Are some people more valuable than others?

People are indoctrinated from an early age with concepts such as "all men are created equal", "fair play", "natural human rights", and so on. So it's hard to accept that some people are bound to be rough treatment by others. It is up to each person to fight for his own power, to cry out for the harm and injustice he has suffered, to expose the true colors of some people, to pull them down from the throne of saints and eminent beings, and the same is true in love relationships. Sartre and Beauvoir's mutual lover Bianca Rambrand wrote "Memories of a Seduced Girl," and Salinger's lover Joyce Maynard wrote "At Home I."

The Wo

LD", tells their experiences of being seduced by genius and brutally hurt by genius. Yu Zipei knows that there are many people who like to know and talk about the meanness and shamelessness of remarkable people, but this is not her hobby. Bianca and Joyce's accusations are based on the idea that people of exceptional talent should be moral perfecters. This is a naïve fantasy. They are the inevitable victims of the path of genius, and they will definitely be harmed, because they do not have the same mental strength, mental intelligence to match them, not because geniuses do not have more perfect morals. Yu Zipei knows that many people will not agree with this view, and to admit this, it is necessary to admit the premise that people are not created equal, and that some people are worth far more than others. The only way to avoid being hurt is for these other people to insist on not being attracted to those who are more worthy, and are content to live their ordinary lives.

Yu Zipei saw an outstanding young man on TV feeling unfair for a classmate to use his father's power to get the position he wanted, but he didn't think that it was an injustice that he was born with beauty and talent without effort, while his classmate only had a good father. People are biologically aware of natural selection, but for humans themselves, they come up with tricks like "fair play" to confuse the weak in order to justifiably eliminate them. If you admit the correctness of doing so, you have to admit that Bianca and Joyce deserve to be harmed. Of course, sympathy is another matter, and people can certainly sympathize with them, just as they give beggars a little change on the side of the street with their own dispensable change.

This is enough to explain why Yu Zipei is embarrassed when she gives change to beggars on the street, because she recognizes the injustice of the world, and she takes advantage of what others do not take.

Mo Ren once said to her: "You think this world is not good, but it is self-contained, and you can't even think of a better world than now." ”

Yu Zipei doesn't think so, injustice is definitely not a good order, and the unjust world is definitely not a good world. A truly good world should be fair when everyone is beautiful, intelligent, healthy and rich, with enthusiasm only increasing, love eternal, and even luck being the same......

"But this is untenable and violates basic logical relationships." He said.

Of course, such a world does not exist, and it is impossible for human beings to work together as a whole. It is often said, "We only have one earth." ”

Yu Zipei wanted to say: "We only have a bad world. ”

To go, or not to go, that's the question.

Yu Zipei thought about it all day, when she was writing the manuscript, when she was printing, when she was in the taxi, when she was talking to the editor, when the editor asked her to go to dinner together, when she was ordering, when she was joking with Axi.

"Am I supposed to refrain from this thought? Maybe he dreamed of me yesterday and he hoped for this miracle? If we stay together for two hours, it is better to wait for him to have longer, and I don't want to lose the possible longer time by seeing him for two hours. Yu Zipei thought secretly.

Every delay annoyed her, and every obstacle made her more anxious. It's seven o'clock, maybe she should make a call. At eight o'clock, he should have finished eating, but did he walk out of the restaurant? It's nine o'clock, is he alone? Or maybe he's on his way home, and that's the right time to take a hit. When he gets home, maybe someone is waiting for him.

"The guys from the South Asia Foundation are here, and I'm talking to them." He said on the phone.

"Okay, I'm hanging."

He had finally saved Yu Zipei from that thought, and she was almost happy about it.

Every day, like thinking about "survival" or "destruction", thinking about whether to see him or not really drives Yu Zipei crazy!

"Every day when I get off work, I have to hesitate for a long time, to call or not to call? To see you or not to see? ”

When the two of them sat in the innermost compartment of Japanese cuisine, Qin Wuji said, to put it mildly.

Yu Zipei didn't say anything and continued to eat her udon noodles. She hates to say, "Me too." ”

She almost never says "me too". "Me too" is a unattractive sentence, definitely not a good one. Sometimes when I recall what a person said to you, if he says "me too", then he doesn't say anything.

"Don't believe me?"

Yu Zipei raised his head from the udon noodles: "It seems that you can't always see through me." ”

He has another lover.

This is something that Yu Zipei has always known and has never talked about.

Qin Wuji has a trick, he uses many strange personal pronouns when referring to this woman, such as "people", "someone", "that person", etc., in short, it is a vague personal pronoun that does not distinguish between men and women. Yu Zipei didn't know anything about the situation of the "people", and he never expressed any opinion. He's forty-two years old, so does he need me to make irresponsible remarks?

Once, while he was driving in a car, he said thoughtlessly, "Give me time, and I'll solve the problem." After a pause, he said, "A year." ”

What is he saying? They were just talking about a plan for a script, and he meant that? It's not, that's what he said to her, it's his bottom line? Is it a promise to her? She didn't know, and she didn't want to ask him.

Her attitude towards this matter is - not to speak, not to talk, not to inquire, not to intervene.

It's easy to say.

Because of this "family", the two of them can often only sit in the car and circle around Bangkok's outer ring road, because of this "family" he began to become worried, and it was rare to have a smiling face.

Once Yu Zipei actually saw him burying his face in the palm of his hand, distressed like a child who made a mistake.

"I'm afraid I'm going to die." He said such a horrible word.

Yu Zipei still didn't say a word, and it was inappropriate to even comfort him.

Didn't I think about this woman in private? Who was she, and what power did she have to make him so distressed? What is he afraid of? What is a forty-two-year-old man afraid of? A scandal, it can only be a scandal, can there be anything else? But aren't there enough scandals in his life? No, he doesn't have a scandal, everyone says he likes women, but no one says he's a bad person!

"Someone saw us eating together, someone saw my car parked downstairs in your house."

"I didn't expect you to be so attention-grabbing."

"So people don't believe me anymore."

"Can you believe it?"

"With you, of course I can't believe it."

With me? Is it because of me? Yu Zipei didn't think so.

Many years ago, Qin Wuji went to Hong Kong to visit, and the party who received him arranged a female assistant for him, according to him, she was white and small, very slender, and spoke softly, they were together for two weeks, but this woman arranged the schedule, helped him translate, took him to the street, etc., got along well but nothing else. Later, he returned to Beijing. Two months later, the female assistant's husband flew from Hong Kong to Beijing to find him, saying that his wife had asked for a divorce and had run away from home, hoping that Qin Wuji would persuade her to come back. Qin Wuji expressed sympathy, but he still didn't know why. The husband said, "Don't you know?" My wife says she loves you.

So Qin Wuji's conclusion is: many times women are much more courageous and decisive than men.

I don't know what year Qin Wuji was hospitalized to remove the cecum, there was a young female nurse in the ward who was preparing to take the adult college entrance examination, knowing that Qin Wuji was a writer, so she often asked him some questions about ancient literature, Qin Wuji naturally answered all questions and was very enthusiastic. Later, the girl grew haggard and her eyes flickered, and Qin Wuji found a love letter to herself in the ancient book she brought. Qin Wuji told her that this was impossible as an adult, hoping that she would study hard and concentrate on the exam, and the girl didn't say anything. Later, Qin Wuji recovered and was discharged from the hospital, and there was no news of a female nurse. Half a year later, the female nurse suddenly called him, Qin Wuji asked her if she had been admitted to the school, and the female nurse said no, she didn't take the test, because she had been seriously ill since Qin Wuji left, and she didn't get better until not long ago. Now she calls him to tell him that it's all over and that she doesn't love him anymore.

Qin Wuji's conclusion is: love is a disease.

Qin Wuji may think he is innocent, but he is not.

He is not amazing, he is ordinary, and Yu Zipei thinks that he has also tried to figure out what his attraction is. He's like an animal with some kind of aura, and it's hard to tell what that aura is, and as long as he exudes that aura to you, you probably won't be able to escape.

Of course, this is a good statement, but if it is not good, let others say it.

Yu Zipei has seen many of his girlfriends who are not in a couple's relationship, including the strong woman named Bai What, she has also seen him surrounded by women, his intimacy with them is natural, patting them on the shoulder, saying a few words of concern, he remembers their names, their favorite dishes, the length of their hair when they last met, his kindness and care are real and credible, just right, and people trust him immediately. Yu Zipei sat beside him and remembered his father's words: "This child will have a lot of trouble with women. ”

Yu Zipei took a glass of Coke and looked at him at the table, looking at the smiles on the faces of those young and not-so-young women, thinking that if he was his wife, he would probably die of jealousy,—— never divorce, never let this thoughtful and understanding man fall into the hands of others. Yu Zipei couldn't help but laugh when he thought so.

Again, she wanted to say - love is a natural ability.

Someone asked Lao Tian, Yu Zipei, Mo Ren and others to plan a TV series together, and they and the producer and planner gathered in the Wyndham Hotel in the suburbs to talk for two days, and they couldn't talk about it at night, so Yu Zipei asked to go swimming. Mo Ren fell in love again at that time, and at the first opportunity, he left everyone to call his new girl, and the chatter was endless, and everyone decided to ignore him and go straight to swimming.

After swimming, the blood on the head returned to the whole body, and the head was no longer that big. God sat next to Yu Zipei with a white belly, he and Yu Zipei are the same age, because he became famous early, he saw through the red dust earlier than others, and maintained a state of idler with nothing to do for many years, sometimes his ambition struggled a few times, made a movie or something, and finally always felt tired and retired to continue to be his idler.

"What about Mo Ren? Still on the phone? Yu Zipei asked him.

"Hmm."

"There is a kind of person called a talker, and he should be called a talker."

"Didn't you like that before?" God looked at me with a grin.

"It's not that I can't bear it anymore and run away, I can't stand it."

"What?"

"He's this to everyone! Those love words are not produced because of different objects, but they grow on his own, just like a person who eats something to poop, he has to say love words when he eats. ”

"And what do you want?"

"It's always going to be different from person to person, a little bit of originality."

"You don't like him, what kind of person do you like?" He had a frame that broke the casserole and asked the end.

"What do you say?"

"Do you like Mr. Qin's like that?"

"Mr. Qin? Which Mr. Qin? Qin Wuji? What kind of thing is he? Yu Zipei asked rhetorically.

What do you mean? Looking at his evil smile, it can't be something in his words, right?

"That's it...... He always seems to get annoyed after a while. "God say, they've known each other for years.

"Possibly. I don't know. Yu Zipei said that there was no leakage, and he smiled secretly in his heart. Love the new and hate the old? It seems that this is God's comment on him, even if it is, it still can't offset that he is a good lover, and he likes the new himself to see it, and the disgust of the old has not happened yet.

But God wouldn't ask that plainly, would he?

Within a day, the mystery was revealed.

When he returned to the city, Yu Zipei and Mo Ren were in the same car, he held the phone all day long, except for talking about the script is to talk about love, it is estimated that he was tired, leaning there and pretending to sleep. He opened his eyes from time to time and glanced at Yu Zipei, as if he had something to say, and repeated this several times, Yu Zipei ignored him vigorously, but saw that he could not open his mouth. Sure enough, when the car arrived at Wuma Bridge, he couldn't hold back: "They said that you and Mr. Qin got along?" ”

"Who said that?" It was Yu Zipei's turn to be startled, and immediately replied, "It's nothing." ”

"I can't tell you who said it, anyway, it's not nonsense, God won't let me ask you."

"Then why are you asking?"

"It doesn't matter if I want to ask. What are you doing with someone so old? ”

"I told you, there's absolutely no shadow. It's nothing more than someone who saw us having dinner together, and he has a bad reputation, so he guessed randomly. ”

"You're saying that someone sees you eating together and thinks ......"

"I'm guessing too."

"If you say no, it's not." He didn't ask any more.

Mo Ren, who couldn't hold his breath, Yu Zipei thought to himself what he could do but lie to him? She couldn't talk about it, she had no way out but to deny it. She refused to be Qin Wuji's affair, refused to add a new page to his lover list, and refused to be questioned and pointed at by others, but if she couldn't refuse to love him, refusal would be nonsense.

She hadn't told Qin Wuji about them, and she didn't want to increase his nervousness.

I think he is really a big lover, and he is likable. Once they were driving on the Outer Ring Road, it was late, and when she was about to get home, she grabbed his arm and lowered her head, and he knew, "Afraid that I will go this way?" His arm was so grasped by Yu Zipei, one hand was turning and shifting, Yu Zipei didn't want to look at it, and as soon as the body turned, she knew that it was turning into the path. The car was originally driving quite steadily, but it was very bumpy that day, and she was disrupted by her, and she panicked.

He always sees your heart at a glance and tells you that he understands that grievances are not really grievances.

Yu Zipei was happy for a while, and thought about Qin Wuji all the way home with annoyance for a while.

After sitting alone outside for three hours, Yu Zipei finally calmed down.

It had just rained, and the night breeze was very cool, and it made her face pale.

She told herself that she couldn't go on like this, that she couldn't love him, that she couldn't pamper herself, that she couldn't be so weak, that she couldn't wait for him day after day, and that he could only stay with her for an hour! In this hour, she still has to pretend to be relaxed, and she has to be nothing! She watched him eat across from her, and she said to herself, do I love this man? It's an illusion of love, he won't make you love him so much, what you miss, desire, love is just love. Woke up in the morning, no, the only thing she had done for these two months was to wait for him. Awake, asleep, dreaming of him, seeing him, all her senses turned on and longed for him. She is good at restraint, she is good at waiting, she is good at enduring, she is good at enduring humiliation, she is good at forcing a smile? She really can't do it, she is afraid that he is right, if she can't bear it anymore she will run away. She told herself not to think about him, not to think about him, and this time she couldn't control herself, and her faith would crumble into rubble. She was afraid that she would begin to hate him, that she would hate the happy tone in his tone, that he could still play chess and fish, that she hated everything that kept him from being around her without reason. She's in a frenzy!

In the car, Yu Zipei sat beside him, thinking about nothing and not wanting to say anything. She knew that he answered the phone while eating, and she pretended to pour tea to hide her panic. She let him send her home. Forget those grievances! Why bother? If you shed tears again, it will really make people laugh off their big teeth.

"Let's go home." She said quickly.

"Where?" He looked at Yu Zipei, "My family, or yours?" ”

"You go back to your house, I'll go back to mine."

When Yu Zipei opened the car door, he whispered, "Don't blame me." ”

"I don't blame you, it's not your fault."

"I know, you're not happy."

yes, just not happy. Yu Zipei waved his hand, turned and entered the gate.

But she couldn't go home.

She had used too much strength to maintain her dignity in front of him, her body was filled with madness as if it was about to explode, she walked through the buildings, around the supermarket, through another gate onto the street, she couldn't go home, she couldn't breathe, she walked all the way down the street, she needed to be lonely, she needed the cool breeze of the night, love was a disease, a disease that could easily be contagious in early summer, she had to heal it, because it was not worth mentioning, it was fleeting, it was elusive, it made people ugly, it made people cry!

And so she went all the way......

It was already late for her to come home, and the sound of the door opening attracted the foreign trade girl who lived with her.

"Coming back? Mr. Qin called twice just now. "There were a lot of calls, and they knew about him.

"Oh, got it."

"He said you don't have to give him back, he'll call you again."

"Okay."

"Go to bed early, don't get too late."

"Okay, I'll sleep."

She smiled and agreed, sending the kind girl away. Poor girl, what would she say if she knew that Yu Zipei was in love with this man who called?!

"He called twice? He wanted to comfort me. He asked me not to go back, and he said he had someone there at night. ”

Yu Zipei was glad that he didn't receive it. What else can be said? She had to force a smile and pretend to know the righteousness.

She's not there, that's the answer.

The next evening, Yu Zipei took a taxi to meet him. He stopped driving to pick her up because someone found out that his car was often parked downstairs where she lived, and the world of the two in their car was over.

"Where were you last night?"

"No, play outside.

He stared at Yu Zipei, staring at her heart tightening, she knew she couldn't fool him.

"I love you, you're satisfied!" Yu Zipei said ruthlessly.

"Don't do this, it makes me feel distressed."

He spoke very gently.

There was one thing that temporarily saved Yu Zipei - Qin Wuji went to the UK.

That afternoon she went to cut her hair, he called, he was flying a kite in the park with his son, he wanted her to come over, and when she finished cutting her hair and saw the phone and called back, he was already leaving.

Yu Zipei said: "You went to London to hide in Qingjing." ”

He replied honestly: "Yes, but if you want to hide from Qingjing, you are extremely busy before this Qingjing, and it is not appropriate to accompany anyone." ”

Alas, he's really annoying.

"Don't worry, just put me at the end of your list."

He wanted to say something, but finally sighed and said nothing.

A few months ago, he asked Yu Zipei many times if he wanted to go to the UK with him, but Yu Zipei always refused. If he asks Yu Zipei again, Britain? And hell she will go to. But he didn't ask anymore, and she wouldn't ask again. He also called from the airport before he got on the plane, he always tried to be thoughtful, but everyone was always dissatisfied, the unlucky Qin Wuji.

He's gone, at least Yu Zipei doesn't have to think about how to see him all day, how to stay with him a little longer, she is content to miss him, and I can be quiet.

At dusk, she opened the window widely, and the wind blew in, with an itchy, numbing breath, her body was constricting, and her stomach was aching. This is what it feels like to have love flowing in your blood.

The person in the mirror is thin and pale, as if the curtains would be swept away when they fly. She sat down in front of the computer, the newly bought computer, she was about to write her new script, but it was a different text-

It was a rainstorm during the day, and it was beautiful. There was no rain to be seen, just puffs of white smoke sweeping across the roof. The red lantern hanging at the door of the restaurant downstairs was swept away by the wind, and a young man rushed out to chase after him. The two children ran away screaming on their bikes. After a while, there was nothing but rain. The thunder was loud.

I think you think of crying, I didn't expect it.

I went out for a walk alone every day after dinner, and I knew that getting used to being alone was a sign of me growing up. When I was a child, I wasn't, I was as clingy as a baby, and when I was in middle school, they called me a "sweet and greasy" girl behind my back, and when I was older, I was nicknamed "baby". Later, I came to understand that the less people need others, the more comfortable and peaceful they will be. No one, even if he wants to, cannot fully satisfy the needs of another person, and the only way is to make his own needs sufficient. So when I feel that the need for you is too strong, I will scold myself, I will restrain myself, I will think of belittling it, making it ordinary, not hurting.

Polanski said in his memoirs: "I learned that love is no different from comedy, sports and music, and that people can feel relaxed while enjoying love...... He was in his early thirties when he felt this way, and "Knife in the Water" had just won the Oscar for Best Foreign Language Film. I don't know if you've ever felt the same way, maybe love should be like this. When you think of your lover while walking by yourself and can't help but smile softly, love is comedy and music. But other times, it's torture. But torture is also good, why is it the tragedy of ancient Greece that is more reflective of the human spirit than comedy? For the qualities that make mankind respect themselves are not easy and pleasant, but are stubborn attitudes towards irresistible fate, sacred attempts to maintain dignity, and so on. I used to rush up desperately whenever I smelled a little tragedy, and the unlucky romantic complex, now I am scared and want to treat love as comedy and music.

I think you must hope so.

Yu Zipei called and asked God, "What is there to do?" ”

God snorted: "What else can I do, call a few to go out to cook." ”

So they called all the idlers separately, made an appointment to meet at the Coocoo Club on Chao Nam Street, and then collectively discussed the place to eat, and decided to go to the night sky star for Indian food by a show of hands, and then took a taxi in groups of three.

When they got off the bus and entered the restaurant on the side of Qifeng Road, a few beggars in tattered clothes who were waiting at the door surrounded them and asked for money. The others also walked by indifferently, only Mo Ren waved his arms impatiently and shouted in a low voice: "Get out!" ”

The waiter helped open the door, and the beggers scattered behind them, each returning to their original corner.

When everyone sat down in the fixed meal, Yu Zipei beckoned Mo Ren opposite: "Stretch out your hand and let me see." ”

"What for?" He stretched out his left hand to show Yu Zipei.

"Two."

He put another hand down: "How's it going?" Can I find the perfect lover? ”

"I don't want to see what the future holds."

There were rows of lower feathers densely under the emotional lines of his hands, and Yu Zipei asked him to withdraw his hand.

"How?"

"Be compassionate."

"That's right! Those girls slept with them because they felt sorry for them. Look at their pitiful, don't they just sleep with me, and it doesn't cost me anything, as long as they don't look too ugly. ”

"What do I hear? I think it's a girl who looks at you pitiful, you're a big person, and you're a writer, so it's not good to embarrass you! ”

There is no need for Yu Zipei to speak, naturally some people can't listen to it, and they chase after it and laugh at it. Mo Ren turned his neck and head around happily accepting the fire of others, and it was not easy to hit him.

At this table, Yu Zipei was probably the only one who believed that Mo Ren's words had true ingredients, and he was the softest-hearted person he had ever seen.

Mo Ren said that when he was in elementary school, he used to bring home beggars on the street, and gave them his own pens and rulers in the kitchen while his parents were still off work. This is still the case after middle school. Of course, his innocent heart must be hit, and he will gradually be able to distinguish lies, and his things at home will be stolen again and again, ridiculed and ridiculed, and reprimanded by his parents. When he went to college, he stopped giving them a penny for food, and when he saw them, he told them to get out of here—out of a vicious correction to his own temperament. If he doesn't make trouble, he is ashamed of his soft-heartedness in private, and seeing him break up with girls again and again, Yu Zipei simply suspects that he is tempering his ruthlessness.

As Mo Ren said, his life can be summed up in one sentence - take the blow.

When Yu Zipei graduated from university, Mo Ren worked for a small advertising agency in Bangkok, and he sometimes stopped by to see Yu Zipei after work, and they sat under the big banyan tree in front of the building and chatted. Yu Zipei didn t know what he said that day, in short, she must have looked happy, he observed Yu Zipei on the side for a long time, and suddenly said.

"You're such a lucky man, at this age, there's nothing to bring you down."

Yu Zipei was stunned by him, thinking if this was really the case?

"Wait and see, God has a lot of tricks, that thing will always come, it will come to break you, you can't hide from it." He asserted, almost jealously.

"Did something break you?"

"Of course, you still pretend not to know."

"I don't know, you didn't tell me."

"You."

"Me? What do you mean......"

"Yes. If you trace back to the roots, the day my faith collapsed, it was the day you left me. Until then, I didn't believe you would actually leave me, it was just a joke for me, and you'll always come back to me after that. But you are really gone, and I can't believe it for a long time - that is, anything can happen in this world, my will can't do anything to it, it has nothing to do with the world in my head. I was amazed at you, as if for the first time I realized that you were another person, you had to eat, you had to breathe, you had independent arms, legs, and independent will, and we were not inseparable as I imagined. Yes, I'm amazed at the fact that you have to breathe too. Anyway, that day I suddenly realized that this world is not the world I thought I had since I was a child. ”

"It's not me, it's going to be someone else, there's always someone to make you understand this."

"Yes, of course. However, you are the first. If the first vow does not have to be kept, the subsequent vows do not have to be kept. ”

"I'm sorry I played this dishonorable role, just pretend I'm innocent, I'm just being used by life."

He laughed, "You are innocent, but sometimes I don't see it that way, I think you have made some kind of ghost pact with life in private, and conspired to kill me." ”

"Do you know why I wasn't defeated?"

He shook his head.

"Because we have an essential difference, you are an optimistic idealist and I have been a pessimist since I was a child. You are full of fantasies, longings, and extravagant hopes for the world, but I am full of anxiety and vigilance, believing that every bit of joy I have illegally obtained from the hands of life, and have taken away by chance...... So when you see the truth of life, you break down, and I survived. ”

"Nasty! In the future, I will have a child born and give him a hellish education, so that he will be content if he is a little happy. But it's best not to have children. ”

"But, sooner or later," he said for sure...... "sooner or later, you'll be madly attached to something, unless you keep it in moderation, but I don't believe you'll be madly attached to something, hmph, and we'll see." You can't control yourself at all, you want to grab what you can't grasp, as long as there is something in this world that arouses your feelings, your fortress will be broken! Wait and see, I really want to see what it is?! ”

He spat with joy, like a mad prophet. And Yu Zipei just smiled disapprehantly.

"Okay, we'll see."

Because of the essential difference between optimism and pessimism, Yu Zipei and Mo Ren have different views on everything.

For example, Mo Ren believes that most people are not human beings, and only a few creative people who bring progress to mankind are real human beings, and all non-human people benefit from the existence of these real people. But for Yu Zipei, what he calls real people is a special case at all, an accident, a variant of man - a god. And most of them, those who are mediocre, inferior, boring, and just want to survive are the real people.

For another example, he believes that the fear of emptiness is the fear of death, and that all attempts by people are to resist this fear of death, which is the foundation of all life activities. And Yu Zipei thinks that the fear of emptiness is the fear of emptiness itself, thanks to the guarantee of death, people will not fall into madness, think about how to pass the days if you label an uninteresting life that never expires?

The end result of these disagreements was that she could be at peace with her, and he could not live in fear.

She has always strived to build a barrier between the world and the individual.

There's only one loophole in the middle -

"Sooner or later, you'll be madly attached to something, unless you keep doing it in moderation, but I don't believe you're going to be madly attached to something, hmph, wait and see. You can't control yourself at all, you want to grab what you can't grasp, as long as there is something in this world that arouses your feelings, your fortress will be broken! ”

Yu Zipei always remembered Mo Ren's words.

This day is not really coming.

She shuddered when she thought of Qin Wuji.

Qin Wuji is back.

But he didn't have time to see me, and his other girlfriend moved into his house.

"I've been supervised all day." He said on the phone, "But there are newspapers in prison, and I can read your columns." This article I like - "Beauty is useless". ”

"Beauty is useless, love is harmful to health" - about Yu Zipei and Lao Guan.

For a while, Yu Zipei and Lao Guan had a good relationship, so they decided to visit their home. After the visit, she asked Lao Guan what his parents had said. Lao Guan was hesitant, and when he talked about him left and right, Yu Zipei concluded that his parents must have said something, and he had to make it clear. Lao Guan couldn't hide it, so he was forced to tell the truth: "My mother said that you have narrow hips and a round buttocks, which is not suitable for having children." ”

Lao Guan's mother is the director of the obstetrics and gynecology department, and the specialist authority of their hospital.

Yu Zipei sneered twice after being shocked.

"I've never heard such a pragmatic statement! Am I here to have children? ”

"She likes children, and she's a doctor."

Lao Guan actually defended his mother, but did not feel angry for Yu Zipei, so she secretly wrote down his black account.

Think about it, I'm not a black man, is it easy to grow such a backward butt? It's a matter of going beyond the limits of the human race. And Lao Guan's mother actually wants to lead the vertical development of the ass to the road of horizontal development, the aesthetic to the practical quagmire, the "narrow hip bone, round buttocks" into "wide hip bones, flat buttocks", in order to create a larger growth space for the child in the belly, I have to take a big flat ass to swagger through the market all my life.

For an artist, this statement of replacing beauty with practicality is unforgivable!

Because of his mother's relationship, Lao Guan is exposed to it at home, and he is very good at physiological hygiene. Once when they were full of passion, he suddenly said to Yu Zipei: "You can't do anything during menstruation, it's not good for you, it's easy to get pelvic inflammatory disease when you're old." ”

Yu Zipei replied to him dryly: "I don't care about old age!" ”

I have to admit that Lao Guan's intentions are very good and worthy of praise. However, when you are old, you are not only prone to pelvic inflammatory disease, but also diabetes, heart disease, cerebral thrombosis, liver cirrhosis, and cancer. Let's put it this way, if Yu Zipei loves him, it will be difficult for her not to talk to him for a week out of concern that "she will get pelvic inflammatory disease when she gets old". Love can be detrimental to health.

Yu Zipei later broke up with Lao Guan, and it must be said that his mother and his two conversations about physiology and hygiene were one of the reasons,—— she thought it was not my race.

Yu Zipei deleted the second half of the article, added some other people's stories, and gave it to "Thai Film News".

"I like it because it reminds me of the way you are."

"Do you remember what I looked like? You say, do I have single eyelids or double eyelids, whether the mole on the left or right side of my mouth grows, whether my eyebrows are raised or flat, and whether there is a birthmark on my body? Answer me. ”

"When you come, I'll answer you the same." He regarded Yu Zipei's words as a teasing, but Yu Zipei suddenly lost interest.

"Forget it, I don't even remember how many legs you have."

"Complain." He pointed out to Yu Zipei.

"Okay, I'm not complaining, but you're going to make it up to me."

"Another creditor."

Creditors? It was a dangerous and ugly word, and he used it for the first time.

Ten days later, at eleven o'clock in the evening, she met Qin Wuji. He was sitting in the dark, and the entire building was without power. Yu Zipei came up in the dark, and the nervous feeling of being one foot deep and one foot shallow made the word "cheating" very vivid.

took out the candle he brought and lit it, and his face was in a trance in the shaking candlelight, lacking a sense of reality. Yu Zipei reached out and grabbed him, grabbing his arm trapped in the shadows, at least his body was real, warm, weighty, elastic, and there occupied a corner of the couch - the only thing she could grasp. She just kept holding on, not letting go, not wanting to say anything, she just wanted her hands not to be empty, her arms not to be empty, not to listen to love words, no matter how nice they sounded, love words were empty, love was empty, everything she had was empty. God bless Plato, to hell with his love, she wants this real and fresh love that is completely material. Well, she needed his weight to press her, the heat of his breath blowing into her face, she needed to feel filled, shaken, baked. Go to bed, fuck, cheat, since it's such a dog man and woman, then cheat again and again, in this candlelight, in the dead of night, even if you put out the banner full of love, you can't change this fact, even if you insist on not being with other women, you can't change this fact.

"Let's cheat, or we are born to love cheating, no normal love can satisfy us, we need tears, we need ambiguity, we need separation, we need to cross barriers, we need everything that is out of reach, don't we have arrogance? Don't we shamelessly sing carols? Let's cheat! Yu Zipei shouted in his heart, like a slut on the soul.

"Are you a Sagittarius?" Qin Wuji suddenly asked as he drove her home.

"No, why do you ask this? It's not your topic. ”

"They say shooters are made for love." He glanced at Yu Zipei and didn't continue.

Born for love, many people flaunt themselves like this, born for love? No, Yu Zipei feels that she is not born for love, love is a monster that she can't hide, it is the flattering eyes that life throws at her, and the little attachment born in Gu Pan's affection is the only weapon that the world will empty her and knock her down, making her give up her dignity. Don't talk about living for love.

"I'm not a Sagittarius, if I were a Sagittarius, I would have made you restless and jumped up and down!" Yu Zipei laughed at him.

"Aren't I restless now?"

"I don't know what's wrong! Is there a shooter with such restraint as mine?! ”

"I don't understand, I just took a look at the novel called "The Shooter and Pisces".

After a long stop, the car had already driven off the outer ring road, and he said, "Your restraint is the most sad thing for me." ”

This is Qin Wuji's love words, which shows that he has a perceptive gaze, and he knows what kind of restraint Yu Zipei has to go through to smile gently at him, to obey his wishes, to not say that he loves him every minute, to suppress the desire to hug him every moment, to sit quietly, not to cry, to talk, to smile, and to live......

He knew that Yu Zi loved him more than she showed it, and it scared him.

Later he said:

"You're a hidden volcano, it's not scary to be a smoking volcano, people will avoid it, but you, you stay there quietly, and when it suddenly erupts, it will destroy everything."

"Don't worry, my crust here is much harder than anywhere else."

But he was clearly not reassured.

Qin Wuji bought a gouache painting on the streets of London and said, "It looks like you, so I bought it." ”

The person in the painting is a shallow and faint shadow, which is really similar when said to be like, but not like when said it is not like.

Among the gifts he brought back to Yu Zi was a bottle of perfume.

"Don't wear perfume, at least not when you see me."

He once asked for this, and Yu Zipei complied.

For this cruel remark, he gave her perfume.

"Didn't you let me use it?"

"You can use it when you don't see me."

Ni

Called "Time and Space", this fragrance by a Ricc smells very light at first, but as the body heats it up, it becomes intense, completely beyond your imagination.

The smell you first smell is completely different from what others smell you later.

You think it will be light, but it is actually strong, just like Yu Zipei's love.

Yu Zipei and Ah Xi are in a Korean restaurant, staring at two servings of bibimbap that haven't moved much. In the afternoon, Ah Xi called and asked Yu Zipei what she was doing, because she hadn't heard from her for a long time. Yu Zipei said it's okay, it's the same old thing, let's go out to eat, I have something to ask you. What can I ask Ashi? What else does she care about now besides Qin Wuji?

"Tell me about Taurus."

"Taurus, the most beautiful sign, loves all beautiful things and knows how to enjoy the beauty of life, and the word Venus is Venus."

"Yes, go on."

"Very realistic, insisting on living under your own sky and putting safety first on any issue."

Finished. Yu Zi is stuffed.

"What do you have to do with the Taurus again?"

"Are we suitable?"

"A natural pair, a romantic realist at heart. But I also need to know his Moon, Venus, Mars and Ascendant. ”

"I don't know about that."

"Are you here for real?" She looked at Yu Zipei and said.

"Is it so obvious?" Yu Zipei exclaimed.

Ashi shrugged her eyebrows, indicating that she didn't need to explain. Yu Zipei was silent, knowing that she was waiting for her to speak, but she didn't want to say it, it might be better to say it, but no, Yu Zipei had said that she wouldn't talk to anyone about him, and she had nothing else but this secret.

"I know a psychic person, if you want to ask anything, you can ask her."

"Psychic? Have you asked? ”

"No, I'm afraid to know. But she's very smart and can tell you about your past and present lives, and you can call her and ask her out. ”

The atmosphere at the dinner table became very strange, Yu Zipei wrote down the phone number, she didn't know if she would call, and she was afraid to know.

"Actually, Aquarius and Pisces are also very suitable." Ashi said.

"You mean me and Mo Ren?"

"That's the two of you."

"Earth and water are almost a perfect combination." She explained.

"Earth and water, yes! Together, the two of us are a pot of muddy water. ”

"He can make you comfortable, and you make him peaceful."

"He makes me comfortable, and he makes me feel uneasy!"

"Of course, there are many differences that need to be bridged."

"Do you believe that the differences can be bridged?"

Ashi didn't say anything, she didn't believe this.

"Don't worry about him, he's busy! He recently organized a Pisces association and decided to only fall in love with Pisces girls with blood B in the future. He thinks that he has a better chance of finding his perfect lover among these girls of the same kind. In order to gain time to improve efficiency, he also set a rule that the year is divided into spring, summer, autumn and winter, and every three months there is a new girl, they are his spring girl, summer girl, autumn girl and winter girl. ”

"Really!" Ashi was so impressed that he threw himself to the ground.

"Indeed!" Yu Zipei agreed.

"They get along well. But if it is too similar, it will be uninteresting, and if there is no curiosity, it will not be attractive. Moreover, seeing one's own shortcomings in others is the last thing that people can bear. ”

"Do you want to tell him? Forget it, he's excited about his plan! I love to spoil him. ”

"You can't sweep Pisces' fun, they can only sweep their own fun."

"Well, I should learn from the boss too—watch him be busy!"

However, this time I wanted to see Mo Ren's liveliness, and it didn't take long for the Pisces Association to be disbanded.

"They are all fake and fierce, saying that they will break up in three months, and they will change their clothes when the time comes! And I told the truth, saying I didn't like her anymore, and she didn't believe her?! I don't say I love her. Unreasonable. Mo Ren was complaining again.

How could she believe it? She's a Pisces! The most subjective zodiac sign, you forgot? ”

Mo Ren heard Yu Zipei's voice, and said with a smile on the other end of the phone: "You don't come to this set!" ”

Yu Zipei was too lazy to care about him, and she was still entangled in her own affairs.