Chu Xin still hadn't seen Xiao Zhi for several days this year, and when he heard that he was busy again, he just stayed in his yard and lived his own life, and the crying that day was treated as if it had never happened.

All the letters sent by Da Chu were put in the box, and when he was fine, he took them out and looked at them, but he didn't cry like he did that day.

It's like burying all those emotions in my heart, I don't want to think about it, I don't want to pay attention to outside things every day, I just want to stay in my own world.

I'm afraid that the more I hear, the more I see, the more cranky I will be, so I just close it up.

"His Royal Highness has been busy until the evening in the past few days, maybe there is really something very serious, Mrs. Fang don't think about it."

Dew whispered comfort, in fact, it has been almost a month and His Highness has not been here once, in the past, it was only once in five or six days at most, but now it has been so long.

"It's okay, he's busy with his own business, and he can't keep an eye on what's going on in the backyard all the time."

Chu Xin smiled and shook her head and didn't mind this, in fact, she didn't mind or didn't dare to mind, and she couldn't tell the difference.

"During this time, the princess has been sending some letters to Da Chu, I don't know why it takes so often to write something, and Mrs. Fang doesn't let us ask about things outside, I always feel a little bad premonition."

Mingyu looked worried, His Royal Highness had not come back for more than a month, and he was already very uneasy, and he heard that the princess often wrote letters to Da Chu frequently, and it was inevitable that something would happen.

"If the princess can help His Royal Highness, it will be a good thing, and we don't need to do much, just stay well."

Chu Xin shook his head and didn't want to ask any more, if he asked, what qualifications did he have?

The only one who can really stand by Chu Xin's side is Chu Yi, who is just a side concubine who can't be on the stage, and it's already the best if she doesn't have a lot to do.

Isn't it enough to teach you so many times in the past, and you must stick it forward and be humiliated again?

Dew Drop and Mingyu glanced at it helplessly, for more than a month, Chu Xin really only closed himself up, didn't want to ask anything, always stayed in the house by himself, and didn't even want to see Qianqian often.

That's not a good thing.

"If Your Highness doesn't come, can Mrs. Fang go to see Your Highness by herself?"

Mingyu said tentatively, that day she heard Chu Xin crying in the house, and knew that these things would hit her, but it was not a good thing to stay in her own yard all the time, and she still needed to see His Highness.

"I don't want to see him, every time I have to see him eight or nine times out of ten, I won't see him, and I will get a yin and yang weird humiliation, I know what my identity is, or don't want so many things."

Chu Xin smiled and shook her head, she didn't want to go out again, she didn't want to see those people again, she just wanted to escape, just think of herself as a coward, it was actually good to stay in her own house.

Xiao Zhi will come if he wants to come, forget it if he doesn't come, as long as he doesn't have so many expectations, he won't be sad.

In fact, these days, she always dreams, dreams when the chef is a princess, dreams when her mother is still there, dreams when she chats with Shu'er Ruoyun, that time is really happy!

At that time, I was in the blessing and didn't know the blessing, and I always thought that I should be happier after getting married, but I didn't expect that after the real experience, what I missed the most was the time when I was a princess.

No, she shouldn't think about this anymore, she shouldn't think about these messy things anymore, she can't help but regret it when she thinks about it too much, she shouldn't regret it.

"Ahem!"

Chu Xin covered his mouth and couldn't help coughing a few times, he always felt a little uncomfortable these days, and he felt dizzy and dizzy today, and he was not in the mood to do anything.

"Madame Side, is this sick?"

Mingyu looked worried, and it was still very cold at the moment, but it was not infected with the wind cold.

"I'll go to the kitchen and make some soup."

Dew Drop said to go, no matter what, the body is still important, as long as the body is raised, everything else is easy to say.

"I always feel dizzy today, I don't want to do anything and I don't want to say anything, after a while, the dew drops will put down the decoction, you all retreat, I just want to be alone."

Chu Xin held his forehead and waved his hand, telling Mingyu to step back, not wanting to say anything at the moment.

I just feel that all this is so boring, even if Xiao Zhi really hasn't been here for more than a month, I don't feel that there is anything, sometimes sitting by the window and looking at everything outside is so boring.

These lives are really different from what I once imagined!

After Lu Zhu sent the decoction over, he retreated, and noticed that Chu Xin seemed to have something on his mind, but it was not easy to say anything at the moment, so it was better to take care of his body first.

After Chu Xin drank the decoction, he felt warm all over his body, and he felt a little more comfortable, and he felt uncomfortable, as if he was uncomfortable at all.

I don't know what's wrong with me, but after receiving those replies more than a month ago, I feel as if everything has changed, and all the things that I used to deliberately suppress in my heart and not think about now all have emerged.

My mother wrote in the letter that she would regret it, because life was never what she imagined, in fact, what my mother said was right, she did have some regrets.

It's really bad to have a third person in your life, and it's not good at all.

It's like the shame of doing something wrong when I was a child and being found out by adults, and the deepest secret in my heart was written out by my mother, and I felt so ashamed that I didn't have the face to meet people.

Did the mother know about it?

…

Chu Shu really thought about it for a long time, and the queen mother urged her to do it again, the things in the Guogong Mansion are getting bigger and bigger, and the princess's life is like this, which really hurts the royal face.

The Queen Mother could only order her to persuade Chu Yan, no matter how her life was, she could no longer spread such a rumor that was not conducive to the royal face, and if she wanted to make trouble, she could only make trouble in her own house, and she must not spread it.

I have been thinking about it for a long time, and I decided to persuade it today, maybe my life is too happy, so I don't have those grievances in my heart, and I am willing to persuade Chu Yan with a good voice.

And in the Guogong Mansion, Chu Yan is still making things difficult for her as before, and every time she takes advantage of Gu Xiao's absence in the mansion, she will use all kinds of reasons to embarrass her.

Chu Yan thinks that she just wants to make everyone unhappy, why should she only let herself be miserable, if you want to suffer, you naturally want to make everyone suffer.

Li'er knelt on the ground, it was still cold, the ground was cold, and she felt that her knees were numb from the cold

can only secretly hope that the young master will come back soon, and only the young master can save himself every time.

Miss sometimes comes to help her, but more often she quarrels with the young lady, and she also understands the kindness of the young lady, so she doesn't dare to let the people around her tell the young lady, but only dare to wait for the young master to come back.

"It's been so long, you really don't have a long memory at all, when you were dead and wanted to stay in the house, did you think that your plan was successful, did you think that you could fly on the branches and become a phoenix?"

Chu Yan looked at it condescendingly, there was a lot more meanness between her eyebrows and eyes, and compared with the previous weakness, it really became different at all.

Li'er didn't dare to speak anymore just deliberately, knowing that the young lady was deliberately torturing herself, and she could only bear it, and the more she said anything, the more wrong it was.

It's also tortured enough, and the anger is gone, and it's fine.

Looking at her resigned appearance, Chu Yan felt a little satisfied, what is her own pain, she has to let people accompany her to be even more painful!

"Young lady, a distinguished guest is coming"

Futaba came in and said.

"Who?"

Chu Yan frowned.

"It's Mrs. Liu."

Chu Yan wanted to refuse, but this is the third time, if she refuses again, I'm afraid it won't be easy to say, and she knows that this is all the meaning of the palace.

"Let her come!"

Chu Yan waved her hand helplessly, knowing that everything in her family had been spread to the palace, and she also knew that this was the queen mother's intention.

But how to persuade it, no matter how much you persuade, the relationship with Gu Xiao can't go back to the original one at all, and it is impossible to reconcile, and you can't even respect each other.

I didn't even have a chance to see him every day, and Gu Xiao didn't want to come over at all, is there any difference between this and staying alone in an empty room?

When Chu Shu came in, she saw Li'er kneeling on the ground at a glance, and knew that she was Gu Xiao's concubine, but she didn't expect that someone who was once so gentle would have another woman.

"You're here to persuade me, aren't you?"

Chu Yan stretched out her hand and made a gesture of invitation, asking Chu Shu to sit opposite, and did not let Li'er go down, but still asked her to kneel here, just to let Chu Shu see clearly what the current situation was like.

"I don't want to persuade you, it has nothing to do with me, I came over because of the Queen Mother's intentions, and the Queen Mother doesn't want any foreign affairs in the Guogong Mansion to spread out, which will damage the royal face."

Chu Shu went straight to the point, but she was pitiful when she saw that poor child kneeling on the ground, the ground was cold, and after kneeling for a long time, she was afraid that her knees would be numb from the cold.

"I'm here, do you still want someone to kneel in front of me, let people get up, not to mention that if Gu Xiao comes back and knows that you are so embarrassed, the contradiction between you will only get deeper and deeper."

Chu Shu said helplessly, as soon as she came over today, she finally understood why there was such a deep contradiction between them.

is all present, Chu Yan can not shy away from torturing Li'er, wouldn't she go even more too far in private, in this case, how can the relationship between the two of them be good?

"You don't know how annoying she is, I just want to punish her, I just want to torture her, I just want to make her kneel in front of me, I feel a little better.

Sister, you have been happy for too many days, so you don't understand how uncomfortable I am at the moment, you are also a married person, if your husband has such a pretending slut by his side, can you swallow your anger! “

Chu Yan smiled and shook her head, she could only say that the fate of people and people is really different, when she thought that she would be happy immediately, it was just an empty joy.

But Chu Shu turned her head and got her own happiness, a man who married so well, looking at her face, she knew that this day must have been extremely good.

But what else does she have, what is left?

Every day when I wake up, I have endless resentment, always thinking about torturing others, to make others suffer the same pain as myself, so that I can feel better

"Didn't you choose this man yourself, didn't you just want to marry him after so much thought at the beginning, what's the point of making a fuss like this now? Even Her Majesty the Queen Mother knows about the trouble in the palace, do you know how much impact this will have on your reputation! ”

Chu Shu was a little angry, most unaccustomed to Chu Yan's appearance of a dead pig who was not afraid of boiling water, as if she didn't care, she felt that all this was not a big deal.

Gu Xiao, didn't this man Chu Yan want to snatch it herself, since he grabbed it in his hand, he couldn't live a good life, what was it like this?