We must not be reconciled!

Zhixin suddenly made up her mind: she couldn't just accept her fate. Even if there is a silver lining, give it a try. And now here's the opportunity. Even if you can't escape from here, at least you can hear the news of Brother Yan.

After so many years, she didn't want to escape from this cage and return to Brother Yan! There's just nothing to do. After Zhixin entered the Shi Mansion, Mrs. Shi ordered that Zhixin's previous life experience should not be mentioned, erasing all the previous shadows, and treating Zhixin as the daughter of her own family who grew up overnight. Not only does Zhixin not have the slightest possibility of communicating with the outside world, but she can't even get any news from the outside. Even if she enters the palace now, it is the same, and the reason why Mrs. Shi brought Chunlan and Peony into the palace is to see what Zhixin means. In fact, in the harem, you need to be more careful, Zhixin is in the Jade Leaf Pavilion, except for poetry and books, she doesn't ask about everything. She only knew about the harem, and she didn't know much about what happened in the court in front of her. Although Shu Yan has been an official in the court for many years, she is only one of the many petty officials who are not in the stream, and she is nothing at all in the powerful Luoyang City, so she doesn't know anything.

Zhixin wanted Peony to help her go to Shujiazhuang to find out about Shu Yan's news, but this was a very risky idea, especially for Peony, if the old lady knew, the consequences would be unimaginable. She didn't know if this maid who had followed her for many years was willing to help, but this was the only straw she could grasp for many years, and she couldn't miss the opportunity!

"Peony, I want to ask you for something."

Peony was so frightened that she hurriedly stood up: "Why does the doctor say that, even if I am matched, our husband and wife will always be slaves of the Shi family." The Shi family will always be my master, you only have to tell me, how can you get the word 'ask'? ”

"You husband and wife are going to Jingzhou, just go around the Ru River and help me go to Ruyin."

"Ruyin? Isn't that your hometown? Peony immediately tensed.

"Yes, my hometown." Zhixin was calm.

"Doctor......" Peony swallowed, showing an embarrassed expression, "The old lady said that you are not allowed to mention the doctor's previous life experience at any time, not to mention that the doctor has been in the Shi Mansion for so many years, the old lady treats you as if you are her own child, as if you are the daughter raised by the Shi family, why do you think about your hometown and want to go back?" ”

Peony's refusal was already expected by Zhixin. She knew that if she bluntly said her true thoughts, Peony would definitely not dare to agree, and she didn't know anything about the situation on Brother Yan's side, in case Brother Yan was married and had children as he thought, he couldn't disturb his life anymore, so he couldn't just let Brother Yan come to her, he had to be tactful, listen to the exact news first, and come step by step.

Looking at Peony's embarrassed appearance, Zhixin smiled lightly and said, "Who said I was going back?" I just wanted to hear from my loved ones. It is true that I have enjoyed the glory and wealth of Shifu for so many years, but I have lived in my hometown for fifteen or sixteen years. Although I am poorer, I am full of happiness in the mountains, rivers, grass and trees, and even now, what appears in my mind are still my childhood memories. Especially my relatives, I always have an inseparable affection for them. People, no matter how far you go, you can't forget your roots, right? ”m.

Unexpectedly, these words actually moved Peony. She is also the daughter of a poor family, because she was worried about eating and drinking, she was sold by her parents to the Shi family as a maid when she was very young. Eating and drinking is not worrying, but being a slave at a young age, looking at people's faces, and being beaten and scolded by others, the taste is not good. She didn't know whether to hate her parents or not, but she didn't think about them for a moment. Just a few days ago, he also asked someone to tell his parents the news of his upcoming marriage, and secretly took a lot of things. People are not beasts, who can forget family affection.

"But—" Peony suddenly remembered, "you don't have any relatives anymore?" ”

"I don't have parents or brothers anymore, but I have other relatives."

Indeed, Zhixin really thought that her family was ruined and the house was empty. She didn't know that her brother Ruoxin was still alive. In her cognition, when the boat capsized, she was rescued by the Shi family, and her younger brother Ruoxin was salvaged many times and was not salvaged, and he had drowned. She didn't know that this was a lie told to her by the Shi family. Later, in order to make her even more desperate, the Shi family made up that her mother had a mad attack, and took advantage of the unpreparedness to find her father by herself, who had been missing for a long time. This is why Zhixin has only been concerned about Shu Yan for so many years and has not missed her own family.

"What other relatives do you have?"

"I also have a maternal grandfather and a cousin who used to be a doctor of Taixue."

"Dr. Taixue? Do you have such a grandfather who has a college question? Why haven't I heard you say that? Peony was surprised.

Zhixin's mother, Liu, was born in a family of ordinary people, where would there be a maternal grandfather who was a doctor of Taixue? When she speaks of her maternal grandfather and cousin, of course, she refers to Dr. Shu and Shu Yan. But the relationship with the Shu family can't be explained, so I have to think of it as my grandfather's family. "Of course I didn't say that the old lady is not allowed to talk about my family background, have you forgotten?"

"Oh, I can't complain that you have such a talent, girl." Peony suddenly realized, "You mean, let me go to them?" Isn't it? ”

"It doesn't mean anything else, I just haven't seen them for years, I miss them very much, I just want to know what they hear from. You don't know, my house is not far from my maternal grandfather's house, and I often went to his house to play when I was a child, just like his own granddaughter, and I had a very close relationship with his family. However, the good times did not last long, my aunt and uncle died suddenly, and my maternal grandfather led his only grandson, my cousin, to live. ”

Peony pursed her lips, still looking embarrassed.

"I'll give you double the entanglement that goes to Ruyin Bypass."

"It's not about money. Doctor, it's not that I don't want to help you, but there are other people in the house who are traveling with us as a couple. I'm afraid that if the news is revealed, the old lady will kill me if she finds out. ”

"You don't have to worry." Zhixin said, "I know your concerns, and I have also thought of a way to deal with them for you." When you arrive in Ruyin, don't tell people that I entrusted you, just say that there is an old doctor in Luoyang City, and a doctor Shu in Ruyin is a world friend, so I ask you to stop by to inquire about his news. ”

Peony nodded: "If that's the case, it's okay." How do I do that? ”

Seeing that Peony finally agreed, Zhi Xin said happily: "On the edge of the Ru River, there is a ferry called Shujiazhuang, which is my hometown. When you get off the boat from there, you will inquire about Dr. Shu, and no one will know about it. It's just that my maternal grandfather is old, and I don't know if he's alive or not. ”

"If you're not alive, you'll be fine."

"Regardless of my grandfather's absence, I want to know everything about his family, especially if my cousin is now alone or married." Of course, Zhixin didn't know that Dr. Shu was dead, her concern for Dr. Shu was secondary, and the most important thing was to know the news of Shu Yan. If God has eyes and Brother Yan has not yet married, she will do everything possible to make the next step; If you are already married as you feared, then ...... She didn't want to think about it that way.

"Of course, this is not a need-to-tell me, since I have gone around such a big circle, of course I have to inquire in detail. It's just that our husband and wife were ordered to go to Jingzhou this time, and they won't come back in the short term, at least half a year, or at most two years. ”

"If my cousin is married, and they are happy as a family, then I have nothing to worry about, just send me a letter; If he hadn't gotten married...... You also send me a letter, and by the way, let him choose a time to come to Luoyang. I want to meet him. ”

"Let him come to Luoyang? So what's the matter? What do you want to do, girl? Peony's eyes widened, "It's okay to just inquire about the news for the girl, but if you bring the girl's family to Luoyang, then it's a big deal." ”

"I ......" Zhixin was about to speak and stopped, and suddenly pounced on Peony and knelt down. This is her only chance. Peony is gone, I don't know if I will come back, and even if I will come back, I don't know what year or month.

The master kneels to the slave, is this worth it? Peony was so frightened that she knelt down for Zhixin: "Doctor, you can kill me!" ”

The two of them just knelt down so embarrassedly, Chunlan came back from cooking tea, happened to hear their conversation, lifted the curtain and came in and said, "Peony, you can help the doctor." ”

Chunlan is more delicate than peony, and she has long known that Zhixin is a person with a story. Although it is not revealed in words, it can be detected in some small things in daily life. For example, when the ceremony was held, the old lady prepared several sets of brand-new clothes for her, but Zhixin didn't want it, insisting on wearing an old ill-fitting green satin skirt, which must have some meaning; Often at certain times, especially in festivals such as the Shangsi Festival and the Mid-Autumn Festival, I am inexplicably in a daze, which is very different from the general homesickness; In his sleep, he shouted many vague and inexplicable words such as "Brother Yan", "Holding the hand of the son, growing old with the son", "If you are in a different room, if you die, you will be in the same hole"; At the Yuan Zheng Conference, he made a stunning "Book of Songs" collection of sentences "If you don't think", its touching and heartfelt emotional outpouring, a person with blank feelings is absolutely difficult to write; And about her life's events. The daughters of this dynasty rarely marry more than seventeen years old, and the doctor has rejected countless proposers again and again over the years, whether it is an official eunuch or a huge rich, whether it is a famous man or a beautiful man, all of them have refused, why is this? What woman would be so stupid as to turn herself into an older leftover girl?

Some people died, but not completely......