CHAPTER IX
Li Tifu's junior high school career was complete but imperfect. Although Li Tifu's high school career was quite successful in the long run, and he was admitted to his ideal high school, it was not perfect for Li Tifu at that time, but it was very painful and boring.
In every semester of his junior high school career, he was among the top performers in every semester, and he was able to enter the top three in his class in every exam, thanks to Bahar's excellent family education and support for him in all aspects. Li Tifu also lived up to expectations and continued to develop his hobbies and interests in all aspects. It's just that this kind of education has brought Li Tifu a single aspect of development, rather than an all-round breakthrough. Li Tifu is a typical three-good student and three-good child, who studies hard and has good moral character. It's just that the mother neglected the most important point, play. Bahar Bar Li Tifu has been trained to be a very good student since he was a child, but he did not teach him how to play, how to deal with other children, how to make friends, and his father put his energy on work, so he neglected the education and companionship of Li Tifu, the courage and personal charm that boys need and the personal charm that is exclusive to boys, and the needs of men's unique character, how can they not have the excellent education and companionship of their fathers! Over time, Li Tifu always seemed out of place in front of other children, and he couldn't even join the group, so he was always alone, and he once thought that his life was only about working hard and working hard. In such a family environment, Li Tifu slowly grew up to be emotionally unrich, not good at expressing himself, not good at expressing emotions and what he thinks and hears, and behaves very unnaturally in terms of dealing with the world, let alone dealing with interpersonal relationships.
Li Tifu's impression of his father is only limited to the relationship between father and son, not in the emotion of father and son. Li Tifu only knew that his father's eyes only had work, not mother and son. This led to a gradual drift of father-son relationships and began to drift apart.
Every time the school arranges a parent-teacher meeting, Li Tifu hopes that his father can participate, how much he hopes to join hands with his father into the class and sit at his class table together, but many invitations cannot be exchanged for his father's participation. Li Tifu finally compromised, not with his father, but with himself.
It's not that Li Tifu is opposed to his mother's participation in his parent-teacher conference, but Li Tifu has no choice but to do so. I don't know when Li Tifu was targeted by his classmates, and I don't know why he became like this, and he always became the object of ridicule, belittling, and jokes from other classmates.
Many times of conversation between classmates and friction between words brought not how kind and kind Li Tifu was, but brought a not bright title "Niang". Even after many students saw that it was Li Tifu's mother who participated in the parent-teacher meetings again and again, they gave Li Tifu an unfriendly title of "giant baby". The meaning is also simple and clear, "I can't do without my mother when I grow so big."
Li Tifu dared to be angry but did not dare to speak. Li Tifu's personality is too weak. Li Tifu was afraid that he would be ridiculed by his classmates again. Li Tifu secretly decided to let his father attend his parent-teacher conference, so that they could see that I was not only a mother, but also a "giant baby" who could never live without my mother.
Li Tifu went to the bathroom after class, and when he went to the class, he saw that his desk was covered with ink. Tablecloths, books, and favorite notebooks. Li Tifu was very angry, but he still dared not speak out. Keep telling yourself that someone else is careless to cause this.
"What's wrong? Why is Li Tifu so careless! Ike next to Li Tifu said to Li Tifu in a particularly perfunctory and mocking tone.
Li Tifu especially wanted to speak, to ask who poured the ink on his most precious notebook. It's just that Li Tifu didn't dare to say it, for fear that if he did, he would have conflicts with other classmates, and he was afraid that he wouldn't be able to do it, and he would suffer in the end. The overly repressive lifestyle has brought great trauma to Li Tifu's spirit.
"Or did your mother not wash you?!" Ike was afraid to continue.
Hearing this, Li Tifu suddenly turned to look at Ike, staring at him deadly.
"Li Tifu, what kind of eyes are you! Like you're going to kill me? , can't you afford to make this joke? Ike was afraid.
When Li Tifu heard this, he silently recited in his heart, "Forget it!" He began to clean up his desk with his head down. Li Tifu understands that it is he who continues to resist and suffer, and he will label his head as "can't make jokes".
Ike was afraid that Li Tifu would ignore him, so he said, "Hey! Li Tifu, talking to you," Ahtamu finished and pointed with his fingers.
Li Tifu felt that he had been humiliated and wronged, and he didn't know where the crying came from, so he lay on the table and cried, crying with tears streaming down his face. Several boys next to him laughed, began to laugh at Li Tifu's weakness, and laughed and said, "I'm crying when I'm so old."
Ike was afraid that other classmates would start laughing too, so he said with a sad face as if he had been greatly wronged, "Oops! Who knew that he couldn't afford to joke so much, and if he knew that he was such a mother-in-law, he wouldn't be joking! ”。
Ike was afraid that he would not forget to say the last sentence after he finished speaking, "I'm sorry!" Li Tifu, it's me who is wrong."
It was better just now, but now Li Tifu is lying on the table like this, and he is even more ridiculed by his classmates. Li Tifu's original white shirt was lying on the table, and the white shirt was dyed black and white by ink. The sleeves are black above and white below. This incident gave other students a reason to laugh at Li Tifu even more.
"Have you ever seen a panda?" A classmate asked perfunctorily. "Why not! There's one in our class," another student said with a scoff. "Where!?" The student in front of him asked again. "Isn't this right here?! You can't even see such a unique panda." The classmates all laughed at Li Tifu. "Indeed, I really can't tell the difference between such a distinctive panda," the classmate who said this laughed loudly.
The classmates not only deliberately ridiculed Li Tifu, but also deliberately found fault from time to time. Sometimes Li Tifu wants to help, and wants to kindly teach his classmates some questions that they didn't understand in class. When the students saw Li Tifu, not only did they not appreciate it, but they would say the last sentence, "Xueba has taught me a question", one student would say this, and the other students would follow suit.
Li Tifu also thought about thinking about himself, and also thought that his classmates were just joking, in fact, his classmates liked him, and he also thought that he might really not be able to joke. Li Tifu began to cater to other students as much as possible not to think about themselves, to cater more to the classmates to laugh together, to cooperate more with the classmates' jokes.
Li Tifu slowly found that other students saw that he was so cooperative, and the jokes they made became more extreme and excessive.
Once, Li Tifu saw the boys in his class playing soccer on the playground. Li Tifu likes football and thinks that football is "a sport played by a man among men". Leetifo is a big fan of Liverpool FC in the English Premier League and a big fan of the legendary Steven Gerrard. On Liverpool's match day, Li Tifu will watch the live broadcast every time, even if he stays up late, he will not miss it. Li Tifu also dreams of going to Anfield, Liverpool's home stadium, to watch a game in the future! Li Tifu thought about playing football with his classmates, so he went to the playground. Who knew that before one of Li Tifu's feet stepped on the playground, he heard a classmate say, "Xueba is playing football with us, do you think we are qualified to play football with Xueba!? After that, the other students also followed that classmate and said a few words. Li Tifu was completely dead this time. That broken relationship, Li Tifu no longer wants to heal. The mentality that I should have wanted to have a good relationship with my classmates was completely shattered.
Li Tifu secretly swore in his heart, "Kill this impulsive heart, and from now on, whoever is good to me, I will be good to whomever I am." After that, Li Tifu rarely spoke, and when he had to, he said it briefly. The students will also find fault in Li Tifu's words, behaviors, and even sometimes his posture. It's not that Li Tifu doesn't want to quarrel with his classmates who deliberately find fault with him, but he doesn't dare. Li Tifu also quarreled with them several times, but Li Tifu's temper was another trick to find fault with his classmates. When Li Tifu loses his temper, they will say, "Oops! You see, Li Tifu will also lose his temper", or sometimes those classmates will be morally kidnapped and say, "Oops! Li Tifu, can't you afford to joke so much? ”。 In this way, Li Tifu was afraid that he would become the target of being targeted again, so he spoke even less. I don't want to deepen and maintain that broken classmate relationship. Li Tifu has allocated his time to improving himself and learning.