Chapter 1206: Thoughts
After Yang Yunxi talked to Zhu Li, after the anger subsided, he really hesitated.
Ah Shi will grow up sooner or later, that's for sure. So just like what Zhu Li said, sooner or later Ah Shi will know about his relationship with the Gu family, and sooner or later he will also come into contact with the Gu family. also let Ah Shi have a precaution in his heart.
It's just that although she knows that this is right, she can't be ruthless in the end. Every time she saw Ah Shi's eyes as clear as a pool of clear water, she suddenly felt a sense of guilt - let Ah Shi lose such a simple innocence, how could she not be a great sin?
hesitated for a few days, but he didn't expect that on this day, Dun'er suddenly opened his mouth: "The queen mother is worried about the affairs of the ancient family?" ”
Yang Yunxi was slightly stunned by Dun'er's question, and then shook his head: "Even though the Gu family is Ah Shi's foreign family and a meritorious family, what does that have to do with me?" Why should I bother with them? “
"That's because of Ah Shi." Dun'er said firmly, a smile flashed in her eyes, but she was a little envious. However, these are too hidden, so Yang Yunxi has never seen anything.
Yang Yunxi did not refute, it was a tacit acquiescence.
"The queen mother really has nothing to worry about. Ashita ...... It's not like me. He only serves as a mother, you are the mother, and he is pure-minded, and he will not easily give birth to any dislike for you. The only thing I'm afraid of worrying about is that the queen mother doesn't care about him anymore. Dun'er's tone was obviously smiling, but it sounded like it made people feel inexplicably lonely.
Yang Yunxi looked at him in surprise when he heard Dun'er say this. She didn't expect Dun'er to talk about himself so naturally. Or is it this tone, this contrast......
It can be seen that Dun'er himself knows what he was like at that time. And now, he himself thinks that it is unlikable.
After such surprise, then there was distress. She couldn't help asking, "Is this what Ah Shi said personally?" ”
Dun'er smiled, and then said what Yang Yunxi asked him when he was giving birth that day. At the end, he said: "The Gu family will not have good fruits to eat this time, so mother can only rest assured." And I can't say that in the autumn, Lord Gu will drag his family to take office. I don't know when I'll be able to return to the capital. At that time, even if they wanted to contact Ah Shi, they were afraid that they would not have that opportunity. ”
Yang Yunxi heard Dun'er talk about that day, but his heart was a little strange, and finally his heart moved slightly, and he whispered to Dun'er: "But thank you very much." ”
Dun'er was a little uncomfortable, and smiled: "I was ignorant before, and I caused a lot of trouble with the queen mother, and it also affected the queen mother's hands...... Now that I'm older, I naturally share my mother's worries. Besides, Ah Shi has such a simple temperament, as the eldest brother, I always hope that he can be happy. ”
At this time, Yang Yunxi was also a little uncomfortable. But to her ears, Dun'er's words didn't seem like a lie. It's just that it's too polite in the end - speaking of which, this vague separation and estrangement between her and Dun'er is afraid that there will be no way to get rid of it in this life.
Yang Yunxi sighed, glanced at Dun'er, and said softly after a while: "Dun'er, then you say, should I protect Ah Shi for the rest of my life, or should I let him understand these things early?" ”
Dun'er thought seriously for a long time, and finally raised her head and smiled bitterly: "Does the queen mother want to hear the truth?" ”
Yang Yunxi bowed: "Since I asked you, I want to hear the truth." ”
Only then did Dun'er cough and whispered: "The younger you know, the more difficult it is to have other thoughts." When he had an idea of his own, the queen mother would say it, but he was afraid that he would be provoked by others at this time, and Ah Shi would immediately have a different kind of thought. Then he had a backlash, and when the time came, Ah Shi would be easy to be used as a gun. ”
Dun'er said these words, naturally all of which are personal experience. He and Ah Shi's life experience is the most similar, so naturally he can't run.
And what Dun'er said is not unreasonable. If you know it early, you may be ********, and when you are older, you will be provoked.
"If the queen mother doesn't want to say it, it doesn't matter, just guard more tightly in the future." Dun'er smiled slightly, and she didn't know what emotion she was in her eyes, but she said such a thing.
Yang Yunxi shook his head and smiled bitterly: "Looking at Ah Shi like that, I can't say anything." ”
"If the queen mother thinks it's hard to say, otherwise it's okay for me to help the queen mother." Dun'er said such a suggestion, and he was sincere.
Yang Yunxi was slightly stunned, but he was a little moved in an instant. But in the end, he shook his head: "No, I'll come in person." "This kind of thing, maybe for others, must be a harm to Ah Shi. It's better for her to come by herself, maybe Ah Shi can feel better somewhat.
Dun'er didn't know what she was feeling, but sighed lightly: "The queen mother really treats Ah Shi as her own." It's enviable. ”
Yang Yunxi opened his mouth, but he couldn't say a word. If someone else were to say something else, maybe she would have said "in my opinion, you are all average", but she couldn't say such a thing. I always feel that it is too false, and saying it makes people feel sick in their hearts.
Because whether it is her or Dun'er, she must know in her heart that it must be different. The estrangement between the two of them is now irreversible. It would be great to hope that this kind of harmony can be maintained in this life.
Yang Yunxi thought so, maybe Dun'er thought the same in his heart, so the two tacitly changed the topic, and no one mentioned this matter again.
Even this little episode, Yang Yunxi never mentioned it to Zhu Li.
As for how to talk to Ah Shi about this, she pondered carefully for two more days, until this day, after Ah Shi accidentally made Zhu'er cry, she immediately hurriedly glanced at Yang Yunxi, Yang Yunxi's heart suddenly felt sour, and then it hurt like a pinprick.
In Ashina's eyes, it was clear that he was afraid and flattering. If you don't know what Ah Shi asked Dun'er that day, maybe you will ignore the past. But now that she knew those words, she suddenly understood what kind of mood Ah Shi was in.
Ah Shi was afraid that she wouldn't like him because of such a trivial matter. When the time comes, it won't hurt him, and I don't want him.