The 78th day of your departure

What I feared happened. Today Li Tifu said that he was going to have dinner with his classmates, and I couldn't give him the money he needed. Although I was smiling and talking to him the whole time, my heart really hurt.

Do you know?

I really can't help it.

You also know that I can't be in contact with water for a long time, I can't wash clothes by hand, and our semi-automatic washing machine is broken, but I don't want to fix it.

After washing the clothes, you still need to dry the clothes by yourself, and this washing machine is easy to hurt the body, sometimes the semi-automatic washing machine can not wash off the stubborn stains, and finally I can only wash it once by myself.

And when I'm in a hurry, I can't wear the laundry yet.

It's better to buy a fully automatic washing machine.

So after I got my salary for the month, I went and bought a fully automatic washing machine.

If I had known, I wouldn't have bought it yet.

When this kid asked me for money, I had already bought a fully automatic washing machine, and it was still the beginning of the month, so I didn't have to save some money, and you know, my remaining salary was far from enough for us to spend this month.

I was very angry and excited when I saw that this child didn't get the money, which made me extremely sad, and he should be disappointed in me!

You say, how much he hates me, and I can't satisfy even that little request.

And he ended up crying, and I saw it with my own eyes, and I watched this child cry in front of me, and it made me very sad.

I smiled at what he said to me, and what tone he spoke to me, and pretended not to care, and didn't care about him, but I felt very uncomfortable, and I just didn't express it.

There's nothing I can do!

Umar, this time I really can't do anything, alas!

As a parent, I can't even meet such a small request, I really don't deserve the title of "mother".

Before reading this notebook, Li Tifu had forgotten what he had said to his mother, and he had forgotten the scene of quarreling with his mother for such reasons, but after reading this page, Li Tifu had already remembered it, and remembered it all.

Li Tifu felt that he was very naïve, and actually hurt his mother for those inconsequential things, laughed at himself with a disdainful smile, and said to himself in a tone of contempt for himself

"I'm a son, huh!".

Li Tifu continued

"I seem to remember when I went to school, I was very sad and scared, I was afraid that my classmates would look down on me and say that I didn't keep my promises, and I didn't even look up when I entered the class that morning, and now it's really ridiculous and naïve to think about it, and I actually felt bad about it for two weeks.

For the sake of classmates, for the sake of inconsequential people, how naïve, how shameful.

Looking back now, my classmates did not belittle me or look down on me as I feared.

It's all the result of my thinking and thinking, and I haven't gotten rid of this bad problem until now, and this bad problem has brought a lot of inconvenience to my life.

I'm going to get rid of this, really.

I don't care about other people's feelings or what others think of me anymore, as long as I believe in something, I must stick to it, and I believe I can do it.

I'm sorry, Mother, it's your unproductive son who has done you so much harm, and I hope you can forgive me."

After Li Tifu finished speaking, he folded his hands and expressed his piety and sincerity.