While he had regained a little energy, he hurriedly asked him, "What did you want to tell me yesterday?" ”

I didn't know why I kept asking this question, he shook his head and said, "I forgot, I forgot." ”

"That's not a big deal, is it?"

"Well, it's not important."

Later, I learned that it was the company of the whole day that softened his heart. He had already planned to make a decisive decision, but once again he made an exception because of me.

When my mother called, she knew that Mr. Yuan had a fever. She and Lao Jiang hurriedly drove over, and when they saw the meal we were eating, Lao Jiang came out angrily and said, "Xiao Yuan is sick, you just make a tomato scrambled egg?" is so perfunctory, and will be so impetuous in the future, right? ”

In the evening, Lao Jiang cooked by himself, and during the meal, even his mother and Lao Jiang found that Mr. Yuan had lost weight. I dragged him and asked in a low voice, "I have been on a business trip for a few days, have you not eaten well?" ”

"You're not at home, and I'm too lazy to cook and eat, and sometimes I'm hungry."

"If you don't eat it, can the rabbit not eat it? You don't care if the rabbit is alive or dead? ”

"I said, I'm too lazy to do it when you're not at home. There is no one at home, so I simply don't go home at noon, how can I cook? ”

"In the future, I will eat well when I am not at home. Take care of yourself, don't get sick, and take care of the rabbits. ”

He jerked down his chopsticks, clasped my hand tightly and shook his head: "Don't say such things, it sounds very uncomfortable." ”

I didn't react for a moment, but when I thought back to what I just said, it was a bit like saying goodbye.

If I had known he was hesitating, I wouldn't have said such a thing. It's me who forcibly dismantles "we" into "you, me".

Later, he said that the ghost knew that the company of that whole day, how could he let him fall into it headlong and he couldn't forget it. He is sometimes too affectionate, and sometimes too indecisive.

And I can't, I'm just the opposite of him.

So, when he said to break up, I said yes.

――――――

On the day Mr. Yuan officially broke up, none of us said anything, including my parents.

Later, when I talked about the reason, my friends and I said that we were too busy to love each other.

When he told his friends, sooner or later the wrong people would be separated, and the people who loved each other would eventually meet.

Rabbit Xi'er left it to him, and on the day he left, he secretly went to the pet store to see Rabbit Xi'er. At the door of the store, I saw it lying listless in a cage.

I really want to hug it and touch its little belly.

It was we who brought it home, but in the end, it was it itself that said goodbye, and it was lonely that it did not allow it to participate in our farewell, so it could only be temporarily placed in the pet store.

I didn't have much luggage to pack, and I threw the rest in the trash after the simple things were taken away. Since then, there has been only one person in the house, a dog has lived, and the couple's suits have all reverted to being single.

Didn't cry, really.

It's just that one person booked a KTV box, selected a few songs and kept playing them repeatedly. Sitting there, flipping through our photo albums, there are photos of us, rabbits, interesting places to travel, and things he painted.

I have seriously reflected on what I have done over the years. After being together for so long, it seems that he rarely promises anything. And he too, almost nothing, but he did it directly. It turns out that commitment is just a means to win people's hearts. Thankfully, we love each other only in action.

The latest favorite song "The Truth is False" sings:

-- I'll show you those years of youth

It's like a painting painted with inferior oil paint

We have a bouquet of flowers in the painting

Pretend to be a beautiful mute with a clever tongue

I'm telling you not to believe in those performances of love, love

Young men are good at telling lies

One look deceives the world

I suddenly remembered that when I first met Mr. Yuan, he was not so gentle. At most, he is a boy who is polite to people, has a high emotional intelligence when he speaks, and looks good when he laughs. Later, after that, the job was promoted. The circle of communication has become wider, there are more socials, and there are more worlds. He grew from a boy to a man, becoming more and more mature.

And me? When we first got together, whether it was work or getting along with people, it was inevitable that we would go to school. A lot of times he helped me make up my mind, but he never controlled my thoughts. He prefers that women have their own opinions, their own secrets.

――Looking back, at most there is a scar on my heart

Those who rely on the illusion and do not leave are fools

The gentleness you've seen is fake

Love is all fake

What you testify

Hugs are all fake

The guessed thoughts are fake

I've lived better than millions of people

Surrounded by a crowd like lively and grand

There was no misunderstanding, no new love, no cheating. It's just that they can't pay attention to each other during this time. So, it was decided to put an end to this.

In fact, such a breakup is not something I want to face, I would rather his tenderness to me is fake, hugging is fake, and love is fake. It's always better to love each other but still choose to withdraw from each other's lives.

It was also on this day that I understood. There are really people who love each other clearly, but have to break up. I used to talk about being funny, but now I realize that people who think it's funny are the funniest.

Because you don't understand love, why don't you let go of each other even though you don't understand it. I don't know how to give up in order to make the other party's life better. I don't know how to make myself tired because of a little unacceptable flaw in this love.

Now, I get it.

- I didn't stay up all night talking to him

I always think of him when it's not late at night

didn't give up on him

Those days of hard work together

But find someone to support yourself from falling

It just happened that he appeared

It's no bad to change to someone else

Even if there is a moment when the gods want to kiss

At most, there is only one scar on the heart

I can cut it at any time

I said a long time ago that if I wasn't allowed to work. Then I'd rather not get married, now think about what I can't discuss with the other party? Because of my persistence, he was hurt. But I didn't realize at all that this kind of carelessness is not the most beautiful love at all.

I don't know who this song is singing again, but I sound like I'm singing it all like I'm singing myself.

Yuan Shubai happened to appear on the day when I decided to retire from Nianjun's life, and sometimes I always asked myself. If it was someone else, wouldn't it be the same? I will also be with another person and slowly fall in love with each other. Maybe the other party doesn't love me that much, and I don't love him that much. It's just another improvisation of love, and the ending is still unsatisfactory.

Seeing him working overtime at the company, I went to deliver food to him. Photographed him working hard, only his office was lit in the entire company. He let everyone in the department get off work and be busy by himself. What a good leader, often feel sorry for his employees.

In the photo, he is not at all handsome as usual, with a stubble on his chin. The eyebrows and eyes that lowered their eyes to look at the information were all dark circles. What was the food that was brought to him that night? It seemed to be porridge with preserved eggs and lean pork, he drank two bowls, and bought hamburgers and chicken wings.

I used to always want to read a story from stranger to lover, when I became the protagonist with him. Only to find out that we had so many purposes at the beginning. Because of my youth, I want to start a new love, and use time and new love to achieve the goal of forgetting him.

And Yuan Shubai is different, he thinks that it is better to fall in love at first sight, or to fall in love for a long time, or to exclaim a glance is the same meaning.

- There are no fairy tales in the adult world

It's good to gather and disperse, so that's it

Each is chic

The company is all fake

Love is all fake

Wake up when this dream is over

The teenagers you've loved are all fake

The story you wrote is fake

Your treasured past is all fake

I didn't fall in love with him

The young man you love is too cunning

Turn love into a bargaining chip for deception

And the fragile fortress will always collapse

Nothing is solid

A handful of mud and sand

I want to tell you it's too hard to fall in love

There are not so many dramas that have been in love for a long time

Now that the two sides have been separated

It's better to forget about this love

It's really hard to fall in love, it's not three or two dates. Send a few flowers, eat a few meals, and you can live forever. It's not that I've spent a few birthdays with you, and it's really like an old husband and wife when I travel together a few times.

Nothing is solid, and there is no cause or effect. Inappropriate and tired, "we" will become "you" and "me" from now on.

What was in front of us was a contract to study in England for a whole year, and of course he didn't agree. He felt that he could be promoted slowly whether he went or not, and he said that this is how he came.

"But I'm different from you, I went to England to study for a year. When I came back, the grades were different, after all, the British fashion school was ranked very high in the world. Besides, didn't you study in England before? You can go and see me. "I really wanted to convince him.

"You're not going to university, you're studying abroad. Can you be sure that you will not be tempted or deceived there? If something happens, who can rush over? ”

He grabbed the contract and wanted to tear it in half, I grabbed a handful and said angrily: "If you dare to tear it, we will break up!" ”

"Break up? What would you say besides saying a breakup? It's a breakup at every turn, and you decide to go and talk to me about it, so I answered and you don't agree? Is this a negotiation? You're just selfish, you didn't count me into your future. ”

His eyes were red with anger, and he stood up and wanted to take the contract from my hand. I hugged it tightly and put it in my folder with my backhand.

"I just want to make myself better, can't I?"

As soon as he said this, he instantly fell silent. Clenched fists, standing straight, but keeping their eyes closed from looking at me.

"Jiang Jingmu... You don't know what I'm angry about. ”

"How do I know if you don't say so?"

"From the very beginning, you didn't count me into your life at all. I have never been included in your plans, I am just a dispensable person in your life. Even if you miss it, you can treat it as a growing love, and it's a big deal to be serious next time you fall in love, just don't make such a mistake. ”

I admit what he said, even if I break up, I can take this relationship as a growing experience.

But I don't entirely think I'm wrong, and who knows that this person is someone who can live a lifetime?

Who can count the life of this life as you wish? Because we often can't live the life we want, after all, life is the opposite of what we want.