Kalaw fell out of love. This is not a great deal in Kalaw. Since the age of twenty, Kalou has either been in a broken relationship or in love, and there is rarely any other state in between. But there was a man who wanted to visit Kalou for this matter, and although Kalou thought it was unnecessary, it was difficult to refuse. Especially this person is Qin Wuji. Speaking of Qin Wuji, it is very famous. Naturally, Kalou did not succumb to his fame in accepting the visit. Qin Wuji was famous when he was a writer. Today's Qin Wuji has long been notorious, no one pays attention to him, and he has long been worthless. Therefore, it is all the more difficult to refuse his request to visit.

When Qin Wuji came to Bangkok, it was really beautiful. Literary magazines and publishers in Bangkok sent special personnel to the station to greet them after hearing the news, and the cars lined up at the exit. Qin Wuji didn't inform them in advance. He came to Bangkok for only one purpose, that is, to visit a friend, and this "friend" is Kalaw. With great difficulty, he finally got rid of his literary friends and followed Kalou to a dilapidated house, where he lived. Qin Wuji is not a person who hates the poor and loves the rich, and even on the contrary, he does not live in a high-end hotel, and would rather sleep with Kalaw on a narrow wooden bed. He stayed here for three days in Kalaw. For three days, Kalaw's burrow was full of friends, all of whom were editors sent by the editorial department and the publishing house to pull the manuscript. Qin Wuji quietly asked them to reimburse the round-trip tickets, and as for the manuscript, we will talk about it later—it depends on their performance. So the clever editor cared about Kalaw's writing, which made Qin Wuji very proud. All the editorial offices present could see what he meant, and the outcome of the incident proved their judgment correct: only those editors who adopted Kalaw's article could eventually get Qin Wuji's masterpiece.

Kalaw's official publication of his works is related to Qin Wuji's care, and as a result, he has made some friends in the literary world and formed his own network. More importantly, Qin Wuji's style as a famous writer made a deep impression on Kalaw, making Kalou understand how to behave once he became famous. He doesn't live in a hotel, preferring to make do with Kalaw in a bed, for the following reasons:

Simmons couldn't get used to sleeping, so he had to sleep on the plank. During the three days in Bangkok, Qin Wuji was not invited to go back to the restaurant once, and ate and drank here in Kalau for three meals a day. Qin Wuji solemnly declared: He likes home-style tastes and has always lacked interest in delicacies from the mountains and seas.

This couldn't help but increase the burden on Kalaw, not only to try his best to entertain Qin Wuji, but also those editor friends who followed him. Although Kalou had not broken up with Kalou's girlfriend at that time, looking at her ugly face, he couldn't bear it anymore.

There were also economic problems, although it was only a few seasonal vegetables and loose beer, but due to the large number of people, it was difficult to sustain it later. Qin Wuji shouted at the dinner table: "It's delicious!" Delicious! It's still home-cooked and delicious! The editors in the room had to echo the voice.

Qin Wuji never asked Kalaw how he felt. According to Kalaw's meaning, it is better to go to the restaurant, which is much more convenient than doing it yourself. Besides, it is rare to have oil and water in Kalaw, and it is also good to take the opportunity to eat something good to replenish your body. Qin Wuji always thinks about Kalaw, but he never asks for Kalaw's opinion. He imposes on Kalou what he thinks is good, indicating that this man is enthusiastic, but somewhat domineering. This is his fault, but also his strength. In short, his kindness was received by Kalou, but in fact he was overwhelmed. It was nominally a private visit, but it became known to everyone, but it was a transfer of the venue for public events to Kalaw's home. In fact, we didn't have the opportunity to spend time alone and have long conversations all night. Every day, the people in the house did not disperse until one or two o'clock in the evening, after which Kalaw had to clean up the room. Qin Wuji fell asleep upside down, snoring like thunder, and Kalou's insomnia was committed again due to excitement and worry about tomorrow's arrangement. As for publishing Kalaw's novel, it was not Carlaw's original intention, but considering Qin Wuji's kindness, it was inconvenient to disobey it. In this way, is there a suspicion of flattery and misconduct? Especially after Kalaw and the editors who shuttled between him became friends, if they didn't publish Kalou's novels, Qin Wuji wouldn't write for them, and if they couldn't get Qin Wuji's manuscript, their work performance would be affected, and they would be deducted points, and they would suffer a loss in the future evaluation of job titles, so the involvement would be bigger. In such a situation, Kalou had no choice but to sacrifice himself.

Qin Wuji said to come and see Kalau, but Kalou did not say no. On the phone, Kalaw's answer was vague. If it had been someone else, I might not have come if I felt that Kalou was not very positive. But Qin Wuji's fault or advantage is that he is too enthusiastic. So one afternoon a day later, there was a knock on Kalaw's door. As soon as he heard this violent and exaggerated knock on the door, Kalaw immediately realized that it was Qin Wuji, and the consequences of opening the door were unacceptable. We hadn't seen each other for more than a year, and when we did, Kalou couldn't help but be surprised, he was much fatter than before the hospital, weighing about two hundred pounds, and he barely managed to squeeze into the narrow door frame. When he entered, Kalaw found that he was followed by a man who had just been completely obscured by his burly body. The guy in the back is not small, but it is a woman. She was not only a woman, but a foreign woman, blonde and blue-eyed, and Kalou was completely confused by the sight before her. Kalou let them into the room, and for three to five minutes the atmosphere was awkward. First, Kalaw and Qin Wuji haven't seen each other for many days, so they are a little rusty. Second, because of this foreign woman, Kalou did not know how to talk to her. Fortunately, her Chinese is good, although the tone is weird, but the words are clear. Kalaw learned from her that her name was Tuva, that she was a Spaniard, and that she studied Ming and Qing literature at the university where Qin Wuji taught. These were all told to Kalaw by herself, without the help of Qin Wuji's translation or conveyance. Qin Wuji didn't say a word about Tuwa, and he didn't even say a word to her since he entered the door, and he didn't look at her. Qin Wuji is concerned about his friend, that is, the situation since the farewell of Kalaw. Although the relevant situation had already been reported to each other during the phone call, Qin Wuji still asked again, and Kalaw answered again. Including the painful mood after Kalaw's falling out of love, Qin Wuji also seemed to have heard of it for the first time at this moment. Maybe he was introducing Kalaw to Tuva in this way, although Qin Wuji knew about Kalau's situation, Tuva didn't know about it. On the contrary, there was no need for Kalaw to ask Qin Wuji something. Looking at their situation, they have become so tacit that there is no need to communicate with each other. This gave Kalaw the impression that they must be a couple, and that they were Thai, with men as the main players, and the women's task was to stand aside and serve as foils and spectators. It's a combination of East and West, but it's the Eastern way, so Kalou doesn't have to worry about anything. Qin Wuji didn't talk to Tuva, and there was no need for Kalaw to be too courteous, and after a few words of greeting, Kalaw would no longer talk to Tuwa. The two men were talking and smoking, and the girlfriend, who was one of them, sat quietly beside her, her eyes moving from one to the other, a sight that was all too familiar to Kalaw. It shows that this woman is Qin Wuji's girlfriend and not Kalaw's, because she is in Qin Wuji's row, sitting side by side with him on the couch opposite Kalaw. Kalou sat on a single sofa, listening to Qin Wuji's conversation, while his eyes could also observe Tuva. She is really quiet and well-behaved, and perhaps recognizing Chinese pronunciation requires extra concentration. In short, her expression was very focused, and because of her concentration, she took on a certain sense of adoration. Maybe she does worship Thai men and Qin Wuji, so she is so focused. More than two hours later, Tuva still didn't move, only occasionally taking a sip of the tea that had cooled off the coffee table. It seems that she is more Thai girl than Thai girl.

As is often the case, Kalaw couldn't help but feel very emotional.

With Tuva not having to take care of her, Kalaw's attention gradually became focused on the conversation. It said: Qin Wuji is much fatter than when they last met, considering that he has been sick for a year and is tortured inside, this scene is indeed very strange. Compared with before, he has become less talkative, too lazy to ramble with women, and even cautious when talking to Kalaw. I'm a little older, my face is not good, and I don't see the swagger and freedom I had when I came to Bangkok last time. Maybe it's because there is no audience. Although there were three of them here, it was basically a one-on-one conversation between Kalaw and him. In the case of a single conversation, Kalaw is more able to play normally, and he is clearly organized and vividly expressed, maybe it is because of this reason that Qin Wuji attaches great importance to Kalou, right? He himself likes big scenes, and the more people there are, the better, so as to stimulate his self-confidence and desire for expression. Qin Wuji originally had some stuttering, but in order to overcome the resistance of sentence formation, he became even more excited, his face flushed, and the muscles on his cheeks shook one by one, showing an overwhelming momentum, and no one would dare to fight against him at that time. Qin Wuji didn't say much, maybe there were psychological reasons. During his imprisonment, it was rumored that he was a coward, greedy for life and afraid of death, and did not hesitate to betray the revolution and his comrades. The person who spread the news was filled with righteous indignation as he spoke, and really took his performance in the courtyard seriously, so he had every reason to ignore the former celebrity. And Qin Wuji was in the courtyard but he was concerned about the literary world, and he didn't know about the rumors at first, but it was strange that no one paid attention to him. Not only was no one asked him for a manuscript (through his family), but even the magazines he had given away were no longer sent to him. Qin Wuji is a person who is used to reading magazines, and he really can't stand it when he doesn't have it for a while. At the beginning, the magazines sent to him were piled up, but they were just flipped through and sold as waste paper, but now there is no such convenience, but he misses the benefits of magazines.

So he wrote to Kalou through his mother and asked him to get him some magazines. At first, Kalaw was very strange, but then he figured it out. It is very strange to ask Kalaw for magazines, because Carlaw is no more darling of magazines than Qin Wuji (although Kalaw also writes novels), and no one sends magazines to Carlaw on time. figured it out because Kalaw realized that Qin Wuji was already in the courtyard at this time, and his relationship with the magazine was not as good as it was back then. Not to mention that people have stopped giving away, even if they take the initiative to ask for it, they may be rejected. It seemed that it was indeed impossible to do business, so Qin Wuji decided to use Kalaw, a personal friend.

Over the course of a year, Kalou traveled far and wide to collect magazines for him, but the demand was so great that he could not afford to buy them entirely at his own expense. So Kalaw went to ask for help, explaining that he wanted to see it, and the people who asked for help were naturally the editorial friends of the magazine. It's ridiculous to say that the relationship between Kalaw and the magazine was established through Qin Wuji. But Kalou couldn't say that the magazine was sent to Qin Wuji, otherwise they would refuse to give it away—they didn't want to have anything to do with a coward.

Even if they want to defend Qin Wuji for a few words, it is after asking for the magazine, and it can't involve the true whereabouts of the magazine, otherwise the magazine will be asked back by them. As a result, a large number of magazines were continuously delivered to Qin Wuji's mother through Kalao, and then she handed them over to Qin Wuji to satisfy the latter's habit of magazines. Later, Qin Wuji concluded: "I didn't suffer much in the prison, but I didn't have enough magazines. The implication is that the greatest hardship he suffered during his imprisonment was the lack of magazines. Although the responsibility lies with Kalaw, Kalou has done his best. If it weren't for Carlau's efforts, even the only magazine Qin Wuji wouldn't have been able to read.

At this moment, Qin Wuji was sitting in Kalaw's living room, surrounded by colorful magazines. The magazines were collected for him by Kalou, and he was discharged from the hospital before he could mail them. It is very strange that at the moment he has no interest in the long-awaited magazine, and even looks bored. Later, Kalaw found that Qin Wuji's boredom was not only directed at magazines, but even directed at literature as a whole, which made it even more difficult for Kalaw to understand. Kalaw showed him the newly written novel, and out of friendship, Qin Wuji hastily flipped through it a few times, and then put it aside. He smiled apologetically and said in a deep voice: "Literature has been too weak these days! "It's not like a coward saying it at all. Perhaps the real cowards are those of us who are immersed in writing, especially in today's powerless world. Maybe Qin Wuji had already heard the relevant rumors, and he was just defending himself by saying this? This Kalaw is unknown. In short, at this moment, Kalaw strongly felt that Qin Wuji was a real hero compared to his own obscene existence. At least his ambitions were much greater than those of Kalaw, and he had gone far beyond the confines of literature and art. Kalou put away his manuscript in a gray manner, hid it under his ass, and transferred the conversation from literature to Qin Wuji's courtyard life. This is unfamiliar territory for Kalaw, so there is only a need to listen and ask questions. Qin Wuji spoke eloquently, with strict logic and witty words, and gradually regained his self-confidence. The life he talks about in the hospital is different from the rumors from the outside world, and there are more details and concrete realities, so it is more credible. Qin Wuji is not a coward at all in such a talk, not only brave, but also very witty. For example, he united a courtyard tyrant named the Siberian Tiger to save himself from the suffering of flesh and skin, and instilled Taoism in him, so that the Siberian Tiger was also quite benevolent when he treated other prisoners later. The more Kalou listened, the more frightened he felt, not because of the difficulty and cruelty of life in the hospital, but because he felt how irresponsible the rumors from the outside world were! The more I listened, the more I felt sorry for Qin Wuji, who was obviously a model of courage to fight, but was slandered as a coward and a bear. Right and wrong are completely reversed by the boring literati. Although Kalaw has always been relatively isolated and estranged from the literary world, after all, he takes literature as his volunteer, and what kind of novels he writes about Raushzi is the inaction of literati. Meanness and meanness could not help but put Kalou to shame. It seems that there is no way out except for Qin Wuji to stop writing like this, otherwise it will be a matter of time before he joins the same stream.

Until it was already dark, Qin Wuji was still immersed in painful and glorious memories. Kalaw couldn't interrupt him, and turned on the lights once. Between the light and shadow, his face shook incessantly, and the stammering combined with the effort to overcome the stuttering made his conversation extraordinarily passionate and charming. This is a familiar situation for Kalou. Tuva, like Kalaw, listened all the time, and went to the toilet once. Qin Wuji's conversation slackened as a result, and there was a brief pause. This made Kalaw realize that Qin Wuji was so excited because of Tuva, not because of Kalaw. Although he ignored Tuva, it was only superficial. Kalaw and Qin Wuji stayed in the living room, listening to Tuwa's toilet with bated breath, and when she returned to her seat, Qin Wuji began to talk about it again. And when Kalaw went to the toilet, Qin Wuji didn't pause, just turned up the volume so that Kalou could hear it clearly even through the door panel. Kalaw imagined that Qin Wuji at this time must not have turned to Tuwa, he talked at the door of the toilet, just as he looked at Kalou and listened carefully. And when Qin Wuji went to the toilet, it was logical that he should take a break and pause, but his witty words still kept coming from the toilet, so that Kalaw had to increase his answering voice, indicating that he heard it. In order to facilitate the conversation, Qin Wuji didn't even close the door of the toilet, and continued to talk while peeing. Where should he be looking? From the details of his toilet not closing the door, Kalou reconfirmed his judgment: he and Tuva are a pair of lovers, no doubt. Qin Wuji didn't wash his hands after using the toilet, because it was to avoid interrupting the conversation, it was completely understandable. The whole afternoon was spent in conversation, and in the middle of the three got up to go to the bathroom, the situation has already been described. In the end, Kalaw finally seized an opportunity and took advantage of Qin Wuji's slight slackness to propose to go out to eat, and Qin Wuji's mysterious talk came to an end. Then we ate, and at the dinner table, Qin Wuji continued his conversation. After dinner, he returned to Kalaw's quarters, and he continued to elaborate on the topic that had been interrupted. Qin Wuji has an obvious desire to express and confide, and there is no objection to this. Since he has just come out, it is inevitable that there will be some psychological problems, and as his friend Kalou, he should not only understand, but also need to be responsible.

Next up is the issue of accommodation. There are three rooms in this room in Kalau. One was Kalaw's studio that doubled as a living room, and we were staying in it at the moment. The other was Kalaw's bedroom, which had a double bed as necessary.

There is also a bed in the third room, which is made of wood, and it is here that Qin Wuji stayed last time he came to Bangkok. Not only did Qin Wuji sleep on the old wooden bed, but friends from the south and north often rested here. All in all, it's a guest room, dedicated to entertaining guests. Although Kalaw had already guessed that Qin Wuji and Tuwa were a couple, neither of them would explain it to Kalou. Speculation doesn't have to be fact, and Kalou is always cautious. So when Tuva went to the toilet again, Kalou interrupted Qin Wuji and asked him what was the relationship between him and Tuva? Qin Wuji looked a little embarrassed, maybe he wasn't comfortable because the conversation was interrupted by Kalaw, right?

Kalou said, "What is your relationship? Please tell us the truth, I will arrange accommodation. ”

Qin Wuji couldn't help but hesitate, he said, "What's the relationship?" It doesn't matter. ”

Before Tuva could get out of the toilet, Kalou had to make a long story short: "Even if you're not related, do you want to have sex with her?" ”

"This ...... This ......"

"Okay, Kalou has figured out, you want to have sex with her, is that right? You don't have to explain, I'll just put you in a room. ”

Hearing this, Qin Wuji's face turned pale, most likely due to fright. "Isn't it okay? Isn't that right? ”

He said. "Kalou should share a room with you."

Kalou noticed that Qin Wuji did not deny Kalou's judgment that he wanted to have a relationship with Tuva, he just didn't want to share a room with Tuva. Kalaw asked Qin Wuji, "Since you want to have a relationship, how can it be possible if you don't live together?" It doesn't seem logical. ”

The latter prevaricated and said, "There is still a long time! We were ready to stay for a week. Let's stay together for the first night. ”

"I have a compromise," said Kalaw, "to have Tuva sleep on a bed, and you lay a mat on the floor, not in one bed but in one room, so that it is much easier and you can move in and out freely." ”

"Kalou should stay with you!" Qin Wuji begged, and at the same time looked at Kalou with a panicked expression like an abandoned child.

Kalou had to patiently enlighten him: "Think about it, how big is it to stay in my room for a few days and then move to Tuva's room?" If you're in a room, it's very natural to climb from the mat to the bed, almost at your fingertips. ”

While Tuva was back, we stopped the discussion and Kalou announced that he was going to sleep. Kalaw's arrangement is like this: Qin Wuji and Tuwa sleep in the same room, and Tuwa sleeps on the bed and Qin Wuji sleeps on the ground. The generous Tuwa didn't raise any objections, but Qin Wuji was still saying, "Let's live together, let's talk." ”

Kalou replied, "I never share a room with a man. ”

Kalaw's explanation may be superfluous, but as a foreigner, Tuva must have understood Kalaw's attitude very well. It is said that in their country it is normal for men and women to live in the same room, but it is considered abnormal. Although the material conditions here are not comparable to those of others, the rules and methods of behavior are in line with international standards.

After arranging accommodation, the authority in the room changed from Qin Wuji to Kalaw. They were at the command and dispatch of Kalaw, especially Qin Wuji, who was obedient like a child. He looked very helpless, except for resignation, he no longer spoke, and two flushes rose on his cheeks. We took separate showers, and Kalaw spread a mat on the floor of the room. After that they went into their room and slept. Kalou noticed that they had closed the door, and with a click, the latch was inserted from the inside. So far so good, Kalou wishes Kalou's friends. Kalaw began to clean up the messy living room, emptying ashtrays, wiping tables, sweeping floors, and before he could finish drying, the lights in the room went out. Looking at the pitch-black skylight above the door frame, Kalaw couldn't help but feel deeply gratified. However, there was no sound at all, or no sound at all.

Kalaw guessed that maybe Tuwa climbed from the bed to the ground, and it was definitely impossible for Qin Wuji to climb from the ground to the bed, otherwise the more than 200 catties plus Tuva's more than 100 catties would not have moved at all on the plank bed. If they're on the ground and cement underneath, it's much more down-to-earth. It's also possible that they haven't started yet, and are waiting for Kalaw to evacuate the living room.

So Kalaw sped up, hastily packed up, and went back to his room. Kalou couldn't sleep for a long time, not because he wanted to listen to the movement next door, but because he was too excited. And when Carlaw is excited, he can't sleep, and when Carlaw gets up and goes to the toilet five or six times at night, Qin Wuji and them are always silent. There was neither a suspicious noise, nor the sound of conversation, not even Qin Wuji's heavy snoring (which Kalaw had taught him the last time he had been in Bangkok) had stopped.

The next day, the temperature rose suddenly, and in the morning, Qin Wuji walked around the room with two relatively small feet bare, enjoying the slight coolness brought by the concrete floor. Because the weather was too hot, and there was no air conditioning in Kalaw's room, it was really a crime to sit on the sofa in the living room and chat, so the place of activity was transferred to the room where Qin Wuji and the others slept, specifically to the mat on the ground. Qin Wuji slept here at night, and sat cross-legged on it during the day, because his body was not leaning on all sides, so there was a coolness of air currents. The audience, Kalaw and Tuva, one sat across from him on the mat, and the other moved a low stool between them. The man who sat on the low stool often put his hands on his cheeks and acted as if he was listening or bored, and that person was naturally Tuwa. And there is no substitute for Kalaw's position as the main audience. The next two days we spent like this: sweating like rain while listening to Qin Wuji's endless talks. The only cooling device that Kalaw had was an electric fan, which was moved to the mat by Kalaw. The fan can shake its head and rotate more than 90 degrees, and if its function is fully used, all three people present can feel some faint hot air. But Qin Wuji fixed the angle of the blow, facing himself, Kalaw and Tuwa could only watch with their eyes, and they couldn't feel the effect of the fan working at all. Qin Wuji didn't ask for our opinion beforehand, so it seemed that there was no other way but to accept reality. Besides, he did it so naturally and without pretentiousness, he couldn't have any other feelings than thinking that Qin Wuji was selfish and cute. However, heat is difficult to overcome. If it is necessary, it is natural that Qin Wuji needs the electric fan even more, if it were not for its non-stop blowing. Qin Wuji, who weighed two hundred pounds, was likely to suffer from heat stroke. Besides, he has given a lot, and he has spared no effort to preach and talk about it for two days, and not everyone can do it. Another cooling measure is to eat chilled watermelon, which is everyone's share. Of course, the task of braving the scorching sun to purchase had to be Kalaw, and after carrying the watermelons upstairs, Kalaw almost collapsed. The watermelon has to be cut in half and put in the freezer on the upper level of the refrigerator to freeze, and then cut into small pieces after it is frozen, which is also quite physically demanding.

When Kalaw sat down, there was only a pile of watermelon rinds left in the basin. Qin Wuji ate the watermelon very quickly, holding the half-moon-shaped melon slices from one end to the other, only listening to a few sounds of Ku Yu Ku Ku was gone, and Qin Wuji's lips barely left the melon skin. It's really puzzling how those melon seeds were spit out. Naturally, you don't have to worry about this, Qin Wuji is simply a watermelon-eating machine, and melon seeds shoot out from the side of his mouth except for swallowing them in his stomach, hitting the basin with a loud bang. Eating watermelon does not prevent spitting melon seeds, which is Qin Wuji's cleverness. The speed at which Kalaw made iced watermelon was far less than Qin Wuji's ability to eat watermelon, and the only way was to eat less or not eat it at all.

Of course, this is not up to Kalaw. Unlike Kalaw, Tuva can always eat one or two pieces when she has nothing to do, and at most two pieces. As long as she eats the watermelon, even if it is symbolic, it is considered to have eaten it, and as the owner, Kalou has fulfilled her duty. Kalou talks to her about what watermelon tastes like and how it is eaten, and how it differs from the Spaniards. Tuva always answered seriously.

It was at this time that Qin Wuji was too busy gnawing melons to speak, so that Kalaw and Tuva could talk a few words. When he was full and ready to speak, we stopped talking. Kalaw got up to clean up the melon skin, Qin Wuji stroked his huge belly, and said in a loud voice: "It's enjoyable!" Enjoyable! ”

Eating watermelon had an unexpected benefit, that is, it could indirectly abort Qin Wuji's conversation. Since he eats a lot, he needs to go to the toilet constantly. Since the scene of the conversation had been moved to the guest room and was relatively far away from the toilet, Qin Wuji could not continue his conversation when he went to the toilet. Even if he is still talking in the toilet, we can pretend not to hear.

Kalaw and Tuva could finally relax, press down the button on the fan, and enjoy it for a while. As soon as Qin Wuji returned to the mat, he immediately fixed the electric fan, his behavior was completely subconscious. Later, he was self-evident about this priority of the electric fan, and he didn't even need to do it himself, as soon as he heard Qin Wuji's footsteps on the return trip, Kalaw immediately reset the electric fan.

It's as if we blow the fan behind his back to steal joy and have something to hide. As a result, there was a certain ambiguous mood between Kalaw and Tuva. We have a lot in common: we eat very little watermelon, we don't have the turn to blow the fan, we have the same unbearable heat, and we have a passive and small audience. We need compassion and support for each other to get on with the days ahead. When Qin Wuji went to the toilet, we talked a lot, and invariably changed the subject. We talk about life, reality and the here and now, which means we talk about summer, the heat and Bangkok first. Kalou told Tuva that such hot weather is rare even in the local area, and it is not seen in a century. In this way, the poor suffer, and Kalaw is an example. Combined with the Thai national conditions, Kalaw depicts a variety of possible ways to escape the heat. Rich and powerful people either go to the seaside and the mountains to spend the summer or live in air-conditioned hotel rooms, and all the major hotels are full for a while. Ordinary citizens gather in well-air-conditioned shopping malls or other public venues, bringing kettles, mats, and small benches to live there. Kalaw talks about the air defense facilities that dot Bangkok's underground, which are now useless but a good place to escape the heat. The government has ordered that it be open to women and children, and that male citizens must present an elderly certificate to enter. A man as old and poor as Kalou seemed to be dead. Tuva chuckled when she saw that Kalaw was amusing.

In fact, Kalou has another way to restrain Qin Wuji - if it is really necessary, it is to talk to him about his relationship with Tuva.

Naturally, when Tuva was not present. When Tuva got up to go to the bathroom, Kalaw asked Qin Wuji how the battle was last night. The latter was stunned for a moment, then interrupted the conversation, and blushed quickly and innocently. He asked Kalou what he meant by that.

"Did you crawl into bed?" Or did Tuva climb onto the mat? ”

Qin Wuji said: "No. Didn't Kalaw say that it would be better for us to sleep together. ”

"Then you mean you didn't do anything!" ”

Qin Wuji nodded in agreement.

Kalaw said: "This Kalaw doesn't understand, didn't you plug in the door and turn off the lights early?" What Kalou means is that since there is nothing to do, there is no need to close the door, and it is always more comfortable to sleep with the door open when the weather is so hot.

In the end, Kalou comforted the other party and said, "It's okay, it's tonight!" Although I didn't do anything yesterday, it was right to close the door and turn off the lights on time. It's not like yesterday the door wasn't closed, but today it's going to be closed, not to mention that today is much hotter than yesterday. It would be too much to start doing it without closing the door. ”

In short, things are still going on, and they are moving for the better, and the key is the last thing - to climb into bed, which no one can replace. Kalaw encouraged Qin Wuji, feeling that everything was in place, and it was time for the final action. Think about it: the two of them have moved into the same room and have developed the habit of closing the door and locking it, and due to the hot weather, Qin Wuji has already stripped himself naked, leaving only an insignificant pair of pants. If he hadn't told Kalou that nothing had happened, Kalou wouldn't have believed it. If he and Tuva already had that kind of thing, it wasn't anything. The problem was that nothing had happened between the two of them, and it was a bit unbelievable that Qin Wuji was still so frank and fearless under this premise. Of course, this is Qin Wuji's consistent style and charm. The toilet is not closed, and only he can expose it in front of Tuva. Therefore, we can't look at Qin Wuji with the eyes of ordinary people, and think that they have done a good thing based on some clues.

On the third day, when the weather was a little cooler, Kalaw suggested that Qin Wuji lead Tuwa out for a walk, and he readily agreed, which was a bit of a surprise to Kalou. Perhaps the two days (not counting the afternoon of their arrival) had made Qin Wuji feel tired.

It's good to go out for a walk, get some fresh air, and say anything. Their destination was the Mekong River, where the scenery is beautiful, the water is vast, and the temperature is at least two degrees cooler than in the city. After they left, Kalaw cleaned up his room and took the time to sleep under the blowing of the electric fan. The sleep was unusually hard and aching, and after dispelling two grotesque nightmares, he was about to go deep into a dreamless and real sleep, when someone knocked on the door—they had returned. They came back early, just after three o'clock. Considering that they had left from here close to noon, something must have happened to return so quickly. This can be seen from Qin Wuji's face. He didn't say a word, his lips pursed subconsciously, implying inexplicable anger. Tuva's face was not good-looking. They came back, and something happened, but no one explained it to Kalaw. Since neither of them spoke, Kalaw had to babble on and on and on, while saying nothing to the point. Kalou really didn't know what to say.

Kalaw asked Qin Wuji, "Is the Mekong River fun?" ”

He said, "You ask her." ”

So Kalaw asked Tuva, "Is the Mekong fun?" ”

"We didn't play, we sat in the teahouse and drank tea," she said. ”

"Didn't you take a walk around the lake? ”

She said: "Kalaw wanted to take a walk, but Qin Wuji said he couldn't walk. ”

After that, there was nothing more to say. When Qin Wuji opened the sea and the sky, Kalaw felt unbearable, now that his silence is golden, it can't help but be even more difficult for Kalaw to adjust the atmosphere, it is really better to listen to him alone. Fortunately, they missed the meal due to the fuss, so Kalou suggested that dinner be made earlier. So, about an hour after they returned, before five o'clock we went downstairs to dinner. In a small, air-conditioned tavern, the trio sat down and Carlaw ordered some appetizers and beers. After a glass of cold beer was down, Qin Wuji relieved himself. He stopped talking about the prison and the revolution for a few days, and turned to talk about the afternoon trip to the Mekong with Tuva. Naturally, Kalaw was willing to listen. The style of the conversation is also unusual, no longer facing Kalaw, but turning to Tuva. As a bystander, watching them argue is something that Kalaw is happy to accept. Not to mention the air conditioning, cold beer and the energy he has accumulated after a nap, and Kalaw can't help but feel very satisfied. The main point of Qin Wuji's argument with Tuva, at the beginning, Kalou didn't hear the reason, and gradually became aware. It's like a movie that starts in the middle, starts out inexplicably, and then becomes completely understood, and can even pick up on the parts that were missed earlier. It turned out that when they came back, they didn't speak to each other, and they weren't exactly angry, or not mainly angry, but the issues they were arguing about, and they were not interested in other things for a while.

Now that they could finally resume their previous conversation, and were anxious to confide in each other as they had accumulated more work after a long pause, they were inevitably a little incoherent at first. Later, it was normal. For the sake of readability, Kalau should perhaps fill in the gap between Qin Wuji and Tuva on the banks of the Mekong. As Tuva said, they stayed in the teahouse and didn't go anywhere else. The two faced each other and had to talk. Since Kalaw was not present, Qin Wuji avoided getting into major and deep topics, and he suddenly talked about his love for Tuwa through the smooth table top and exquisite tea set. Naturally, Qin Wuji's talk has a premise, and this premise is that Tuwa also loves herself, but she has no chance to break it. Now he is just helping her, telling the other party that her affection is well-founded and will not become platonic unrequited love. Following this line of thought, Qin Wuji believes that no more time should be wasted.

What he meant was that they should go to the physical plane as soon as possible, that is, what they should be. Since time is running out, there are still a lot of things to do after this step is completed, such as getting married and assisting Qin Wuji to go abroad (marriage is a prerequisite for it). Qin Wuji vomited quickly, and he could imagine how impassioned he was. Unexpectedly, Tuwa smiled and said in very standard modern Chinese: "You misunderstood! ”

It took a long time for Qin Wuji to come to his senses, and he asked Tuva solemnly: "Do you understand yourself?" ”

"I know myself," Tuva said. ”

Qin Wuji said: "I don't think you know yourself at all! ”

What he meant was that she loved him, and she didn't know this, and the person who understood this was him Qin Wuji. Of course, this is something that cannot be proved for a while, and it will take time and time. But—or that sentence—time is running out, if Tuva doesn't understand her feelings, then she can only put it into her humility, at least she should believe in authority, and this authority is Qin Wuji. In other words, if Qin Wuji felt that she loved him, even if Tuwa didn't think so, he should believe so. It's a pity that not only does she not feel in love with Qin Wuji, but even his authority has to be denied. Tuva is so self-righteous! Qin Wuji changed the subject again and began to accuse Tuva of being as narrow-minded as a woman (as if she was not a woman). Even if she is indeed a woman, like all mediocre women, she cannot understand the righteousness and indulge too much in her own small heart. Qin Wuji means: Even if Tuwa can't feel his true love and doesn't believe in his authority, he should judge the situation and understand what kind of person he is, so as to help him achieve great things. In this way, she is no longer ordinary. "Love is secondary in the final analysis, and nothing compared to the responsibility of being a human being and self-fulfillment." Qin Wuji said. Tuva, naturally, could not agree with him. In the face of such a dull and vulgar woman, Qin Wuji really had nothing to say.

At the dinner table at this moment, Qin Wuji repeated the old words, but he no longer had hope for Tuwa. He tried to prove that he was not angry, and if Tuva felt that she had been violated, it was her own fault. Carlou has always avoided intervening in such conversations, which he considers to be purely a private matter between the two men. But Qin Wuji didn't intend to let Kalou go, and insisted that Kalou express his opinion on their dispute, which really made Kalao difficult! It is several times harder to endure his bombastic talk or the scraping of his stomach when he is silent. Naturally, Kalou is not a man without his own opinion on the issue of love.

As Qin Wuji said when he inspired Kalou to speak: "He has been in love many times, and recently fell out of love, so he must have insight on the issue of love." The more this happened, the more difficult it was for Kalaw to speak, but the situation forced him to say a few words. Although Kalou was greatly dissatisfied with Qin Wuji's coercion, his situation was really pitiful, and with the friendship between us for many years, how could the differences of opinion be revealed in front of an outsider? What's more, this is a foreign woman, and Kalaw is not related to her, so Kalou can only stand on the opposite side of Tuva and has no other choice. But as far as the problem itself is concerned, Kalaw is in favor of the latter, and Tuva's expression is so touching when expressing his opinion, it is really unbearable to join forces with Qin Wuji to oppress a woman, Kalou. So Calaw pondered it for a long time, and finally said, "You both have a point. Then he said no more.

Qin Wuji was greatly excited, thinking that he had the support of Kalaw. He said: "Well, what kind of love haven't we experienced? Three days of love or thirty years of love ......"

"Three days of love? I really can't understand it. Tuva said, leaving Kalou deeply ashamed. In fact, Kalaw, like Tuva, is difficult to understand about the love of the three days, but Qin Wuji uses the word "we", so that Kalaw can't get rid of it. "Qin Wuji uses a literary term, which means that love at first sight still exists," Kalaw explains. ”

Tuva said: "Then I understand. ”

Qin Wuji said: "It's good to understand." Don't talk about three days of love, even three hours of love is not a problem! ”

At this moment, the issue that Qin Wuji wanted to argue had changed, and he no longer cared about his substantive relationship with Tuwa and its possible development. What he cares about is the image in Tuva's mind, does the other party regard him as a loser on the side of a woman?

Qin Wuji tried to prove that this was not the case. He talks a lot about his romantic history and the associations of the girls, and thus completely abandons the theme of revolution and returns to the concrete emotional setbacks or brilliance of being a person. Of course, there is only brilliance in Qin Wuji's mouth, and Tuva is his only setback (if he is willing to admit it). Qin Wuji was anxious to show that he was a veteran of the love scene, and finally he concluded: "What kind of woman has Kalaw not dated before? Spanish women are the most old-fashioned and least aware of life. It seems that this nation is very problematic and can only produce such a guy as Hitler, who is said to be a yin and yang man. Spain is a two-tailed country! ”

It seems that Qin Wuji has messed up and has become completely out of words. Fortunately, Tuva is gentle by nature and doesn't care much about his unreasonableness.

Not only did she forgive Qin Wuji, but she also saw that he was so out of shape precisely because of herself. Tuva softened her heart and comforted the other party by saying that she had no prejudice against Thai people, and in fact her current boyfriend was Thai. She already has a boyfriend, which is a new situation. Qin Wuji accused Tuva and said, "Then why did you still agree to come out with Kalaw?"

Isn't it ridiculous? Avoiding his question, Tuva went on to point out that her boyfriend also writes novels, implying that she is not uninterested in Thai writers, but even the opposite. Qin Wuji asked with the vigilance unique to an industry insider:

"Who is it?" Tuva reported a typical Thai name, not only Qin Wuji, but also Kalaw had not heard of it. "Nobody!" Qin Wuji summed it up in a word. Tuva was reluctant, and in order to get close to us, she said that a contemporary writer that her boyfriend liked was very famous, and we must have heard of it. The person she said was called Lin Ziming, and we naturally knew it. Tuwa couldn't help but be a little happy, but she didn't expect Qin Wuji to sneer: "Lin Ziming? Aren't people who like him stupid! Although he had reason to say so, Tuva was innocent. Qin Wuji grabbed a little and said, "Look, he likes Lin Ziming, you can see what kind of person he is!" He took pity on Tuva with great reason, and said to her, "Oh, you have been deceived! Qin Wuji's logic is like this: Lin Ziming is already such an unbearable writer, and people who like him must be very low-level and interesting. Tuva falls in love with an unknown person who likes Lin Ziming (not Lin Ziming himself) only proves how inferior she is. Such an inferior woman does not deserve his love at all, and naturally does not appreciate and fall in love with "us". Qin Wuji used the word "we" again to emphasize his own strength and general righteous indignation. In the ensuing conversation, he had nothing to say except to attack Lin Ziming and Lin Ziming's admirers. As an admirer of Lin Ziming, Tuva is degraded to the point of almost nothingness, not only is she not worthy of falling in love with "us", nor is she worthy of talking about literature with us, or even the conversation itself, let alone eating at a table and sleeping in a room. The reason for the above situation is that we do not know the truth. Tuva is like a spy who has been hidden for many days, and once it is revealed. "I see!"

Qin Wuji said that everything that happened was then fully and fully explained.

After that, he ignored Tuva, as if the latter's boyfriend, the writer he admired, had defiled him and hurt him. Qin Wuji buried his head in eating with grievances and resentment, and finally he declared Tuwa persona non grata in the tone of a government spokesman, telling her to leave immediately and return to Beijing. As for himself, "I have two days to stay, and Kalaw and I have a lot of important things to discuss." Even Tuva didn't expect the problem to be with a person named Lin Ziming, she hadn't even read his book (although her boyfriend tried his best to recommend it, it didn't start due to the problem of Chinese proficiency), although she explained it for a long time, in order to show her remorse, Qin Wuji still didn't intend to forgive him. As the master, Kalaw shouldn't have completely obeyed Qin Wuji, but considering his mood at the moment and the rare friendship between us, this was the only way. Tuva didn't even go upstairs to pick up her luggage, and Kalou was kind enough to do it for her (what else could Kalou do for her?). Although Kalou was sweating profusely as he walked up and down the stairs in such a hot weather, he was still deeply disturbed in his conscience. Forced by Qin Wuji, Kalau can only do this. Tuva didn't go upstairs, and even ate only half of her meal, and left immediately. Qin Wuji sat still, and Kalaw sent Tuwa out of the store with mixed feelings. We walked more than 300 meters to the nearest bus stop, where the tram will take Tuva to the airport, where she will take her next flight back to Beijing. We said goodbye at the bus station, and we probably never had the chance to see each other again in our lives. Reluctantly, Kalaui waved his arms and said to Tuva, "Goodbye! Have a nice trip! Kalaw didn't drop her off at the airport because he was worried about Qin Wuji in the small restaurant. When Kalau braved the scorching sun to return to the restaurant, Qin Wuji was still eating the leftovers of the soup, and he had almost eaten it, and all the plates had bottomed out. Even the leftovers that Tuva didn't have time to eat were pulled out by him.

"Are you gone?" Qin Wuji asked Kalaw.

"Gone." Kalou said.

"Just go, this guy! Sorry to bother you. He said.

"It's okay, it's a trivial matter." Kalou said.

The rest of the conversation was more relaxed and natural, they were all their own people, and there was no sense of urgency to complete the task.

Qin Wuji asked Kalou if he had misjudged? If Tuva doesn't want to have a hand with him, why come to Bangkok with him?

Kalaw told Qin Wuji that it was entirely possible that they were supposed to be, but the problem was that he didn't use the right methods. Qin Wuji's language system is too developed, and he believes too much in the charm and persuasiveness of his language. And the woman — a whether Thai woman or a Spanish woman, is first and foremost a physical animal. In that case, words are not needed, action is the most important. What Kalaw meant was that since they were already sleeping in the same room, Qin Wuji should climb into bed, maybe that would be done.

There is no need to make a sudden verbal request without warning beforehand, which is obviously unreasonable, and gives the woman time to think, gain and lose. What should be done is the opposite, and it will be done before the other party reacts. As Qin Wuji said, if Tuva didn't have a little preparation, it would be completely impossible to travel with a man. She must have been prepared, she was looking forward to something, hoping that something unexpected would happen. But she waited in vain for two nights, but Qin Wuji, who was close to the hurricane, was indifferent. She must have waited for something, and her heart fluctuated on the plank bed. And the accident she was hoping for was actually expected, and if Qin Wuji made a move, it wouldn't seem abrupt at all. Actually, there is no accident that really surprises Tuva! Two days later, she calmed down a little, and regarded Qin Wuji as a Thai-style gentleman who sat on his back, but she didn't expect that on the beautiful banks of the Mekong River, he really surprised her when he made a request that he hadn't made in a dark room, and it was even more difficult to accept than Qin Wuji climbing into bed (hypothetical). The reason why he rejected Qin Wuji's courtship was because he put rational thinking. Second, it was also out of revenge - first, who made him unresponsive for two nights in a row? When Tuwa was waiting for him, and she didn't think about it anymore, Qin Wuji took the liberty to promise him, it was not so cheap! What Kalaw means is that if you understand the psychology of women, there is no need to make a big fuss, in fact, there is a chance, because then they have to sleep in the same room. Now that the day has been picked out (the most difficult stage has passed), you can make bold moves at night, but let's see how long Tuva can hold out! It's a pity that this is all after the fact, Tuva has already let Qin Wuji drive away forever. Hearing Kalaw say this, Qin Wuji nodded in admiration, and he blamed Kalaw for not reminding him earlier. Kalou replied that there was no chance, so he wouldn't tell the reason in front of Tuva, right? Qin Wuji suddenly looked at his watch nervously and asked if it was too late for Kalaw to go to the airport now? He meant to chase Tuva back. Kalou naturally didn't want to be tired anymore, so he said to him: "The above is just a rational analysis, in principle, if Tuva doesn't leave, you still have a show." But the matter has come to this point, and if you chase her back, this bend will be too big, and the difficulty will only increase, and there is no guarantee whether you can really succeed Kalou. Seeing that Kalaw said this, Qin Wuji no longer insisted. He shifted gears and said he didn't really care. "Isn't it the admirer of Lin Ziming's admirers? It's her honor to her, it's her loss to not succeed, and we don't suffer. Qin Wuji said. It couldn't be better if he could think so.

Qin Wuji confessed to Kalaw: His relationship with women is always like this, and it is not difficult to gain their adoration, but it is another thing to sleep with them. Qin Wuji was teaching at a university in front of the Academy, and there was no shortage of beautiful girls around, some of whom exchanged eyebrows with him during class, and some who took the initiative to talk to him. He always managed to lure it to his dormitory smoothly, and every time he talked so passionately that he missed the closing time of the girls' building. The teacher and student talked all night, until the dawn appeared, and the other party went out with a blue face. Naturally, talking was not Qin Wuji's purpose, nor was it theirs. But every time it was just a conversation, Qin Wuji didn't get anything else. His question is: how can you "come down all at once" from the height of the conversation? They talk about life, literature, social reality, or ultimate care, and the other's eyes do not blink, full of awe and concern, and they are deeply impressed by his metaphysics.

The question is simply how to get it down? How do you transition, transition, and mutate? He talks and thinks about these things at the same time, often with two minds. Qin Wuji was deeply intoxicated by his extraordinary intelligence, until he turned those red youthful little faces into blue-gray, and after that, they never came again. Qin Wuji didn't understand what was going on with others, it seemed that it was very simple to descend, or that they could rise and fall freely, maybe they hadn't risen at all?

He said sadly: "It seems that Kalou will never learn!" He then explained: "Those who can descend may be inferior by nature, and they will be the same in other things." "Kalaw was about to comfort Qin Wuji, he had already stretched out and began to recount the various bad deeds of a guy who could come down.

The man Qin Wuji mentioned was Jin Guo, a university teacher and writer, who was arrested and hospitalized at the same time for the same experience as Qin Wuji. A year later, both were released at the same time. In other words, they are both fellow residents, colleagues (working in the same department), and peers (both write novels). It stands to reason that the relationship between the two should be extraordinarily close, and Qin Wuji also thought so at the beginning. But although they suffered the same amount, their experiences were different.

As mentioned above, during the Qin Wuji Academy, it was rumored that he was a coward, but public opinion was obviously tolerant of Jin Guo, not only was there no rumor about him defecting, but on the contrary, he was praised by the literary world as a hero who would rather bend. Jin Guo and Qin Wuji's life in the courtyard are closely linked by people, and they are often compared to each other, but the main points of the discussion are far from the same. Some people say that when it comes to Jin Guo, Qin Wuji will inevitably be involved, and vice versa. Their inseparability and mutual reflection add tension to everyone's conversation, and it also seems more real and credible. It seems that Jin Guo and Qin Wuji are locked up in the same prison, or even in the same cell, facing the same hospital car or cell boss. However, this was not the case, and at this moment Qin Wuji gave the necessary clarification. What he doesn't understand is: why are two prisoners held separately facing their own circumstances, one said to be a hero and the other a spurned bear? He may be able to understand a certain literary requirement: the hero and the bear must be one and the other, and there is no intermediate state. What he can't understand is: why did Kim Guo become a hero instead of him? Or why is he, and not Kim Guo, a bear? He also suffered so much and was also imprisoned for a year, why was he discredited and his dignity lost instead of Jin Guo? Why did it be Jin Guo who took advantage of the scenery instead of him, and was greatly compensated with honor and material? Faced with this mystery of survival, Qin Wuji was puzzled. Carlou didn't know how to comfort his friends except to put it down to luck.

"It's just a coincidence, it's a matter of chance, the problem is the mediocrity, they need heroes and bears, that's what it's all about. I need a hero, I think I represent myself, I think I can be like a hero in the face of trials. The bears need to think that they are not like this, so they have invented an object to despise, to feel their own sublime in the illusion. Naturally, Kalaw's philosophical remarks were not enough to calm Qin Wuji's excitement, and he kept asking, "Why is it Kalaw and not him?" Why him and not Kalaw? Obviously, his thoughts were focused on Jin Guo, and he had no time to think about anything else. No one else has ever sat in a prison, but he has sat in a prison, and he will not be unaware of the actual feelings when he is in it, and he will not be unaware of the actual environment and possible actions of the prison. Why did he know this and not clarify it? Why not refute the rumors? On the contrary, to take advantage of rumors? The only explanation is that the rumor itself was created by him for underhanded purposes. Kalaw has no grievances with him, why should he be so vicious and unjust, trapped in such a passive situation? Although Qin Wuji couldn't help but exaggerate, from the actual effect, a year of life in the courtyard did put him in a difficult situation and gained nothing. And Jin Guo was gilded because of this, and even ascended to the sky in one step.

The latter became legendary heroes.

"I don't care about any of that." Qin Wuji said. Jin Guo Jingran also won the heart of a French girl, married her and went abroad. That's where the real unforgivable comes in. I think that at the beginning, when they were first discharged from the hospital, they ignored the outside world's discussions, and formed confidants and friends because of the feelings of the residents (their relationship before the hospital was average), and they came and went quite frequently. Both of them have the same understanding: they can't stay in China because of prison life. There is a common goal: to go abroad, to seek political asylum. A common way and path: to meet and marry kind-hearted foreign girls who don't know anything about Thailand. The two cheered each other on, looked forward to a bright future that was clearly visible, and agreed to provide each other with opportunities and introduce foreign girlfriends who were suitable for each other. It wasn't until a big Jin Guo went away and flew high - with his French bride that Qin Wuji came back to his senses. The French girl was first met by Qin Wuji, and he introduced Jin Guo to him. And Jin Guo has never introduced him to any foreign women, although he (Jin Guo) is no less than the other party in this regard. Jin Guo knew only more women (both Chinese and foreign) than Qin Wuji.

How could Kalou comfort his friend? At this moment, he was in the rage of being betrayed by his friends, and the two short-sighted fish eyes were almost full of tears. He was betrayed by his friends, but people thought he had betrayed the revolution, so what right did such a person have to talk about betrayal? If Kalou attributed Qin Wuji's setback to a woman, would he agree? If Kalou thinks that this is just a sign that he is relatively incompetent when it comes to women, can his frustration be alleviated?

Or is it more serious? Kalou said to Qin Wuji: That Jin Guo himself also knows a thing or two, he is very romantic and likable to women in front of the hospital, if he brings a girl back to the dormitory, he will never talk to the other party about dawn. These facts cannot be left unattended. Kalou hinted that Jin Guo's marriage to a French girl was due to the man's charm, and not for the purpose of persecuting him, as Qin Wuji said. Of course, if it's a Spanish girl, it's hard to say. As Qin Wuji said, the Spaniards are more old-fashioned, while the French have always been romantic. These factors are not unworthy of consideration. Kalaw's intention was to deflect Qin Wuji away from the mood of gain and loss, and to think about other possibilities and factors that could be easily ignored, rather than focusing on sensational things such as betrayal and betrayal, which he himself suffered greatly from similar problems. Kalou is obviously avoiding the important and the light, or avoiding the light, the key is to see what Qin Wuji's sensitivity is. Is it betrayal? Or is it incompetence on the part of women? If he cares about both, it's over. Qin Wuji may think in self-pity: he was betrayed by friends of the same race and sex, and at the same time, he was not loved by the opposite sex of the same race and different races, and he was not only betrayed by others, but also had to bear the notoriety of betraying others. Looking at his expression at the moment, it seems that the sensitive point is fluctuating, and the passion and generosity of the self-Callough defense can only mean that he has broken the jar. He tried to take all the unfavorable conclusions for himself. If Qin Wuji really wanted to do this and stick to it, it would be incorrigible. To stop him from doing so extreme and destructive, let's talk about Tuva. Turning to an analysis of specific failures might be an effective approach.

So we talked about Tuva again, about their trip to Bangkok. After such a long interval, Qin Wuji's statement changed again. He refused to admit that there was anything wrong with his approach, and the key was that there was no enthusiasm. The union with Tuva was not actually his idea, according to Qin Wuji, he was just carrying out "a collective conspiracy".

After being discharged from the hospital, he apparently could not stay in the country anymore - for well-known reasons. After all, the friends who knew and sympathized with him were in the minority, and they were unable to defend him, so they just threw out a clever plan at the right time: marry the woman named Tuwa and go abroad. They even put everything in order, made plans and specific schedules, and established the place where the implementation would take place - where they would live in Bangkok. Because Kalaw has a vacant house, he recently broke up with his girlfriend and lives alone. Kalou was Qin Wuji's close friend, and there was plenty of room for him to flex his muscles. In his own city (Beijing), Qin Wuji still lives in a collective dormitory. The friends who sympathized with him had small families, and their houses were not sufficient. Moreover, the locals have a lot of eyes, and it is extremely inconvenient to move, so it is difficult to ensure that there will be no extraneous branches. Such thoughtful consideration was not based on Qin Wuji's personal wisdom, or even the assertion of a specific friend, but a collective decision.

First, the feelings of the friends were inconvenient, and second, in the final analysis, this matter was for Qin Wuji, so the latter could not back down, and had no choice but to implement the resolution. In other words, although this incident happened to Qin Wuji, he was essentially an outsider, although he felt that he had nothing to do with himself in terms of specific operations and mood. Qin Wuji is not only an outsider, a bystander, but also an indifferent tool. It would be a different matter if he really fell in love with Tuva, he would have had enough enthusiasm and the outcome would have been completely different. As a tool, Qin Wuji has done his best, and although he has not completed the task, he has a clear conscience. In a sense, he was once again betrayed by someone else. The difference is that this time it was not the literary world or Jin Guo who betrayed him, but the inexplicable collective that cared for and sympathized with him. Although their motives are pure, they do not take into account his mood, feelings, personality and personality, and do not take into account his feelings.

In this sense they forced him, wronged him, betrayed him, and betrayed him. "What do you think?" Qin Wuji pulled himself together again, and longed for Kalou's approval.

So let's never worry about others, especially for Qin Wuji. Even if they are in a desperate situation, under pressure, and seem to have no way out, they have to admit their defeats, but they can always stand up on their own strength and wisdom. This is true on women's issues, but it is also true on other issues. We need not be frightened by them, and trying to show mercy with the tenderness of the philistines is an insult to them and to our own indiscretion. A determined person is a person made of special materials, immeasurable by us, the impoverished of ordinary beings, spirits and wills.