I dreamed again, and the dream was also when I was in college with him, I knew before him that his father was fined very heavily for tax evasion, and even went to prison, and his father found a lot of relationships, and finally only increased the fine. But the fine bankrupted his company completely.

The most ridiculous thing is that it was actually my father who betrayed his father together with Xu Yan's mother, and finally my father took his mother away and flew away, leaving me and my mother dying in this huge whirlpool.

I knew before Xu Yan, I didn't know what to do at all, so I could only avoid Xu Yan to find me. It's stupid to say, if I hadn't done it then, I wouldn't have lost him.

But Xu Yan still knew, when he came to me, he drank wine and smoked, his eyes were red, and there were a lot of bloodshots. I even felt a lot more decadent, and his eyes didn't brighten up at me at all.

The first sentence was: "Did you already know?" ”

I had a feeling that I was suddenly panicking, I shook my head in a panic and wanted to get closer to him, "No, I'm ...... too"

He pushed me away, his tone cold to death, the kind he never told me before, "Do you want face in your family?" Get out of the way, don't come near me! I just found out what happened to my house. He turned and walked away.

I cried and caught up with him, then hugged him tightly and said, "Xu Yan, I'm sorry, I'm sorry...... I didn't know until a while ago, and I ......, "I don't know what to do in the future, so I'm crying right there."

He also cried, crying and hugging me tightly, "Yang Jingyu, what should I do?" ”

With such a big thing happening, we all know what's next, but because we love each other, we want to get out of that shaky relationship.

"But I still love you......" Xu Yan kissed me, the big smell of smoke in his mouth went straight to me, and our tears flowed desperately, flowing into our mouths, all salty and hot.

After that day, I felt a sense of guilt for him, and I kept trying to tease him so that he could feel better, and I cared about him all the time, because he said, "Now quietly by my side, I will be in a better mood." ”

Yes, I will definitely accompany him, I will, because I love him very much, I love him very much.

But the picture changed again in the dream, it was Xu Yan and we went home for the New Year, although we were all in the same county, but we had a tacit understanding not to visit each other. During the Chinese New Year, he called me and did not express any emotions, just wished me a happy new year and said some warm words.

Maybe that's a beginning, a beginning that hurts me.

When I went back to school, he didn't look for me, and when I went to look for him, he couldn't get out, and then his roommate came to me and told me about the breakup.

I can't accept it, I really didn't expect it.

I pulled his roommate's clothes like crazy, and asked him to let him call Xu Yan down, and I wanted to talk to him personally. But his roommate pulled it away with all his might, and then persuaded me, "It's useless, let's let everyone go." "I was crying so much downstairs in their dorm room.

What to do, I'm going to lose him, what to do, I'm so uncomfortable, I can't accept this fact.

I hate my dad even more, why do you want to do this, I have to be like this with Xu Yan.

When I went back to the dormitory, I was sick, lying in bed in a trance, my roommate didn't know what happened to me, thought I was suddenly very sick, and dragged me to the hospital for a few days.

I look forward to Xu Yan, I hope he knows that I am sick and can come to the hospital to see me, I want to take this opportunity to have a good talk with him and then save him.

Am I too stupid?

Xu Yan didn't come either, my roommate accompanied me out of the hospital, and I went everywhere where I could meet Xu Yan. But when he saw me, he turned his head away from me. When he is sick, give him medicine, even if he will lose it immediately; When he plays, I will cheer him on, bring him water, even if he doesn't look at me, I won't take my water; When he's out with a friend, I'll wait for him at the intersection, even if he doesn't pay attention to me; When he goes to the library for self-study, I will follow him, even if he sees me.

After persevering for a long, long time, it seems that I can slowly accept it. I didn't bother him very often, just in a corner, keeping an eye on him.

Fast forward to his senior year, and I know he's created a company with his friends. Fortunately, the friends he made were all from good families and could help him. Of course, his father was also a good man, and he brought a lot of people with him, and those people were willing to help him, and he developed where we went to college.

I also started an internship, I knew that I didn't have the face to meet him, but found a place very close to him, and applied for a position as an assistant, but my boss was a man in his forties, and he always touched me inadvertently, and there was all those ambiguous meanings in his eyes, and I wanted to quit.

It was one time when my boss took me to accompany me to a drink, he was drunk, and the place where I parked was a relatively remote place. He insisted on letting me stop, and then he said he was going to throw up. I quickly got out of the car, opened the door, and let him down. But he put me against the door, put his legs against me, didn't let me move, and kissed me, and his hands were very dishonest, pinching my ass and trying to pinch my breasts. I panicked, my tears flowed so uncontrollably, I pushed him away desperately, and he teased me like a cat and a mouse.

Someone in the back pushed him away, it was Xu Yan's college classmate, a woman, who was holding a mobile phone in her hand and was shooting at my boss. My boss didn't dare to touch me, so he found a substitute driver and left me behind.

The girl who helped me was named Momo, and I knew her. She and Xu Yan's roommate were in a relationship, I thanked her for helping me, she turned around and left after she said no politely, I watched Momo walk into a car, of course I also saw Xu Yan sitting in the passenger seat playing with the phone.

I resigned the next day, and in the evening I happened to see Xu Yan and a group of people going back to his dormitory, so I stopped Xu Yan and hoped to talk to him. Xu Yan asked those people to go first, and he and I walked to the artificial lake of the school, and I spoke first, "Xu Yan, I don't want to be separated from you." ”

As if he had heard a joke, he said with special contempt: "Yang Jingyu, what the hell are you dreaming of?" Are you disgusting? Your family is such a disgusting person, even you don't know shame! ”

"I know my dad did such a disgusting thing, how much money he cheated you on, can't I do it for him?" In fact, I just don't want to be separated from him, I just want to be with him, even though the reality is already like this, I just can't control it, I just can't live without him.

"How much are you worth?" He dropped the sentence and left.