After receiving the dew, the rain, and a little bit of sunshine, the children grew up with the rice in the field. Feng Weicong and Feng Chunyu went to high school in Jiuzhou No. 1 Middle School in the county, and Feng Tianjun went to junior high school in the town. But now, the money Feng Jinggu got in his hand was only about two hundred yuan, which was not enough for one person's tuition.

Feng Jinggu and Aunt Feng hid in the stove house to discuss the tuition fee. Aunt Feng said that Wei Cong and Feng Chunyu are fast-ripening fruits, and they can be achieved with more effort. Tianjun is still young, otherwise, let Tianjun come back and help the family herd cattle. Feng Jinggu smacked his cigarette and glanced at Aunt Feng angrily, this was a bit terrifying. In the past, he listened to Aunt Feng's words and did that wrong thing, the problem was not solved, but he lost Feng Tianxiang in vain. If this continues, the direction of the family seems to be getting farther and farther away from his dream. She is a person, whether she is a good person or a person, she is not confused in small things, but in major things, she will be confused. The hair is long, the knowledge is short, and you have to make your own decisions about big things. After Feng Tianxiang left home, Feng Jinggu learned a lesson, secretly gritted his teeth and held on, and the three of them had a bowl of water flat, and none of them fell. He spat on the ground and said, "Offer!"

Aunt Feng didn't see Feng Jinggu's ugly face, she said, offer, what to offer? Tianjun is small, his brain is more flexible, let him be the second farmer, plant this acre and two points of land at home, and he will not lose anywhere, build a house for him, buy a cow, marry a daughter-in-law, and his life will not be worse than us in the future.

Feng Jinggu's eyes bulged out, it seemed that he was really angry to the extreme. Feng Jinggu's voice suddenly became loud, hey! Aunt Feng saw Feng Jinggu's expression clearly, and knew that he was opposed, she said, Oh, Jinggu, I understand what you mean. Also, or Tianjun will say that we are biased...... We are blind, we have suffered all our lives, people have given us a piece of land, we have guarded most of our lives, but we can't even get out of the edge, we can't even see the end......

Aunt Feng suddenly thought of Feng Tianxiang, her eyes couldn't control the dew, big drops fell down, and she cried, it had been so long, and she didn't know where Feng Tianxiang was.

Speaking of Feng Tianxiang, Feng Jinggu's eyes were violent, his face was stiff, the color of the kitchen knife was rusty, the smoke pot in his hand was digging the fire pond, Aunt Feng hurriedly wiped the dew in her eyes and stopped crying.

After a while, Aunt Feng said again, but what can I do if I have to take out so much money at once?

Feng Jinggu pointed to the corner of the wall. Aunt Feng saw that in the snow, there were still ten grass mounds that Feng Jinggu had beaten. She calculated that the grass mound could be sold for twenty yuan for two yuan each. The pile of grain grass behind the eaves may still have two catties, and one catty and five cents can be sold for ten yuan. The bunch of chili peppers under the eaves of the corridor can be sold for twenty yuan. It's only fifty dollars.

Aunt Feng sighed and said, but kissing her mouth through the hat is still far away!

Feng Jinggu looked at Aunt Feng's head, the hair was short and scattered, like a wild boar, funny and pitiful.

Aunt Feng touched her head and said, My hair was sold last day, eight yuan. Feng Jinggu said, pigs.

Aunt Feng said that the pig in the barn has just grown a skeleton, and now it will not be sold for a maximum of 100 yuan, which is not cost-effective, and in another three months, the chaff will be beaten down, and some bud grain skin will be added to urge the fat, and it will be sold for more than 200 yuan.

Feng Jinggu looked through the threshold and looked at the cow tethered under the tree outside the door. The cow was bought by Feng Jinggu for the production team through gritted teeth when the land was contracted to the household.

Aunt Feng said, you are going to sell that cow! With so many fields at home, who will plough them? Who's going to rake? We are a small farmer, a cow, half a child! Find other people's cattle, sky-high prices!

After smoking a bag of cigarettes, Feng Jinggu put the cigarette pouch away and said, borrow. And he went out. Aunt Feng stood up, leaned against the door, looked at the back of Feng Jinggu who disappeared in an instant, and sighed.

In this slap-sized village, everyone has been borrowing money from each other for the sake of their children's education in recent years. When we met, what I was afraid of was to read, and what I was afraid of was to borrow money. Every household in the village, the Feng family has borrowed at least ten times, borrowed in the spring, borrowed again in the autumn, borrowed a year ago, and borrowed again after the year. Even if I borrowed it last time and didn't pay it back, I borrowed it again this time. The people in the village looked like they were here to borrow money, so they were afraid, they could dodge if they could, and they couldn't hide, so they spoke first as soon as they met: Uncle Feng, he was looking for you to borrow some money, so you came......

What else can I say! I can't say anything, on the contrary, I have to repeatedly explain that I am in trouble now, and I really have no money to borrow. After a long time, they separated. The matter of borrowing money will not be mentioned again, and it seems that this trick is quite effective.

In fact, the Feng family has money. A year after Feng Tianxiang went out, a mailing payment suddenly came from home: 800 yuan. Eight hundred yuan is a lot of money, and eight hundred yuan is equal to the net income of a cow, three pigs, three acres of rice fields, or the value of an adobe house. The postman in the town was afraid of running away, and the letters in the village were brought back by Wan Lizhi or Zhao Chenggui. This time it was brought by Wan Lizhi. Wan Lizhi brought it, but he didn't send it himself, he was too lazy to deal with the Feng family, he asked his mother-in-law to send it. Aunt Wan kicked the door of the Feng family lightly and heavily outside the courtyard gate. Aunt Feng heard the door ringing abnormally, the dog barking abnormally, and was about to get angry, when she opened the door and saw that it was Aunt Wan, she had to smile on her face, and said: Auntie, I thought it was a dead doll who was not sensible, and she wouldn't even be polite when she entered the door of another house!

Aunt Wan said, I thought there was no one in your house, and if you don't open the door, the old lady will return it to the post office!

When Aunt Feng heard this, she hurriedly asked, what is it? Aunt Wan raised the green postal remittance slip in her hand, but she didn't give it to her, saying, do you have relatives in Shenzhen? Aunt Feng said, no, no, where can we afford to climb high, how can we have relatives in the city! Aunt Wan said, no friends? Aunt Feng still didn't think about it, and said, no, no. Aunt Wan said, this is strange, you have a sum of money from your family, which was sent from Shenzhen. Aunt Feng was confused and said, our family, I'm afraid it was sent by mistake, right? Feng Weicong came out, snatched it from Aunt Wan's hand, looked at it, and said, It was sent to our family, and it was my father's name.

Aunt Wan said, you little peer, you move your hands and feet, put your hands early [19]? It's your family, you can tell who sent it?

Feng Weicong couldn't speak. Aunt Wan said, I'll help your family think about it, it's Feng Tianxiang who dares to love. She has been running out for so long, it is impossible for her to have a formal job, she will definitely not be able to repair the house, and it is impossible to carry a sack as a porter, if she is doing the kind of business that someone will come to find in the house, the income will definitely be there!

Aunt Feng said, he Aunt Wan, don't talk nonsense! Aunt Wan snatched the remittance slip again and said, if not, then I will take it back! Feng Weicong was anxious, stretched out his hand to grab it, and said, who sent it has nothing to do with you, and you have no right to ask. It clearly says that the payee is my father, if you don't give it, you won't be able to eat! That's against the law!

Look at your son, it's like he's eating a gun! Aunt Wan turned back to Aunt Feng and said, if someone in the village enters the bend hall [20], it will be a shame for the ancestors! After speaking, he threw the crumpled remittance slip in his hand to the ground and swayed away.

Every word of Aunt Wan is aggressive[21], and she is scolding. Aunt Feng went to the post office to ask, but she still couldn't figure out who the remitter was. There was no place to retreat, there was no address or name on it, so she took it out and stored it in the credit union. She wants to figure it out, if it was sent by Feng Tianxiang, it depends on where the money comes from, and if it is dirty, she won't use it. If you come from the opposite side, of course, everyone is happy, and now is the time to use the money! If someone sent it by mistake, it should be returned. The Feng family is poor, but the bones are still hard, and things that don't belong to their own family won't be messed with. After so many years, no one dares to say a bad word about the Feng family in terms of money.

She didn't touch a cent of the money. Half a year later, another remittance came, this time more than last time, 2,000 yuan. Since then, remittances have been sent, and now there are more than 10,000 yuan. The person who sent the money still did not leave a name, and every time it was sent in a different place, without leaving a name, or a name that had never been heard of, and the names used for remittance were Qian Yingfen, Zhang Lan, Wei Kaiying, Huang Xiu...... The money has been sent many times, and people suspect that the money is coming from the wrong source. People in the village often frown and gossip behind their backs. What kind of person is Feng Jinggu, his eyes are so big, he asks Aunt Feng to find a way to return the money at home, and he blows his beard and stares at him outside, and whoever says a word raises his hammer-like strong fist and wants to beat someone. But Aunt Feng had no way at all, she was forced by Feng Jinggu to have dewy in her eyes, but there was no way to return it. Later, whenever they heard that their family had sent money, the family was so nervous that it was as if the house was on fire and there was a flash flood. The money, even more so I don't want to touch it.

Now, Feng Jinggu has run a lot of houses, smoked a pack of paper cigarettes, said two baskets of good words, and the time wore out in the middle of the night, and there was a big bubble of cold pulp on his mouth, but he didn't borrow a penny. Feng Jinggu turned around the cow stable several times, patted the cow on the back, and went back to the house to sleep.

He had made up his mind.

Feng Weicong hid in the back room and heard his parents discussing money. Mom and Dad are studying for them, so it's not once or twice that they have made money and worried about money. Every time his parents discussed and argued, so that the quarrel that started from it was like a knife cutting at the tip of his heart. The knife was blunt, or there was no mouth at all, and it was drawn back and forth, which made his heart ache terribly. His wounds were getting bigger and deeper, and the blood was flowing more and more. He felt his head burst, the blood in his heart was drying up, and he felt as if he was a burden, holding down his parents so hard that they couldn't breathe and couldn't live a good day. Mom and Dad are in their forties, but they are weathered, their faces are wrinkled, skinny, hunched over, and at a glance, they look like they are sixty next to each other, pitiful.

He didn't go out all afternoon. This home, like a heavily pressed pot on top, is black and black, and you can't see the head.

The hot head slopes westward, and the color of the clouds begins to turn black. He looked at the cow once, touching its horns, its head, its back, its black and white spots. It breathed lightly and heavily, flicking its tail and gently touching him twice with its horns as a sign of affection.

He carried an empty bamboo basket and a sickle in his hand, and went out. Aunt Feng said, Cong'er, it's late, where are you going? Feng Weicong said, I'll cut the grass and ...... Uh, there's a worm on the ear, so let Dad buy some dichlorvos and come back and spray it. Aunt Feng said that she had not heard that there would be insects in the grain in the past few days, and the rice in our village could not be sprayed......

Feng Weicong's face was slightly deformed. He said, Mom, I can't lie to you! Greasy insects, all the ears are covered with black pressure, and there is a harvest when you look at it, do you want to let the insects eat?

Aunt Feng said, dichlorvos is still there, placed under the wooden cabinet, it is a cauliflower worm, if you want to spray your father will spray, don't worry about it. Uh, the medicine is under the wooden cabinet. Feng Weicong said that Hua Guniu is only five years old, and you should not sell it. Aunt Feng said, who sells cattle! What do you care, read a book!

Feng Weicong didn't have the heart to read, so he bowed his head and went out to the field. The rice field in August, the green is yellow, the rice ears are just after the flowers, the chaff begins to fill the grain, the ears are getting heavier, some begin to deviate their heads, the breeze blows, they shake their heads, like a child who endorses a book, remember, it is a little showy, can not be recited, just dodge.

On the ridges, the tender grass grows wildly. A lot of crops, absorb enough nutrients, and work hard to grow again before autumn comes. Feng Weicong sat down on the soft grass ridge, and the fragrance of rice and the smell of various grasses permeated him, entangled him. Feng Weicong took two sharp breaths, he looked at the sky, if there was a road to the sky, if he could go all the way up, what would the other side of the day look like? Can you get there?

He closed his eyes and slept for a while. Ants crawled over his face, insects got into his clothes, itching, unable to sleep, got up, spat in the palm of his hand, picked up the sickle, and began to mow the grass.

Boom, the tender green blades of grass fell one after another under the sharp knife edge.

The sun set quickly, Feng Weicong cut faster, and before the moon arched out of the East Mountain Pass, he cut a full basket of tender and green grass. When he got home, he gave grass to the cow, and the cow gulped it, and the green grass juice came out of the corners of his mouth, and he patted the cow on the back, and his eyes were blurred, and when he blinked, the dew in his eyes could not contain it, and it fell out and rolled over his cheeks.

That night, two men in the Feng family didn't sleep all night. They knew when the night owls would fly, when the dew would begin to fall from the poplar trees to the tiles, and when the stars would come out and retreat.

There was still dew hanging on the leaves, and the sparrows were still too lazy to nest, so Feng Jinggu got up early. When I stepped on the dampness of the ground and came to the door of the door of Wanli Zhi's house, there happened to be a ray of sunlight falling from the top of the mountain in the east, illuminating the trees and corners of the house in the east red. Feng Jinggu thought that this was a good sign, and he had confidence in borrowing money, and when he knocked on the door, he used more force. The door of Wanli Zhijia is wide, thick and strong, and Feng Jinggu participated in it when he was harvesting wood from the mountains a few years ago. At that time, all the male laborers in Huangfang Village went to help Wan Lizhi, and selected the best peach wood from the forest farm thirty miles away to transport it, and Feng Jinggu spent ten days of hard work to make eye pins, carve and carve wood. The peach trees are sturdy, delicate and ruddy, and not easy to rot in water, and the gate should be the best wooden door ever built in the village of Tsuifang.

The door still didn't open, and there was no sound inside. Feng Jinggu used more force and knocked on the door loudly. The yellow dog of Wanjia ran over and barked at him through the crack in the door, his teeth creaking at the door. At this time, the courtyard was very noisy, like rushing to the street, like doing a red and white wedding, like marrying, like celebrating a birthday, and like nothing. When Feng Jinggu heard the dog bite, he stopped moving. The dog bit for a while, and when he saw that there was no movement outside, he did not move. Feng Jinggu listened for a while, and a drop of morning dew on the poplar tree fell into Feng Jinggu's neck. He couldn't help but shudder, stretched out his rough hand and wiped it, only to remember his urgency, and knocked on the door again. He raised not his palm, but his fist, and he didn't want to hit the knocker with his fist, which hurt his hand. The door knocker is cast in copper, the pattern of the tiger, the tiger shrugs its ears, bars its mouth, and stares, as if the people in front of it are borrowing its white rice to repay its coarse chaff, revealing the majesty of wanting to eat people. Feng Jinggu didn't care about it, he simply grabbed the copper ring and slapped it on the door.

One, two, three, four...... The courtyard seemed to be quiet. After the courtyard was quiet, the footsteps of "Dong Dong Dong" came from far to near. The voice was dull and solid, like a clatter. The door opened, and as soon as Feng Jinggu's foot stepped in, he grabbed the collar and lifted it.

The man spoke, and the man was Wan Lizhi.

Wan Lizhi said, what's wrong with you!

Feng Jinggu's mouth cracked, which had been dry all night, and it hurt as soon as he spoke. He said, "I......

Wan Lizhi said, if you have a fart, let it go, you don't know that Lao Tzu has a lot of things! Feng Jinggu said, borrowing ......

Before Feng Jinggu finished speaking, Wan Lizhi's angry eyes bulged, he tightened Feng Jinggu's collar, lifted it up hard, and slammed it, Feng Jinggu couldn't support it, so he fell down, and his butt hit the ground heavily. Feng Jinggu fell, his head still high.

Wan Lizhi said, you still say such a major thing in my family...... Feng Jinggu said, don't ...... It is estimated that Feng Jinggu's mouth is a little wooden, and his speech is not clear, so Wan Lizhi hears the words. Wan Lizhi said, you said three times in the morning that my family is absolutely not, and your dog's home is absolutely not! Feng Jinggu stretched out his hand to block Wan Lizhi's kicking foot, where could he stop it! Wan Lizhi's big-headed flip-top leather shoes slammed into his body. He had no choice but to retract his hands and protect his head tightly.

The head matters, and the head is more important than everything. A good fight.

Dizzy and full of Venus, what a terrible blow. Feng Jinggu didn't know when it stopped. For a long time, he moved his head, opened his eyes, and knew that he had been thrown out of the door. When Wan Lizhi begged his mother-in-law, he Feng Jinggu also carried the bed frame for him. Isn't Wan Lizhi just a third-grade elementary school student, who can write a few words and make a plan? Wan Lizhi was the captain and the staff of the credit union, and his tail became harder and harder, and he also cleaned him up Feng Jinggu. The matter is over, Feng Jinggu doesn't care about anything, but he is too much.

Is it that as soon as your identity changes, you don't recognize people? Isn't it human? Don't you let people live?

A man trembled and came to his aid. It turned out to be Zhao Chenggui. Zhao Chenggui said, Jinggu, you are simple, people are wise early in the morning, and they are worshipping Confucius at home, and you still say that you will never ......

Feng Jinggu knew that it was a misunderstanding, what he said was borrowing, how could it be absolute? But he couldn't say it now, he couldn't speak, he moved his mouth, it hurt so badly that he barely vomited, and his phlegm was full of blood. Is it necessary to make those meaningless explanations again?

Zhao Chenggui said, you go home, when you were beaten, I was chanting the praise of the ancestor to their family, and I couldn't get out.

I didn't get any money borrowed in the village, and the way to borrow money from the credit union was cut off.

Feng Jinggu slowly pushed himself home, dejected. The courtyard was silent, except for two hens clucking and running to eat the grains. Feng Jinggu raised his hand and wanted to push it, but his hand hurt so much that he couldn't do it, so he had to inhale the cold air and put his hand down.

It's too quiet at home. Feng Jinggu called, Wei ——, Cong——。 Wei ——, Cong——。 Feng Jinggu knew that his cry was like a mosquito, but he couldn't scream louder. Aunt Feng had already led Feng Chunyu and Feng Tianjun to the ground, and Feng Jinggu knew this. Looking at Feng Weicong's commonly used farm tools and the rubber shoes he wore in the field, he knew that the puppy was still sleeping. It's early in the morning and still sleeping! Too lazy to burn the snake to eat! Feng Jinggu was angry, endured the pain all over his body, and groped his way up the stairs.

As soon as he was halfway up the wooden stairs, a large smell of pesticides rushed to his nose, and Feng Jinggu shouted: Feng ——!

Feng Weicong drank pesticides, and let him drink half a bottle of dichlorvos. Now the toxicity is starting to kick in. His eyes were round, his mouth was foaming at the mouth, his whole body was trembling, and his whole body was spasming with all his might. Because of the discomfort, he pulled his hair violently, beat his stomach violently, and screamed in a terrible and terrible voice. Feng Jinggu forgot his pain, and while calling his name, he dragged him to the door of the building, made him stomach down, lay him on the ground, put his head low, slapped his back, kept picking his throat, and forced him to vomit. Feng Weicong shouted, Dad, don't save me! Dad, don't save me! You let me die, you let me die!

The ropes of the poor are broken in every detail. Feng Jinggu was very angry, his already swollen face turned blue with anger, raised his stiff hand and slapped Feng Weicong a few times, Feng Jinggu kept picking his throat and squeezing his stomach. didn't toss a few times, Feng Weicong vomited, turned over the river and the sea, and the wind surged, making the building full of foul smell, making people unable to breathe.

Aunt Feng, Feng Tianjun, Feng Chunyu, and many other villagers all came, Feng Tianjun drank hard under Feng Jinggu, cooperated with Zhao Chenggui, and brought a bucket of stinky urine from the toilet and poured it into Feng Weicong's mouth.

The smell was incomparable, and Feng Weicong vomited again. After vomiting several times, Feng Weicong vomited thoroughly, and after vomiting, he didn't move like a dead fish.

Stretching out his hand to try, he still had breath, and seeing that Feng Weicong came to life, Feng Jinggu let out a long breath, snorted long and weakly, and fell, like noodles overnight, without muscles and bones.

Feng Jinggu slept for half a month. These days, he doesn't eat, drink, or say a word, he sleeps with his back turned out, and he doesn't even look at them. The two brothers of the Feng family stayed by his side all day. Feng Weicong knew that he had offended his father, and knew that his father had been beaten up in order to lend him money to study, so he held on to his father's side with his body that had not yet recovered.

Wipe your father's body, but your father doesn't move. Feed porridge to Dad, and Dad doesn't open his mouth. Talk to your father, but your father ignores it. Feng Weicong's eyes drooled with dew. He knelt on the ground with a grunt, choked up and said, Dad, I'm sorry for you! I'm disgraced to you. Feng Jinggu did not move.

Feng Jinggu was heartbroken, Feng Jinggu's heart was like a stone. His heart was alive, soft, alive, moving, fluttering. His heart is moved by hope, by dreams, by a candle in the distance in the dark night, and by the good days of his children. Now, that thing is gone, let my son destroy it. The blood vessels that supply blood to the heart were blocked, and when the river dried up, his heart died, hard, like a fossil, and it looked like a heart, but in fact it was no longer moving, and it had no function of the heart.

Feng Tianjun also knelt down, Feng Tianjun said, Dad, it's not all my brother's fault for this matter, it's my fault.

My brother wants to take medicine and die, the purpose is not to let you sell cattle, and not to let me and Sister Chunyu drop out of school. Feng Tianjun said, Dad, my brother also wrote a suicide note, saying that you and your mother are too hard, the sweat and youth of your life, no matter how much you earn, you can't fill the dry potholes on the road to study, and you can't push over the big stones blocking this road......

Feng Jinggu moved, but was still silent.

Feng Weicong said, Dad, I know your thoughts, your heart is half dead, you are afraid that I will not be reliable in my words. I'll assure you now, if I can't get into college, I won't be the son of the Feng family, and I won't be your bloodline......

Feng Chunyu also knelt down and said, Uncle, I hurt your family, if you still don't forgive Brother Wei Cong, I will go to work, I will leave you like Sister Tianxiang, so as not to cause trouble for you.

Feng Chunyu cried as he spoke. It was about Feng Chunyu's eyes and these words that worked, Feng Jinggu turned his head and coughed, two cloudy tears flowing in the wrinkles. Feng Jinggu struggled to remember, but he was too weak, and after moving twice, it still didn't work, so he had to put his head back on the pillow and close his eyes. Aunt Zhao at the head of the village sent some money, which was a little income she got when she went out to pray to the gods and send ghosts and gods. Left and right, Feng Jinggu still has too little money in his hands. If it is for one person to study, the cost of one semester is still enough. After repeated discussions, the Feng family decided that Feng Chunyu would sign up first, and the other two would find the money. Of course, books have to be read, and if you don't read them, you can't do it, it's just a matter of delaying it for a while.

Feng Chunyu didn't go. Aunt Feng said, Wei Cong didn't do well in the exam this time, what your father and I mean is to let him take a break and go back to study next year...... As soon as he said this, the wooden door banged a few times, and Zhao Chenggui ran in breathlessly. Zhao Chenggui also just came back from the credit union for a loan, and he pulled Aunt Feng to the back room and said, I already have an eyebrow about borrowing money.

Aunt Feng hurriedly asked, how did you borrow it? Zhao Chenggui said, I borrowed from a loan shark, and I lost 50 yuan a month for 1,000 yuan. This man is the man who runs a store in the town, and his money is taken out of the credit union by Wan Lizhi. Aunt Feng said, she lacks morality, and she is still called a person! He is breaking the law, and no one has sued him! Zhao Chenggui said, you can't sue, if you tell him, you won't lend us money.

We pretend not to know about this, and ask Wan Lizhi to vouch for it, won't we get it? Aunt Feng said, the interest rate is so high, how can you afford to pay it? Zhao Chenggui said that there is no way to borrow it first, and we will only borrow it for two months.

After two months, where will you turn a little bit and pay it off? If you don't hurry up, in two days, there may not even be any usury, and the two of you will discuss it. If you want to borrow it, I'll borrow it for you.

Zhao Chenggui said that it was only a year wrong to plant crops, and it was a lifetime of mistakes for children to study. Parents don't pave the way for them, they just fly kites under the table - they can't fly.

Feng Jinggu said, in.