If I'm going to see you, I'll trot.

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I went on a trip to Zhejiang with Mr. Yuan this month. I went to my alma mater, it had just rained, the plane trees on both sides were green, there were few students, only a boy on a bicycle passed me. Mr. Yuan went to the toilet, thinking that the toilet was too far away in the university town, so I walked around by myself.

When my phone rang, I was bending over to tie my shoes. When I looked up, I saw Su Qingzhou standing on the tree where I had thrown the marriage sign, looking up at the tree with a very sad gaze.

"Su Qingzhou?"

I'm a little short-sighted, but today I brought contact lenses with prescription, which is still a question sentence. I didn't shout very loudly, and I didn't call him until I was halfway there.

He was startled and turned to look at me. As if he hadn't come back to his senses, he paused for a long time and trotted in front of me.

"Class?"

“……”

His gaze was a little dazed, and I was stunned for a moment. How do you say it's over? We're all twenty-seven or eighteen.

He quickly noticed my expression, coughed unnaturally, and covered his face:

"Ah, Yasuki. Sorry, I was in a daze and asked the wrong thing. ”

"It's okay, huh, why are you here?"

A cool breeze blew and I sneezed. Covering his mouth with his hand, he put his other hand on my hand: "It's too windy here, let's go somewhere else and say, there is a place to rest." ”

His palms were hot and generous. I withdrew my hand in embarrassment and smiled awkwardly.

No one spoke at half a ring, and the phone rang many times. It was all from Mr. Yuan, Su Qingzhou didn't look at my phone, his eyes were staring into the distance: "Take it." ”

Mr. Yuan called just to make me not run around, and when I heard his voice, I ignored Su Qingzhou's existence for a while, and I joked with a smile and said:

"Don't get lost, this is my alma mater. Silly melon. ”

I hung up the phone and fell silent again.

The tree had been calm, but there was no more of the marriage sign I threw on the top of the tree.

"Make me a new dress for the wedding."

"What."

"I'm getting married, and I want to wear the clothes you made, is that okay?" He smiled sideways at me, white teeth, handsome face.

remembered that he had heard others say that he was going to marry a woman introduced by his family that it was true, so he was so hasty in his marriage.

"Hmm... Good. ”

"Okay." Su Qingzhou stood up with his legs and stood in front of me. The eye sockets are red, and the tip of the nose is also red.

"I'll send you an invitation when I get married."

"Okay." Choke with sobs...

I'm a very bad-tempered man, and I'm pampered and proud. People are still squeamish, can't cook, and are always clumsy at work. He speaks loudly, but he is not gentle, and he is not pretty. The salary is not high, the eyes are not big and myopia, and it is not a small face, the weight is more than 100 pounds, and the height is only 166.

Such... This is not good for me, compared to Lin Mingzhu. How did he win his attention, but he never got the joy of being alive again.

"Do you love her... I'm talking about who you're going to marry. I looked down and snapped my fingers, and there was a choked voice in my voice.

"I don't even know what she looks like, but I've heard she's a female doctor. Haha, the conditions are not bad. "Su Qingzhou patted the dust that was not on his clothes, and it was difficult for me to compare him with the one he used to be.

This is not the Su Qingzhou I know.

"If, don't love her. Just don't make do. ”

"Improvised? I've been making do for half my life, I've become used to it, where else to make up for it. We're not like in the TV series, we don't want to settle for anything. Is there a choice, if I don't love you, you will love me in turn, and if you don't forget it, there will be repercussions..."

Su Qingzhou's words were interrupted and he looked behind me with a smile.

"How can you be here?" Mr. Yuan patted me on the shoulder.

"It's okay, this is my high school classmate, Su Qingzhou."

Su Qingzhou blinked his eyes fiercely and stretched out his hand: "Hello, I'm classmate Jingmu, Su Qingzhou." ”

Mr. Yuan held his hand:

"Hello, I'm her fiancé, Yuan Shubai."

Su Qingzhou smiled at me, smiled at each other, didn't open his lips, forgot to say goodbye, and took care of himself.

"It's not early, I'm leaving. Goodbye Yasuki. ”

"Goodbye."

He turned away and didn't look back until he was far away.

"Why, reluctantly." Mr. Yuan reached out and poked me in the shoulder.

The tone is very sour.

"What, they're getting married."

"Oh."

On the way back, I received a text message from him:

- "'Come to me if you can think of me in six or seven years, but you may not be able to find me.'" That's what you said, and now I've done it.

If I'm going to see you, I'll run. But when you have someone else behind you, you stop, not because of timidity, but because of a blessing.

I see it.

It's time to take this damn like, what have I been obsessed with all these years? ”

I don't know when his wedding was booked, so I tried to get him dressed as quickly as possible. I went to see him halfway through and got him measured in his hospital.

Next is the blueprint, a little guilty. There is the practice of Nianjun, and this time he confessed to Mr. Yuan very frankly.

I thought he would be angry, but I didn't expect to agree very understandingly.

It's been many years, and he can understand that I'm doing it very well. I'm always afraid that something will make him unhappy, and he doesn't know how to bow his head.

When I came back from shopping with Anluo in the evening, she drove and I sat in the passenger seat. The hot night breeze of this summer, the cicadas are singing in the trees, and the green light is still so short.

I asked Anro:

"Suppose there's someone who's liked you since high school. I was still depressed when I was a kid and still like you. But I only met during this time, and he still likes you very much, but he knows that you won't be together, and you're going to marry someone else, and the marriage partner has never met, what do you think. ”

"What an idea... It's hard to say. So what if I have a boyfriend? Anro thought for a moment, leaning his left hand against the window and frowning.

"Yes."

"Then I'll feel sorry for him, but since I have a boyfriend. It's just that I definitely won't like him, and I must have sympathy. After all, not all crushes will come true. But I believe that he can come out, after all, Qu Zhi'an's situation has come out, and it shouldn't be a big deal for him.

Giving and waiting is your wishful thinking, if you feel wronged, stop, he doesn't stop, it means that he is not wronged, he is willing to be in love. ”

Thinking of what Su Qingzhou said, it's time to take away this terrible like.

I haven't seen it for many years, and this kind of liking is just asking for comfort. It's the evolution of real liking into a habit, which is not love.

Like many people, look for someone you like. But whether he is sad or happy today, we don't know. What is this obsessive like?

May the girl's lover not be hurt, not thousands of miles to you.

Set him as a target, work hard day after day, win yourself, earn dignity.

Sleepy and let go, choose one as the last blessing to yourself in this love.

From now on, whether you continue or let go, bless yourself and celebrate yourself.