I said, "I didn't count you into my life." ”

"You have, you just don't want to admit it... You love your job more, and you can not go home for a few days because of a project and work overtime at the company. I went on a business trip to run a project, and I didn't have a phone call. After winning the contract, you can celebrate with your colleagues after work, drink and sing in the evening. You don't say you like it anymore, and you're always impatient with me. When you change, it's so obvious that I can feel it. ”

He's a very sensitive guy, so he's always careful. I don't know why I didn't explain it to him at the time, I wanted to tell him that I didn't! It's not what you think.

I'm here for a promotion, to make my job easier, and to have a good vacation in the second half of the year. In order to be promoted, you can not work overtime and go home on time to accompany you and Rabbit Xi'er.

I don't like singing with people, and I don't like drinking. But when the boss speaks, how can I, an employee, refuse?

But what did I say? I said, "Whatever you think, you don't understand me at all." ”

Jiang Jingmu, Jiang Jingmu, you are probably the stupidest and stupidest woman in the world.

And then you said, "Hmm... It's me who doesn't understand you well enough, so I'm too tired of myself. That... Let's break up, I'll think slowly. It's so tiring, I'm already thirty years old, and I can't play juvenile love anymore. Let's end it..."

Once, his dream was to get married before the age of thirty.

I said, "Okay." ”

I admit that the moment I said yes, I wanted to scare him at first. Let him admit his mistakes on his own initiative, as usual. After a while, he took the initiative to relent, and apologized to me.

But this time, he just clenched his fists and looked at me in disbelief, but he didn't say anything to keep him and give in.

It turned out that Jiang Jingmu... It's such a hypocritical girl.

It was I who forced him to be disappointed and tired again and again in this love, and I couldn't live to exhaust his love.

When I couldn't wait for him to say anything, I did something even more pretentious. I went to the bedroom and took out my suitcase, loaded the clothes in the closet, and left with my bag.

He sat there the whole time, not looking at me. With his hands crossed, his temples and mandibles trembling with the force of his teeth.

I didn't go back to my parents' house, I didn't go to Qu Zhi'an, I booked a hotel to live in. The next day, I still went to work in the company refreshed, and went to eat at a western restaurant with my colleagues. Take a few more selfies with pleasant texts to prove that you are having a good time.

There was no movement in his circle of friends, and he didn't send me a single message.

I was so willful for about a week that I couldn't resist going back to him. He's not at home, and neither is Rabbit.

deliberately went to his company to look for him in the name of watching the rabbit, and was led in by the front desk. He sat at his desk and was working, and the secretary next to him, with his chest half exposed, was half-exposed, and he bent over to report to him. He didn't care at all, and allowed the female secretary to touch the back of his head.

The girl at the front desk was stunned for a moment, then coughed and hurriedly signaled to the female secretary. She and Yuan Shubai raised their heads at the same time, and the girl at the front desk had a very embarrassed expression, and her hand was at the hem of her clothes and motioned for the female secretary to come over.

The female secretary was also nervous and nodded at me. The two of them went out together, leaving me and Yuan Shubai.

"What's the matter?"

It was the first time I had heard him speak in such an indifferent tone. As soon as he was angry, he walked to his office desk, crossed his hands and shoulders and asked him, "Who was that woman just now?" Can't you see her clothes so revealing? Can you stand next to the report work, is it so close? ”

I crackled and said a lot, but Yuan Shubai just looked up at me lightly. Shifting his gaze to the document again, he said lightly:

"Jiang Jingmu, we have broken up."

"Break up? Aren't you sulking? ”

He snorted through his nose: "Huh... It's not sulking, it's really breaking up, you know? Jiang Jingmu. ”

Once upon a time, he liked to call me ginger. Just one word, not Jingmu, not Jingjing, not Mumu, just one word "ginger".

He said that he called a surname, and he found it very kind.

"Are you serious?" His heart was beating so hard that I thought he was just angry.

For a moment, I thought about the recent past, but I was... But he still posted a bunch of very happy circle of friends, what is this, is it showing off his might? Prove that I'm doing well, dispensable as he says?

But that's not what I'm trying to say! Growing up so big, it's the first time that I hate my willfulness so much, and my waywardness hurts his love for me. And this damn self-esteem, what a breakup to let the other party know that I'm doing well, it's all bullshit.

It's all self-esteem.

obviously love each other, obviously can't let go, and hurt each other a little bit. It's not about caring, it's competitiveness, and damn pride.

"So, what's the matter with you?" He didn't answer me, but asked me why I was here. The tone was cold, already hinting to me that he was really serious.

"Well... I'm here to ask you what about the rabbit? Why not be at home? Where did you put it? ”

"You don't have to worry about it, I'll take care of it."

"You take care of? How do you take care of it, how do you always accompany it as a man? ”

"Hehe... Jiang Jingmu, isn't your words ridiculous? Have you been with me from time to time? Designer Jiang, and a dog with air traffic control? ”

When Yuan Shubai said this, I was really sad. Tears of grievance poured out at once, pouting. Stared at him for several seconds, then turned and ran out of his office.

It wasn't until I got into the elevator that I dared to cry and found out that he was really going to leave me.

I took a taxi to the place that used to be our home, stood at the door, and did not dare to open the door for a long time. As soon as I stepped out of the elevator, I could hear the bell on the rabbit's body, and the sound of its rushing door, and the quiet in the corridor was not like talking.

His self-esteem was troubled for a while, and he reached out and wiped his face. I opened the door very firmly, went to the bedroom to pack my luggage, and thought to myself:

- Since he has already decided to do so, is it necessary for me to be so hypocritical? He won't watch it anyway, and if you break up, you will break up. I want him to know that I can live better without him.

After experiencing it firsthand, I found that the truth was not so good. The song in the box was replaced by Wang Leehom's "I Still Love You"

- I'm not like my old self

You're also a little bit like you

But your smile in my eyes

Still beautiful

I'm done with the album, so I don't know what I'm going to do in the future. Yuan Shubai's remarks in the phone: Yuan is cute, and it has also been changed back to Yuan Shubai. He may have changed it to "Jiang Jingmu" a long time ago.

I didn't have an appetite for the beer and snacks on the table, and I hadn't eaten for a day. I used to think that if I fell out of love that day, I must charter an entire skating rink and skate alone.

But the idea was stolen by Qu Zhi'an once, and it was no longer what I wanted. I know very well that at this time, the pain of falling out of love is to work hard.

The songs in the box were sung one by one, and I began to feel sleepy as I sat down. The ACFTU called me and asked me why I didn't go to work in the afternoon without asking for leave, and I said, "ACFTU, I'm out of love." ”

"What's wrong with falling out of love? Who hasn't fallen out of love? Come on, I'll ask Aunt Hong to make you something to eat. ”

The daughter-in-law of the ACFTU, we all call Aunt Hong.

"I'm not going, thank you, I'll go to work on time tomorrow."

Without waiting for the general manager to finish, he hung up his phone. I know it's rude, but I need to be alone right now, absolutely quiet, with no one to disturb me.

Painting is the only thing I can quiet down now, and on the way home I went to the painting shop to buy paints, stands, brushes, and paper. I started copying in my hotel room, and landscape painting has always been my weakness.

But I painted flowers and copied the paintings of foreign masters.

I want to play the piano too, but I can't help but think about him when I play the piano. In order to calm down, you can only choose one thing that makes you down-to-earth and quiet.

I don't know what Mr. Yuan will do tonight, what he will think in the face of this empty house.

Did he take the rabbit home, if he was still in the pet store, wouldn't it be bad to sleep tonight?

I didn't understand it when I watched "Predecessor 3" at the time, but I understood it later. Women think, you love me, you will come to me. Men think, you love me, you won't go.

Therefore, they obviously love each other, but they have to separate. And after being separated for a long time, after the most difficult time, I found that it was not a big deal. Or, when I think back to the past, I will laugh at myself for being too naïve and ridiculous.

Again, after a while. I heard from others that he was looking for someone to love to die and live.

Some people will never grow up if they don't leave.

The next day, I still went to work in the company, and no one could see any difference in me except the ACFTU. I pretended to be fine, as usual. But in fact, I always had a feeling of emptiness in my heart, and I secretly regretted it because of something I lost.

Person... It's probably like this, I don't cherish it when it's most comfortable, and after I lose it, I start to miss the comfortable life I had before.

After several days, this feeling did not go away. Suddenly, one day, Qu Zhian called me and asked, "You broke up with Yuan Shubai?" ”

My heart was beating harder, as if I didn't want to admit it, and what I had been pretending to be, was made public.

"How do you know?"

"I found out yesterday that I was a little fat, and I wanted to tell you about the size or something. Call your phone and turn off your phone, and I'll call Yuan Shubai. He said let me go directly to you in the future, don't call him, he doesn't know your situation. Isn't that what it means to break up? ”

"Well, we broke up."

These days, I will reflexively turn off my phone when I sleep at night, otherwise it is always easy to expect if he will send me a message. I've been disappointed all the time, but I haven't taken the initiative to send him a message.

"Why? When did it happen? ”

"It's been almost half a month, because I'm too busy with work, I haven't had time to love him properly. I felt that it was not suitable, and I was too tired to break up. What is there to gossip about, feelings are just inexplicable. ”

I lowered my head, brushed back the broken hair that had fallen from my ears, closed my eyes and raised my head again.

"And where are you now?"

"Hotel."

"You won't be staying in a hotel all these months, will you?"

"yes."

"Which hotel? I'm going to look for you. ”

"No, you should rest early. I need to be quiet now, I'm fine, I come back from work on time every day to draw and eat on time. Don't worry, I'm going to sleep. ”

Because he is not around, he feels that every day is perfunctory. I'm not in the mood to face anything, and I messed up at work today. Although I didn't say anything, I felt guilty.