I regret that my bowels are blue!

I was too ashamed to look up!

I cried so much that it was dark!

If I had been given another chance, I wouldn't have been stupid enough to care about any other things. I don't know if at that time, my head was caught in the door or what happened, so I had to hold Wanmei and have another one! In hindsight, if Mrs. Shen had been alive, she would not have been as rigid as me.

But what's the use of feeling guilty? My dear sister Wan will never be able to come back to life again!

The love that I had finally gotten was extinguished by my stupidity. I was depressed for a long time, borrowing alcohol every day to kill my sorrows, and I was so drunk that I couldn't wake up. Therefore, I had to send Xiao Ling'er to the palace and ask Senior Brother and Her Majesty the Empress to take care of her. I'm afraid, one day I suddenly got drunk and died suddenly, so what should I do if Xiao Ling'er doesn't explain well?

Her Majesty the Empress is really a tolerant and benevolent person, she didn't care about Wanmei's attitude towards her in the past, and took in Xiao Ling'er without thinking, instead of treating her as her own and cultivating her carefully.

She and her senior brother not only took in Xiao Ling'er, but also forced me to quit drinking, persuaded me and encouraged me to return to the court and do things for the court. The position of prime minister is always vacant for me.

My heart was filled with emotion.

I'm ashamed of myself in front of them! What shall I compare with them? Whether it is achievement or love, it is not as pure as people's single-minded struggle and single-minded dedication.

So, why should I complain? On what basis do you blame yourself and remorse? Why should you drink to kill your sorrows?

Perhaps, Wanmei left so early, it was everything that had been arranged in fate, and it was nothing to do with people at all. I suddenly believed that if it wasn't for the joy again, she would have left because of something else.

I suddenly thought about it, and decided to quit drinking and return to the court. Only when I return to the court, be loyal to the court, and do things for the people, will I feel that I have not been in vain in this life, and can I repay the kindness of my senior brother and Her Majesty the Empress.

As for Wanmei, that sadness is heavy in my heart, don't touch it easily.

From then on, I only had work in my eyes, only Xiao Ling'er.

Xiao Ling'er received the same education as the crown prince, and regardless of academic martial arts, she naturally improved by leaps and bounds. And although I knew that her daily study was already very heavy, when I had free time, I still pulled her, explained to her some things that a prime minister should do, and even let her participate in specific affairs.

I don't know why I'm doing this, it's a little bit of a divine sutra, a little obsessive-compulsive, but it's stubborn to do it. I always feel that it is not wrong to let Xiao Ling'er get more hands on some practical skills, and when I am no longer alive in the future, and follow the ancestors, maybe she can also help Her Majesty the Empress.

Xiao Ling'er is good, she doesn't shout tired, she doesn't shout bitterness, she studies silently. She is like a sponge, no matter how much knowledge pours into her, she can tirelessly learn and absorb it.

And this is also the most endearing thing about her. Her Majesty loved her in every way, and it was justified.

I want to do my best to teach this child to be smarter, more lovable, and more outstanding. Because I always had a hunch ,—— I wasn't going to live long.

Yes, I won't be with this child for long. When she grows up, I will leave and go to my sister.

On that day, I would leave with a smile and go to an appointment that was long overdue......