There was a little cousin who was just twenty years old. When I entered the university, I was admitted with the fourth place in the province.

Her parents divorced early, and her uncle made a fortune in business and took her to live in Beijing. The day after she received the admission letter, she came to Shanghai to look for me.

The first thing I said was:

"Sister, can I fall in love?"

"Yes, how do you say that?"

She sat on the sofa and hesitated for a moment, then shook her head again: "Forget it." ”

"How do you forget it?"

"He didn't like me, and I don't know where he went."

When her eyes moistened and she remembered the person in her heart that I had never known, sadness came to me instantly.

I think, that boy should be very good, otherwise how did he attract such a self-motivated Jiang Jiucheng?

I think, that boy should be very dazzling, after all, Jiang Jiucheng with an elm head, how could he be red for him.

But in reality, the person she said was just a boy who went from being fun-loving to having an epiphany about learning for family reasons.

The boy who loves to play with fox friends and dog friends in society met Jiang Jiucheng just right.

"How many points did he get?" I handed her a cup filled with warm water.

"I don't know."

"So he told you before, where does he want to go?"

"Nope."

…… There was silence between them, and I saw her hand clutching the water glass tightly, her short hair blocking her pink cheeks. I couldn't see her face clearly, but I saw her tears... Dripped into the cup.

Gently... Ripple the ......

"I'm like... Irrespective of... No matter how hard you try, it's useless. He dislikes me, he always dislikes me... I don't think I'm trying. I don't know English well enough and I failed math. Later, I secretly learned at home at two o'clock, and I went from the bottom of the class to the top ten, I thought it would be fine, but he said I was a nerd..."

She choked up as she spoke, she didn't even want the tissues handed to her, and kept crying.

"Don't cry, good." She snuggled up to my shoulder and grabbed my hand.

"I always tell myself to have a good time, just keep myself busy, get some sleep, and this sadness will pass. But at night, it was still suppressed and breathless. I couldn't fool myself because there were some things that just didn't get by. ”

Jiang Jiucheng's crying suddenly cried to my heart. That's it, how lively we used to be. And now, whether it's life, or love. Everything makes me feel depressed, just like the pain of not being able to love.

As soon as the military training for freshmen began, she threw herself into the new group.

After returning from military training, her skin was tanned. But there was hope in her eyes, and she told me:

"Sister, take me to buy some face masks. I'm too dark and a little ugly. She touched her face and looked at me shyly.

It is impossible for a person who has never dressed up to suddenly open his mind, it must be something that has been experienced. So, I tease her around the bend.

"It's not ugly, this color is normal, haha."

"Sister! How are you like that! You look, you look at my shoulders and arms, you look at my neck, here, what is this black? You must be blind at work, I have to tell Brother Shu Bai and let him take you to have a look. ”

"Isn't it, Jiang Jiucheng? Ginger shameless, you! How do you talk to me? Why don't you just buy a face mask? Buy, buy, buy, I'll take you now! ”

"Really? Let's go! ”

On the way, I asked her why she suddenly started to pay attention to herself, and she smiled a little lightly: "The freshman who spoke on the opening day was probably the best boy I've met so far." ”

"How?"

"It's just very good, good at studying, good at growing, and good at laughing. We became good friends during military training, sister, do you know? He was completely different from the guy I liked in high school. The guy I liked in high school would always use words to suppress me, saying that I was not good, this is not good, that is not good. But he was different, he was always encouraging me when he talked to me, saying that I was great, that I was excellent. But it's better to be better, girls should love themselves first and then love others. I think he was right, loving yourself is the beginning of a lifelong romance. ”

I went to the store and picked up several boxes of face masks, and on the way back, she said she wanted to add some clothes. When I was choosing clothes, I thought she needed some cosmetics too, so I drove around to the specialty store.

Without telling her, she sat in the passenger seat, blinking her eyes, clutching her seat belt and asking me:

"Sister... Aren't you going back? ”

"Oh, aren't you starting school, I want to give you a little gift."

"What gift?"

"I won't tell you! Arrived, get off. ”

She was very reserved, and she looked like a child. But yes, she's only eighteen.

"Lipstick?"

"That's right."

"Why did you give me lipstick?"

"Because girls, you have to live exquisitely!"

Exquisite life, exquisite self.

It is you who decide what kind of life you have, not what kind of life you are.

If it's for yourself, you have to live exquisitely. A comfortable life, a good life is your own life. If you want to be happy with someone, you must pay more attention to your own appearance. Whether you look beautiful or not on the accident table is up to you.

And the last thing a woman can do without is lipstick, which is a woman's respect. Harness it, not show it off.

sent Jiang Jiucheng downstairs to her student apartment and met the boy she said. The boy was waiting downstairs in her dorm room, holding a pink lunch box. When Jiang Jiucheng ran over, he helped her carry the things over. Only the lunch box was given to her.

"What?" She asked him with a lunch box, and when I looked over, it was a sandwich.

"What's that, you messaged me in the morning and said you wanted something to eat."

"Ah, yes, yes, I forgot, thank you. Let me introduce you to this is my sister, this is my classmate, Meng Wensheng. ”

"Hello, Xiao Meng!"

"Hello sister."

"Hello. I'll go first, little orange. Bye-bye"

When I left, I watched him talking and laughing with Little Orange. He looks very polite and has a good personality. Compared with Jiang Jiucheng, who came to me at that time, she looked very cheerful at this time, and there was light in her eyes.

When I think back to my university, it seems that I didn't care too much about my life at first. It wasn't until I met Mr. Yuan later that I learned to dress up and fight for what I wanted. I know more and more what I want to live and what I want.

For a woman, success is not attached to a man. The time when I followed Nian Jun to Beijing was the most confused period of my life. I always work overtime in the company to catch up with the design drawings and follow the director to run around, just to make him pay more attention to me.

I'm in Beijing, and it's not uncommon to get home at one or two in the morning. I finally got home a little early, and it was after nine o'clock, and I saw high school students running in the car, which was very leisurely. I am a very contented person, and when I see others happy, I am happy from the bottom of my heart.

My eyes are smiling, and it's crying.

At that time, it had been a long, long time since I had seen the scenery at night, and the faster the city developed, the more tired I became.

I guess I was twenty-three years old, and I can't remember the time. Zhou Keren parachuted from the 'Westtina' branch company to our 'Sponge House', a newly listed company.

Her beauty and self-confidence immediately attracted Nianjun's attention.

So, I'm defeated... Pieces.

More than ten years of secret love, from the moment Nian Jun told me, my voice: "Ah... That's right. Congratulations, you're a good match..."

…… It's over......

Every time I shed tears, I was at night, crying frantically and suffocating.

One day later, suddenly there was no longer the shadow of Nian Jun in his memory. His appearance, what he said, and the diary he had written to him were all suddenly gone. I suddenly realized that another year had passed. For a year, he never appeared in my dreams again.

The first work that made me famous in the design world was "Eve".

After quitting my job as a designer assistant in Beijing, I returned to Shanghai and found a designer at a company that didn't even half of the 'sponge family'.

The only thing that pleased me was that at least I became a designer. No longer the assistant designer in the 'sponge house'. That hopeless job, the design signature never even appeared in my name, taking a dead salary, eating and waiting to die.

That's not the life I want, I'm still young, and I still have a lot of ideas, and I'm not willing to live like this.

Although it is small and not famous, at least I can tell others: I, Jiang Jingmu, am now a designer!

Fortunately, the boss works hard and is a very capable man in his early thirties. He is very able to endure hardships and hardships, and he works hard.

Once I went abroad and followed the boss to design. In the last few days after work, I hid in the hotel, either reading a book or watching a movie.

I stumbled across a 1999 British movie "The Ideal Husband"

There is a sentence that touched me deeply:

To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance.

Loving yourself is the beginning of a lifelong romance.

- Oscar Wilde, "The Ideal Husband"

Looking back at the diary on the table, it was raining lightly outside the window, and I was looking out the window.

At the moment when the inspiration struck, there happened to be a blonde girl who hurriedly ran over with her backpack.

The general outline of the dress "Eve" was designed by me while the iron was hot and my head was clear.

After becoming famous in the circle, he was discovered by Mr. Song. I left that small company and went to what is now the 'Thinking Tree'.

When I first arrived at the 'Thinking Tree', I relied on the dress "Eve". I got the little designer in the 'Thinking Tree' wedding dress department, and at first I thought it was already very good. After all, "Eve" made me famous on the catwalks abroad, and several domestic companies knew my name. Weibo also added a V, named "Forest Jing".

However, the designers in the 'Thinking Tree' are all graduates of prestigious universities, they are beautiful, they can dress themselves, they know how to live, and they are willing to spend money for themselves.

It's not like me, I'm always worried about whether it's better to buy this or that. It's only a few dollars more expensive left and right, and I've had to struggle with it for a long time.

When I encountered a bottleneck, Qu Zhian told me: "No matter who he is with, you have to love yourself!" You don't know how to be good to yourself, you have been falling, who can save you? ”

Love yourself...

When a bottle of wine was in my stomach, I was reminded of the saying: loving yourself is the beginning of a lifelong romance.

Love yourself so that you will not live up to your suffering.

Only by loving yourself will you become a dazzling person in the mouth of others.

Only by loving oneself can we live with dignity.

Love yourself, your love is equal.