My best friend died because of Pei Yanchuan.

I licked him for five years and left him when he loved me the most.

He asked me with red eyes, "Cersei, why are you doing this to me?"

I stared at him, and Dan's lips lightly opened, "Because you killed the person I love the most."

1．

The smell of disinfectant water in the hospital mixed with the cold wind in the corridor rushed to the mouth and nose.

The results on the thin B-ultrasound sheet reminded me: I was pregnant again, and I was pregnant with Pei Yanchuan's child again on the eve of my wedding.

The two-month menstrual period of no news has actually given the answer, but I just need a definite result.

I dialed Pei Yanchuan's number.

His deep voice came from the earpiece, mixed with some hoarseness.

"Hey, Cersei, what's wrong? I'm still in the company, and I'll take you to eat delicious food when it's over. ”

"I'm pregnant." I spoke.

"Hmm... What? Cersei, you mean I'm going to be a dad! The surprise and excitement on the other end of the phone almost pierced the microphone.

"Where are you now? I'll come to you right away. Pei Yanchuan said.

"The First People's Hospital." I spoke.

"Okay, I'll come over right away, don't go around, I'll come right away." There was a lot of concern and concern in his tone.

After hanging up, I stood at the entrance of the hospital.

A gust of wind blew softly, blowing the corners of my white skirt.

2.

Actually, I don't like white, I started wearing white after I met Pei Yanchuan, and until today my wardrobe is full of white dresses.

I have known Pei Yanchuan for seven years, chased him for five years, and then spent two years with him to the point of talking about marriage.

When he first met Pei Yanchuan, he was still known as a prodigal son in the love field who had been in the midst of thousands of flowers and did not touch the leaves, which broke the hearts of countless girls who liked him, and even a girl committed suicide because of him.

At that time, I came to the city from a neighboring city in my senior year to look for an internship and joined the company founded by Pei Yanchuan.

The first time I saw him, the corners of his lips were hooked, and a pair of peach blossom eyes looked at me gently, and said, "You are the new little intern." Jiang Jinse, can I call you Cerse? ”

As he said this, he suddenly approached me, and the warm breath hit my ears.

My heart was beating so hard that I blushed and nodded.

That's when I started chasing him.

I straightened my curly brown hair and dyed them black. took off his favorite red dress and replaced it with Pei Yanchuan's favorite white dress.

worked hard to become Pei Yanchuan's favorite kind of innocent girl.

I worked hard, working overtime day and night every day to make plans, pull investment, and bring many new customers to the company.

I am always the one who can drink the most in the wine party, and in the wine party with me, Pei Yanchuan has never accompanied a glass of wine.

The reversal of day and night has caused me to rely on sleeping pills to sleep now, and uncontrolled drinking has left me with severe stomach problems.

But I finally gained a firm foothold in the company and let Pei Yanchuan see me.

Pei Yanchuan likes obedient girls, and I try to be that kind of girl.

I once gave condoms to Pei Yanchuan and other women at three o'clock in the morning, and that woman looked at me with contempt, but I was happy because Pei Yanchuan was looking at me.

I also waited in the wind and snow all night because of Pei Yanchuan's words, and when I learned that it was just a game between him and his friends, I smiled good-naturedly, took out the warm milk from my arms and handed it to him.

In this way, I accompanied Pei Yanchuan for five years, but in the past five years, he has never said that he likes me.

3.

In the past five years, I have also had a miscarriage for Pei Yanchuan.

It was a chaotic night.

I sent the drunk Pei Yanchuan home, and there was an inexplicable humidity in the air.

His reddened eyes stared straight at me, his quiet, dark pupils tumbling with desire, and something seemed to be fermenting in the air.

I don't know who took the initiative to kiss it first....

From that day on, Pei Yanchuan acquiesced in the ambiguous relationship between us.

It's just that Pei Yanchuan's brothers are still betting on how long I can stay with him.

After a while, I noticed that there was something abnormal in my body, and the pregnancy test was exactly what I thought.

However, before I could tell Pei Yanchuan about it, I had already lost this child.

The rival company hired a group of hooligans to make trouble because it lost to us in the business competition.

When I arrived at the company, Pei Yanchuan was already surrounded by a group of hooligans, I was afraid that he would be injured, so I tried to think of him beside him to protect him, but I happened to be pushed by the troublemaker.

When I fell to the ground, I clutched my stomach tightly, but I still felt my lower body getting wetter and wetter.

A timid female colleague exclaimed: "Ah! Jiang Jinse her, she bled out. ”

I felt that my body was getting colder and colder, and Pei Yanchuan's face began to change from clear to blurred.

Before I lost consciousness, I saw that Pei Yanchuan's eyes seemed to be very red, and his mouth opened and closed, as if he was shouting something, but I couldn't hear it anymore.

When I woke up, my stomach ached, but my mind was clear, and I knew that the child had left me.

Pei Yanchuan sat next to me and saw that I was awake, his lips pursed, and he looked sad.

I smiled and said, "It's okay, it's because I don't have a relationship with this kid." ”

Turning his head to look at the sunlight outside the window, it was a little dazzling.

"I'm ready to leave this city, I've been chasing you for five years, I'm a little tired."

I reached out to grab a ray of sunshine, but I couldn't.

Pei Yanchuan lowered his head, he couldn't see his expression clearly, but he just let out a low "um".

A week later, he stopped me at the airport.

I still remember Pei Yanchuan holding a handful of delicate roses and saying to me: "Cersei, I know that I have done a lot of foolish things and hurt you before, but from now on, I will never hurt you again, I will always love you alone." I can't imagine a life without you, forgive me, Cirze. ”

"Don't go, Cersei." He grabbed my hand, and the affection in his eyes almost overflowed.

He finally fell in love with me.

I agreed to stay and stayed with him for a long time.

And since then, there has been no one else around him, it seems that the prodigal Pei Yanchuan has been in his previous life.

He learned to cook for me, made me happy every day, paid attention to my subtle emotions all the time, and was obedient to me, becoming what others call "strict wife".

I became the person on the tip of Pei Yanchuan's heart.

And I became the winner of what others call "lick to the end, have everything".

Until this year, we were already talking about getting married.

We seem to have the happy ending in the story.

4.

Pei Yanchuan came quickly, and he only took ten minutes to travel for half an hour.

He got out of the car and walked briskly towards me, and I noticed that his peach blossom eyes were very red.

Pei Yanchuan stretched out his arms around me, and the smell of cedar on his body penetrated my nostrils.

He seemed to have cried wetness in his voice, and said softly: "Cersei, thank you, I have worked hard for you all these years, I will definitely love you and the baby well in the future." ”

I came out of his arms as if unintentionally, and said lightly: "I'm tired, go home." ”

Pei Yanchuan opened the car door for me intimately, adjusted the seat, and helped me into the car.

Just like how much he has cared for me in the past two years.

On the way home, Pei Yanchuan was telling me about the wedding.

"Cersei, I'll accompany you to try on the wedding dress tomorrow." Pei Yanchuan's eyes were bright, as if he had seen me standing in front of him in a wedding dress.

"I have something to do tomorrow." I opened my mouth lukewarmly.

"Okay, but we have to set the wedding date as soon as possible, otherwise when the baby is older, you won't be able to wear a wedding dress." Pei Yanchuan smiled at the corner of his mouth, turned his head and glanced at me gently.

"Let's talk about it." I turned my head to look at the scenery flashing outside the car window, and did not respond to Pei Yanchuan's eyes.

"Cersser, what's wrong with you today?" He frowned, confused.

"It's okay, it's just that I was checked up in the hospital today, so I'm a little tired." I lowered my eyelids and responded.

Pei Yanchuan nodded clearly: "You are pregnant now, you will definitely be tired, I will definitely accompany you for the next checkup, I am too busy today." ”

I didn't answer him, leaned back in my seat and pretended to sleep.

The atmosphere in the car was somewhat quiet.

I suddenly spoke: "I'm going to the cemetery tomorrow, Pei Yanchuan, you can send me there." ”

"Cemetery? What are you doing there? Pei Yanchuan wondered.

"Look at a friend." I replied.

Pei Yanchuan let out an "um" and didn't ask any more.

5.

When I woke up, Pei Yanchuan was no longer in bed, but his temperature was still lingering in the position next to me.

I opened the door and went out, the breakfast on the table was steaming, the sound of the hood in the kitchen was humming, and his busy figure seemed to be warm.

Hearing that I came out, Pei Yanchuan turned his head and smiled softly, the man who was more than one meter eight was wearing a pink apron, looking a little nondescript.

"Cersei, you're awake, go wash up, and eat breakfast." Pei Yanchuan said softly.

A large table of breakfast was all I liked to eat, and it was obviously prepared for a long time.

It's just that I didn't have much appetite, so I put down my chopsticks after a few bites.

After breakfast, Pei Yanchuan sent me to the cemetery, and he asked me if he needed to accompany me in.

I refused.

I don't think Hua Nian must be reluctant to see him.

There was a misty light rain in the sky, somewhat gloomy.

I didn't have an umbrella, I stood in front of a tomb with a big inscription on the tombstone "Tomb of Wen Huanian".

I quietly looked at the black-and-white photo on the tombstone, and the gentle smile of Wen Huanian in the photo.

6.

My parents died young, and my grandmother raised me alone.

The already poor family environment is even more shabby under the backdrop of a group of high school classmates.

While other children wore hundreds of pairs of brand-name shoes, I only had cloth shoes made by my grandmother.

For other children's hearty lunches, I can only use a bowl of free soup from the cafeteria to accompany the rice.

This also led to other children ostracizing and bullying me.

It was an ordinary afternoon, and I was dragged into the alley by the school thugs as usual, enduring their vicious language and constant slaps as usual.

But she appeared, like an angel.

She stood in front of me, shielding me from the vicious invective and merciless slaps.

Obviously, he was trembling.

Wen Huanian's father was the school's dean, and the gangsters didn't dare to do anything to her, so they scolded and left.

"Jiang Zhaodi, you wait for me, I'll see if you can hide behind Wen Huanian for the rest of your life." Before leaving, the group of thugs let go of the harsh words.

I didn't thank Wen Huanian, turned around and prepared to leave.

She grabbed my hand and said softly, "I'll take care of your wounds."

The warmth of Wen Huanian's palm penetrated through my skin, as if it could penetrate into my bones.

I lowered my head to look at the corners of her white dress, which was stained with mud and looked a little out of place.

She bought iodophor and cotton swabs and sat on the steps to treat my wounds.

Seeing the dense wounds on my arm, Wen Huanian's pupils shrank, and he said softly: "These are all beaten by them?"

I didn't answer, just nodded slightly.

I thought that after this good fortune, I would still be surrounded by endless abuse and beatings.

But Wen Huanian stopped me when we parted, "Jiang Jiang, will we go to school together and go home in the future?" She smiled at me with crooked eyebrows.

She called me "Jiang Jiang" and didn't call me "Jiang Zhaodi", as if she knew I didn't like the name.

Because my name means that my parents didn't expect me to be born, and I didn't come into this world correctly.

I looked back at her, the wind blowing her hair, and behind her was the glorious sunset.

Wen Huanian will never know that I was preparing to leave this world that day.

7.

Later, Wen Huanian and I became best friends. She was always there for me at all times.

Even when my grandmother died, Wen Huanian was with me.

That was the first time I had seen Wen Hua Nian so embarrassed, her always neat white dress was stained with a large amount of mud, her small white leather shoes had turned black, and her hair was messy.

But she didn't care at all, and rushed over to hug me: "I see that you have asked for leave, and I asked the head teacher to find out that your grandmother... It's okay, Jiang Jiang, I'm here to accompany you. ”

She took a leave of absence from school, changed buses several times, and walked a few kilometers to reach the small village where I was born.

Wen Huanian made a mess of himself in order to be able to accompany me when I was sad.

I didn't cry when my grandmother died, I didn't cry when I was dealing with the aftermath alone, and I didn't cry when I was at the wake in the middle of the night.

But the moment Wen Huanian hugged me, the moment I felt her body temperature, I couldn't hold back anymore, and cried: "Huanian, I don't have a grandmother anymore, I don't have a family anymore."

When I cried, she cried with me, snorting and tearing and saying, "It's okay, it's okay Jiangjiang, I'll be your family in the future."

She did stay with me and became my family, just as she promised.

Wen Huanian's parents were also very good to me and treated me as another daughter.

Uncle Wen is the dean of the school and asks me about my studies every day with a serious face.

Aunt Wen told me that girls should be more flamboyant and less introverted. She took me to do the styling and bought me a lot of bright clothes.

Later, even though Wen Huanian and I were not in the same university, we talked on the phone every day and saw each other every week. Most of them came to my city because she felt that the ticket was too expensive and was afraid of burdening me.

I thought I had a home too.

But my Hua Nian, who likes to wear white dresses and bend the corners of his lips and smile softly, left me forever in my junior year.

Leaping from a tall building, blood gushing and dyeing her white dress red.

I stretched out my hand and touched the photo of Hua Nian on the tombstone, and my fingertips seemed to be able to transmit the temperature that belonged to her.

"Hua Nian, I miss you." I whispered.