Qiao Nianchao never dreamed that after the end of the recruit company, he would be assigned to Liu Shuanglin's company. Machine gun company of the third battalion of the fifth regiment, to be exact.

When the recruit company was about to end, Qiao Nianchao's greatest wish was to leave Liu Shuanglin as soon as possible, and the farther away from him the better. Qiao Nianchao knew that he and Liu Shuanglin were two types of people, it was best to have well water and not river water, if it really didn't work, if they really wanted to work together, it would be a kind of sadness. Presumably Liu Shuanglin also realized this sadness, and when the recruit company commander announced the list of recruits, Liu Shuanglin's face was not good-looking. This time, there were three recruits assigned to the machine gun company, only Qiao Nianchao was an urban soldier, and the other two were rural soldiers. After the list of recruits was announced, they stood on the playground and waited for the old company's car to pick them up.

The recruit company is over, and Liu Shuanglin naturally ends the mission of the recruit platoon commander, and he also carries his luggage on his back and waits for his company's car to take him back like a recruit. He took Qiao Nianchao and a few other recruits to stand together. Qiao Nianchao was very reluctant to stand with Liu Shuanglin like this. He saw Fang Wei's female soldiers who had been assigned to the division hospital, and they were chattering about the division hospital.

Before this, the relationship between Qiao Nianchao and Fang Wei had cooled down. The environment changes people, and their feelings are because of the change that the environment changes to them. Qiao Nianchao even regretted coming to be a soldier, if she didn't become a soldier, Fang Wei wouldn't come to be a soldier, she would definitely go to work in the place. In that case, their relationship might not be as bad as it is now. For the reason, Qiao Nianchao put the blame on Liu Shuanglin. In his eyes, Liu Shuanglin had a conspiracy to be good to Fang Wei, but Fang Wei didn't see this conspiracy clearly, and blindly felt that Liu Shuanglin was not bad. Because they feel that life is from a different perspective, when they look at people and things, they are diametrically opposed results. It is precisely because of this result that when Qiao Nianchao and Fang Wei are together, they will always break up unhappily over a problem. During the three months of the recruit company, they did not have a few opportunities to be alone in total. More often than not, they can only look at each other through the crowd. On the surface, they are very close, they are all in a platoon of recruits, but real life makes them emotionally distant.

Qiao Nian walked towards Fang Wei's female soldiers, he was already disheartened at this time, his idea was to end his life in the army as soon as possible, and then let himself live in a different way. At this time, he was holding a cigarette and his military hat was a little crooked. Soldiers are not allowed to smoke in the recruit company, and he used to envy Zhang Weiping's smoking, thinking that it was a mature man who should be born with it. It was also because of Zhang Weiping's mature chic that he had the idea of leaving the military compound and going out. Unexpectedly, the first kick of the first three feet frustrated him. What he didn't expect was that he met a platoon commander like Liu Shuanglin. He didn't care about anything now, he was not only smoking in front of everyone, but he was wearing his hat crookedly, and he looked like a ruffian soldier who was in a suffrage. Fang Wei also saw him, and her face was not very good when she saw him: Why are you smoking?

Qiao Nianchao said: Liu Shuanglin's kid can't get used to me, and you can't get used to it either?

Fang Wei said a little angrily: Look at what you look like, you don't want to be a soldier, it's good not to come at the beginning.

Qiao Nianchao put on a posture of not doing anything and not stopping, and the dead pig was not afraid of boiling water and said: You have a high vision now, and you look down on me, don't you?

He put the cigarette in his mouth and put his hat on his head.

Fang Wei's face turned red and white again. She stood there, she didn't know what to say for a while, staring at Qiao Nianchao who looked indifferent in front of her, she felt that just three months of army life had made Qiao Nianchao a different person.

Qiao Nianchao deliberately said: Do you think I have embarrassed you, if you think I have embarrassed you, you can pretend that you don't know me.

Qiao Nianchao wanted to say all the dissatisfaction and unhappiness that had been suppressed for three months. At this moment, someone called Fang Wei, and the car from the division hospital came to pick them up. An ambulance was sent from the divisional hospital, which was conspicuously parked in front of the recruit company. Fang Wei heard someone shouting at her, lifted her things, and left without looking back. It wasn't until she got into the car that she never looked back.

Qiao Nianchao flicked the cigarette butt to the ground, at this time he was already disheartened, he wanted to end this unbearable army life as soon as possible. It was only then that he realized that it was a wrong decision for him to make up his mind to go outside and go alone, and then chose the path of joining the army.

After Qiao Nianchao arrived at the machine gun company, the platoon that Liu Shuanglin had led before had already had two veterans transferred to the job. Qiao Nianchao was naturally assigned to Liu Shuanglin's platoon. Qiao Nianchao's sky completely darkened.

That night, he lay on the bed and tossed and turned until the middle of the night, he thought of his future and fate, and also thought of his relationship with Fang Wei, it seems that the relationship between him and Fang Wei is like this, irretrievable. For the first time in his life, he felt the pain of defeat. After thinking about it, when it was almost dawn, he fell asleep in a daze.

When he went out to exercise the next morning, Qiao Nianchao heard the wake-up call, and the comrades-in-arms in the squad got up quickly, and there were many soldiers who had done good deeds and had already gotten up before dawn, helping the cook, and cleaning the house. Not many people lay there and slept in. A new day begins long before the wake-up horn sounds.

Qiao Nianchao struggled to sit up under the sound of the trumpet, but a pair of heavy eyelids were really not angry, he opened them a few times, but his eyelids did not open, he simply lay down again, and covered himself with a quilt, and fell asleep again with peace of mind.

Until the whole platoon came back from the exercise, Qiao Nianchao had no intention of waking up, Liu Shuanglin stood in front of his bed angrily, he was still asleep. Liu Shuanglin lifted his quilt, Qiao Nianchao was startled, this time he woke up. Only then did he realize that not only Liu Shuanglin was standing in front of his bed, but also the squad leader and several other veterans.

He sat up and hurriedly pulled the covers over himself.

Liu Shuanglin said: Qiao Nianchao, why don't you?

Qiao Nianchao thought to himself that he would not have any good results, with Liu Shuanglin's nemesis, he would not have a good life in the future. In fact, there was such an emotion in his heart, but he hadn't figured it out at that time, but now he thought it clearly all at once, and it didn't matter if he thought it through, he just wanted to end this nightmarish life as soon as possible. Thinking of this, he craned his neck and said, "I'm sick, what's wrong?"

Liu Shuanglin seemed to have no claim in front of Qiao Nianchao, Qiao Nianchao was not only a soldier with his recruits, but now he was also a soldier in his own platoon, this thorny soldier he did not train well, it would undoubtedly affect the work of his platoon, he, the platoon commander, was responsible, and the next thing would undoubtedly affect his progress, and things would become serious. He realized that his troubles had begun.

In all fairness, Liu Shuanglin is not deeply involved in the world, and he has really never seen a thorn like Qiao Nianchao. When he was a soldier, let alone thinking badly, even if he was a little behind others, he would feel that the future was not bright. These rural soldiers have pinned all their dreams on the past few years of being soldiers, but they can't do it, and if they can join the party, it is not in vain to go to the army, and returning to their hometown is also a kind of capital. Even if they are not in the army, they still hope to write more words of praise in their files, so as to lay a good foundation for finding a good job in the future. Liu Shuanglin was the first time he saw a soldier like Qiao Nianchao, and he didn't seek to be a soldier from the beginning.

Liu Shuanglin stretched out his hand to touch Qiao Nianchao's head, but was roughly pushed back by Qiao Nianchao. He doesn't matter anymore, what kind of person he is not a character in his eyes. He thought to himself, isn't it just a demobilization, so he will leave here and return to the city to find a job and start his new life that he wants.

Liu Shuanglin turned around several times in front of Qiao Nianchao, but he didn't come up with a good idea, and finally he came up with a trick. He knew that a soldier like Qiao Nianchao had seen the world, and his father was the deputy chief of staff of the military region, who were he afraid of? He can only use soft, emotional emotion to move him. So, Liu Shuanglin calmed down, changed his lyrical tone and said: Nian Chao, if you are not feeling well, you can rest. He said to the squad leader next to him: You go and tell the cooking class to make a sick meal.

The squad leader looked reluctant, but went anyway.

Qiao Nianchao thought that if he didn't do anything, he would pretend to be sick to the end, so he simply lay down again. Liu Shuanglin stood in front of Qiao Nianchao's bed with his hands behind his back for a while, and finally left.

That morning, Liu Shuanglin personally brought the sick meal to Qiao Nianchao's bed, it was a bowl of egg noodles, and he watched Qiao Nianchao gobble up the bowl of noodles. Qiao Nianchao still didn't mean to get out of bed after eating, but leaned on the head of the bed, lit a cigarette, and squinted his eyes very comfortably. He likes to look at Liu Shuanglin's low-level appearance, and feels that he has the pleasure of turning over and being the master.

Liu Shuanglin sat on the edge of the bed opposite, leaning forward, looking very humble. Liu Shuanglin said in a sincere tone: Nian Chaowow, we have been together in the recruit company for three months, and in general it is not bad, if you have any opinions, you can mention them. In short, I want you to grow into a good fighter.

Liu Shuanglin looked out from his heart, he really didn't want Qiao Nianchao to go down like this and affect the good situation of the whole platoon. He didn't want to see that.

But Qiao Nianchao didn't accept this feeling, and spit smoke rings there.

In the days to come, Qiao Nianchao's performance can be imagined, if he wants to do exercises, he can train if he wants to, he doesn't have to find other excuses, just say that I am sick, and then turn around and leave the queue and go back to the dormitory. Soon, Qiao Nianchao became the most difficult soldier in the machine gun company.

All the cadres of the machine gun company attached great importance to Qiao Nianchao's problem, they concentrated in the company headquarters, smoked and burned, and dug out their hearts to study Qiao Nianchao's soldier, they had not yet encountered Qiao Nianchao's soldier who didn't care about anything. They have to prescribe the right medicine to cure the disease and save people, and as long as there is still the slightest hope, they can come up with a way to save the backward soldiers. But they thought about it, but they never found a place where Qiao Nianchao had a so-called place.

In the army, rural soldiers have always been the best to manage, they live at the lowest level, they have not seen much of the world before joining the army, the life of the company is even better than at home, and it is a common thing for rural soldiers to suffer a little hardship and fatigue, they have dreams of the future, leaving the countryside and coming to the army, that is, they are looking for opportunities to get ahead, and they do not let go of any opportunity to show themselves. There are many ways for them to idealize, and the best result is to promote cadres, if they really do not want to join the party, it is okay, if the party cannot enter, they will make meritorious service and receive a reward or something, and they have not come to the army in vain, so the rural soldiers are the best group of soldiers in the army, obedient, willing to work, and this is enough.

Of course, their spirit of enduring hardships is far inferior to that of rural soldiers, and in this regard they cannot seize this kind of opportunity, so they have to downgrade their goals to the next level, that is, to join the party, receive awards for meritorious service, and it is easier to find a job after returning home with this kind of capital, so urban soldiers can also be regarded as good leaders. Compared with the rural soldiers, they are well-informed and quick to comprehend, and judging from their performance in some aspects, they are the most active group. In the company's theatrical performances, the city soldiers are indispensable.

In short, a person is integrated into a collective, and he is found in a part of the symbols of this group, and then he has the motivation to move forward. All the motivation in Qiao Nianchao's body seemed to be indifferent, he was just waiting for demobilization. His daily performance is completely like a dead pig who is not afraid of boiling water, who he loves, and he is not out of character, he can't grasp the handle when he wants to be punished, and he says that he is sick in his usual daily training. Sickness always has to be born, who can not be sick? You know that the illness is fake, and there is no way to do it, you can only have a bad impression of him in your heart, and secretly know that he is sick, and the rest is really powerless.

For Qiao Nianchao, this kind of performance is not what he originally wanted to see. After graduating from high school, he was anxious to go out into society, and at first he didn't have the idea of going away, but it was Zhang Weiping's accidental return to the military compound that shocked him all of a sudden. He saw the figure of a mature man on Zhang Weiping's body, when Zhang Weiping just left the military compound, he was not much better than him, he still remembered Zhang Weiping's appearance when he was escorted away, crying and shouting, snot bubbles flowed out, and he just didn't get into the car with both hands on the car door. But a few years have passed, Zhang Weiping is already human, Zhang Weiping has a cigarette roll between his fingers, smiles when he sees people, greets, and stretches out his hand to shake hands with others, as if he is on an equal footing with everyone. All this deeply touched Qiao Nianchao. It was from that moment that Qiao Nianchao had the idea of leaving the military compound and going away to a foreign country. During his adolescence, he still had many dreams in his heart.

Dreams and reality are always far apart, and life made him meet Liu Shuanglin. However, his most trusted friend, Fang Wei, is also getting farther and farther away from him. He didn't expect his fate to be so bad, real life was 108,000 miles away from his imagination. On one Sunday, he took leave of absence from the company and went to a division hospital. The divisional hospital is in the city, and their troops are in the suburbs, and it takes more than an hour to travel back and forth.

That Sunday, Fang Wei, like other female soldiers, spent the morning taking care of personal hygiene, taking a shower, and then washing the bed sheets, and in the open space in front of the dormitory, between the trees, pulled up the backpack straps, and the snow-white sheets were put on the backpack straps, like sails raised from side to side. The female soldiers, because they had just taken a bath, their hair was fluffy, and their faces were ruddy, at this time, they were already idle, holding a book in their hands, some were reading the "Nursing Knowledge Handbook", some were reading novels, and those who had nothing to do were also sitting under the sun telling jokes and chatting, a scene of the coming of communism.

Qiao Nianchao found Fang Wei on this occasion. Fang Wei was standing under a tree reading a book, she was graceful and stood herself as a willow tree. The moment she saw Qiao Nianchao, she was not surprised, as if she had known that Qiao Nianchao should come at this time.

Qiao Nian said with a hippie smile: Long time no see, everything is okay?

Fang Wei raised his head from the book and said lukewarmly: You don't stay in the company well, what are you doing here?

Qiao Nianchao said: Look at you.

She said, "What do I have to look at?"

Qiao Nianchao stood a step away from Fang Wei, and he looked at her very closely. He knew that she was not the Fang Wei she used to be, and she was alienating him. He really began to regret coming to the army with Fang Wei.

Fang Wei, who was full of youthful breath in front of him, attracted him, and he smelled the unique girlish breath on her body, and there was an impulse in his heart. He wanted to reach out and hug Fang Wei.

Fang Wei seemed to be prepared, and he dodged with a shake of his head. She said: Qiao Nianchao, don't move your hands and feet, and don't look at what kind of place this is. After saying that, he gave him a blank look.

Qiao Nianchao noticed that the figure of a female soldier flashed around him from time to time, but he still said in his mouth: What are you pretending? It's not like it hasn't been before.

Fang Wei lowered his voice and said: It was before, and now it is now.

He immediately asked: What about after that?

She immediately replied: Later? That's what you are......

Her words made him blush.

He didn't know what attitude to use to treat Fang Wei for a while, when he wasn't a soldier, she was completely his, he asked her to do whatever she wanted, he was her emperor. But now? She's changed, she's become something he doesn't even dare to recognize. He felt a sadness that he had never felt before, and the little dream that remained in his heart vanished. He can't see his future, nor can he see the future between him and Fang Wei, everything he has ever had with Fang Wei is just a dream of first love.

He wanted to get out of here, and the farther away from here, the better. At this time, he saw Liu Shuanglin, Liu Shuanglin at this time was much more energetic than when he was in the company, his hair was trimmed, his beard was shaved, and he was wearing a military uniform with green on his body, and he walked over with a smile.

Fang Wei also found Liu Shuanglin, and she exclaimed: Platoon Commander Liu, why are you here? And he ran over. Her face turned even redder, there was a look of seeing her long-lost relatives, they were young at that time, Liu Shuanglin was the first army leader they had met in their lives, and no matter how hard and monotonous the life of the recruit company was for three months, it was a living memory after all. Many of the female soldiers left the recruit company in tears and waved goodbye to the people and circumstances in which they had lived for three months.

In another environment outside the recruit company, they reunited, especially Fang Wei was even more excited. Her eyes were also covered with a layer of crystal liquid, and if it overflowed, it would be called tears.

Liu Shuanglin was much calmer than Fang Wei, he glanced at Qiao Nianchao and said: Nianchao is also there. I'm going to the city on an errand, and I'm stopping by to see the female soldiers you have assigned to the hospital.

Several other female soldiers who came together also rushed over in surprise when they heard Liu Shuanglin's voice. They surrounded Liu Shuanglin, Liu Platoon was long, Liu Platoon was long, it seemed that they were already a family.

Qiao Nianchao left the crowd step by step, and finally walked out of the hospital compound and stepped on the bus back to the company. Qiao Nianchao's various performances in the company have a lot to do with the environment in front of him, and the adolescent Qiao Nianchao does not have the ability to see through the whole life situation, he can only be affected by his own mood and emotions. At this time, his mood is gloomy, there is no gap, and his emotions are abrupt, which leads to his appearance in reality. He didn't want to forge ahead, he lost the motivation and direction to move forward, he couldn't even keep his first love, that precarious first love, like a kite with a broken string. The result of this emotion can be imagined.

Qiao Nianchao began to hate everyone around him, he felt that everyone couldn't stand him, and he was abandoned by life. Sometimes, he spent the whole day lying in bed, staring at the ceiling in a daze. After being bored in a daze, he holds a book in his hand, and only those illusory characters in the novel can enter his inner world and become friends with him.

The cadres of the machine gun company held another emergency meeting for Qiao Nianchao's performance. This time, they also found Qiao Nianchao's file, hoping to find a little opportunity to do ideological work from there. His file is the same as that of all the children who came out of the army compound, and the column of his home address reads: Wenyi Road. Father's position: Soldier.

Before this, Liu Shuanglin had already figured out the background of these children in the compound when he was in the recruit company, and he knew that Qiao Nianchao's father was the deputy chief of staff of the military region headquarters, a regular army-level cadre, and with the position of the regular army level, Liu Shuanglin would be so jealous that he couldn't sleep for three days and three nights.

At this meeting of company cadres, Liu Shuanglin's proposal played a crucial role. He said: In my opinion, it is better to write a letter to the chief and tell the chief about Qiao Nianchao's performance, and the chief cannot ignore it.

Liu Shuanglin's suggestion was approved by most of the cadres, so the company commander handed over the task of writing a letter to the commander to Liu Shuanglin, on the grounds that from the recruit company to the present, Liu Shuanglin has always been Qiao Nianchao's platoon commander and knows Qiao Nianchao very well, on the other hand, he came up with this idea. This glorious task fell on Liu Shuanglin. Liu Shuanglin fought at night and stayed up for three nights, and finally finished writing the letter, and after being reviewed by the company commander and instructor, he signed the names of all the cadres and sent it out in the name of the machine gun company branch. They were very anxious and did not know what was going to happen next. Writing a letter to the head of the military region, this is the first time in their lives, if it is not for Qiao Nianchao's problem, or if they are given another guts, they will not have the courage to write a letter to the head of the military region.

One day, a month after the letter was sent, the company suddenly received a notice from the battalion, which said: Deputy Chief of Staff Qiao of the Military Region would come to his division to inspect the work, and asked all units to make preparations before the inspection.

Ordinary leaders come to inspect the military region, which is divided into three departments: the headquarters, the political department, and the logistics department. Every year, working groups from various departments come to the troops to inspect the work, and the inspection of each department is different, and the command department comes to inspect the work, including weapons and ammunition, training, and so on, mainly in the military aspect. Only the leaders of the machine gun company understood why Deputy Chief of Staff Qiao did not come early or late, so why did he come at this time. The preparations on the surface still have to be carried out, and the cadres of the machine gun company have no bottom in their hearts, they don't know in what capacity Deputy Chief of Staff Qiao will appear on such an occasion, whether they will be happy or angry, so the cadres of the machine gun company are apprehensive.

Of course, Qiao Nianchao also knew the news that his father was coming to the army, and he was very nervous in those two days, not knowing whether it was a blessing or a curse. At home, he is afraid of his father, at home he is the youngest child, two brothers and one sister in the family, the elder sister is already working, one brother is a soldier in Xinjiang and is already the deputy battalion commander of the army, and the other brother is a soldier in Yunnan and is also a deputy company commander. When he first proposed to join the army, his father did not say that he agreed, nor did he say that he did not agree, he took out the household registration book at home very smoothly, registered, quickly passed the physical examination, and quickly came to the army, and encountered no resistance along the way. In other words, in the matter of becoming a soldier, my father supported it, otherwise there would not have been such a result. My father was rarely at home, and he didn't come home until dark every day, and sometimes he left before dawn. My father is in his fifties, and he joined the army in the year of the Liaoshen Campaign, and my father has made rapid progress. Because my father is very good at fighting, every time I have a major battle, my father can make meritorious contributions. When resisting US aggression and aiding Korea, my father and his unit were the first to enter Korea, and my father was already a division commander at that time. My father had never been a deputy during the war years, and after three months in the army, he became a platoon commander. My father participated in the famous Black Mountain Resistance Battle in the Liaoshen Campaign, in which the two battalions were exhausted, and in the crippled position, my father commanded the troops of only eight people left, and held the battalion flag of the Iron Bone Battalion high on the position, ushering in reinforcements. After that battle, he was exceptionally promoted to battalion commander. At the time of the Huaihai Campaign, my father was already the commander of the regiment, and he fought to the ends of the earth, and every battle left an indelible mark on my father. Whenever there was a major battle, my father would hang flowers, and he came out of the hospital and went into the hospital, and according to his father's own words, there was a bucket of blood flowing, and the flesh on his body was cut ten pounds by the enemy's shells. When Qiao Nianchao was a child, his father once took him to swim, and he really saw his father's body. Except for the skin under the armpits, no part of the skin on my father's body was flat, and the scars on his body made his father's skin uneven. That time he was shocked, and his hand touched his father's body and trembled a little.

My father was also very busy in his life in peacetime, and it was my mother who was in charge of the family. My father was rarely at home, either going down to the army to inspect the work, or holding meetings in the war room of the military district. Father rarely said anything private to the children, and in Qiao Nianchao's memory, his father had not told him anything alone. In the father's concept, the tiger father has no dog son. He believes that his children, no matter what they do, will fight for him.

After receiving the letter from the party branch of the machine gun company against Qiao Nianchao, his father became angry, and while patting the letter, he said: Damn, something that is not angry. So, he made a decision that he would personally come to Qiao Nianchao's division.

When Deputy Chief of Staff Qiao appeared in the compound of the divisional organ, the companies below did not know, and after listening to various reports routinely, it was evening. He didn't say a word, and of course the leaders in the division didn't know that the son of Deputy Chief of Staff Qiao was in their division.

After dinner, back at the guest house, Deputy Chief of Staff Qiao asked the secretary to call the machine gun company. He said to the secretary, "Let that kid run to meet me."

The secretary said: Chief, the machine gun company is still some distance away from the division headquarters, let the car pick it up.

Deputy Chief of Staff Joe repeated again: Let him run.

Qiao Nianchao knew that the problem was a little tricky when he ran on the road, and his father asked him to run, but he didn't have any bottom in his heart. He was accompanied by Liu Shuanglin. He went with him on the orders of the company commander.

At the door of the guest house, Qiao Nianchao was welcomed into the room of Deputy Chief of Staff Qiao by the secretary, and Liu Shuanglin was left in the duty room of the guest house.

When Qiao Nianchao entered the door, his father was sitting on the sofa reading the newspaper. Qiao Nianchao stood there and whispered, "Dad, I'm here."

Deputy Chief of Staff Qiao put down the newspaper and looked at Qiao Nianchao for a full two minutes.

Father then stood up, put his hands behind his back, and turned his back towards Qiao Nianchao.

My father said: How have you been doing in the army in the past few months?

Qiao Nianchao's sweat came down, he had been running on the road for more than 20 minutes just now, and it was very hot when he entered the house, and he was nervous when he saw his father, so he wiped the sweat on his head and replied: It's okay.

He didn't know that the company had already sued him in front of his father, and he wanted to prevaricate his father.

Father suddenly slapped the armrest of the sofa, because the armrest of the sofa was soft and the sound was not loud, but Qiao Nianchao felt his father's strength.

The father said, "Shame on you, you—

After a while, he said: If you are sick, you don't exercise, you don't train, why do you still have such soldiers in the army? You're not an ordinary soldier, you're my son, you're embarrassing me, how can I ask the troops in the future, um-

The muscles in my father's face twitched.

It was only then that Qiao Nianchao knew that someone had complained to his father. This time his sweat really flowed out, and he didn't care about wiping his sweat anymore, his head was lowered there, and he let the sweat drip down.

Father said: Today, you give me a happy word, if you want to do it in the army, you can do it, if you don't want to do it, you will pack up your things tomorrow, go back with me, and retire early.

Usually Qiao Nianchao doesn't care about anything, he is not afraid of letting him be demobilized, he has lost confidence in reality. But he never thought about leaving like this. He walked away like this, can his father spare him?

Sure enough, my father said: Your two brothers are so competitive, it doesn't matter if I talk nonsense, they are doing their duty as a soldier in the army, and I should be enough to have two sons and one daughter without you as a son.

Qiao Nianchao shuddered, he didn't dare to look at his father's face. He lowered his head, tears flowed down the sweat, he knew that he could never leave the army at this time, if he left the army, in the eyes of his father, he would be a deserter, and he would not be able to raise his head in front of his father for the rest of his life.

After a while, he said with a crying voice: Dad, I won't go back.

The father seemed to take a long breath and said, "It's okay if you don't go back, then you can lift your head up, and leave here like a real warrior and run back to your company."

Qiao Nianchao raised his head a little bit, and at this time he was no longer crying. He wiped the tears and sweat from his face with his sleeve, turned around, and didn't look back again. He knew that his father's eyes had been watching him.

Along the way, no matter how Liu Shuanglin asked this and that, he didn't say a word.

Liu Shuanglin asked: Why didn't your father leave you here for one night?

Liu Shuanglin also asked: What did your father tell you?

Liu Shuanglin said again: If I had a father like you, alas, it would be really ......

What is it, Liu Shuanglin is unspeakable, he is jealous and hateful to Qiao Nianchao. Liu Shuanglin understands that a small person like him, who has worked hard all his life, is sometimes not as good as a word from the leader, if he hadn't saved the division commander's wife and daughter by accident, he might have left the army a long time ago, how could he be today. Since then, he has had a very complicated psychology towards the leader and the chief. In his imagination, everything is not a matter for the leader, if it is a matter, it is also a matter of words. But if these things were put in front of a mortal like him, it would be a great thing.

While waiting for Qiao Nianchao in the duty room, he thought that the chief would meet him and ask about Qiao Nianchao's performance in the company, and then he would talk to him about some common things and ask him to take Qiao Nianchao well. He had thought of everything he wanted to say in front of the chief, and he wanted to make a good impression on the chief, and maybe the leader would praise him in front of the division commander. In that case, it will be very beneficial for his future work. What he didn't expect was that Qiao Nianchao came out so quickly, and then walked back without saying a word, what happened in between, he was full of curiosity.

Liu Shuanglin followed behind Qiao Nianchao and nagged: If I were you, alas-

When Qiao Nianchao arrived at the company, the lights-out horn had already sounded, and he couldn't sleep while lying on the bed, feeling very aggrieved. He thought that his father's visit to the division to inspect the work this time would bring some changes to him, but what he didn't expect was that not only did there be no change, but also made him die of this heart. In other words, there is only one way in front of him, and that is to do it well, and not to do it badly, otherwise he will not be able to enter that house again. And he was like this in front of him, and the more he thought about it, the more he felt wronged. In fact, before his father came to the army, he always imagined his father as a big tree behind him, a virtual tree in his heart, but the situation in front of him was that his father was not the tree he wanted, his big tree suddenly fell, and he lost his foundation. He was covered with a quilt and wanted to cry bitterly, but he was afraid of being heard. Quietly, he put on his clothes again, and touched the pigsty of the company behind the cooking class, where there was an open space, and there were two small rooms, where lived a veteran who fed pigs, and the veteran's clothes were always oil-stained and very unsociable, and he rarely blended into the company. Playing a basketball game here, he only watched with his sleeves on the side, the expression on his face was always wooden, in the eyes of ordinary soldiers, this veteran was feeding pigs, he began to feed pigs from the time he came to the company, and he has been feeding pigs for four years. I don't know how long he can feed the pigs. I heard the veteran say that every time the company kills a pig, the pig feeding veteran has to cry for the killed pig once. He didn't eat meat until the pig's meat was eaten by the company, and then he went into the canteen.

That night, Qiao Nianchao squatted beside the pigsty and cried loudly. His cry first alarmed the pigs, who, not knowing what had happened, came over and looked at him inexplicably. Later, the veteran surnamed Zhao was also awakened, he got up in his clothes, pushed open the door, and squatted there silently. It wasn't until Qiao Nianchao stopped crying that he found that the veteran surnamed Zhao was a little embarrassed and a little sudden, and he didn't know what to do. At this time, Zhao Lao Bing spoke.

Zhao Lao said: You are the recruit surnamed Qiao.

Qiao Nianchao's heart calmed down a little, and he looked at Old Soldier Zhao silently.

Zhao Lao said again: Cry, it's good to cry, I have been feeding pigs here for four years, and I have heard people cry here. The company commander has cried here, the instructor has also cried, your platoon commander Liu Shuanglin has also cried here, crying when he is homesick, crying when he encounters something, and he will be fine after crying.

Qiao Nian walked towards Old Soldier Zhao, sat on the steps, took out a cigarette, and handed one to Old Soldier Zhao, who took the cigarette.

Zhao Lao said: Homesick, right? Many recruits are homesick and don't want to cry twice.

Qiao Nianchao felt that the veteran Zhao in front of him was very kind, as if he had known the veteran Zhao for a long time. He suddenly had an idea, he wanted to be with Veteran Zhao, because Veteran Zhao would not hurt him. So he blurted out: Old soldier Zhao, I'll learn from you to feed pigs.

Old soldier Zhao looked at him in disbelief. After a while, veteran Zhao said: Don't talk nonsense, brother, who wants to do these unproductive jobs?

He replied: I do.

Old soldier Zhao looked at him seriously.

From that moment on, Qiao Nianchao made up his mind to feed the pigs.