I panicked, I knew what he meant, I wanted to stop him from leaving me, but I couldn't even see him clearly, his eyes were blurry. The big guy hugged me out of the house, my body was tense, I was nervous, I felt like it was going to be over. I helped him into the car and drove to the hotel where he was staying. I wanted to drop him off at the door, but he grabbed me and dragged me inside.

Xu Yan, it's the second time, you've already done it for the second time.

I slept in another man's bed, and I wanted to die.

I left in the middle of the night and opened a random hotel, and when I got to the room, I rubbed my body under the shower, and I vomited uncontrollably.

I didn't go back to the office during the day, I just finished those jobs in the hotel, and when I returned to the apartment at night, I still couldn't help but go to the shower, and my eyes were a little sore from too many tears. The bathroom door was pushed open, I knew it was him, I looked back at him, he was laughing so far-fetched, I felt bitter in my heart, and for a moment I wanted to go up and hit him, but I couldn't.

"Xu Yan, I think I'm so dirty."

Later he took me out of the bathroom, and on the bed he kissed me, very gently, the whole process was very gentle, I closed my eyes to cater to him, although the tears have been uncontrollable, he always kissed my face and kissed my tears.

"Xu Yan, what about the second time, how much money can be offset?"

He ignored me.

After he put his arms around me and slept, I pushed him away, got up and took my clothes and went to take a shower, I went back to my room and locked the door, I hid under the covers and cried for a long, long time, I couldn't cry.

Xu Yan, I really, it seems that I have accepted the fact that you don't love me anymore, I have been with you since my sophomore year of high school, and it has been twelve years now, and you have given me to others for the sake of profit. I've loved you for so long, and you're going to give me to someone else.

The next day, I pretended to be okay and went back to the office, and Momo came out and looked at me what I wanted to say but didn't say anything.

I smiled silently.

I couldn't eat at noon, I went to the bathroom and vomited, I looked up at myself in the mirror, it seemed that I had lost a lot of weight, and people who saw me asked me if I had been sick recently.

I took out the medicine from my pocket and took it, and when I walked out of the company bathroom, I saw Xu Yan, who glanced at me and turned away. That's right, I drank until I vomited at the dinner before, and he wouldn't hand me a piece of paper when he looked depressed in the bathroom, let alone say a word.

I went back to work, took out my mobile phone to check my deposit, it's quite a lot, I don't use a lot of things, mainly to repay his money, I really don't dare to use it indiscriminately, at the beginning, the salary is pitiful, only to pay the rent, I can't afford to eat, the company is getting better and better, and I began to expand the recruitment, my salary has returned to normal, and it has been rising recently. Xu Yan would occasionally give me bonuses, I knew what he meant, he was "thanking" me and giving me extra bonuses.

The first time I accompanied Xu Yan to the wine bureau, he was drunk, I sent him to the apartment where we live now, but as soon as I entered the door, he pulled me and took off my clothes, my first experience, I was very excited, I felt that I couldn't do this, he pulled my hair and said, "Is it okay to be just an assistant?" "I don't have anything more.

Obviously, he knew that it was my first time, but he didn't care, so rude, I cried in pain. The next morning I went to buy birth control pills, and just when I went to the company, he called Momo to call me, threw me a box of birth control pills, and said that I had already taken them. He propped his hands and said, "I'm quite conscious, I know how to reduce my troubles." I lowered my head and took out the medicine, took it again in front of him, and said, "Thank you, I'll use it next time." ”

Later, after spending more and more nights, he took me to another room and said that I would stay here from now on.

I listen to him.

I put all the money I could into a card, and I took out 30% of the total amount to use it for life beyond treatment. I'm going to pay back the remaining 70 percent sometime.

This opportunity really made me wait, half a month has passed, I sometimes vomit blood when I vomit badly, but ah, I still have a little bit of expectation in my heart, hoping that Xu Yan will find out that I am abnormal, but not once.

In the past half a month, I have been sticking to him every day, changing my attitude towards him, and caring about him all the time.

He was going on a business trip, and the time was half a month, but he didn't take me there, he only took Momo.

It's good, I started to implement it in my heart.