alone, and he swallowed the bitterness by himself.

But even if the bowstring is pulled to the maximum, it will break.

She seems to be forbearing, the hard work in the dark years, and the hope that is dashed again, only with a weak body to mediate with Zhao Jin and Xu Anrongzhi's back, every day and night that she has been frightened, all this she endured is also corroding her in reverse over time, until she can no longer resist.

met Cheng Yuesheng and let her fall into it, but she was used to being wild, and she couldn't give her sure love.

Jin Yuyin comforted softly: "It's okay, when we are sick, we will go to the doctor, take medicine, and treat, it will always be fine."

The door was closed, but they were afraid that the sound would reach the next door, so both of them spoke in suppressed voices.

Jin Yuyin held some questions that started when Grandpa Gu died, and asked, "Is it because of this that you broke up with Cheng Yuesheng?"

Gu Yingqing shook his head, his face showed a sense of contradiction that he wanted to mention calmly but couldn't resist the surging in his heart, and his voice was extremely low: "Yan Yan is my child, born to me and Cheng Yue."

Jin Yuyin didn't react too much, and the whole person was stunned for a few seconds.

Even if there have been such doubts and speculations for a long time, such as hearing the rumors of Yongxi Nursing Home, and the grandfather who screamed on the day Gu Zhongmin was discharged from the hospital.

Hearing such an answer, Jin Yuyin was still shocked, and reacted and immediately confirmed: "You didn't know it before?"

Gu Yingqing has always said that the stars are her children before, so it can't be pretended, right?

Then there is only one possibility......

"Well, Cheng Yuesheng told me a few days ago," Gu Yingqing replied, raising his eyes as if crying and smiling at Jin Yuyin, and a helpless wry smile overflowed, "He always knew it......

Gu Yingqing explained the processes that he was not clear enough about.

Jin Yuyin knew very well the pale and powerless language in this situation, and her lips pursed twice, but she couldn't say words of comfort.

The only thing he can do is to scold Cheng Yuesheng, it's not that people don't do personnel, thinking that if they give the two jujubes benefits, they have to make people obey him everywhere!

"You still have feelings for him, don't you?" With her understanding of Gu Yingqing, Jin Yuyin guessed that although she was the one who took the initiative to break up, she was so affectionate that she would not let go easily, so she didn't scold her just now.

Gu Yingqing replied lightly: "He doesn't need my affection, affection is just another kind of restraint for him, he is tired of anything or anything that will make him constrained. He was with me because I was kidnapped in the state port, and he felt guilty. From the beginning he wanted to avoid me, and he felt that he had given me a response and made me feel affection for him, and he was responsible, and he was a man who had the courage to take responsibility, but he hated to be restrained...... What's more, I couldn't cross over what happened back then, and I became like this again......

She laughed softly at herself, "I can't help him, I just annoy him from time to time and drag him down."

"But isn't he responsible for the way you look like this?"

Gu Yingqing said: "He is responsible, but if Zhao Jin hadn't planned all this, he and Shen Shujun wouldn't have been involved." She looked out the window blankly, "I sometimes don't know who to blame, if I really want to blame, do I blame my mother for being colleagues with Zhao Jin's mother?" If I were Cheng Yuesheng, who was killed by the enemy, and the family lost their lives, I would also take revenge by any means, not to mention that I just accidentally slept with a woman in the middle, and this woman appeared again, why should I disrupt the long-term plan for ten years because of this woman?"

Jin Yu was not angry: "Yes, everyone has a reason, Zhao Jin wants to seize power, Xu Anrong

Without a son, Cheng Yuesheng wants revenge, only you have nowhere to reason! Q: It's the law of the jungle, you're too weak, you're not strong enough, you deserve it, but how many powerful people are like the Zhao family and the Cheng family in the world? And how many people can compete with it? The man who wants to be honest with himself and wants his love has become a kind of greed, cautious, and worried that his appeal is unreasonable. Wake up, you blame him, it doesn't matter if you hate him, there's no need to make yourself look so empathetic and think about him!"

Gu Yingqing chuckled in his heart, was silent for a moment, and said, "So, I mentioned breaking up."

Jin Yuyin saw that the expression on her face was a little lonely, and she seemed to be relieved, and sighed in her heart, if there was no truth back then, Gu Yingqing would not necessarily break up with Cheng Yuesheng, and it was not certain that she would continue to be confused for a while before the conflict reached its peak.

Jin Yuyin asked Gu Yingqing about her plans, and she said that she would rest for a while, then go to the doctor, and make plans after the rest.

Jin Yuyin told her that someone had seen her paintings at the art exhibition two days ago, and she had not been able to contact her, and that she had found Jin Yuyin through the art consultant of the Chinese collector who had photographed her before.

For nearly half a month before, she has been in a state of "lost contact", new friend applications are not checked, unknown calls are not answered, and friend messages are only told to her when others learn of Gu Zhongmin's death, and she will reply with a thank you.

In the week after the funeral, I didn't even look at my mobile phone.

Gu Yingqing only began to check and reply to these messages one by one at this time.

It turned out that after the end of the previous national exhibition, the well-known Chinese collector posted several paintings he had collected at the national exhibition on his social networking site, including her 24 solar terms.

It just so happened that a freehand peony that she threw out before was being exhibited at a Chinese flower and bird painting exhibition, with white petals and red stamens, green stems and soft leaves, which was taken care of.

Taking advantage of the fame of a collector, she took advantage of the east wind, and suddenly she had a little fame in the industry, so there were more people asking her for quotations.

No one thought that it was just in time for the author to fall into a low ebb, as if nothing in this world mattered to her, and she quoted 200,000 yuan without knowing whether she was alive or dead.

Love to buy or not to buy.

I didn't expect that there were really several people clamoring to buy, there were that kind of art agents, there were galleries, etc., rushing to offer tasteless hospitality, one bite of a young painter I admire the most, all of them praised her to the sky, and by the way, pressed down the price.

Gu Yingqing politely smiled back, and chose someone who was refreshing and listened to the painting and sold it.

After staying in his hometown for nearly a month, Gu Yingqing returned to Nanjiang.