Here borrow five stones to scatter negative anesthesia, but there are people over there who actively yearn for it. Since the eldest princess of Yong'an heard the news that the Shi family wanted to be the master, she was very excited, and she didn't think about food for days, and she couldn't sleep at night, just hoping that Empress Jia could point this marriage to herself. She still went to the Jade Leaf Pavilion during the day, but she was absent-minded, often blushing and heartbeat inexplicably. She has never paid much attention to appearance, and she actually began to dress herself up with her heart.

Women know women's hearts best, and of course these changes can't be hidden from Zhixin. The eldest princess of Yong'an has long since lost her mother, and has no relatives in the palace, although there are many half-sisters, but they are all in their own factions, and they cannot make friends, or even enemies of each other. Regarding the top priority in growing up, except for Zhixin, no one gave her sincere and appropriate communication.

Zhixin was afraid that she would be overly attentive and not good for her health, so she wanted to enlighten her. I thought she must be in a daze with makeup in the mirror or out of thin air, but after entering the door, she saw her holding a book reading, which made Zhixin very relieved, thinking that she could finally calm down.

"It's not enough to study "Poetry" with such hard work, so what are you studying? The Analects or the Book of Rites? ”

The sudden words startled the eldest princess of Yong'an, and she hurriedly hid the book behind her.

However, the sharp-eyed Zhixin discovered that it was a "Women's Training". couldn't help but smile and said: "The female university is not staying, it's really good." Before the eight characters of this family affair have been brushed up, the eldest princess is in a hurry to be a good wife and mother! ”

The eldest princess of Yong'an immediately blushed: "How can there be, I just haven't read it, I'm just curious to read it." ”

Seeing his nervous and flustered appearance, Zhixin smiled and said: ""Women's Training" was written by Jia Chong's former wife Li, and it was specially read for women. Why hide it? ”

"Hee-hee-hee." When the eldest princess Yong'an heard this, she knew that Zhixin was not joking with her, so she took the book in front of her, "I heard that this book is widely popular outside, so I want to read it too." ”

This book is to educate women to be filial piety, not to be obscene or jealous, and the people's families, especially the wealthy families, attach special importance to this, and hope to cultivate their daughters into virtuous and virtuous characters. Because after such a daughter marries, she will not only increase the face of her mother's family, but more importantly, she will make her husband's family look down on herself, so as not to be discriminated against. But ......"

"But what, based on this, shouldn't I read this book very well?"

This book is really good for women. But it doesn't seem necessary for you. As the saying goes, the emperor's daughter does not worry about getting married. Parents all over the world are afraid that their daughters will be angry with their husbands, but they have never heard that royal princesses will be angry with their husbands. Which princess is domineering in her husband's family, as long as she doesn't give her husband a bad feeling, her husband's family will be thankful. ”

Of course, Zhixin knows that studying "Women's Training" can motivate women to be good. The reason why she said this to the eldest princess of Yong'an was to persuade her not to be too obsessed with being a good wife and mother of her ex-wife. Who knew that the eldest princess of Yong'an paused when she heard this, and said seriously: "I don't care what other sisters do, anyway, I won't be above my husband's family as a princess." It is the greatest happiness for a woman to be with the person she likes, whether she is a princess, a lady, a lowly girl in the market or a village girl. If you are arrogant and arrogant, why not go out of the palace? Although the princess was noble, she was not happy. After leaving the palace, I just want to live the life of a normal woman. If you can meet someone you like, know the cold, know the warmth and know the heart, this life is enough. ”

Zhixin is a few years older than the eldest princess of Yong'an, and the relationship between the two is also that of teacher and student, friend and sister. Zhixin, who has always been regarded as a teacher and sister, was shocked by the words of her disciple and sister. She couldn't imagine how she used to be a little girl who was indifferent to the world, and suddenly grew up and became a reasonable and affectionate woman. I am a few years older than others, and I am ashamed of myself. Thinking of himself and Brother Yan, why were they so stupid at the beginning, it was obvious that they were the people they had identified and admired for life and admired for 16 years, but they were separated by their own mistakes. She remembered the words of "the flower of obsolescence" that Xie Shuyuan said the day before yesterday. I can't help but sigh secretly in my heart: Yes, how much youth can a woman have in her life to wait? could have dedicated his most beautiful years to Brother Yan, who knows......

But are we really separated like this? Should we be destined to forget each other thousands of miles away?

Death swept away it. I will not be willing to die!

It's a pity that he is not a man, and he can't escape from this high wall. hateful of these high walls, the high walls of the stone mansion and the high walls in the palace, completely isolate themselves from the outside world, without a single mistake; The circle that hates himself, the circle of the Shi family, the circle of the Jade Leaf Pavilion, there are many people who talk about poetry, but there is no one who can really help him.

Zhixin originally came to enlighten the eldest princess of Yong'an, but she didn't expect to be depressed. said goodbye to the eldest princess of Yong'an, returned to his room, and sat alone on the couch in a daze. She originally had two personal maidservants, Chunlan and Peony. The peony had just been given out by Mrs. Shi a few days ago, and was given to one of Shi Chong's right-hand men. Now she is the only one left by her side.

Chunlan sensed that there was something wrong with Zhixin today, but it was not good to ask rashly, and just wanted to go to make tea, when she suddenly saw the peony coming in from outside with a spring breeze on her face, she smiled and quipped: "Having a man is different when you are with us!" The old lady has matched you with a good husband, and you will be so happy that you can't keep your mouth shut. ”

Peony smiled and said: "Hugh wants to talk about me, although the two of us get along very well with the girl and can't bear to be separated, but we can't live like this for a lifetime, women have to find someone else after all." The old lady is also choosing someone for you, will you be far from getting married? ”

This can't help but add to Zhixin's sadness: the people around her are flying away one by one. How close was once a sister, after all, is it the destiny of a woman to get married?

Chunlan didn't argue that she didn't want to get married, but blushed and said, "It's rare that you still have a little conscience, don't forget to come back to see us." You wait, I'll make some tea and drink it. Then he went out with the pot.

Zhixin sat Peony down and asked some questions about the family.

"Is the family okay? How is the old lady? ”

Peony said: "Everything is fine at home. The old lady is also in good health. ”

"Where's the prince?"

"The prince basically doesn't go back to his house much, and he only spends his days in the Golden Valley Garden, accompanied by green beads. On the field, he befriended Pan Yue and others, and specialized in stammering Jia Mi. These people not only became allies of each other in the imperial court, but also established a poetry society in private, and often wrote poems in the Jingu Garden in their spare time, known as the twenty-four friends of the Golden Valley. ”

The Twenty-Four Friends of Jingu is actually a political alliance centered on Jia Mi, with both losses and prosperity. Zhixin has never asked about Shi Chong's actions, one doesn't care, and the other can't do anything. As long as the old lady is well, she will be relieved.

"What about you, how are you? What kind of errand does your husband do in the house? ”

"Well, I'm alright. My husband has always been by the prince's side, but now he is going to be sent to Jingzhou. ”

"To Jingzhou? Aren't your husband and wife just getting married and about to say goodbye? ”

Peony smiled shyly: "He didn't go to Jingzhou for a day or two, but for a long time." When the prince was doing the history of Jingzhou, he bought an estate there and sent my husband to take care of it. I, too, will go with him. I have come today to bid farewell to the Doctor. ”

"Oh......" Zhixin was surprised, "Go to Jingzhou...... How many distances are there? ”

"I don't know exactly how much distance it is, it's probably more than 2,000 miles."

"You have never been far away from such a long distance, no more than those men, but you have to prepare in advance and be careful of fatigue."

"Thank you, Doctor, for your attention, we've already planned to take as much water as possible. It's really not good, I'd rather go farther away and go around from Rushui. ”

Ru water? Zhixin was not calm. It was a river of incomparably affectionate and incomparably hateful to himself, with both the grace of irrigation and nurturing and the hatred of surging and devouring; There is not only sweet pleasure, but also the disaster of change and disaster. But as long as the word Rushui is mentioned, she is always full of anticipation, because the other end of the river is connected to her hometown, the hometown that haunts her day and night.

However, this hometown - the father is gone, the younger brother is gone, the mother is gone, and the only thing that exists is Brother Yan, who he misses day and night.

"Death and life are broad, and Zicheng said."

"Hold the hand of the son, grow old with the son."

This is the oath we made when we parted, and on the banks of the Joux, a pair of young boys and girls, ashamed and embarrassed to say it.

We said okay, don't lose each other. However, after so many years, is Brother Yan still the same Brother Yan he was at the beginning? I have been missing for so many years, and I came to Luoyang after I was rescued from falling into the water, and no one in my hometown knew that I was still alive, and they must have thought that I was drowned with my brother.

So, is the upright and graceful Brother Yan still waiting for me? - He is handsome and upright, both talented and virtuous, he became famous in the township a few years ago, and is admired by many girls, and now he is ...... Although reluctantly, Zhixin's mind still couldn't help flashing scenes of Brother Yan and a certain rural woman who had become his wife: the husband and wife were working hard in the fields, sweat dripping down, and the two used handkerchiefs to wipe each other's sweat, smiling at the corners of their mouths, but they didn't feel bitter and tired at all; In the thatched hall, next to the dining table, the woman handed the only egg to Dr. Shu, who was paralyzed in bed, and Brother Yan looked at her sideways with extremely relieved eyes; Under the moonlight, Brother Yan read aloud with a book in his hand, and the woman held a needle and thread to sew and mend on the side, quiet and quiet; Brother Yan pushed the door back from outside as usual, and a pair of lovely sons and daughters threw themselves into his arms......

This is a scene imagined by Zhixin, which is extremely warm in the world, but extremely terrifying in her heart. She shuddered, not daring to think about it any longer.

Some people died, but not completely......