Perhaps feeling his brother's gaze, Ji Zixun put down his phone and looked up at him.

"Brother, do you have something on your mind?" He asked, glancing at the cigarette in his brother's hand and then at the ashtray.

The ashtray in his room was specially prepared for his brother because he did not averse to his brother's smoking.

He remembered that his brother lit a cigarette when he was playing with his mobile phone just now, and at the moment there was not a single cigarette butt in the ashtray, which made him feel strange.

Under normal circumstances, my brother has smoked a few cigarettes.

"I'm quitting." Ji Zikun spat out the smoke ring and stared at the milky white smoke rising from the cigarette butt, and the smoke swayed and dispersed in his sight.

Now he was inexplicably melancholy every time he smoked, and he tried to remember every second of the experience, and it was unbearable to think that a swallow and a spit could be a goodbye.

"That's a good thing, smoking is not good for your lungs." Ji Zixun smiled, but immediately apologized, because quitting smoking was not a thing to be happy about for his brother.

My brother likes nothing more than to smoke his mint cigarettes in the dewy coolness of the morning, which is a special enjoyment.

Ji Zikun took another puff of cigarette, slowly exhaled milky white smoke, and then looked around his brother's room.

There are few things, neat and clean, and there are bookshelves in the corners with a few thick books and some materials on them.

Unlike his room, there were a lot of things.

He was always on the lookout for signs, looking for something that would give him affection, a call from the universe to let him know that he had not been forgotten.

"Brother, then why do you suddenly want to quit smoking?"

"Because...... I fell in love with a girl, but she didn't like the smell of smoke. ”

At this time, the cigarette in Ji Zikun's hand had burned to the end. When the cigarette burns out, you have to let it go.

But he won't throw away the cigarette butt easily, and he will always smoke until his hands are hot, which is a pain that is easier than quitting smoking. He welcomes the pain – only when it hurts, it will be remembered.

"Brother, you are willing to quit smoking for her, it seems that you really like her."

Maybe Ji Zixun's words were just a declarative sentence and had no other meaning, but Ji Zikun thought of his previous love experience.

He has been in love many times, but each time it ended in nothing.

Every time he fell in love, he thought that he would love for a long time, but he just thought that after breaking up, he suddenly forgot all about the past.

But this time it was really different, he really liked her, and he longed to reach out to her and explore all aspects of her.

"Brother, come on, I heard that it's hard to quit smoking."

"Indeed." Ji Zikun dropped the ash bomb in the ashtray and shook his head lightly two or three times, "People who don't smoke will not know how difficult it is to quit smoking." ”

He slowed down his speech, as if to share something similar to disappointment with Ji Zixun, and then said: "The pain of quitting smoking is not only physical, but more importantly, psychological. ”

"Psychologically?"

"Yes, it's a very strange feeling to quit smoking, when you take the cigarette out of the cigarette case, you have an inexplicable urge to take a puff, so it's hard to quit."

"Brother, quitting smoking doesn't mean you will lose your mind, quitting smoking takes a process, you just need time," he said and paused again, "Think about the girl you like, you will definitely succeed." ”

"Yes, I'm confident that I can quit." Ji Zikun said, and then reluctantly threw away the cigarette butt.

"Jinnian, go to room 103."

"Is there anything the guest needs?"

"Gee, you'll know when you go." Mrs. Yang said with a mysterious face.

Yang Jinnian didn't ask any more, but from her mother's bright expression, she seemed to vaguely know what was going to happen next.

Entering the luxury room No. 103, she was greeted by many of her relatives. They sat on the couch and became excited when they saw her, and seemed to have an endless amount of things to say to her.

She looked around and politely greeted one by one: "Auntie, second aunt, second aunt, third aunt, aunt, hello." ”

"I haven't seen Jin Nian for so long, and she has become a beautiful big girl.

"yes, I don't know which kid will be cheaper in the future."

She didn't want to greet them, so she asked directly, "Do you have anything to do with me?" ”

Suddenly, the door opened and her mom walked in. "Jin Nian, why are you stunned, hurry up and sit down."

"Thank you for coming, I mainly want to talk about Jinnian's marriage today." Madame Yang sat down as she spoke, her joy overflowing, as if they were her elixir.

When Yang Jinnian heard this, he suddenly felt very sad, a sadness that the people in this room couldn't understand.

She really wanted them to leave, but in the end, she was also everyone's lady, and this kind of occasion naturally would not refute everyone's face. So she sat a little away from them, trying to isolate herself from them.

"Don't worry about it, Jin Nian is beautiful and capable, and the young man who pursues must not step through the threshold."

"Her aunt, don't you know, although there are many boys who pursue her, she has never been in love once."

"No, it won't." The crowd was a little surprised.

"So I'm very anxious as a mother, I hope Jin Nian can talk more about love in her early twenties, I think that no matter how the relationship ends, she can quickly become mature and sober, because as soon as you come up, you can meet a person you like, and the probability is more difficult than winning the lottery."

Saying that, Mrs. Yang sighed, "Seeing that she will be twenty-five years old this year, she has never been in love once, and if she doesn't talk about it, she will become an old girl." ”

"Mom, I said before, I have no plans to fall in love or get married, I want to live alone." Yang Jinnian's tone was helpless, and there was a deep sadness.

"What stupid things are you talking about, I'm here for your good, and I want to find you a good home."

Others also chimed in: "Yes, sooner or later, a woman will have to marry and have children, and this matter cannot be delayed." ”

"Twenty-four, I'm not too young, I have to get married quickly, the older a woman is, the harder it is to find."

"It's on the agenda, and by the time I'm twenty-five or sixteen years old, I already have two children."

These words seemed to weigh a thousand pounds, and they pressed towards Yang Jinnian like a mountain and a sea, making her a little breathless.

She muttered to herself: Why is everyone forcing me?

Whether or not to get married is obviously my own business, but they interfere too much in my affairs, but in turn make me unhappy.

Yang Jinnian didn't want her relatives to continue talking, she really wanted to make up an excuse to say that she already had a partner, but what was the point of doing so? Don't you just want to hear that? But this time I dodged it, what about next time?

"Jin Nian, say what type you like, let's help you find it."

Yang Jinnian's face was cold, and a rare complicated expression appeared in his eyes.

She even longs to blend in with the backdrop wall and not be noticed by anyone.

Seeing that her daughter didn't react, Mrs. Yang asked again: "Jin Nian, what type do you like, you can say it, everyone will help you." ”

"As I said, I'm not interested in it." After saying this sentence coldly, Yang Jinnian put on an indifferent attitude and didn't speak anymore.

But these words did not dampen the enthusiasm of the relatives, who were still warm-hearted.

"My son has a colleague who is handsome, and his family is in finance, he happens to be single, and he is worthy of Jinnian in all aspects, wait for the next time I will bring him to Jinnian to see."

"I also know a handsome guy, a company boss, who is very good at spoiling people."

"I know a young professor who is not wooden at all, but humorous and funny, and I think he is quite suitable for Jinnian."

"I also know one, a successful career ......"

Hearing what they said, Yang Jinnian heard the prejudice against women.

The world tells girls that only when you find a particularly good partner can you succeed in life, not what you want to develop personally.

No one tells girls that career is important, all they are told is that love is important. No one will tell a girl that as long as your career is good enough, your love will come naturally.

It's ridiculous that the end of a woman's life is to become an appendage to a man.

But they themselves suddenly don't realize that they are going to be kidnapped by such a concept.

She felt that as long as she didn't use what she had mastered to harm others, her self-awareness would improve.

The relatives were still talking word by word, Yang Jinnian could no longer suppress the anger in his heart, and said to everyone: "Can you stop talking about it?" I've said I'm not interested! Don't mess with mandarin ducks, you make fun of me, and I won't let you get off the stage! ”

"Jin Nian!" Mrs. Yang's eyes signaled her to restrain her temper, and at the same time laughed at her relatives, and the scene was embarrassing for a while.

"Don't be surprised, Jin Nian is this temper, don't take it to heart."

"We don't care, but we have to be gentle when we get married."

"Yes, men like to be gentle like water, and it's not good to be too strong."

Relatives were still talking about her, about things she wasn't interested in but was forced to do.

She wanted to cry, but she couldn't.

In her heart, no matter what kind of person others themselves are, as long as she doesn't impose her values on others and doesn't meddle in things, then he is a good person in her eyes.

She looked at her relatives, suddenly a little scared, as if she had been drained of her strength, and finally she said weakly: "I'm not feeling well, go out first." ”

"Jinnian, Jinnian..."Mom's cry didn't keep her, but her departure didn't dampen the enthusiasm of her relatives who wanted to introduce her to someone.

"Thank you for helping me with ideas, my daughter is not worried about getting married, but I am worried about being a mother."

"You're welcome, we'll bring someone next time we come, and let Jinnian pick it himself."

There was laughter from time to time in room 103, and they didn't know how broken Yang Jinnian's heart was at this moment.

A contradictory thought filled her heart, particularly contradictory, but lingering.

Her parents loved her very much and always loved her, but when they forced her to get married, there was a moment when she felt like they were just taking care of her and letting her do what everyone had to do.

It can also be said that no matter who their daughter is, they will make her what they want her to be, or conform to what a woman in modern society should be in the eyes of the public.

But...... Is that love?