"I'm really happy for Xiaoyi."

I poured the hot milk into the cup, and Mr. Yuan leaned against the kitchen door and mumbled, which was kind of an answer to me.

I handed him the cup and walked over to the living room. As soon as he sat down and put the blanket on his lap, he sat down too.

Turn on the TV for me, and it's still my favorite "I May Not Love You", I don't know how many times I've watched this drama.

After looking at it for a while, Mr. Yuan spoke:

"I'm envious."

"Envy what?"

"Nothing." He took my empty glass of milk and went to the kitchen to wash it.

He said:

"Bhutan's test of people's well-being: Do you know the names of your great-grandparents? Do you know the names of those plants around your home? Do you know what month they bloom and when they lose their leaves? ”

"What do you mean?"

"Jiang, are you happy? I mean, with me, are you happy? ”

He seemed to like to call me a ginger.

He put his wiped hands on my lap and half-crouched down to make eye contact with me. I didn't understand the undercurrent in his eyes. Some trembling hands, and a faint smile at the corners of the mouth, I didn't understand it.

"What's wrong with you?"

"It's okay, are you happy?"

He asked again, and the anomaly worried me.

"Are you drunk? Shall we go to sleep? I put my hand on the back of his palm and whispered.

"Not drunk, it's my birthday today. Jiang, would you like to give me another gift? His voice was already choked.

I was very worried about how his mood had become like this as soon as he got home.

"Okay, what gift?"

He laughed happily at just one answer.

"You don't have to do anything, I'll dress you up, you sit obediently first."

He went to the bedroom and got me a white shirt and matching pants, and took my makeup out.

"You go and change your clothes first, come and sit here later, and I'll put on some makeup for you."

"O'O."

When he came out after changing clothes, he also changed into a white shirt.

Less and less understanding what he wanted to do.

He tied my hair up at random and started putting on makeup.

"Are you going to take me out?"

"Hmm."

"Where are you going?"

"Shhh

He took my makeup seriously throughout the whole process, and only the contact lenses I wore were worn by myself.

He pushed me to the entrance to change my shoes, and when I looked up at the clock, it was already past twelve o'clock. It's so late, and he's going out.

I hesitated at the elevator entrance:

"It's too late, can't we go tomorrow?"

He turned his head to me with some confusion and asked:

"Am I not looking good?"

"It's not about the makeup, it's about getting too late. Is there anything you can't do tomorrow? And you're a little drunk. ”

Mr. Yuan stood in front of me, straightened my collar and put his head on my forehead.

"I'm not drunk, okay? Didn't you agree to my last gift? ”

He spoke with urgency, as if he wanted to hurry up and confirm something. In the end, I went with him, I drove, and he showed the way. Parking the car in the designated spot, he took my hand and walked for a while.

When I looked up, I saw the marriage registry...

I frowned and looked at the big words at the marriage registry office, and I had already left work.

"Huh? Why is it closed? Why is it closed? ”

He went to the door to check in a hurry, and turned on his mobile phone to call someone to ask, but I stopped him:

"Yuan Shubai, you're drunk. Let's go back. ”

"I'm not drunk, why is it closed? How can we get married when the door is closed? Why is it closed? ”

He hugged me so tightly that I felt wet teardrops around my neck.

"Why is it closed? How could they do this to me? ”

"It's not closed, it's off-duty."

At this moment, he owes more and more to him, and all his uneasiness is caused by me. It's not them, it's me, how could I do this to you...

"Ginger... How can it be closed? How could they do this to me? Why don't you wait for me to leave work? ”

"You're drunk, shall we go home first? It's too late, let's go back first. I coaxed him hard and patted him on the back.

"Why go back? I don't want to go back! Why do you keep wanting me back? I don't know how this irritated him, but he got a little angry and pushed me away with reproach.

His eyes were red like a rabbit.

I looked at him distressedly. Holding back tears.

"I see... You don't want to get married, do you? So you want me back, don't you? You don't want to get married. You don't love me! ”

You don't love me, he basically shouted out, I went to take his hand and shook his head vigorously.

"You don't love me... You don't love me... You don't want to marry me either. Do you still like Nianjun... Right? ”

"No, it's not..."

I cried and shook my head, gripping his hand tightly. I felt all his uneasiness at the moment.

"You listen to me Yuan Shubai, let's go back first, it's really too late now."

"I'm going back again! I'm not going back, I'm going to go back yourself! He took my hand away and turned his back to me.

He and I basically don't quarrel, every time I get angry, he is silent. Except for a time before when he was not weak because of Nianjun's affairs, he coaxed me every time I quarreled.

"Don't make a fuss, you're drunk." He was really drunk, and even after changing his clothes, he still smelled of alcohol.

"I didn't make a fuss!" He jerked around and glared at me.

"I didn't make a fuss! You still like him, so you don't want to marry me! Didn't you promise to give me another gift? I don't want anything, I want this card. Good no good? Baby? Well, I don't want anything, I just want a certificate, baby. ”

He cautiously lowered his head and kissed my cheek, tears streaming down my cheek.

"I want this certificate, just this one. In the future, I will be obedient and will not lose my temper with you. I don't get angry with you, I don't quarrel with you, I just want this certificate, okay baby..."

I can't describe how I feel at the moment, he has never been so humble.

Tonight, Zhikang, Xiaoyi, and Qu Zhian agreed to Xi Nanqing's marriage proposal. It all stimulated his heart to want to have a home.

He was just looking for the security I was giving.

When he saw that I did not speak, he kissed me more flatteringly, and murmured in his mouth:

"They are all married, and I envy them. I don't want to be so insecure anymore. Because of Nianjun, I think I'm so unconfident, I'm afraid that your feelings for him for so many years are too deep and too deep. I'm afraid you'll leave me.

Zhikang is about to have a child, and Qu Zhian is about to get married, so what about us? You tell me, what about us? Are we just not going to go in and out?

You... Wouldn't it be too selfish, Ginger. ”

Be... Be... I'm sorry I was so selfish. I've been selfish enough to never think about going any further, knowing that he's the hardest thing between us, but I'm still not doing anything.

I still can't let go of Nianjun, and I can't bear Yuan Shubai.

"Do you love me? Ginger... I'll ask you one last time. ”

"Love."

"How much love?"

"I..."

"Me and him, who do you choose?"

“… For... Why mention him? ”

"I ask you, who do you choose between me and him?"

"He's married, so I'll naturally choose you."

"You chose me when he got married? What if he gets divorced? Are you going to go back to him? ”

"No, no, no, that's not what I meant. You are my boyfriend and I will always choose you. Without Him, there is no Him between us. ”

"Marry me if you choose me!" He took me by the hand and walked to the door of the marriage registry office, which had already left work.

I struggled hard:

"Are you crazy? It's the middle of the night! People have already left work! "I'm a little angry that he's so stubborn.

I'm also angry, I don't know if he's stubborn, or I'm stubborn.

"Yes, I'm crazy! I'm really crazy! How long do you want me to wait? Do you know how envious I am to see others so happy?

Why am I in love with you? Why does falling in love with you make me so painful? You tell me why? ”

I kept my head down and let the tears flow. He was also sad and cried, and I said sorry to him countless times in my heart.

I don't even know if it was a mistake between us in the first place.

He and I were not originally from the same world. But because I met him, I became so lucky again.

"Why is it so painful for me to fall in love with you?"

"I'm sorry, it's all my fault... It's all my fault. ”

"I don't want to be sorry, I want that card!"

"I'm sorry." I can only say sorry over and over again.

I'm sorry for being so selfish.

Tie the knot...

I still can't.