The impact was also really pushing me to think about the future in the true sense of the word.

I don't really want to do anything, and I don't dare to dream or anything. If anything, I don't have a concept of what I want. If given the chance, I'm the kind of person who would most likely be willing to pay a huge price for a dream.

Now that I think about it, I have been pushing everything to the college entrance examination, and after being admitted to university, it is essentially an escape. In big cities, becoming a successful person is a kind of inverted cause and effect. I didn't go to the big city to be successful, on the contrary, because the future is unknown, and the big city life is so full of life, so I hope to go there and find out what I really want.

The attachment to Shibai may not be so pure. I was not only deeply attracted to her as a girl: whether it was a coquettish appearance, a cute appearance, a childish and positive side, and a lot of similarity and compatibility with me. But I am also definitely looking for answers in her—answers to what I want, or simply seeing her existence as my goal in life, moving forward.

Late January 19.

Due to the unprecedented report of make-up classes during the summer vacation, even the make-up class fanatics of Changchun No. 2 Middle School have also reined in and are scheduled to officially close on January 20.

Although the nightmare of the previous night began to dissipate with the "rays of sunlight in the morning" shining like a window in my heart, since then, my whole body has completely entered a state of relaxation. People and flies are necessarily different, flies will smash around without heads, but I stopped when I had no goal.

The final grades came out three days after the holiday, not only did I skip classes and I didn't study much at all, and the four subjects added up to only 540 points, but it didn't hurt for me. A book of winter vacation homework, mock questions, if in the past, I might have been trying to complete my school homework in a short period of time as planned, and then buy time to do mock problems.

At the moment I was lying on the couch watching a TV series.

Late January 19.

Due to the unprecedented report of make-up classes during the summer vacation, even the make-up class fanatics of Changchun No. 2 Middle School have also reined in and are scheduled to officially close on January 20.

Although the nightmare of the previous night broke the fog in my heart with "a ray of sunlight shining through the window in the morning", since then, my whole body has completely entered a state of relaxation. People and flies are necessarily different, flies will smash around without heads, but when I have no goal, I will stop completely.

The final grades came out three days after the holiday, not only did I skip classes and I didn't study much at all, but the four subjects added up to only 540 points, but it didn't hurt me. A book of winter vacation homework, mock questions, if in the past, I might have been trying to complete my school homework in a short period of time as planned, and then buy time to do mock problems. What is different now is that I am lying on the couch watching a TV series, and the brown glass background wall behind the TV reflects my lazy figure, which must be unbelievable if I were to see it in the past. After spending a morning on the sofa, I finally sat still, so I thought about picking up my phone and sending a message to ask Shibai about her situation.

It just so happened that the phone rang.

"What are you doing?"

"Video Messages"

sent a video to Shibai, and then I explained, "I didn't do anything, I was lying on the sofa and watching a TV series, what was "Coppertooth Iron Tooth Ji Lanlan""

"Huh? Are you a middle-aged uncle, I have the impression that only my mother's generation likes this very much. ”

"How could it be, I remember hanging bottles when I was a child, and a room full of children watched with relish. Compared to this, have you studied hard? ”

"No, because station P (b) is too easy to brush, and the video is too attractive (̄3 ̄)."

"Today is the third day of summer vacation, I'll look for you later."

"Ah, but it's just snowing outside."

"It's okay, wearing more clothes won't freeze you. (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و✧”

"Cut, you can't be considerate of girls?"

"You're only going to look at your phone for a day at home anyway. Hurry up and clean up, you don't want your brother to get frozen! ”

"Hahaha, what the hell. Are you really coming? ”

"It's not like it's not a matter of risking your life, so don't be cautious about making sure。。。。。。

"Good, good. Then you'll talk about it later. ”

Although the sun is not shining, the snow seems to make way for people to make a smooth path. The snow piled up on both sides released a colorful cold mist into the air, and the coat, which was slightly thicker than the temperature, made me feel extra warm. The natural snow in the green belt, which looks like a neat work of art, still catches my eye well, and I really get in touch with nature after three days of decadence at home.

Liu Qingyuan is the name of the Shibai family community. Although I didn't have a curfew, the master at the door still mechanically pressed the button and let me in. I slipped downstairs to Shibai's house with muscle memory.

made a phone call, and pretended to be natural and relaxed to play with the phone. To be honest, I don't understand why I feel anxious and nervous every time I wait for the place, and it's a bit of an overreaction when I'm just waiting for my sister.

After a while, she came down in a hurry Compared with the usual Ye Qing and the girls they mentioned when they go out very ink, I never have such troubles, Shibai only took five minutes from receiving the call to going out and taking the elevator down from the eighth floor, and even made me wonder if she was the type who could go out with her clothes on like me.

As time progressed, any person at the entrance of the stairway could make my heart beat faster than ever, and my heart beat continued from fast to high, then from high speed to fast again, and so on, until the "culprit" gently patted me on the shoulder with his hand.

I subconsciously examined what she was wearing. The down jacket and jeans are very simple, but when she opens her mouth, it will make me excited.

Gently raise your hand and stretch out your palm, and put two dates inside.

Before she could speak, I understood that this was one for me and one for myself. I couldn't help but laugh out loud.

"What are you laughing at?" She laughed inexplicably at me, too.

"It's nothing, I just feel like you're so stupid, and you're cute."

"Hmph. If you don't eat it, I'll eat it all. ”

I snatched it up, "How can it be, there is my sister's heat on it, and I want to swallow the jujube together." ”

"Oh, it's really perverted, isn't it stupid." As he spoke, he gently tapped my shoulder with his free hand.

Although I didn't feel hungry, Shibai was noisy ( ́□'. I was so hungry, so we simply solved it in the Luyue Square next to it

At Shibai's strong suggestion, we entered a shop called Wubao Porridge Shop. It is the type of food served by ordering.

Under the guidance of the clerk, we sat by the window, and I subconsciously sat opposite Shibai.

"You can see what you want to eat, I'm not hungry, just look at it." When I quickly threw the troublesome ordering work to Miss Kana, who looked happy on the other side, and was about to pull out her phone to look at the p(b) station, she patted the sofa with dissatisfaction, "Sit here." ”

That's right, it's tough, it can be said that you can't say anything, "You can also come and see something." ”

"I'm all...

She didn't speak, but continued to tap the couch.

"Good, good."

Sitting next to her is not like riding a bicycle with her, even if she herself says that she only wears some sunscreen in the summer, and doesn't even use anything in the winter, only the smell of shampoo and shower gel, and the fragrance still wafts to her nose. But the more thing I think about in my mind is that it's still not good to sit next to a girl, and the clerk will feel embarrassed when she sees it, obviously it's just a student getting close to a girl or something. It's weird, but it's inexplicably weird, and it's like being watched.

"What are you doing, forget it, I'll come. Why is it that sometimes there is an inexplicable lack of strings? ”

Seeing that I really didn't move, Shibai was so familiar with the road that he could tick the location of the pepper fish fillet on the menu without looking at it, "I'll tell you, this is super delicious, you can try it later." ”

I silently complained in my heart, who is missing a string, and aren't you super skilled, you have to ask me to come over and have a look. Got it, it's called politeness, isn't it?

14:30。

"Damn, how can you learn this time, hehehe."

"Hmph, we don't know, someone grinds and chirps, can't eat, and even comes out to rest and eats this kind of operation, you see your potential."

"Hmm, how do I know you can't eat so much. This is the end of the story,"

"What has come to this?" As soon as I asked, a white half-loose snowball was thrown at me.

"It's time to relax, it's only the third day of the holiday."

"Huh? You're not stupid. I also sneaked a handful of snow and threw it at Shibai unexpectedly.

Then it was completely rotten, the two of us wandered the streets, running and throwing snow, and I couldn't see a trace of the nervousness of the senior high school students at all, and I didn't even understand why the two of us were still stupidly carrying schoolbags since we came out to play.

17:00。

When I came back to my senses, I had already run to a high Shanghai street. It can be said that it is the earliest batch of shopping plazas built in Changzhou. Different from the large shopping plazas built later, one after the other, Shanghai Street is a small alley style, more precisely, a shopping street, the long winding path on both sides of the three-story shops next to each other, in the middle of the road there will be a mobile hut selling snacks, that is to say, walking on this path, the wallet is likely to be taken out of the pocket of the fate. There is a fork in the middle of the total length - surrounded by a fence, leaving a small opening to install an escalator, and taking down is the open-air underground food court, and the forked road gathers again after bypassing the food court, and finally leads to the typical collection mall building now.

"Okay, the poems are in vain, it seems that as long as you don't study, you will be energetic."

"Hey, hey, just now I saw a stall in the middle of the road selling octopus balls ( •̀ ω •́ )y," Shibai looked over expectantly, and suddenly changed the topic, "What the hell is Shibaibai, you are a rough man and you still stack words, oh." ”

"But I really didn't think of anything else that could express my overflowing love~"

In the face of my usual cheekiness, Shibai still replied perfunctorily, "Okay, good." She seemed to care more about the octopus balls than my "love", and looked at the stall with an expectant face.

As always, I don't and won't care about such a conversation, and say, "Well, let's go." ”

The proprietress packed 6 in a carton, and intimately reminded "It's hot, let the boy take it, the young man is not intimate enough." ”

Panicked and a little shy, I replied, "Oooh." And he took it.

Like trees, the stalls are located on the main road, and a chaotic side road stretches out from the main road, dividing the shops along the street into intermittent sections.

We walked towards the nearest branch road, a little distance away from the stall, "It's just, it's not intimate enough, young man, don't you still want to be a flower messenger" Shibai learned to speak to the proprietress and leaned over with a wicked smile.

"Well, well, I have learned, and I must take care of the princess more carefully in the future." I learned to be ashamed of the lines that I didn't know where to look, and "hit back" with a volume that only the two of us could hear.

"Goosebumps, shame."

"Hmph." (in a slump tone)

The cold wind collides with every inch of the old European-style side alley - decorative telephone booths, benches, floor tiles, decorative surface signs.

Shibai's white face glowed red after being kissed by the winter wind. I stepped upwind and covered her petite body with my body, and I was greeted by pity for my sister, who had always pretended to be strong.

"Open your mouth." When I was sad alone, Shibai handed the small balls to my mouth with a wooden skewer, "This is a reward for your thoughtfulness, so don't think about unhappy things, you have to be happy." ”

"Am I acting so obviously."

"Who knows."

Trying to avoid the gloomy atmosphere, I pretended to laugh "poof".

"Suddenly laughing."

"You eat octopus balls so deliciously, I suddenly feel that you will be a very good woman to deal with."

"Hmph, don't eat it."

I chuckled, "Okay, okay, it's all yours." ”

The night gradually fell, and Shibai was sent home.

"The exam is still four months away."

"Well, yes, you still know that the exam is coming that day, it's awesome." I mocked the past.

"I feel completely hopeless, I am admitted to the outside world, and so is my dream. I know very well, I have to work hard。。。。。。 Shibai's voice weakened as she spoke.

"Do you really want to go to Shanghai and become an idol?"

"Well, that's my last belief in life."

"Well~ Before you take the exam, you give up on yourself, and if you really give up completely, then you will definitely not be able to achieve anything, but if you don't give up your efforts, there will be a glimmer of hope."

"yes, let's take a look."

"It's good to have dreams, whether it's realistic or not, it's impossible, at least you know what you want, what you desire, and what you pursue. I don't understand what I want now. ”

"Then you should work hard and be my agent." Shibai joked with more seriousness in his expression.

"Seems pretty good."

But in my heart, I was never interested. At this moment, the only thing I care about is the integrity of this fragile crystal flower, even if my efforts can only work for a moment.