At the age of twenty, I felt like a wild horse that had finally broken free from the shackles of my family, and the world was open to me.

At thirty, I felt like I should be like a wolf, lonely, wild, and resilient.

No matter how hard it is, we should take responsibility for our own small family, but life has beaten us like a cow, put away the edge of our hearts, and bow down in front of life.

I feel like I have two paths in front of me right now, either like a wolf and bravely face the wind and rain, or like a cow, I can obey the arrangement of life.

Hold it down, or give it a go, life puts this problem in front of me.

I thought about it all the way, anyway, just live this time, isn't living just waiting for death in the way you like?

I sent my parents home, and they were still angry, and I said to them very seriously, "Dad, Mom, no matter what, this matter has nothing to do with Fei Fei, we have a debtor and a master, don't throw your face at her!"

The parents were not in a very good mood, nodded their heads, and didn't say anything more.

After they went to wash, I went downstairs to pick up Lin Feifei, it was so late, I didn't worry about her coming back alone.

I also brought some cat food with me before heading out.

She must be in a bad mood now, and the only thing that can cure her is the food, but the small animals.

After going downstairs, I called her, and she and Deng Meijia broke up and were walking to the community, so I went to meet her along the road I came.

The surrounding buildings and streets were shrouded in darkness, only the dim street lamps sprinkled on her, and her figure seemed extremely lonely, as if she was the only one left in this world.

I ran briskly towards her, lonely and dead on the road, but with me with her.

Lin Feifei raised her head and saw me, smiling slightly, but the corners of her mouth were filled with imperceptible bitterness, and she opened her mouth and said, "Tonight's incident, I'm sorry, I apologize to you for my mother, I really didn't expect it to be like this."

I put my arms around her fragrant shoulders and pretended not to care, "Hey, don't take it to heart, I don't blame you for this, my parents understand you very well, and let me persuade you!" It's okay!"

The more I said this, the more uncomfortable Lin Feifei became, she sighed, "You are less here, I don't know you yet, as soon as I hear you, I am comforting me, even if my uncle and aunt don't say anything about me, they will definitely have to be angry with my mother, maybe they have to persuade us to break up!"

「……」

"Look, I'm right! If you don't speak, you prove that I'm right, I know you, right?"

"Hehe, of course, you know my strengths, I know ......."

"Shut up!"

「……」

Lin Feifei put her hand on mine, and the two of us walked towards the community with our arms in our arms, and I began to take the initiative to review today's performance.

"Hey, your mother wants a bride price of 300,000 yuan, and she has to buy a house in Dadu, what do you think?"

Lin Feifei suddenly stopped and gave me a charming look, "Cut, are you talking to me?"

"Let's use ~ sets, but don't use clichés."

"You ......"

Lin Feifei's apricot eyes were angry, she reached out to touch my waist, she said to do it, it hurt me to grin, until I begged for mercy again and again, she was willing to let go of me.

When she let go of her hand, I lifted my shirt and found a patch of red under my left rib.

Lin Feifei sighed, with an unconcealable gloom between her eyebrows, and immediately began to express her determination: "My mother and I have argued, 300,000 is too outrageous, let's put the house aside first, how many ordinary families can take out 300,000?" Isn't this selling your daughter?"

"Then you didn't quarrel with your mother, did you?"

Of course, I believe in Lin Feifei's "enlightenment", and I am afraid that her quarrel with Deng Meijia will affect her mood.

Lin Feifei took my hand and continued to walk forward, looking at the dim street lamp in front of her, her voice was a little sad, "Noise is inevitable, 300,000 don't say that your family can't accept it, I can't accept it, I just feel sorry for my uncle and aunt, I made them angry."

"My parents, me

Solve them, even if they are angry, they are angry, it has nothing to do with you, our family is reasonable, and we don't engage in sitting together."

"What about you?" Lin Feifei looked at me deeply.

I was stunned, "What's wrong with me?"

"My mother said that about you, I was afraid that you would go to my heart."

I smiled softly, "So you're worried about this! Rest assured! No, it won't."

"Cut! and comfort me."

"I'm not comforting you, I'm telling the truth."

With her permission, I lit a cigarette, and the smoke spread under the streetlamp, like a veil gently wafting through the air.

With the smell of tobacco and the glow of the burning fire, I spoke faintly:

"Today's young people, relying on this little salary alone, have to support the landlord, and they have to support themselves, and they can save money in terms of food and drink, but the housing price of millions is in front of me, except for good luck and catching up with the wind, otherwise it is difficult for me to buy a house alone."

I spat out a smoke ring and continued, "The accumulation of wealth actually depends on the efforts of generation after generation, and they all say that it is good to enjoy the shade under the big tree, but I don't grow grass under the big tree, and if I want to complete the class leap by myself, it is basically impossible, so your mother looks down on me and thinks I am a poor man, I don't blame myself at all, but if I really talk about self-blame......

Lin Feifei blinked her watery apricot eyes, "What?"

"If I have to empty my parents' wallets and let them buy a house for my daughter-in-law, then I will blame myself."

Everyone wants to make their family's life well, poverty is not that my parents don't work hard, they live in a remote small city, and their vision determines their limited ability.

I came into contact with a lot of people in big cities, Wu Shuang, Deng Meijia, Chen Liquan, Du Yue...... On the surface, they are all glamorous and dog-like, but in fact, their abilities are average and their level is limited.

I don't feel like being unable to afford a home defines me as worthless. I am kind to others, unite colleagues, work hard, and actively dedicate, and in the end it turns out that I am wrong?

It's reasonable!

Lin Feifei was relieved from her panic, and she breathed a sigh of relief, "It's good that you can think like this, I'm afraid that you will blame yourself for the problem." 「

"How is that possible! Criticize others more, encourage yourself more, so that you can live a little more relaxed, don't talk about this, let's go feed the cat first!" I patted my satchel and said.

Lin Feifei has to feed stray cats every day, and under the dim street lamp, she takes out the prepared disposable lunch box, cat food and water.

She called softly a few times, and in an instant two stray cats jumped out of the shadows, their tails wagging softly in the air, as if drawing arcs in the air.

I saw a kind of tranquility in her eyes, which was ridiculous to say, that it was the people who were close to her loved ones who hurt her, and it was animals that could soothe her broken heart......