Think about the first time I met Mr. Yuan, it was at the seaside in Shenzhen.

At that time, he had just resigned and left the only chance to be with Nianjun. I wore a plaid skirt and walked barefoot on the beach. It was getting dark, and there were Africans taking pictures.

I was pricked in the foot by a shell, so I had to go back to the table to get my shoes.

Mr. Yuan was dressed in white short sleeves, like an eighteen-year-old boy. His eyes were bright and his eyelashes were long, and I always felt like I had seen him somewhere.

He was a little embarrassed and asked me to borrow my phone.

He said he had forgotten his phone with his friend, but now he can't find his friend.

When I lent it to him, he smiled and said:

"Why aren't you afraid that I will borrow this way to snatch your phone?"

"Don't be afraid, I think you're a good person."

"Bad guys like you."

"Are you a bad person, then?"

Mr. Yuan was stunned for a moment and sneered.

"I'm not."

I believe that in this world, there are no six people who meet each other.

Otherwise, how could Luo Yi meet again at his birthday party.

I'll only have a place next to him, and I don't think I'm a good girl.

Good girls don't go to bars.

In the exciting and hearty bar, Mr. Yuan is like a wild lily, looking so quiet and solemn.

He whispered in my ear and said:

"See you again, thank you last time."

I couldn't help but feel hot in my ears, and I mumbled.

"Jiang Jingmu?"

I looked up in amazement: "How do you know my name?" ”

"Luo Yi told me just now that Jiang Jingmu's little girl will come later. The last one to come is you, have you been punished for drinking? ”

"Drink, Luo Yi is my cousin, are you his friend."

"I'm his junior, my name is Yuan Shubai."

"It's you!"

I said why is it so familiar, I used to see my cousin at my second aunt's house with a few photos of them playing basketball, and introduced them one by one.

Mr. Yuan smiled slightly and asked me:

"What's wrong?"

"It's nothing, I've seen a photo of you and your cousin."

"I've seen you too, but I didn't recognize you last time."

Later, when I was with Mr. Yuan, I was most surprised by Luo Yi, who always hammered his chest at my mother and said, if it weren't for him, where would my mother find a good son-in-law.

At the second aunt's, she bit her lip and said resentfully, why was this good cabbage of Senior Brother Shubai arched by Jiang Jingmu, a dead girl? Iniquity, iniquity.

Luo Yi has been complaining for a long time, which makes me really think that I am not a good match for Mr. Yuan. I don't have much interest in going out with Mr. Yuan, and Mr. Yuan is such a careful person.

I called Luo Yi with a calm face and reprimanded him, and I never heard a word about us from his dog mouth.

Later, I learned that Mr. Yuan not only murdered him, but also asked him to play basketball.

Not to mention the mess of being abused, Mr. Yuan gave him a copy of the book "How to Practice Eloquence".

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Qu Zhi'an's ex-boyfriend is a scumbag, but he didn't expect to get married soon. also personally sent a wedding card to Qu Zhi'an, and I specially washed my hair to accompany her.

When he arrived at the agreed coffee shop, he really didn't expect that he would bring his parents with his family.

It can be seen that he is afraid that Qu Zhian will not be able to think about it, so he will persuade the second elder. Her ex-boyfriend's parents lengthened and shortened Qu Zhi'an, praising her for being beautiful and capable, saying that she could find a good man even if she was young.

Just forget about their bastard son.

With what I know about Qu Zhi'an, she will definitely turn around and leave. But to my surprise, she listened to what the second elder said with a smile.

The whole old couple was very satisfied.

When they were together, they didn't like Qu Zhi'an very much, because her job was more decent than their son's, and they were afraid of marrying a daughter-in-law who was too strong.

Now that I saw that she had listened to it, my heart suddenly felt much lighter.

People are very selfish, they only think of their own sons. didn't expect what would happen to Qu Zhi'an, who spent four years of youth accompanying their son.

I felt uncomfortable and was about to speak. Qu Zhi'an splashed a glass of water on her ex-boyfriend's face:

"I'm really blind to you. What a waste of my time. Chen Donghua, listen well, don't meet again in the future, you are not worthy of me to wash your hair. ”

You don't deserve my hair washing...

Chen Donghua's parents hurriedly went to wipe the water stains on his body with a tissue, and he was not angry and sat firmly to shake his mother's hand.

"An An's sorry, I'm a bastard. I'm sorry. ”

Qu Zhi'an snorted coldly, carried his bag and left. I stood there and looked at Chen Donghua. It can be seen that he loves Xiaoqu very much. But why do such a thing?

His mother shouted:

"What's going on with this little song, if it weren't for Donghua's illness, I wouldn't want to drag her down to go abroad. Do we need to do such a thing? ”

I was stunned: "What do you mean?" ”

Chen Donghua pulled the corners of his mouth and smiled:

"Last month... He fainted at work and was taken to the hospital by a colleague. It was found to be a congenital hereditary heart disease, and it may not live long. An An said some time ago that the company intended to let her go abroad for further study, and she would definitely be promoted when she came back. I was afraid of delaying her, and I was ready to marry a girl from my hometown. ”

Therefore, the breakup in love is not only a split.

And also

life-and-death

……

When I went out, Qu Zhian waited impatiently for me in the parking lot:

"Why did it take so long? What to say to him. ”

On this hot day, I felt like I was falling into an ice sculpture.

Do you want to tell Qu Zhi'an......

I think I'm also selfish, and I selfishly don't want to make Qu Zhi'an sad.

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Every day that should be romantic, we are separated by thousands of mountains and rivers.

Will love one person, but also fall in love with other people. But whatever is determined to be good, it will not be easy to say that it will change.

――I wanted to get up and leave the red dust, but the shadow fell into the world.

How did he be born in the red dust?

Love is the same, and so is friendship. We always think that the choices we make are good, but we don't know that this is selfishness.

Mr. Moto read to me Haruki Murakami's sentence:

- I love you, so I always want to apologize to you. My love is heavy, dirty, and has many unpleasant things in it. Such as sadness, sorrow, self-pity, despair. My heart is so fragile again, and I am always defeated by these negative emotions, as if I am struggling in a mud and sinking more and more. And I love you, and I want to drag you in, but I want you to save me.

His voice is so soft, I remember that Chen Donghua spoke softly, and Luo Yi used to joke about me and Qu Zhi'an, saying that we are worthy of being best friends, and even how similar we are to look at men.

I couldn't bear to cry, Mr. Yuan was startled, put down the book and hugged me urgently:

"What's wrong? Under the weather? ”

"Yuan Shubai, what to do, what to do. I'm so afraid that Chen Donghua will die. ”

Mr. Yuan pressed my shoulder, pulled away, and raised his eyebrows:

"Don't talk nonsense."

"I didn't, Chen Donghua him, he was sick. He said that he didn't have long to live, and he didn't want to drag Qu Zhi'an down, so he had to break up. What should I do, should I tell Xiaoqu, I'm afraid she will be sad. I don't want her to be sad, but I don't want to watch Xiaoqu misunderstand him, am I selfish? ”

Mr. Yuan's eyes were a little shocked, and he pursed his lips:

“… Don't cry, it's okay. We went to find Qu Zhi'an, and we told her. ”

I pulled Mr. Yuan's hand and shook my head.

"Don't, Xiaoqu will be sad if she knows, she will collapse."

"Jiang Jingmu... You calm down and don't cry. You have to know such a thing, Chen Donghua doesn't want Qu Zhian to know, because he doesn't want Qu Zhian to be sad for the rest of his life. Live in the world of his death for the rest of his life, right?

And we want to tell Qu Zhi'an because we don't want to deceive her, she is your good friend.

You can't blame us for not telling her the truth when she learns the truth one day. let her not do her best to accompany Chen Donghua through the last time. So... Well... We..."

By the end, Mr. Yuan's voice was already choked.

Reality harms people and disperses.

I had long thought of Qu Zhi'an's reaction when he found out about this.

She cried.

His eyes glazed over, and tears rolled down his cheeks.

"Chen Donghua, this bastard!"

Qu Zhian picked up the car keys on the side and was about to go out, I grabbed the car keys in her hand and handed them to Mr. Yuan.

On the way, she hugged her shoulders and bit her fingers and asked me vigorously.

He's not going to be in trouble, is he?

I was nervous, knowing that I couldn't bring her any kind of emotion. I can only comfort her one by one, and she will be fine.

It's a pity that God didn't hear my prayer at that moment, and there was no one in Chen Donghua's house.

Qu Zhi'an slapped the door very quickly, which caused the neighbors on the other side to be unhappy.

"Don't knock, I'm not at home at the door, their son fainted yesterday. I was taken to the hospital by ambulance and didn't come back for a night. ”

I saw Qu Zhi'an's eyes dim for a moment, and his hand slamming the door was weak. Running downstairs like crazy, I hurriedly thanked him, and chased after Mr. Yuan.

found the hospital where Chen Donghua was, Qu Zhian couldn't cry when she arrived at the door of the ward, she covered her mouth and looked at the people in the ward.

The boy she used to love her deeply, lying on a hospital bed with a pale face, relying on a respirator to keep her alive.

His parents sat next to him and watched him in a daze.

When she pushed the door open, Chen Donghua's mother reached out to wipe her tears and stood up when she saw us.

"Xiaoqu, why are you here?"

"Auntie... Donghua, what's wrong with him? ”

……

At that moment, I felt a long pause in breathing in the hospital room. Then Qu Zhian swallowed lightly.

She walked unsteadily and walked to Chen Donghua's hospital bed.

When she reached out to touch Chen Donghua's face, I noticed that her whole body was shaking.

"Very... Is it serious? ”

"Will you die..."

No one answered, and Qu Zhian's tears dripped on Chen Donghua's face. From the faint teardrops, I saw the heartbreak.

――When you are in the warm breeze, the birds singing and the fragrance of flowers, the green mountains and green waters, and the spring scenery of thousands of acres of fertile fields, you will definitely be intoxicated; When you face the golden autumn season, which is as fruitful as gold and silver, you will definitely be delighted. Have you ever thought that the abundant spring color is the heroic appearance after the baptism of severe cold, and the beautiful scenery of the golden autumn is the crystallization after being smelted by the scorching heat.

Mr. Yuan put his arms around me from behind, and I turned around and buried my face in his arms.

I thought he had a few years to live, at least not what he is now.

I fear life and death,

I'm a coward.

After Chen Donghua's parents went back, we stayed in the ward with Qu Zhi'an. It wasn't until Mr. Yuan went to buy us lunch that Chen Donghua finally woke up.

Qu Zhian stood up excitedly and took Chen Donghua's hand:

"Chen Donghua! Donghua is me, it is my Qu Zhi'an. ”

He opened his eyes for a long time, but he couldn't focus on Qu Zhi'an's face.

Qu Zhi'an turned his head to look at me with a pale face, and I hurriedly got up and walked to her. Stretched out his hand and shook his arm in front of Chen Donghua's eyes.

My heart shook.

"East Birch... Are your eyes blind? Qu Zhi'an asked

Chen Donghua opened his mouth weakly, but there was no sound.

I pressed the paging system in the ward and called the doctor.

After a series of examinations such as a CT scan of the head, the doctor asked Qu Zhian what the relationship was with the patient.

She said: I am his fiancée.

The doctor said: "When the ambulance arrived at the patient's place of illness yesterday, he was lying in the staircase. It may have been a heart attack, and he fell down the stairs and hit his head. The CT scan of the patient's head showed that there was a blood clot in the brain, and it should have been a long time ago.

Intracerebral hemorrhage compresses nerves, causing blindness and difficulty breathing as the blood clot grows.

Surgery is required to remove the brain clod, but the patient's body is not suitable for brain surgery. Once on the operating table, there is only a 5 percent chance of survival.

In other words, the chances of surviving on the operating table are slim. Yesterday, the patient's family had already signed a critical illness notice, so you should spend more time with him in the last time. ”

The doctor shook his head regretfully and left the room with the nurse.

Qu Zhi'an suddenly collapsed on the ground, she held back her tears and said to herself:

"It's my fault, I shouldn't have agreed to the breakup. It's my fault that I went abroad with other men to get angry with him. He must be mad at me. ”

But, Qu Zhi'an.

Life is a path winding in the mountains, bumpy, and the cliffs are on the side, wanting to cry... Just cry.