Chapter 235: I Don't Have the Ability to Grieve
After hearing what happened to me, Ban Xiaolu actually cried, and took the initiative to throw herself into my arms.
I was a little unexpected, and I didn't know where to put my dishonest hands at this moment.
"Xiaolu, what's wrong with you? What are you crying about? We are two lonely men and widows, living in the same room, if others hear this, they will think that I have done something to you! Don't cry. ”
I gently stroked her back and soothed her emotions.
But Ban Xiaolu burst into tears: "I don't know what's wrong with me, but after hearing what you said, I couldn't help but have those pictures in my mind." I saw a child who was supposed to be in class, but he was picking up scrap and stealing steel bars. I also saw a young boy give the only eggs in the house to his seriously ill mother, while he could only drink the soup left over from the boiled eggs. When I think about it, I can't help but want to cry...... Woowoo woo ......"
I smiled and comforted: "Xiaolu, don't cry, I'm not crying, you, a bystander listening to the story, what's there to cry about?" ”
"Why can't bystanders cry? Aren't the audience crying in those touching movies? ”
Ban Xiaolu sobbed twice, she raised her little head and looked at me, her eyes were a little tired.
"You really didn't cry, this is your own personal experience, don't you feel sad when you mention it yourself?"
I shrugged my shoulders and shook my head casually: "I've never cried since I was ten years old, and I haven't been sad for anyone anymore. I think I may have lost the ability to grieve away. ”
I can't say that I lost it completely, but in my subconscious I thought that nothing would hurt me more than the loss of my mother.
But in fact, I know that more than a month ago, when I learned that Xu Lingqiu was going to get married, I stopped my heartbeat for a short time.
"Can you tell me about the loss of your parents? How did you grow without them? ”
Seeing Ban Xiaolu crying so sadly, I really can't bear to lie to her, but it's not okay not to lie to her.
So I selectively told her the story: "Later, I was adopted by my dad's friend. His friend is an old-timer who not only taught me to read and write, but also taught me to be a person and do things. I also learned this skill from him. ”
"So you are so powerful, he taught you? So in this case, he is your master? ”
"Yes, Master."
"During the years with him, he gave me a terrible workout in order to learn survival skills," I said. ”
Ban Xiaolu immediately became interested: "What exercise?" Tell me about it, you've never told me these stories about your experiences! ”
"I can't make a sound when I walk, or he will whip my feet until the skin is open. You know, I grew up wearing iron shoes, and it was very difficult not to make a sound. ”
"Shhh...... I'm feeling a little cold, you ...... You go on to say. Ban Xiaolu wrapped her shoulders.
Where is she cold?
I was already scared when I heard the beginning.
"And that's just pediatrics. My master also taught me that the highest state of human beings is to become one with nature. I need to be able to blend in with any environment at all times without discrimination, which will help me avoid some of the risks. In order to exercise this ability, I always have a bell on my body, but when I move, I can't make a sound. Otherwise, untying the bell is a severe beating; Tie it after the beating, tie it up and untie it again, and then get beaten again...... I grew up in this environment. ”
Ban Xiaolu stretched out her little hand and touched my forehead, and asked, "Chen Mo, were you beaten stupid?" When you talk about your sad experience, you don't have to cry, but when you talk about your experience of being beaten, you can still laugh? ”
"It sounds quite miserable, but you don't understand, for me, the happiest days in my life are precisely the time when I follow my master to exercise my muscles and bones and hone my will."
"Perverted! I think you've been raised into a little pervert by a big pervert! That's why you laugh! Ban Xiaolu couldn't help but ask.
In this way, I told her the story of my childhood, and she got closer and closer to me.
Gradually, she stopped responding, and it became a one-man show for me.
By the time I came to my senses, she had fallen asleep on my shoulder.
It seems that after tossing all night, she is really tired.
I gently picked her up and put her on the bed, trying to give her a good night's sleep.
But looking at her lying there, I couldn't take my eyes off it.
It's just a thin layer of T-shirt, and it's not much different from being completely exposed to my eyes, and the shape is really wonderful......
I called Ban Xiaolu twice to make sure she was asleep, and I lay on my stomach almost uncontrollably, holding it gently.
But after a few fiddlings, Ban Xiaolu's snort seemed to get worse.
I almost didn't get scared and quickly rolled over and fell to the ground.
Fortunately, Ban Xiaolu didn't wake up, if she knew about it, the consequences would be unimaginable......
I gasped for breath with palpitations, criticizing myself in my heart, how could I do such a thing while Ban Xiaolu was sleeping?
I'm glad I heard her whisper, otherwise I wouldn't have known what I would have done to her tonight......
With trepidation, I gradually fell asleep.
We were so tired tonight that we slept until nine o'clock before we woke up.
Ban Xiaolu yawned, looking tired.
"Chen Mo, what time is it?"
I barely opened my sleepy eyes and looked at my phone: "It's half past nine." What's wrong? ”
"What? It's half past nine! Ban Xiaolu sat up from the bed abruptly.
Frightened, I looked at my phone carefully: "Yes, it's half past nine, I thought I was wrong." What's wrong? Is there something wrong with you? ”
"Of course! I have to go to work today! It's over, the fire burned out my phone yesterday, and I forgot about letting you set the alarm clock! ”
"Hey, the occasional day away from work won't have much impact on your career. You're a TV showman, and it's a beautiful woman's privilege to be forgiven. I jokingly said.
"you!"
Ban Xiaolu got up and walked to the window, she opened the curtains, and saw that Lin Taibei had begun to lead the children to clean up the ruins.
My eyes were completely focused on her body, and the T-shirt completely exposed her two slender thighs.
This woman's legs are so white!
"Chen Mo, let's go down and help, shall we?"
"Huh? I don't eat it. ”
"What don't you eat?"
I didn't hear Ban Xiaolu's question clearly, and I thought she asked me if I had breakfast......
As a result, Ban Xiaolu turned around and found that I had been staring at her legs, so angry that she picked up the notebook on the table and threw it at me.