Yu Zipei knows that her intelligence is very limited, and she has no ability to understand difficult and boring things, but the truth is boring, so she has no ability to approach the truth. She could only be content to look at Schopenhauer's theory of happiness, what he called metaphysical wisdom.

"Our real life becomes boring and boring when it is not driven by lust: once it is driven by lust, it quickly becomes miserable."

Really.

"Only those who are extraordinarily endowed in spirit are fortunate to have more intellect than their intentions require. …… It is only with abundant and surplus capacity that one is qualified to engage in purely spiritual activities that do not serve the desires. ”

She can't.

"These gentlemen, when they were young, were full of muscularity and reproduction. But as the years passed, only the spiritual abilities remained. If our mental faculties are inherently lacking, or if our mental faculties are not being exercised as they should be, or if we lack the materials to develop them, then the tragic situation we will encounter is truly sympathetic. ”

Sympathetic.

This is the syllogism from "sure enough" to "sympathetic".

But old Schopenhauer was just as sympathetic, and he did not get any benefit from the world because of his extraordinary mental abilities. In his later years, he could only print 750 copies of his works by favor, and he did not pay for the manuscript.

"Although my philosophy did not bring me concrete benefits, it saved me from many losses."

He comforts himself in the book.

Yu Zipei also comforted himself - something is better than nothing, a little is better than nothing, and a little is a little.

"That's how life is." So says Estragon, the homeless man in Beckett's play.

Yu Zipei heard that she was surprisingly willful when she was a child. When she was two and a half years old, because her mother ran away from home, her father was busy, and she and her sister were sent to kindergarten for full care. Her attitude towards this is also very clear - resolutely not to go! My sister is fine, but Yu Zipei has a resolute personality. When it was time to go to kindergarten on Monday, she began to cry as soon as she woke up, but it was not a fake dry howl, tears were in her eyes, and her endurance was amazing, which one cried so badly! At that time, they lived in the wild house of Xiasanzhai, and early on Monday morning, my father carried the crying Yu Zipei through the corridor, and all the adults and children came out of the house to look at her and persuade her father: "Don't send her there, it's too miserable." said that her father's tears were about to fall, but he didn't want to send it to anyone, so he still went ruthlessly. Every time I go, I have to give some gifts first, of course things are small things, small spools, pencils, but they are also loved by children, but she refuses to accept these bribes, because she accepts them to compromise, but she really loves them in her heart, so she cries even more fiercely. Her father said that every time he sent her to kindergarten, he would spend the whole morning, take her to eat snacks, go to the vegetable market to see the ducks, and finally carry her to the alley where the kindergarten is located. Of course, as soon as she found the scenery around her familiar, she still cried when she understood the inevitable end of this road, so she had to take a different route every time. It is said that once she behaved very well, did not cry or make trouble, and when she was about to walk to the gate of that terrible place, she suddenly asked to come down and go by herself, and her father was very happy, thinking that she had finally accepted her fate, but as soon as she was put on the ground, she turned around and ran away, desperately running away with two little legs! How miserable!

She has forgotten why she is reluctant to go to kindergarten, anyway, she is unwilling. After being forcibly put in kindergarten, she ignored no one, and stood in the courtyard with her small pillow all day long, and at night, she cried all night long, making all the teachers and children not want to sleep, and threats and intimidation and kind words and persuasion were ineffective. After three weeks of making such a fuss, she was expelled from kindergarten. It is said that she was the first child ever to be expelled from this kindergarten called Rainbow Kindergarten, and no matter how much her father pleaded for assurance, they resolutely did not want it!

She succeeded and returned to her father. But her voice was completely cried, and until now she is still a dumb voice, with chronic pharyngitis.

When she was a child, she was a famous healthy baby in the compound, white and fat, with two faces always stuffed with small apple-like roundness, and she was nicknamed "porcelain doll". Look at her now, so thin that a gust of wind can blow it away, why? ——When she got up at the age of two, she was so traumatized that when she grew up, you can imagine the situation when she grew up, and in the unremitting struggle against one unsatisfactory thing after another in life, she went from being a white fat baby to be haggard little by little.

Sometimes her father would say: My temper was really bad when I was a child, but fortunately I grew up and changed. Has it changed? Yu Zipei doesn't think so, people say that she is three years old and old, her temper is still very bad, she is still amazingly willful, and she still doesn't look back when she hits the south wall for what she believes, and she doesn't look back when she collapses the south wall, but she wants to see who is harder between her and the south wall, and her life is endless, and she is killed!

The classmates who run an advertising company shoot advertisements in the studio of Taiying, and Yu Zipei went to the literature department to hand in the outline of the script and went for a walk. During the lighting time, the actor and the French representative of the salad dressing were conversing in English and dancing, and he was already a big man, standing in the middle of the venue to stand out in the middle. They called him Gu Min-seok, and said that he had filmed what TV series, and Yu Zipei rarely watched TV, so he had no way of knowing.

Later, everyone went to have supper together, and he sat next to Yu Zipei.

Yu Zipei could see that he was talking too much to get her attention, and his story would have been done if it weren't so long. But his ability to express himself is not strong, he doesn't know where to say more and where to say less, and he is also improperly controlled in the place where he is starting and turning. Yu Zipei reluctantly didn't yawn out of politeness, but his purpose was still achieved, and they became acquainted.

After that, Zhou Wei called many times to ask Yu Zipei to go out for coffee, but she refused.

At that time, she was disheartened and lacked interest in men, let alone a man who gave her irrelevant feelings. But she was a cultured, hypocritical intellectual, and her refusal was tactful. She didn't know if it was this that kept him from giving up, they lacked understanding from the beginning.

Gu Min-seok is the most idle person she has ever seen on the phone, and it is rare and ordinary to talk on the phone for two or three hours, so she said that she thinks this is a habit developed by living in the crew for a long time. During the time he was with him, Yu Zipei always listened to the phone and listened to his ears painfully, he was quite good at dealing with boredom, and Yu Zipei even doubted whether he would feel bored and bored. Speaking of which, he is a man with a passion for life, making spaghetti bolognese as delicious as Chinese vinegared cabbage, and his chaotic education and experience have kept him in the habit of drinking distilled coffee every morning and eating garlic at every meal, making mistakes in Chinese and speaking English fluently. He went to the United States for five years and wanted to be in Hollywood, and the results can be imagined. He was a tall man, white and strong, a pretty young man by normal standards, but it was a kind of beauty that had nothing to do with Yu Zipei, and in general he was very incompatible with her, and she never took anything seriously with him.

Why he was infatuated with Yu Zipei was quite puzzling to her for a while, the girls he had dated before were all young actresses, and his passionate nature was very pleasing to them. Later, Yu Zipei attributes his passion for himself to the backlash of his deliberate distance from him, and she has always been an elusive person to him during their time in their relationship, and Yu Zipei has never let him be the master in their relationship. In the end, it is just a desire to conquer, because he is wild and full, and this desire is extremely uncontrollable.

Speaking of Goo Min-seok, who is kind by nature and generous to others, he is a person who lives by instinct, and the line between evil and good becomes very blurred. He often acted like he was cultured, but it was just a fake trick. If he is nice to you, you can believe that it is purely sincere, not polite and upbringing, and he does not understand that. That's what first amused Yu Zipei – he was a wild man in a suit.

He has had many unheard of legendary experiences, he has been in prison twice, escaped from prison once, reversed cars, stolen ancient paintings, and even robbed things abroad, and his criminal experience is a survival instinct, and there are no moral boundaries that would make him fearful. Goo Min-seok is lucky, his criminal experience has never sent him to a prison cell, and he goes to prison to get into trouble to please women. He is always very infatuated with women, but with Yu Zipei's own experience, he is kind to women and has a taste of arbitrariness, which is not the way women like. In general, he doesn't understand women, and he doesn't care what they really think, what they want, that is, he has to make decisions about everything.

"You're a superficial person." Yu Zipei once told him this to his face, and he was just laughing at the time. Yu Zipei didn't know if he really didn't care, or if he was hiding his embarrassment, it was very possible that he didn't care, he was blindly confident, and since Yu Zipei had already slept with him at that time, he probably thought that he didn't need to bother with such words.

But this pair of Yu Zipei is different - she can sleep with a superficial person, but she can't stand his superficial behavior. Every time he said a stupid word in front of everyone, she immediately lost her self-esteem, and hid far away from him and pretended not to know him at all. Therefore, the few trips they rarely go on are always unhappy.

Yu Zipei was not ready to mess around like this anymore and asked to break up with him.

He was supposed to be the man who was brought around in Yu Zipei's life, and in order to be unable to bear this insult, he did whatever it took to impress her by all means, and he really did it - when she said she was going to break up, he hired someone to cut off one of Yu Zipei's hands. Because Yu Zipei told him that she only wants to write with her hands now, and she doesn't want to associate with men.

That morning, a strange man called and said that he had received a sum of money to collect a debt from Yu Zipei. Yu Zipei immediately heard the man's Buriram accent and couldn't believe that Gu Min-seok would do such a boring thing.

"It's between the two of us, you tell Gu Min-seok that I haven't done anything reproachful, I met him to accompany him when he was in the most difficult time, and borrowed money from him when he had no money! He doesn't have any right to treat me like that! ”

The strange man didn't sound good at words, and he didn't know how to respond for a while: "Gu Minxi, I don't know what Gu Minxi, I only recognize money." ”

"You don't know, aren't you from Buriram?"

The man muttered, not sure whether to answer yes or no.

Later, Goo Min-seok's friend confirmed to Yu Zipei that it was a long-distance call from Buriram and that he had indeed hired someone. If he wanted to find someone who could stomp off someone's hands for a few thousand baht, he would be easy to find. It is said that Yu Zipei's righteousness and strictness made the guy retreat.

Three days later, because Yu Zipei actually ignored the threatening phone call and refused to beg him for mercy. Goo Min-seok drunkenly smashed an advertising agency's office to force his friend to call Yu Ja-bae.

A scandalous scene, embarrassing and self-ashamed, made Yu Zipei deeply feel the failure of being a man. If she could never see him, she would rather live a few years less. The boss is not small, and he should really check his behavior, otherwise there will be more and more people who don't want to see him, and for this reason, each of them will lose a few years of my life, and she can only be finished at a young age.

As the saying goes, it's always true, as the saying goes, "Good things don't go out, bad things spread thousands of miles." "Sure enough. As soon as Yu Zipei saw Mo Ren shaking his big head and walking towards her with a smile, she knew it was over.

"Scandal, scandal!" He whispered in Yu Zipei's ear.

"Don't bother me."

Yu Zipei greeted a reporter warmly and walked away. After a while, Mo Ren circled around to her again, looking at her with a hippie smile, and stopped her comment on the theatrical phenomenon.

"What the hell are you trying to say?"

"Shame!" In a word, he said, "What a decrepit person you are looking for." A fourth-rate actor, the grade is too low. ”

"At least it's third-rate!"

"Shame on you, anyway."

"If you are only allowed to be embarrassed, why can't I be embarrassed occasionally?"

"You admit to being ashamed too?"

Yu Zipei's eyes are in the sky, and he can't admit it.

"Don't do that in the future, I mean really."

"Hey, I have legitimate sexual demands too."

"Of course, but you are a woman, and you are always weak in the relationship between men and women."

Yu Zipei is not going to discuss this with him now.

"Really, it's not safe." He said earnestly, "If you really need it, you can tell me, and for the sake of our friendship over the years, I am really willing to help with this." ”

"Thank you."

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"What the hell is you."

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It's been six months, and Qin Wuji hasn't called again, and neither has Yu Zipei. He didn't do anything, and neither did she. What happened? No, or no.

Once, when Qin Wuji was talking about the script, he said to Yu Zipei: "I think you agree that love is a kind of torture. ”

Yu Zipei naturally agreed.

"You have to see the weight of this torture in this person."

The old man of the company had been sitting across from him, smiling, looking up at them from time to time. When Lao He walked out, Qin Wuji's fingers swept across the back of Yu Zipei's hand. Yes, love is torture.

Yu Zipei felt more and more that Qin Wuji was very far away from her life, and she began to tend to understand his feelings for herself as a momentary infatuation with a young girl, while she was just overwhelmed by the infatuation of an old man, who was just sticking out their tongues and licking the syrup they had brewed. She thought she would forget about him, not now, and so would she would.

Mo Ren often said that love is an illusion, and he assured Yu Zipei with the experience of a love species for thirty years. But Yu Zipei privately felt that this was nonsense, what was not an illusion? For her, it is, but she genuinely values these illusions. Mo Ren is not like this, he wants to determine the truth of life, he disdains things that have nothing to do with the truth, he once sincerely thought that emotion is the ultimate truth, so there is a hallucination.

"Even if it is, I'm just satisfied with an illusion, but I can patch up this illusion with realistic and feasible means, and use the right temperature and humidity to keep the illusion a little longer. It doesn't need to be too long, just keep it for fifty years, it's enough for me, because I don't think the truth you are talking about does not exist. ”

"Fifty years? You are not ambiguous, you have opened your mouth for fifty years! ”

"What is fifty years? What is fifty years for the universe? For a moment, not even for a moment! ”

The wind outside the window made the poplars on the street "whoosh" danced, and the "whoosh" was the sound of Yu Zipei's imagination, and through the window of the teahouse, nothing could be heard.

"Wayward is not good temperament." Yu Zipei turned the teacup and muttered to himself.

"Probably, it's not good for yourself, and it takes courage and strength to be willful. A woman's willfulness is usually coquettish, but it is just pretending......"

"I'm not."

"You're not."

"Waywardness is certainly not a woman's virtue."

"It's not."

Yu Zipei nodded: "Understood." ”

"If you weren't willful, we would have gotten along back then."

"And then they will still break up, because they will become pitiful because of one failure after another."

"Possibly."

"We're not going to sit here and talk like we do now."

"Mostly."

"Then I'm still willful."

"I'm not against that."

"yes, I'd rather that."

"Yes, that's good." "I went to play basketball last night, and it was so nice to sit on the court and look at the poplars, the thin poles against the shaking canopy, and they didn't sway so boring, you could stare at them all the time," he said. But what do these trees actually have to do with you? It doesn't matter, they're just trees, just different from stones. Isn't it strange to talk about people? Two forked legs, long and round, put together in a long circle, with a few pieces of cloth on them, how ugly and ugly it is, but once you touch her with your hand, it is different when you have feelings for her. We have nothing to do with the world, the only possible connection is emotion, and we are connected to the world through emotion. ”

"Yes."

Mo Ren said to send her home, and she said yes, and a pile of shopping bags was piled up on his back seat. On the inner ring line, he rushed left and right and did not miss every opportunity to overtake, and he always drove like this.

He grinned and said: "I think most people know that they are worthless, there is nothing to hold onto, and they also know that they can't stand the hardships and tribulations, so they all rush to steal the corner, and everyone invariably meets on the road to steal the shortcut, so this road is particularly crowded." ”

"So do we."

"It's different." He said categorically.

He was always so confident in himself, Yu Zipei didn't.

When the car passed by the intersection of the department store, Yu Zipei saw the McDonald's king.

"I'm hungry, are you hungry? Eat something. ”

He said yes, turned around, and stopped at the door of the McDonald's King.

Yu Zipei asked for a wonton and a roasted wheat, and he only needed a bowl of soy milk, it seemed that he was not hungry, but he was kind enough to accompany her.

After paying the bill, everything came up in a while, and as soon as she had eaten the second siu mai, Mo Ren's girlfriend Lily walked in with her female companion, of course, at a glance she saw Mo Ren and her sitting at the door, and glared at them unceremoniously with a pair of already large round eyes. Yu Zipei had seen Lily twice at the dinner table before, and had some impressions of her extra-large round eyes, but fortunately these eyes, otherwise Yu Zipei's memory would definitely not know who she was. Yu Zipei nodded politely to her, and Mo Ren also nodded to her and said, "It's here." There was no intention of inviting them to sit together, Yu Zipei remembered that Mo Ren had said that he was breaking up with her, and he didn't say anything.

The two girls took a seat far away from them, and Yu Zipei continued to eat her siu mai, but as soon as the chopsticks picked up the third, Lily was already standing behind Mo Ren and said, "You come out, I have something to tell you." This was said to Mo Ren, Mo Ren didn't take anything, left his phone on the table, got up and followed out, Yu Zipei lowered his head and didn't look at them.

The wontons have bottomed out, the roasted wheat has been reimbursed, and the girl who came with Lily has been eating with her head bowed all the time, which seems to be commonplace. Mo Ren and Lily were still standing on the curb at the door, talking and not coming back, and their expressions were not clear. What a place this is! If she and Qin Wuji let people bump into each other, it doesn't matter, she is not in the mood to make peace with you. Yu Zipei greeted the waiter, asked her to look at Mo Ren's phone and bag, got up and walked out.

"Mo Ren, I'll go first, I'm going to get something." Yu Zipei pointed to the white crowd that stopped a few meters away.

Mo Ren agreed to go to the side of the car to open the door, and while helping Yu Zi to wear the paper bags, he said, "She found the car first, thinking that I went out to buy something for you." ”

Yu Zipei didn't say anything, and took the paper bag and carried it.

"Then you can take a taxi back first."

"Of course."

Lily was still standing on the side of the passage, Yu Zipei was carrying a big bag and a small bag and was bound to pass in front of her, forget it, who made her bigger, be generous.

"Lily, I'm fine with Mo Ren, I'm going out shopping today."

Lily didn't even look at her, and shouted at Mo Ren behind her: "It's weird! What are you talking to people?! You're amazing! ”

Yu Zipei must have been stunned, and he couldn't hear what they were shouting anymore, so he quickly got into a taxi and fled.

"Shameful" - as long as you are with Mo Ren, you will easily encounter this word. She deserves it! He has a calm face, I'm afraid that if I see more of this kind of scene, he is no longer the shy boy, life will temper everyone into a cheeky face, and he is not immune.

In the afternoon of the next day, Yu Zipei called Mo Ren.

"Got you in trouble?" Yu Zipei asked him.

"No, after you left, I also left, she likes to make trouble, she sent an E-mail to apologize at night, I ignored her. Not for the first time. ”

Okay, it's okay, Yu Zipei couldn't hold it back, and shouted: "Shame on you!" ”

He didn't retort and laughed on the phone.

"Hey, when are you going to stay away from that word?!"

"What can she do if she wants to mess with me?"

"Why is she making trouble? I really don't understand. Isn't that self-inflicted! I'm never going to do anything like this in my life, so at least I've got to maintain some dignity, right? ”

"I'll tell you, that's how children are now! They don't have these concepts of yours in their heads, they are all only children, they have no concept of what others think, they don't care at all, they are really direct, self-oriented, they can do whatever they want, I think they are happier than us. ”

"I'm so old."

"Not really." He paused and said, "We're all old. ”

In the fall, Lan Xinhua got married in France.

When she came back to see her son, Yu Zipei and Assi went to her house to see her, and when she entered the door, Yu Zipei said, "Congratulations." ”

She waved her hand to Yu Zipei repeatedly, and although she didn't know it, she immediately stopped. Xinhua's youngest son stood in the foyer and looked at us, Xinhua greeted him with a smile and called him Auntie, he called, but his expression was indifferent, he looked like he didn't care about himself, Xinhua's mother came out of the kitchen, and it was their turn to shout "Auntie" in unison.

Xinhua didn't let her into her room, closed the door, and Yu Zipei asked, "What's wrong?"

"My mom didn't know I was married, and I told her that I was just living with Simon and that she didn't want me to marry a foreigner again."

"What about cohabitation? Is it okay to live together? ”

"Yes."

"Your mother is godly enough."

Let's talk about Lan Xinhua's marriage.

Xinhua's visa in France is about to expire, and the only way for her to stay in France is to get married, which is not difficult for her, but who to choose. She hesitated for a while on this issue, and even made a long call to ask Asie to help with the staff, for an Asian American, to get married, plus a penniless woman of course there is no perfect candidate, and finally she married this sixty-year-old handsome man named Simon Philip.

Simon Philip is indeed an old handsome guy, as evidenced by photos, with gray hair, a well-proportioned figure, elegant manners, always old, old is not ugly. The handsome old guy is a cellist, not famous, but he has also played all his life, you may think that Xinhua married him because he has a lot of money, no, he has not a few money, but a lot of debts. Xinhua married him because she fell in love with him, and of course to stay in France. This old brother could have been a middle-class pawn with his cello skills, but he was not honest, he was a playboy all his life, he loved to fly airplanes, collected antique violins, had a lot of fox friends and dog friends, borrowed loan sharks when he had no money, and when Xinhua got married, there was nothing left but debts.

"You wouldn't have met him in the park, would you?" Yu Zipei remembered the past when Xinhua lost her wallet.

"It's not."

Yu Zipei nodded, he had grown.

"It's on the street."

It's pretty much the same.

"Tell me how they talked to you?"

Xinhua pulled her long black hair, it was so black, it hadn't been dyed at all, it should be an attractive exotic in France.

"Miss, you are so beautiful! Shall we have a cup of coffee together? She said.

Yu Zipei laughed, and Ah Xi laughed too.

"That's it?"

"Yes, that's how they all started – 'You're beautiful.'"

"'You're so beautiful'? It's no better than the gangsters in Bangkok, and here, this kind of talk can only attract a roll of the eyes. ”

"The French love to talk sweetly, but it's almost the same when you hear too much, and every time Simon calls for a week, the last thing I say is: hug you with all my heart! Hug your son and your mother with all your heart! ”

"They are really equal and fraternal." Ashi said. Yu Zipei was already out of breath laughing.

The door creaked open, and Xinhua's son stood at the door, with a serious face, without a smile, with a little disdain in his expression, which is by no means the expression you can see on the face of a six-year-old child. They all stopped laughing, a little embarrassed by that gaze.

"We've got you in the air, I'm sorry, let's be quiet." Xinhua said that his attitude was not like that of his son, but of his father.

The son didn't make a sound, didn't react, turned around and left, and Xinhua hurriedly went over to close the door tightly.

"Your son is so cool." Ashi couldn't help but lower his voice.

"It's not just cool!" Xinhua seemed to have a stomach full of dissatisfaction, "Did you see his eyes?" He doesn't even look down on his mother, even us. ”

Xinhua just laughed.

"Your son is definitely not a mortal, let's wait and see! Have you ever seen such a worldly look? It's only six years old, and I've seen you people through! Worthless. ”

"We're worthless." Yu Zipei said.

"That's not right! It depends on whose position he stands, but why is he so young to stand on the opposite side? It's not a good position, it's a philistine position! ”

"How can anyone say that about other people's sons."

"You don't know, two years ago, she came back to our class reunion and took him with her, how old is he, four years old! After the meal, everyone proposed to say a few words, I wish you a good life, a good work, or something, and he also said, you know what he said, and he said, 'I wish you a good poop!' At that time, everyone didn't know whether to laugh or not, and it was embarrassing to laugh, he knew how to deconstruct! Can you believe that? ”

Xinhua said: "He just said it casually. ”

Ashi didn't give up: "This speaks for itself. This is our next generation of children, don't believe anything, how terrible! ”

"Are you taking him to France?"

"Yes, it may be half a year later."

"It's not like you at all." Assi concluded.

"There is such a saying that when a mother is pregnant, she will subconsciously determine the personality of her child, Lan Xinhua may feel that her life should be corrected in her heart, and she hopes that her child will not be the same as herself."

"At least he was able to take care of himself since he was a child."

"Of course, if you take care of yourself, he will be able to achieve great things." There was also dissatisfaction in Ash's agreement.

Yu Zipei can tell everyone Xinhua's later story first.

Half a year later, she brought her son to France to live with Simon Sr., and it is said that the old and the young get along well and often play football together. But then Xinhua himself and the old man couldn't get along, saying that he had never seen such a weak man, soaking in the bathtub for two hours every day, sighing for several days with a bag on his face, and the heavy debt was even more unbearable than Mount Tai, Xinhua wanted to go out to write calligraphy to make money, and old Simon felt ashamed. Romance and elegance don't help when it comes to problems, and according to Xinhua's later statement, old Simon is actually a selfish bastard.

After four years in France, Xinhua turned to a deep dislike for French men, saying that they were mediocre and weak, unmasculine, and lacking in passion. She even thought that any foreigner in France was better than a French man, and she divorced old Simon in desperation.

After she was disappointed in France, the romantic land of her dreams, Xinhua asked everyone where there might be good men. She thinks that a tribal chief from an equatorial country might be a better fit for her, and Ashi suggests that she try it in South America. Xinhua hasn't been to South America yet, but Yu Zipei knows that she won't stop her. She was born with no interest in a comfortable life and a successful life, and she had no envy. Xinhua is actually one of her ideals, she longs to hear her legend, and hopes that her legend will have a miraculous ending, even if it is just an accident in the random changes of the world.

But that day, Xinhua was still intoxicated with her love affair with Simon Sr., showing them photos of them falling in love in the garden, as well as a love letter Sr. Simon wrote to her with red hearts and cupids.

Yu Zipei endured it, but decided to ask her: "He, how old is he?" ”

"Fifty-nine, soon sixty."

"At this age, is it okay to be in bed?"

Xinhua nodded affirmatively.

"Caucasians." Ashi said.

"Better than a lot of Chinese boys!"

Yu Zipei has no experience in this area, and I don't like foreigners, but Lan Xinhua did say so.

While they were discussing such a serious issue, Yu Zipei's mobile phone rang, and what made her even more impatient was that the phone was noisy, and the person just said "Hey, hey" twice, but didn't say who he was.

"Which one, please?"

"It's me."

"Who?"

"Can't you really hear me?"

"Which one?" Yu Zipei is most annoyed that the person who calls does not report his name, why should he remember you? Where did you get this confidence? Anyway, she doesn't have the self-confidence, no matter who she calls, she will sign up for her surname first, except for one person - her father.

"My surname is Qin!"

"There are many people with the surname Qin."

Yu Zipei couldn't believe it, but she really said so! The moment she said this, she knew who he was—Qin Wuji.

"Oh, hello!"

She gestured to Ah Xi and Xinhua, walked out of their unit door, and stood in the hallway.

He laughed on the phone: "I forget so fast." ”

"I'm chatting at a friend's house, and the signal isn't very good...... "Forget it, why explain," "Is there something?" ”

"It's fine, I just wanted to give you a call."

It's as simple as that? After half a year without any news.

"Oh."

"How are you?

"Very good." Every time he asked Yu Zipei if she was okay, she replied like this, how else could she answer, saying that she was not good, she was going crazy, she couldn't live without him?

Yu Zipei was silent, and when he called, she didn't relieve this cold spot for him.

Someone walked by in the corridor, holding the phone, holding the palm of the sweat, she walked downstairs step by step, out of the door, outside is a lively side street, noisy people, I don't know where to go.

"I just wanted to call you, so I did, I think I should tell you, you must think, what kind of person, it's like that, and suddenly it's gone. Is it convenient for you to speak? ”

"I'm out."

"I want you to know that I can only let people who have the same bearing capacity as me bear this matter, and I can't let the weaker side suffer."

Don't compliment me, I don't have the ability, that's not a reason for me to suffer.

"I care more about her, such a family, parents divorced since childhood......"

He chose to explain when he didn't have to explain anymore.

"I miss you." He paused for a moment and added, "It's okay if you don't believe me. ”

It's not that Yu Zipei doesn't believe it, it's just that he said it too easily! This sentence "missing you" turned around her mouth thousands of times, and finally she could only swallow it back into her stomach, it still hurts there, corroding her intestines, corroding her stomach, it is a brick that can never be digested, and it hurts at every turn. "Miss you", is it such a simple word to spit out? What counts as "missing you", an occasional sleepless night, or an endless day and night of hopelessness; A moment of nostalgia and eternal inextricability, just the difference between "missing you" and "missing you very much", don't say it.

"I always think of that day, when you stood in the morning sun, so small, and then you, such a quiet face, how could your heart be so turbulent, every piece of clothing you wore, your naughty look, everything, from beginning to end, thinking about ......"

Why do you say that, he can't ignore the feelings of others, come and go as much as he wants, and say whatever he wants! He can't ask someone else to be in sync with him, how can he know that I won't be hit again?

"Actually, I don't see you, I just miss you, and it's good."

"Okay, that's it, how can I ruin your fun." Yu Zipei tried to say it like a joke.

After hanging up the phone, she found that she no longer knew where she went, the same street, the same building, the same people, and she couldn't even find her way back to Lan Xinhua's house. Thank God, she didn't show a trace of sadness and attachment on the phone, if she did this, she would look down on herself. Keep a little pride for yourself, infatuated people! Even if she regrets it immediately, even if she regrets it countless times when she misses you, even if one day she regrets it to hate herself to death, she can only say that, she is this kind of person!

They say that Aquarius has an awkward personality and has a hard time revealing themselves even to their loved ones. "Awkward", that's the word used.

Yu Zi Peixin said I really hate myself!

Qin Wuji said, "Do you feel this way? INTERVIEWER When you meet someone for the first time, do you think you will have some kind of connection with him or her? I always think about it from the first meeting. I didn't think I'd ever see you again, and I asked someone, where is that person? ”

Yes, Yu Zipei admits that she feels this way too. Well, see, that's the connection between them, they'll fall in love and then break up, and she thinks she's going to forget about him.

"This actor should be someone like Qin Wuji." Bai Ruyan said.

Bai Ruyan is the producer of the movie, thirty-six or seventeen years old, full of charm, delicate and pretty, and has the demeanor of a little girl when she laughs. Yu Zipei secretly thought to himself: This is the type that Qin Wuji likes. Bai Ruyan knew Qin Wuji for a long time and had a good impression of him.

"Qin Wuji, what kind of person is it?" Yu Zipei asked, not knowingly, I really didn't know what she meant.

"It's the kind of guy who is very manly."

She thought she had made it clear, and Yu Zipei was still confused.

"Very manly" - this is a word she never uses and does not understand what it refers to.

What does it mean to be "very manly"? Correspondingly, what is "very feminine"? The only thing she knows is that she looks "very womanly". What about temperament? A woman should be soft on the outside and strong on the inside, and Ashi said that she is "rigid on the outside and soft on the inside". Her most unbearable woman's quality is "showing weakness", and real women know how to overcome rigidity with softness. She doesn't know how to be humble, she is blindly willful, she is competitive, stubborn, she doesn't have a good temperament of "very woman", and she doesn't know what it means to be "very man". Cool on the outside, warm on the inside? Big grin, informal? This is what Qin Wuji looks like? She obviously knew that he was as careful as silk, worried, and excited, with a beginning and no end, rather than saying that he was a man, Yu Zipei would rather say that he was very childish.

What is it about him that attracts him? What is it about you that attracts him? Yu Zipei was simply confused by the word "very manly".

In the end, she knew that what this "very man" meant was after a long time - Qin Wuji's love was "very manly", that was a generous emotion, with appreciation, tolerance, compassion and love, complete goodwill, no possessiveness, and no realistic pros and cons considerations, so that you slowly opened up in his gaze. This is the love that makes a woman happy and beautiful. But this is an aesthetic emotion that will be open to everything he thinks is good. This kind of love always stays at a pleasing moment, and it takes more strength and passion to carry it out to the end, which Qin Wuji does not have. Perhaps stronger, more enduring emotions must be wrapped in sand and stones, possessive, mad, cruel, jealous, coercive?

Yu Zipei's attraction to "very manly" love illustrates one thing - she has supported her with her neck up for so many years, and in the end what she hopes for is nothing more than to be pampered and pampered appropriately.

This discovery really made her look down on herself!

The young girl, whose face was streaked with tears, and the dim lights of the bar made her look miserable and insane, had been sitting there for three hours, and she was telling a friend that Yu Zipei had not heard a word and that she had fallen in love with a married man.

"I think every day that I'm not alive, I just guard his door, and as soon as he drives out, I hit him and hit him headlong and die in his car!"

The body is chilly and creepy.

This is love, hate stronger than hate! Love and hate become one in the bloodstain. She wants to make the people she loves suffer for the rest of her life, and live in the shadow of a cart full of blood for the rest of her life. If this is love, what kind of love is it? She really did this, died like this, some people will say: this is an infatuated woman. What kind of infatuation?

Yu Zipei couldn't do it, she couldn't even get up and call him.