After talking to Qiao Nan about Zuo Yue and Li Su that day, he actually said that women can never understand men's thoughts. He's so funny that he actually uses the adjectives of women and men. If it weren't for the fact that I had grown up with his older sister, I wouldn't have known that the person who said this would still be a 17-year-old boy.

As time passed, it seemed like I was getting scared more and more. I was scared that this unborn child would die in my stomach because of my condition, and I was really, really scared. Every night I dream of hearing the cry of a little baby. His cries woke me up from my dreams every time, and I was sweating profusely.

I really can't stand this kind of fearful days, and fear replaces all peace.

I subconsciously touched my stomach and wanted to feel the dynamics of this little life. But I couldn't feel him still moving in my body. I looked at my dad in a panic: "Shall we take it out for him in advance?" Dad, I'm really scared right now. ”

Hearing me say this, he pondered for a moment and then walked to the doctor's office by himself.

"I'll ask the doctor first, don't worry." These are the reassuring words he said to me as he left.

The child is eight months old, and there should be nothing wrong with it if I can help him take it out now. Thinking like this, I relaxed, and just waited for my dad to come back.

After a while, I saw that Dad came back, and I wondered if he would agree, so I quickly wondered what he was thinking: "What did Daddy Doc say?" ”

"Let's not care what they say, okay, tell me how much you saw this child born, are you afraid that he will have three longs and two shorts?"

He said what was in my heart, how could it be possible for me not to be afraid, as I am in the current situation. I looked at him and nodded.

"Do you have to have surgery this month?"

Actually, I didn't have to be so fast, I just wanted to get him out of my stomach as soon as possible. This will also avoid those haunting nightmares.

"It doesn't have to be, I just want to be early." I was still very honest with my dad about my thoughts.

"Then I'll go home and talk to your mother about it, and tell you the answer tomorrow, okay?"

The mother he was talking about was Jonan's mother, and of course my mother. I wanted to nod my head right away, but I can't do whatever I want by myself. But a familiar voice came: "What do you want to discuss?" ”

It turned out that her mother was also here at this time, so she was asking what to discuss with her.

"You're here just in time, let's go out and discuss something."

My mother smiled at me, shook her head helplessly, and said, "You see that your father is always so mysterious, and he has to talk about something outside." ”

I laughed a little too, this matter can't but be mysterious. It's just that it's not easy to say in front of me, maybe the doctor said that I don't have much time, and I must not stop me from saying anything I want to do. How could I possibly say it in front of me.

Watching them walk out, I suddenly felt the urge to hear about it. Slowly get up, stand in the doorway, and open your ears wide enough.

"Xiao Duo wants to take out the fetus as soon as possible, what do you think about this matter."

"What? It's only been eight months, isn't it dangerous? Mom asked him in surprise.

Dad silently lit a cigarette and smoked irritably on the corridor not far from the ward. From his expression, you can tell that the doctor has told him something, otherwise he would have objected to my request to remove the child now, with his temper.

"You talked, didn't you ask the doctor!" Seeing that he didn't say a word, my mother was a little helpless and a little annoyed.

Dad pinched off the cigarette butt fiercely, looked at my mother and said very seriously: "I asked the doctor, and they said that it is better to remove the fetus now than to continue to grow in the womb, but this is very dangerous...... Even ......"

"Even what do you say, why are you spitting and spitting, now as long as it is good for Qiao Duo, we will choose which way!"

"It's even possible that two lives can't be saved, how do you tell me to make a choice?"

When my mother heard this, she took two steps back, as if she couldn't bear the fact that she couldn't bear it. I was prepared for the worst, but I still felt a little unbearable.

"Wouldn't it be better if we waited until October to give birth naturally after pregnancy?"

Mom seemed to ask Dad with her last hope.

"They can't guarantee that Qiao Duo has two months left."

I was stunned to hear this, and smiled desolately. It turns out that I don't even have two months to go, so I'm not waiting for the god of death to come to me? But this was my own choice at the beginning, and even if I regret it, I am not qualified. Even the best courage at the beginning is now blown clean by this sentence.

I didn't want to hear what they had to say, so I slowly went back to bed. If I must die, why should I be afraid? People always have to die! I used this thought to comfort myself all the time and make myself a little less panicked.

After a while, Dad and Mom came in together. There was still a smile on his face, and it seemed to me that they had pretended to be in front of me, so that I was not too concerned so that they would not even dare to show their sadness.

"Mom and Dad discussed it and decided to have surgery this week. Do you have any other requirements before you have surgery? ”

I'm going to have surgery this week, does that mean I might not be able to get up from the operating table? So what else do I have to ask for? At first, I only had the name Lin Cheyong in my head, and it was true, and I really want to see him now. Even if it's just a glance. But I couldn't.

Then the rest is Zuo Yue, yes, I still want to see her. This may be the last time I'll ever see her, and I can't give up. I want to explain something to her, I want her to stop misunderstanding Li Su, I want her to let her know whether she is Li Su or someone else in her heart.

That's right, that's it, these are my last requests.

"Dad, you asked Qiao Nan to call Zuo Yue and ask her to come back, do you want to see her before I go to the operating table?"

Dad nodded silently, then stood by the window and called Jonan. Actually, I could have made this call myself, but now I'm really scared to show my vulnerable side in front of them.

"I told Qiao Nan that Zuo Yue should come back tomorrow, and your mother and I will go to the doctor to sign a consent form for surgery and come back immediately."

Watching them leave, I began to shed tears.